Mental health club!

[Usseewa]

12 hours ago, Shatter said:

I have none in the house. Mostly because I ate it all last time I was depressed.

loll rreal

i ate a whole thing once, in one sitting

 

sh

Spoiler

it's like self-harm

I get carried away and I

 

take my knife, go down this road, and,

Cuuuuut till I can't no more.

I got cuts and that's a fact, the urge is comin' back,

I got a Big Mac, ketchup red to match.

Slidin' 'cross my skin, yeah, it's can't get much worse,

I be in a frenzy, strayin' off my course, now

 

Ain't never stoppin' cuttin'

I ain't stoppin' cuttin'

Ain't never stoppin' cuttin'

I ain't stoppin' cuttin'

 

(Lol if you couldn't tell that was an OldTownRoad parody)

Also I'm fine rn don't worry, the happiness has returned 

And still clean for today

 

Edited May 13 by Usseewa

[Shatter He/Him]

Just now, Usseewa said:

loll rreal

i ate a whole thing once, in one sitting

it's like self-harm

you get carried away and you

 

take your knife, go down this road, and,

Cuuuuut till you can't no more.

I got cuts and that's a fact, the urge is comin' back,

I got a Big Mac, ketchup red to match.

Slidin' 'cross my skin, yeah, it's can't get much worse,

I be in a frenzy, strayin' off my course, now

 

Ain't never stoppin' cuttin'

I ain't stoppin' cuttin'

Ain't never stoppin' cuttin'

I ain't stoppin' cuttin'

 

(Lol if you couldn't tell that was an OldTownRoad parody)

Also I'm fine rn don't worry, the happiness has returned 

And still clean for today

holy.

I haven't listened to Old Town Road in like 6 years.

[Usseewa]

11 minutes ago, Shatter said:

holy.

I haven't listened to Old Town Road in like 6 years.

Idk when the last time i did was

Or if i ever lsitened to it in full

I remember learning about it way back in school

 

suddenly I'm hit with a wave of depression and existential depression and disconnect 

and sadness, longing, melancholy 

mourning the dead who do not exist 

Edited May 13 by Usseewa

[Shatter He/Him]

58 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

Idk when the last time i did was

Or if i ever lsitened to it in full

I remember learning about it way back in school

 

suddenly I'm hit with a wave of depression and existential depression and disconnect 

and sadness, longing, melancholy 

mourning the dead who do not exist 

*squiz*

[Usseewa]

why must it all be so hard?

life kinda sucks

and i don't know what to do

[Verdance he/him]

6 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

why must it all be so hard?

life kinda sucks

and i don't know what to do

Recommendation:

get some donuts and coffee

im willing to fund it via venmo if it undepresses you for five minutes 

Spoiler

 

[Rynturning_Light She/Her]

I wrote this last night when I couldn't sleep

Putting it here 'cause it's like a window into my mental health and I don't think I should put it in my writing thread

Might give it to my therapist today, I don't know yet

Spoiler

For the love of the few things left that can love me, just let it end. I want it to end. I want to give up. To stop trying to make something of my life. But I can’t. Because people push. They push and they push. Past where I snap, past where I break. Why won’t they stop? Why won’t they let me be. They won’t stop pushing.

The spiderweb of cracks they cause are patched with anger. It is that anger that meets their pushing. They don’t deserve to see what’s under this fractured layer. No one does. Not even me. I will end this, one way or another.

The little love that remains with me will not be much longer. I will not let it. I do not deserve it, and the people holding that love do not deserve to be hurt by me. I fear I will hurt them anyway, as I sever those ties. It is better this way. They can find someone to fill my spot. Someone better.

Yes, I belong in isolation. This thing that wears a mask of being belongs nowhere except by itself. I belong by myself.

I suppose I owe some thanks for their pushing. It has taught me to weave my lies pure. They will find no flaws in them now, as I will draw their attention away from the flaws. The false truths I give them will have to be enough, for I will not allow them to see more.

I take back my burdens now, however few I shared. I will bear them as I always have: alone. 

 

[ChipsAHoid He/Him]

On 5/12/2026 at 8:48 AM, NerdSandwich said:

Oh crud I summoned him didn't I 

Ok correction:

*holds up clarifying finger*

I'm not bothering you, you simply don't have that kinda time.

