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[The Paradoxical Phenomenon he/him]

Do you ever just wake up, and know today’s gonna suck?

Today sucks.

Life goes on, but I’m busy trying to get past every little mistake I’ve ever made.

I’m a little perfectionistic (if that’s a word), but not as much as some people.

Probably gonna delete this post.

Edited March 27, 2023 by TheAlpha929

[shortcake thr/eat ka/boom]

5 minutes ago, TheAlpha929 said:

Do you ever just wake up, and know today’s gonna suck?

Today sucks.

Life goes on, but I’m busy trying to get past every little mistake I’ve ever made.

I’m a little perfectionistic (if that’s a word), but not as much as some people.

Probably gonna delete this post.

yeah, that happens to me a lot

or like, you'll have one thing happen to you, and you just know that it's going to ruin the whole day

[The Paradoxical Phenomenon he/him]

More often, I pick on my little sister and she blows up and is mad the rest of the day. And it’s my fault. Every storming time. Why can’t I just figure out not to mess with her? I love her a ton but sometimes… she’s frustrating.

Edited March 27, 2023 by TheAlpha929
I screwed up some punctuation.

[The Wandering Wizard he/him]

4 minutes ago, TheAlpha929 said:

More often, I pick on my little sister and she blows up and is mad the rest of the day. And it’s my fault. Every storming time. Why can’t I just figure out not to mess with her? I love her a ton but sometimes… she’s frustrating.

It takes a lot of time and a lot of screwing up. But you can do it if you try. I haven't learned quite either yet. But you are a person and we love you. Hope that your day will improve

*Hugs*

[The Paradoxical Phenomenon he/him]

*Hugs back* thx y’all

[Wittles he/him]

I haven't gone on here in a while, but I've been having a real rough time lately. I don't even know why. I don't feel as suicidal though. just more of a passive dislike of existing. So I don't even know where to start. Everything just feels so hopeless. I wake up, go to school, go home, I screw up even trying to do homework, I can't focus because of ADHD(ugh, that just sounds like a stupid excuse) I can't focus on anything. I can't do anything. Then I just wake up and repeat it all again. The only reprieve I get is at night where I can just retreat into my private world. But that just leads to really unhealthy amounts of sleep. By that I mean I regularly stay up until three in the morning. I'm always tired during the day, no matter what. I can't focus on school, I can't even do school. Then there's my mom. I love her so much, but she is probably the cause of the majority of my self worth/anxiety/whatever the heck is wrong with me. I have no freedom. I don't know how accurate it is, but it feels like I have subconsciously developed some sort of thought process that my mom will just do things for me if I don't. She's more invested in my grades than I am. I want to get good grades and do well in school, I really do, but it doesn't feel like it's my initiative or motivation or whatever that is actually getting me to do things. It just feels like something my mom really wants for me, and won't let me do it my own way. I don't know how much of my failure to do anything is on me, but on the rare occasions I do get things done without her breathing down my neck, I am able to get things done. I'm just such a failure and disappointment. 

oh well, I guess my rant is over now

[shortcake thr/eat ka/boom]

3 hours ago, Wittles of Shinovar said:

I haven't gone on here in a while, but I've been having a real rough time lately. I don't even know why. I don't feel as suicidal though. just more of a passive dislike of existing. So I don't even know where to start. Everything just feels so hopeless. I wake up, go to school, go home, I screw up even trying to do homework, I can't focus because of ADHD(ugh, that just sounds like a stupid excuse) I can't focus on anything. I can't do anything. Then I just wake up and repeat it all again. The only reprieve I get is at night where I can just retreat into my private world. But that just leads to really unhealthy amounts of sleep. By that I mean I regularly stay up until three in the morning. I'm always tired during the day, no matter what. I can't focus on school, I can't even do school. Then there's my mom. I love her so much, but she is probably the cause of the majority of my self worth/anxiety/whatever the heck is wrong with me. I have no freedom. I don't know how accurate it is, but it feels like I have subconsciously developed some sort of thought process that my mom will just do things for me if I don't. She's more invested in my grades than I am. I want to get good grades and do well in school, I really do, but it doesn't feel like it's my initiative or motivation or whatever that is actually getting me to do things. It just feels like something my mom really wants for me, and won't let me do it my own way. I don't know how much of my failure to do anything is on me, but on the rare occasions I do get things done without her breathing down my neck, I am able to get things done. I'm just such a failure and disappointment. 

