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    Some of the time I'd say Kaladin, sometimes Renarin. I really want to help people, sometimes to the detriment of myself like Kaladin tends to. But I also relate to the loneliness and isolationism that Renarin experiences due to his illness. I grew up a pretty nerdy kid in a rural area, so I was often left out of a lot of activities and such. It led to pretty bad social anxiety, so I've spent a lot of my life alone, and have never managed to have many friends.
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    The robots I work with get their program calls from binary coded decimal. I use something similar almost every day. Great idea!
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    It is somewhat validating. I just can't seem to get out of this rut. Bad things just keep happening, making me question if they'll or I'll ever get any better. The appointment went ok, I appreciate you asking. We've juggled some things around, and today my anxiety wasn't as bad. Had to work some overtime today, and it actually wasn't terrible, so I'm going to try and take that as the win that it is. I've started back at an old job that I had 10 years ago, and have a bit of a different perspective now, so maybe this time it will work out better. So far it has, and I'm trying to remain as positive as I can about it.
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    I vow to crush all the cinder blocks!
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    The last few years have been really hard. Got laid off from my dream job, couldn't find work for a while, so I moved back to my home state hoping it would be better. Soon after, we lost both of our dogs, one to cancer, the other was attacked three weeks later at a dog park. Plus the jobs haven't been any easier to get. I've had 4 in the last 3 years just trying to make ends meet, all while taking care of a disabled girlfriend. Hence the bankruptcy. I also had to let my truck and camper be repossessed. Most of my depression just feels so damn justified. It's hard to see past it, even though I know others have it worse.
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    Dang! I'm away for the afternoon, and Y'all had a big ol' time. Lol. I can be a spy. I mean, how hard can it be to sneak up on a cinder block?
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    I'm fairly tall, and I think with my graying dark hair and blue eyes, Dalinar would probably be my best fit as far as looks go. But I'd rather play Hoid. That may work, too, depending on what he looks like at the time. Lol.
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    So what source of investiture are they using? We have to know!
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    I completely read the subject of this thread as Mrs. Doubtfire. I'll ask my favorite question, if you could pair up any two Cosmere characters, maybe for their own book, who would they be? I usually use the example of Wayne and The Lopin. I figure that would be absolutely hilarious!
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    If only the emoji would stack like real bricks.
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    Yeah, ADHD, is one of the things I'm borderline on. They gave me some meds for that once, and it made my anxiety worse, as it seems like most of them seem to do for some reason. I've been at this for 20 years at this point off-and-on, I just really wish there was a better answer. You make a good point about telling my doctor everything. I was actually planning today to do just that. I have been better about not holding back, but today is probably the worst I've felt in months, so I really just want to lay it all out. I'm also in a fight with my bankruptcy lawyer (a rather one-sided one since I can never actually reach him), so that's not helping any. As for family and friends, those are pretty limited in my life right now. Things have just either pushed them away, or I've drawn myself away from them in some cases. I have one friend that's really helpful in some ways, but talking to him about things like this seems to make him uncomfortable. Same thing for my dad. I don't talk to the rest of my family. My mom thinks I need a lecture, not therapy. Her words, not mine. I don't like to burden my girlfriend with too much, but we do talk about most things. She's about all I have outside of this forum. And I know I'm too hard on myself, but I feel like I should have this figured out by this point in my life.
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    Hey everyone. I kinda feel like I'm interrupting a little. Been away for a little bit, but I just need to say this I think. I started on this forum when I was feeling kinda better and hoped to be of more help here. But my meds have been messing with me pretty bad. I had been feeling better, or thought I was, then my anxiety starting coming back and now has surpassed what it ever was to begin with with. Luckily I see my doc today. Hopefully we can find out a solution. I feel like I've been on so many now, I can't believe any more are left. I'm not even sure what's me and what's the medicine at this point. I don't feel like I even know what's actually the problem. According to several different doctors, I'm like borderline for all kinds of stuff, but nothing definitive other than depression and anxiety. Makes it feel like a generic diagnosis, even though I think that's still enough on it's own. This week has been the first time in a little while that I wanted nothing more than just to give up. Just pack my things, get my girlfriend, then drive into the woods and disappear. I'm no outdoorsman, I'd definitely cry the first time I had to kill anything at all to survive, so that probably isn't a great idea. Still seems better than the alternative of sitting at work trembling and fidgeting because I can't sit still. How does everyone deal with these changes? The constant up and down?
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    This brick day, I present.... THE MOST DANGEROUS BRICK
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    I know with the internet being the crazy place that it is that a lot of people probably don't want to provide an exact location, I definetly get that. BUT.... I was wondering if anyone would be interested in starting local reading and/or rpg groups? I find I don't run across as many worldhoppers in my neck of the woods (at least that I know of!) and was thinking it might be fun if we had some groups separated by country/state/locality, whatever is appropriate for the area so that we might meet in person and share our love of the Cosmere. For me personally, I'd love to try the Cosmere RPG, but I've never played a table top RPG and would like to learn. I just don't know anyone around my admittedly rural area.
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    Congrats!
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    Brickety-brick, oh, brickety-brick!
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    Friend of mine suggested an old song we used to listen to alot back in the day. Figured I'd share! Every Time I Die - The New Black I'm usually a little more hard core, been a metalhead since the transition from hair bands to grunge, think Metallica Black album timing. Been a big fan of Slipknow and Lamb of God over the years. I've probably seen Slipknot live about 5 or 6 times. BUT, I've lately also been listening to metal covers of pop songs and have really been having fun with it. Halocene, Frog Leap Studios being the top of the list. Just something different for a change.
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    Ooooh, I like those! Definitely didn't think of Vin and Lift! I just got done with listen-through #2 of Warbreaker, it really would be cool to see Vasher and Ishar talk, I think it would be enlightening for us all! Sazed and Yasnah, too, that would be an epic, but respectful battle!
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    We're in about the same position reading-wise in the Cosmere, I also need Tress of the Emerald Sea to be complete, just waiting on my library to get a copy. (I'll buy one eventually, but money's tight) That being said, I've been asking everyone, if you could bring any two characters together from any of the books, who would they be? No limitations in time/space/Investiture, Super Smash Bros style. My example is Wayne and The Lopen. Those two together would be hilarious!
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    I'd love to see Wayne and The Lopen together! I was just posting about that on someone else's introduction. If you could have a story with any two Cosmere characters, ignoring time/space/all that nonsense, Super Smash Bros style, who would they be?
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    What character duos would you like to see in some unlimited universe where anything was possible? I was listening to Dawnshard over the weekend, and I thought about how much fun it would be to see Wayne and The Lopen together for example. There's several others I've thought about, too, but I'll let someone else answer!
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    Bricks are beautiful! Here's some pretty bricks with garnish!
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    I think I'm ready. I've talked with Zo'rah, and she agrees. In order to be able to help others, I first need to help myself. It's the reason I found this forum to begin with, my first post was in the mental health forum. I want to be able to give back as well. So my first words as a Truthrunner are these: I will seek my personal Truth so that I may help others.
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    Lol, I just searched for brick damage and images, and that popped up. And Hi! yeah, I just signed up a couple of days ago. Nice to meet you!
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