A million more friends than me at least lol.

CHIPS!!!

(this is where I would yell the full legal name (I love having that kinda privilege)

YOU AREN'T DOING HOMEWORK???!!!
YOU AREN'T WATCHING 7 HOUR VIDEOS FROM YOUR MATH TEACHER???!!!!!

Now that makes me not depressed
*happiness*

*steals liver*

...Well that is a very unique medley sounds fun
Now just add Bach, "Never Gonna Give You Up" (disruptive tonal shift), an aggressive commercial theme and you've got it!

Yeah consider me terrified

Although those are some good songs

I didn’t have any it was fine it was actually only like… 45 mins that day I think

 she only gives over 2.5 hours rarely

 for an academic class btw if any of yall were wondering

And I added Wellerman already

[#1 Taln Fan he/him]

This is probably relevant for a lot of folks in here, so I wanted to share a book rec that I just finished today and really loved. It's called Revealing, by Leslie John, and it talks about the various ways that oversharing is underrated, though also ways to gauge when and how to share info, and when not to share. Also some great insights on disclosure dilemmas(when you can't figure out if you should share or not share something with someone). Also has a really good chapter on how sharing is used to form deep friendships and relationships. (Spoiler alert: It's essential) Very good book.

https://www.amazon.com/Revealing-Underrated-Oversharing-Leslie-John/dp/0593545389

 

[Verdance he/him]

18 minutes ago, #1 Taln Fan said:

This is probably relevant for a lot of folks in here, so I wanted to share a book rec that I just finished today and really loved. It's called Revealing, by Leslie John, and it talks about the various ways that oversharing is underrated, though also ways to gauge when and how to share info, and when not to share. Also some great insights on disclosure dilemmas(when you can't figure out if you should share or not share something with someone). Also has a really good chapter on how sharing is used to form deep friendships and relationships. (Spoiler alert: It's essential) Very good book.

https://www.amazon.com/Revealing-Underrated-Oversharing-Leslie-John/dp/0593545389

 

Ya know I could use that if I weren’t broke

totally not about to try and pirate a pdf of it from the nalworks

[CoderDrag0n8 He/They]

1 hour ago, #1 Taln Fan said:

This is probably relevant for a lot of folks in here, so I wanted to share a book rec that I just finished today and really loved. It's called Revealing, by Leslie John, and it talks about the various ways that oversharing is underrated, though also ways to gauge when and how to share info, and when not to share. Also some great insights on disclosure dilemmas(when you can't figure out if you should share or not share something with someone). Also has a really good chapter on how sharing is used to form deep friendships and relationships. (Spoiler alert: It's essential) Very good book.

https://www.amazon.com/Revealing-Underrated-Oversharing-Leslie-John/dp/0593545389

 

Hmmm I'll look into it

1 hour ago, Verdance said:

Ya know I could use that if I weren’t broke

totally not about to try and pirate a pdf of it from the nalworks

The Library

[Shatter He/Him]

2 hours ago, Verdance said:

Ya know I could use that if I weren’t broke

totally not about to try and pirate a pdf of it from the nalworks

Ha. Nice reference.

Totally forgotten the place it's from but I remember the Nalworks

[Lotus Blossom she/her]

hey yall

its been a sec since ive last posted here

a classmate of mine took her life on friday

idk its been a lot

i really want to tell everyone here that life is too precious for this and you deserve better and there are so many people who love you even if at times it feels lonely out there

reach out please. doesn't have to be anything long or deep or serious but even just sending a  and getting a  back can be something. or it could also be starting a conversation thats long or deep or serious. please just know there is help waiting for you wherever you are. the world is so much better with you in it, and ik that sounds cliche but in situations where there are no more words left, thats all we can say

okay thats all

love you folks

[Shatter He/Him]

34 minutes ago, Lotus Blossom said:

hey yall

its been a sec since ive last posted here

a classmate of mine took her life on friday

idk its been a lot

i really want to tell everyone here that life is too precious for this and you deserve better and there are so many people who love you even if at times it feels lonely out there

reach out please. doesn't have to be anything long or deep or serious but even just sending a  and getting a  back can be something. or it could also be starting a conversation thats long or deep or serious. please just know there is help waiting for you wherever you are. the world is so much better with you in it, and ik that sounds cliche but in situations where there are no more words left, thats all we can say

okay thats all

love you folks

*hugs*

you good?