oh well, I guess my rant is over now

i can relate to you and how you feel with this. I'm not going to go into a huge amount of detail, but I'm actually of going through something very similar to your experience. Have you tried talking to your mother about how you feel? I know it's not going to change anything right away, but maybe if you talk to her about it, the two of you can work on discussing a compromise in the way you do things. keep in mind though, that things like this take time, and, if your mother is anything like my grandmother, she may not yet be willing to change for the possible betterment of you and your life. it's all just trial and error for me. my grandma and i tend to argue, so recently we've been trying something where if one of us (or both of us) gets upset/aggravated/irritated with another, we try and reset out attitude once we've calmed down, and then we apologize to each other, but in a way that is specific to that occasion and that is genuine. anyway, yea. that's my advice.

Also, I don't think I'm the only one when I say that I don't think your a failure /g*

Plus, you're an amazing artist, so don't give that up <3

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[Cinnamon]

8 hours ago, Wittles of Shinovar said:

I haven't gone on here in a while, but I've been having a real rough time lately. I don't even know why. I don't feel as suicidal though. just more of a passive dislike of existing. So I don't even know where to start. Everything just feels so hopeless. I wake up, go to school, go home, I screw up even trying to do homework, I can't focus because of ADHD(ugh, that just sounds like a stupid excuse) I can't focus on anything. I can't do anything. Then I just wake up and repeat it all again. The only reprieve I get is at night where I can just retreat into my private world. But that just leads to really unhealthy amounts of sleep. By that I mean I regularly stay up until three in the morning. I'm always tired during the day, no matter what. I can't focus on school, I can't even do school. Then there's my mom. I love her so much, but she is probably the cause of the majority of my self worth/anxiety/whatever the heck is wrong with me. I have no freedom. I don't know how accurate it is, but it feels like I have subconsciously developed some sort of thought process that my mom will just do things for me if I don't. She's more invested in my grades than I am. I want to get good grades and do well in school, I really do, but it doesn't feel like it's my initiative or motivation or whatever that is actually getting me to do things. It just feels like something my mom really wants for me, and won't let me do it my own way. I don't know how much of my failure to do anything is on me, but on the rare occasions I do get things done without her breathing down my neck, I am able to get things done. I'm just such a failure and disappointment. 

oh well, I guess my rant is over now

I’m not much good at advice but I can give you virtual hugs. *hugs*
———

So today some people came to my school to run a sort of chapel/concert/event thingy with fog machines and light displays and crazy loud speakers. It was … crazy. I tried to just chill while they were doing it but then they were like “woo let’s mosh” and I was like ‘argh panic attack, sensory overload, too many people I have a headache, I fell like I’m about to puke, help’ so… that was terrible and I’m really embarrassed because I was crying and I cried infront of all my friends and I didn’t even have a reason. It was just too overwhelming. Ughhh I’m just really frustrated at myself for getting upset. It doesn’t even make sense why I was upset. .-. Gahhhh

[The Wandering Wizard he/him]

12 hours ago, Wittles of Shinovar said:

I haven't gone on here in a while, but I've been having a real rough time lately. I don't even know why. I don't feel as suicidal though. just more of a passive dislike of existing. So I don't even know where to start. Everything just feels so hopeless. I wake up, go to school, go home, I screw up even trying to do homework, I can't focus because of ADHD(ugh, that just sounds like a stupid excuse) I can't focus on anything. I can't do anything. Then I just wake up and repeat it all again. The only reprieve I get is at night where I can just retreat into my private world. But that just leads to really unhealthy amounts of sleep. By that I mean I regularly stay up until three in the morning. I'm always tired during the day, no matter what. I can't focus on school, I can't even do school. Then there's my mom. I love her so much, but she is probably the cause of the majority of my self worth/anxiety/whatever the heck is wrong with me. I have no freedom. I don't know how accurate it is, but it feels like I have subconsciously developed some sort of thought process that my mom will just do things for me if I don't. She's more invested in my grades than I am. I want to get good grades and do well in school, I really do, but it doesn't feel like it's my initiative or motivation or whatever that is actually getting me to do things. It just feels like something my mom really wants for me, and won't let me do it my own way. I don't know how much of my failure to do anything is on me, but on the rare occasions I do get things done without her breathing down my neck, I am able to get things done. I'm just such a failure and disappointment. 