[Verdance he/him]

38 minutes ago, Lotus Blossom said:

hey yall

its been a sec since ive last posted here

a classmate of mine took her life on friday

idk its been a lot

i really want to tell everyone here that life is too precious for this and you deserve better and there are so many people who love you even if at times it feels lonely out there

reach out please. doesn't have to be anything long or deep or serious but even just sending a  and getting a  back can be something. or it could also be starting a conversation thats long or deep or serious. please just know there is help waiting for you wherever you are. the world is so much better with you in it, and ik that sounds cliche but in situations where there are no more words left, thats all we can say

okay thats all

love you folks

Did you know this person?

Are you yourself okay?

[Lotus Blossom she/her]

1 hour ago, Shatter said:

*hugs*

you good?

honestly

ive been better

1 hour ago, Verdance said:

Did you know this person?

Are you yourself okay?

i did know her

getting there!

[Shatter He/Him]

1 hour ago, Lotus Blossom said:

honestly

ive been better

i did know her

getting there!

*squiz*

[coldfuzion76 he/him]

Hey everybody. Thought I'd drop a line and introduce myself. I've been struggling with anxiety (especially social) and depression for most of my life. Grew up in a rural conservative area in the 90's, so mental health wasn't really a thing there other than maybe a little help from a general practitioner. Started my real mental health journey after an abusive marriage, and subsequent move to another state several years ago.

I've read Brandon for years, ever since he finished Wheel of Time for Robert Jordan, but it wasn't until the last year that I've really started to connect with the characters and all of their flaws in meaningful ways. I always enjoyed the books, but I guess I wasn't in a place where I could recognize what they're going through. I especially connect with Kaladin and Renarin in Stormlight. I'm very protective, but don't really take care of myself well enough, and I can relate what it's like to be alone in a crowded room. But as I re-listen to the books again, I'm finding new connections all the time. I feel like it's the first time I've really had this that I can recall.

I've never had much in the way of community, and I've even had to cut off most of my family at this point. It's just me and my partner. She had to cut off her family, too, and is from out of state and doesn't have any local friends, as she's disabled and isn't able to get out very much. 

I guess I'm just looking for someone with some common interests to talk to. My anxiety makes it really difficult to meet people, and even this took some working up to. 

[Ink and Embers Any pronouns]

16 hours ago, Lotus Blossom said:

honestly

ive been better

i did know her

getting there!

*hugs a lot*

 

2 hours ago, coldfuzion76 said:

Hey everybody. Thought I'd drop a line and introduce myself. I've been struggling with anxiety (especially social) and depression for most of my life. Grew up in a rural conservative area in the 90's, so mental health wasn't really a thing there other than maybe a little help from a general practitioner. Started my real mental health journey after an abusive marriage, and subsequent move to another state several years ago.

I've read Brandon for years, ever since he finished Wheel of Time for Robert Jordan, but it wasn't until the last year that I've really started to connect with the characters and all of their flaws in meaningful ways. I always enjoyed the books, but I guess I wasn't in a place where I could recognize what they're going through. I especially connect with Kaladin and Renarin in Stormlight. I'm very protective, but don't really take care of myself well enough, and I can relate what it's like to be alone in a crowded room. But as I re-listen to the books again, I'm finding new connections all the time. I feel like it's the first time I've really had this that I can recall.

I've never had much in the way of community, and I've even had to cut off most of my family at this point. It's just me and my partner. She had to cut off her family, too, and is from out of state and doesn't have any local friends, as she's disabled and isn't able to get out very much. 

I guess I'm just looking for someone with some common interests to talk to. My anxiety makes it really difficult to meet people, and even this took some working up to. 

Welcome! It's really nice to meet you. I hope the Shard can act as some connections for you!

[Keteᛕ He/Him/His]

Hey, it's me, dropping in because I'm not feeling that up to things recently. 

[Verdance he/him]

13 hours ago, coldfuzion76 said:

Hey everybody. Thought I'd drop a line and introduce myself. I've been struggling with anxiety (especially social) and depression for most of my life. Grew up in a rural conservative area in the 90's, so mental health wasn't really a thing there other than maybe a little help from a general practitioner. Started my real mental health journey after an abusive marriage, and subsequent move to another state several years ago.