oh well, I guess my rant is over now

I feel you on the sleep front, because it's nice to be the only one around sometimes. 

You aren't a failure. We think you are amazing! *hugs*

3 hours ago, Cinnamon said:

So today some people came to my school to run a sort of chapel/concert/event thingy with fog machines and light displays and crazy loud speakers. It was … crazy. I tried to just chill while they were doing it but then they were like “woo let’s mosh” and I was like ‘argh panic attack, sensory overload, too many people I have a headache, I fell like I’m about to puke, help’ so… that was terrible and I’m really embarrassed because I was crying and I cried infront of all my friends and I didn’t even have a reason. It was just too overwhelming. Ughhh I’m just really frustrated at myself for getting upset. It doesn’t even make sense why I was upset. .-. Gahhhh

I've felt such feelings before with large groups of people. Sensory overloads are not fun. Just say you have to leave for a bit and try to go somewhere quiet and calm to just desensatize if you can.

[InfiniteInsanity she/her]

It feels like my body hates me for being anxious. I can't sit comfortably and no matter what I do my back is in constant pain and discomfort. And I'm so tense just in general that even if I could figure out how to fix that then it doesn't really do anything. And being tense makes me really tired. And I feel bad for getting so anxious all the time but I can't stop it. And I don't know how to make it any better. So I just have to let it run its course and hope it doesn't last for too long. 

Also to anyone else who's been having a rough time with anything recently I send you lots and lots of hugs.

[Immortal Platypus]

1 hour ago, InfiniteInsanity said:

It feels like my body hates me for being anxious. I can't sit comfortably and no matter what I do my back is in constant pain and discomfort. And I'm so tense just in general that even if I could figure out how to fix that then it doesn't really do anything. And being tense makes me really tired. And I feel bad for getting so anxious all the time but I can't stop it. And I don't know how to make it any better. So I just have to let it run its course and hope it doesn't last for too long. 

Also to anyone else who's been having a rough time with anything recently I send you lots and lots of hugs.

have you gotten it checked out by a doctor? I have scoliosis, and my neck and back usually hurt all the time. It could be that. I'd recommend getting it checked out, as the longer it goes, the more painful it will get (plus it'll take longer to fix).

[Telrao she/her]

23 hours ago, Cinnamon said:

I’m not much good at advice but I can give you virtual hugs. *hugs*
———

So today some people came to my school to run a sort of chapel/concert/event thingy with fog machines and light displays and crazy loud speakers. It was … crazy. I tried to just chill while they were doing it but then they were like “woo let’s mosh” and I was like ‘argh panic attack, sensory overload, too many people I have a headache, I fell like I’m about to puke, help’ so… that was terrible and I’m really embarrassed because I was crying and I cried infront of all my friends and I didn’t even have a reason. It was just too overwhelming. Ughhh I’m just really frustrated at myself for getting upset. It doesn’t even make sense why I was upset. .-. Gahhhh

Oh, mate, that sucks. I had basically the same experience when I went to Youth Unite - I was almost immediately overwhelmed by the people (SO MANY PEOPLE AHH) the loud music, just the aura was intimidating to me - despite it being a friendly atmosphere. I had to fight against my every instinct to run home, and was forbidden by an amiga to go and hide in a corner, despite the fact that I was on the verge of tears.

But you know what? It's okay to cry, it's okay to be upset, and it's okay to be overwhelmed. The problem comes when we let those emotions, those instances, control us and hold us underwater, and steal out joy. Whenever this happens, just breathe. Through the tears. Through the embarrassment. Through the fear. In, and out. In, and out. Just know that you are loved and valued - we love you, Cin! *hugs* I hope you had a better day today, and will have a better day tomorrow as well!

19 hours ago, InfiniteInsanity said:

It feels like my body hates me for being anxious. I can't sit comfortably and no matter what I do my back is in constant pain and discomfort. And I'm so tense just in general that even if I could figure out how to fix that then it doesn't really do anything. And being tense makes me really tired. And I feel bad for getting so anxious all the time but I can't stop it. And I don't know how to make it any better. So I just have to let it run its course and hope it doesn't last for too long. 

Ooft - that's no fun. *hugs* I hope you get better soon, amiga! Don't beat yourself up about being anxious - heaven knows, you're body is doing that for you!  You are a wonderful human, Insa - just remember to relax and breathe! 

And for anyone else who is having a bad day, know that you are loved and valued! *hugs* *throws muffins*

[Immortal Platypus]

7 hours ago, Telrao said:

Oh, mate, that sucks. I had basically the same experience when I went to Youth Unite - I was almost immediately overwhelmed by the people (SO MANY PEOPLE AHH) the loud music, just the aura was intimidating to me - despite it being a friendly atmosphere. I had to fight against my every instinct to run home, and was forbidden by an amiga to go and hide in a corner, despite the fact that I was on the verge of tears.

But you know what? It's okay to cry, it's okay to be upset, and it's okay to be overwhelmed. The problem comes when we let those emotions, those instances, control us and hold us underwater, and steal out joy. Whenever this happens, just breathe. Through the tears. Through the embarrassment. Through the fear. In, and out. In, and out. Just know that you are loved and valued - we love you, Cin! *hugs* I hope you had a better day today, and will have a better day tomorrow as well!

Ooft - that's no fun. *hugs* I hope you get better soon, amiga! Don't beat yourself up about being anxious - heaven knows, you're body is doing that for you!  You are a wonderful human, Insa - just remember to relax and breathe! 

And for anyone else who is having a bad day, know that you are loved and valued! *hugs* *throws muffins*

TELRAO!!! HOW DO YOU WORDS SO WELL??????

that is like, everything I wanted to say, but didn't know how to.

[Wittles he/him]

1 hour ago, Being of Cacophony said:

TELRAO!!! HOW DO YOU WORDS SO WELL??????

that is like, everything I wanted to say, but didn't know how to.

Agreed, words is hard

On 3/28/2023 at 5:26 AM, InfiniteInsanity said:

It feels like my body hates me for being anxious. I can't sit comfortably and no matter what I do my back is in constant pain and discomfort. And I'm so tense just in general that even if I could figure out how to fix that then it doesn't really do anything. And being tense makes me really tired. And I feel bad for getting so anxious all the time but I can't stop it. And I don't know how to make it any better. So I just have to let it run its course and hope it doesn't last for too long. 

Also to anyone else who's been having a rough time with anything recently I send you lots and lots of hugs.

I'm sorry to hear that. constant back pain no matter how severe is never good. *hugs*

On 3/28/2023 at 0:59 AM, Cinnamon said:

I’m not much good at advice but I can give you virtual hugs. *hugs*
———

So today some people came to my school to run a sort of chapel/concert/event thingy with fog machines and light displays and crazy loud speakers. It was … crazy. I tried to just chill while they were doing it but then they were like “woo let’s mosh” and I was like ‘argh panic attack, sensory overload, too many people I have a headache, I fell like I’m about to puke, help’ so… that was terrible and I’m really embarrassed because I was crying and I cried infront of all my friends and I didn’t even have a reason. It was just too overwhelming. Ughhh I’m just really frustrated at myself for getting upset. It doesn’t even make sense why I was upset. .-. Gahhhh

It's okay to just feel overwhelmed for no reason. sensory overload is quite unpleasant (putting it mildly) in the best of situations. *hugs*

[That1Cellist he/him]

I don't understand at all.

If I do things, I hate it or get really anxious and if I don't I feel unbearably guilty.

If I'm sad then I'm doing a bad job, I'm not fun to be around, I'm weak, I'm not good enough.