I've read Brandon for years, ever since he finished Wheel of Time for Robert Jordan, but it wasn't until the last year that I've really started to connect with the characters and all of their flaws in meaningful ways. I always enjoyed the books, but I guess I wasn't in a place where I could recognize what they're going through. I especially connect with Kaladin and Renarin in Stormlight. I'm very protective, but don't really take care of myself well enough, and I can relate what it's like to be alone in a crowded room. But as I re-listen to the books again, I'm finding new connections all the time. I feel like it's the first time I've really had this that I can recall.

I've never had much in the way of community, and I've even had to cut off most of my family at this point. It's just me and my partner. She had to cut off her family, too, and is from out of state and doesn't have any local friends, as she's disabled and isn't able to get out very much. 

I guess I'm just looking for someone with some common interests to talk to. My anxiety makes it really difficult to meet people, and even this took some working up to. 

Nice to meet you! This is a judgement free space.

[coldfuzion76 he/him]

Thanks for the welcome you guys, I appreciate it!

Edited May 20 by coldfuzion76
wrong quote, removed

[Keteᛕ He/Him/His]

I feel like no one really understands me, you know?

They try and help me, but them not understanding even when I try to explain just has slowly made me give up on trying to explain myself. It just feels like they'll take the wrong message and try and help in the wrong way, and then I just feel so alone with my problems.

I feel like I should be able to get rid of these problems alone but I just can't. I just can't. And that just pushes me further down the rabbit hole I'm in, and when I look back I see myself in that rabbit hole but when I try I seem to forget and push myself further down without realizing. But that probably doesn't make sense to any of you, because it didn't doesn't for anyone else. And I seem to ask myself afterwards why I did that, but I don't know why, and it gets even worse when other people get upset with me and they ask me why, but I still don't know why, and that just strains relationships more and more until I am afraid they'll snap if I even talk to them.

But I lie and say that I'm fine to others because I want them to feel better about me, but I'm doing it so often it's turning that intent into lying to myself and telling myself that I'm OK when I'm not.

Edited May 20 by Through The Living Ketek

[Shatter He/Him]

35 minutes ago, Through The Living Ketek said:

I feel like no one really understands me, you know?

They try and help me, but them not understanding even when I try to explain just has slowly made me give up on trying to explain myself. It just feels like they'll take the wrong message and try and help in the wrong way, and then I just feel so alone with my problems.

I feel like I should be able to get rid of these problems alone but I just can't. I just can't. And that just pushes me further down the rabbit hole I'm in, and when I look back I see myself in that rabbit hole but when I try I seem to forget and push myself further down without realizing. But that probably doesn't make sense to any of you, because it didn't doesn't for anyone else. And I seem to ask myself afterwards why I did that, but I don't know why, and it gets even worse when other people get upset with me and they ask me why, but I still don't know why, and that just strains relationships more and more until I am afraid they'll snap if I even talk to them.

But I lie and say that I'm fine to others because I want them to feel better about me, but I'm doing it so often it's turning that intent into lying to myself and telling myself that I'm OK when I'm not.

This makes total sense to me. I have the same problem with lying and saying "I'm fine" to other people. I do not have a solution yet. Sorry. I will let you know if I figure it out.

Currently, I compartmentalize my problems so I can explain the relevant parts. Of course, other parts get in the way and confuse the person I'm talking to, so the answer they give may not be satisfactory. 

This is super natural with AuDHD, I guess.

I assume you have trouble explaining everything, and you don't have the words to do so?

[Keteᛕ He/Him/His]

Just now, Shatter said:

This makes total sense to me. I have the same problem with lying and saying "I'm fine" to other people. I do not have a solution yet. Sorry. I will let you know if I figure it out.

Currently, I compartmentalize my problems so I can explain the relevant parts. Of course, other parts get in the way and confuse the person I'm talking to, so the answer they give may not be satisfactory. 

This is super natural with AuDHD, I guess.

I assume you have trouble explaining everything, and you don't have the words to do so?

Yeah. 

I know what needs to be explained I just can't figure out how to convey it. 

I've tried over and over to compartmentalize and I just never figured it out. 

I just wish I could talk and talk and talk without being awkward and dissolving everything I say into nonsense. I can't get off tangents no matter how hard I try; hence the rabbit hole.