If I'm happy I'm merely distracted from existence.

It seems I'm just hurting people. They'd be happier if they didn't have to deal with me.

But I would really like to not be ignored, or maybe I'm payed a normal amount of attention and I just want more.

And I'm scared.

So scared.

Of everything. I fear the time, but maybe it is better that way. To be alone. Perhaps.

I don't want to be here.

It really isn't worth it.

 

[The Wandering Wizard he/him]

1 minute ago, That1Cellist said:

I don't understand at all.

If I do things, I hate it or get really anxious and if I don't I feel unbearably guilty.

If I'm sad then I'm doing a bad job, I'm not fun to be around, I'm weak, I'm not good enough.

If I'm happy I'm merely distracted from existence.

It seems I'm just hurting people. They'd be happier if they didn't have to deal with me.

But I would really like to not be ignored, or maybe I'm payed a normal amount of attention and I just want more.

And I'm scared.

So scared.

Of everything. I fear the time, but maybe it is better that way. To be alone. Perhaps.

I don't want to be here.

It really isn't worth it.

 

No, I am far happier for having known you. 

[InfiniteInsanity she/her]

17 minutes ago, That1Cellist said:

I don't understand at all.

If I do things, I hate it or get really anxious and if I don't I feel unbearably guilty.

If I'm sad then I'm doing a bad job, I'm not fun to be around, I'm weak, I'm not good enough.

If I'm happy I'm merely distracted from existence.

It seems I'm just hurting people. They'd be happier if they didn't have to deal with me.

But I would really like to not be ignored, or maybe I'm payed a normal amount of attention and I just want more.

And I'm scared.

So scared.

Of everything. I fear the time, but maybe it is better that way. To be alone. Perhaps.

I don't want to be here.

It really isn't worth it.

 

I agree with Wizard. I'm far happier having met you and then getting to meet you again. It has made my life a lot better. You make a lot of people happy when you're around.

[That1Cellist he/him]

14 minutes ago, The Wandering Wizard said:

No, I am far happier for having known you. 

 

Just now, InfiniteInsanity said:

I agree with Wizard. I'm far happier having met you and then getting to meet you again. It has made my life a lot better. You make a lot of people happy when you're around.

I don't want to be a fool.

I don't want to feel or be ugly.

I don't want to be so dirty.

I don't want to hurt.

I don't want to be invasive or annoying.

I don't want to feel or be ugly.

I don't want to be somehow less.

And yet I refuse to change for some reason, and that makes them all the more true.

In addition to everything I said before.

Thank you, I shouldn't be doing this. In posting again I prove myself the things I say.

I am very sorry.

[The Wandering Wizard he/him]

1 minute ago, That1Cellist said:

 

I don't want to be a fool.

I don't want to feel or be ugly.

I don't want to be so dirty.

I don't want to hurt.

I don't want to be invasive or annoying.

I don't want to feel or be ugly.

I don't want to be somehow less.

And yet I refuse to change for some reason, and that makes them all the more true.

In addition to everything I said before.

Thank you, I shouldn't be doing this. In posting again I prove myself the things I say.

I am very sorry.

No you don't prove yourself those things. And you are the opposite of all those things. Truly you are.

[InfiniteInsanity she/her]

5 minutes ago, That1Cellist said:

 

I don't want to be a fool.

I don't want to feel or be ugly.

I don't want to be so dirty.

I don't want to hurt.

I don't want to be invasive or annoying.

I don't want to feel or be ugly.

I don't want to be somehow less.

And yet I refuse to change for some reason, and that makes them all the more true.

In addition to everything I said before.

Thank you, I shouldn't be doing this. In posting again I prove myself the things I say.

I am very sorry.

I have felt things very similar to this before. I still struggle to change or ask for help and that's okay. Struggling is okay. It doesn't mean that everything you feel you are is right.

[Potato's Wit she/her]

41 minutes ago, That1Cellist said:

I don't want to be a fool.

I don't want to feel or be ugly.

I don't want to be so dirty.

I don't want to hurt.

I don't want to be invasive or annoying.

I don't want to feel or be ugly.

I don't want to be somehow less.

And yet I refuse to change for some reason, and that makes them all the more true.

In addition to everything I said before.

Thank you, I shouldn't be doing this. In posting again I prove myself the things I say.

I am very sorry.

You are none of the things you listed above. I wish I could help more, but I'm completely clueless when it comes to helpfulness with these kinds of things, so just know you're awesome! And smart! And not annoying!

[Quivil]

5 minutes ago, That1Cellist said:

I don't want to be a fool.

I don't want to feel or be ugly.

I don't want to be so dirty.

I don't want to hurt.

I don't want to be invasive or annoying.

I don't want to feel or be ugly.

I don't want to be somehow less.

And yet I refuse to change for some reason, and that makes them all the more true.

In addition to everything I said before.

Thank you, I shouldn't be doing this. In posting again I prove myself the things I say.

I am very sorry.

Change is hard.

Are these things you tell yourself about you? We're often far more critical about ourselves than we are about others. 

You're not a bad person, you're just still learning. You're not annoying, invasive, a fool, or lesser than others just because you make mistakes or ask for help.

You're brave. You're smart. You're persistent (you love cello, you're definitely persistent).

*hugs*

[Nathrangking he/him]

3 hours ago, That1Cellist said:

I don't understand at all.

If I do things, I hate it or get really anxious and if I don't I feel unbearably guilty.

If I'm sad then I'm doing a bad job, I'm not fun to be around, I'm weak, I'm not good enough.

If I'm happy I'm merely distracted from existence.

It seems I'm just hurting people. They'd be happier if they didn't have to deal with me.

But I would really like to not be ignored, or maybe I'm payed a normal amount of attention and I just want more.

And I'm scared.

So scared.

Of everything. I fear the time, but maybe it is better that way. To be alone. Perhaps.

I don't want to be here.

It really isn't worth it.

 

 

3 hours ago, That1Cellist said:

 

I don't want to be a fool.

I don't want to feel or be ugly.

I don't want to be so dirty.

I don't want to hurt.

I don't want to be invasive or annoying.

I don't want to feel or be ugly.

I don't want to be somehow less.

And yet I refuse to change for some reason, and that makes them all the more true.

In addition to everything I said before.

Thank you, I shouldn't be doing this. In posting again I prove myself the things I say.

I am very sorry.

Firstly, Cello *hugs*. It is easy enough to be hard on ourselves. I would say it is the easiest of tasks. What's hard is to realize who we truly are. You are not any of those things.

Your words sink deep as the depths of the frozen seas who rage and wrath boil without end. They call forth images of war from the furthest of realms. Cities laid bare and armies cast away into endless night. Light from a pinprick in the iron expanse shines as a torch at first hidden and yet so revealed at the same time.

You are awesome. It is no easy task to admit it. This however is the truth.

[Telrao she/her]

9 hours ago, That1Cellist said:

 

I don't want to be a fool.

I don't want to feel or be ugly.

I don't want to be so dirty.

I don't want to hurt.

I don't want to be invasive or annoying.

I don't want to feel or be ugly.

I don't want to be somehow less.

And yet I refuse to change for some reason, and that makes them all the more true.

In addition to everything I said before.

Thank you, I shouldn't be doing this. In posting again I prove myself the things I say.

I am very sorry.

You are not a fool.

You have a beautiful heart.

Your hands are clean.

Your soul is healing.

We are here to listen - and to love.

Don't listen to the doubt:

It is okay to be who you are - remain true to where you stand.

In addition to all you are more,

More than you could ever believe.

It is okay to reach out - we've got you, we're here.

And you do not need to be sorry *hugs*

We love you, Cellist!

[solarcat she/her]

Lol I know this is quite the dumbest thing likely posted on here, however someone told me I can't be interested in tornadoes when I was talking about them because they are associated with death. I tried to explain the science behind them is interesting, and I guess a fascination with them leads to improvements in storm spotting and therefore saving lives, but they didn't want to hear it :/

p.s. I just thought this was mildly annoying and funny (it wasn't enough to ruin my day lol)

Edited April 6, 2023 by solarcat