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1 hour ago, strmblsd said:

ok I'm sorry for the double post but.

ok Im in one of my classes and I tell my best friend hey you should go to this region dance this weekend and he is like no no I don't want to I keep bugging him about it but then he says because I'm going to "Doug"s dance(not using the persons real name.) 

but oh of course all my friends don't tell me about it of course that's how it is that's how it always is. it annoys me so much. I just want to be part of the group but no even my best friend is going to the other one even he doesn't tell me. its just I am so tired of being alone.  I just want to be a part of stuff

does this sound crazy am I crazy its just I'm sorta done with everything this type of stuff happens all the time and I don't know what to do. please give me advice or anything and please ask questions.

*hugs*

Do you know anyone who's going to the dance you're going to?

Posted
15 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*hugs*

Do you know anyone who's going to the dance you're going to?

I invited a girl but I'm not sure if she will go. but other than that I don't know

Posted
7 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

Anyone from any of your classes or clubs?

nope not that I know of.

Posted

Take the chance to make some new friends. If that girl comes dance with her and get to know her. If not, dance with someone else. Be polite first and foremost and then be yourself.

Don't give up and remember, we're your friends too.

  • 2 weeks later...
Posted (edited)

*deep breath*

Spoiler

Reasons why tommorrow is going to be the most stressful day eveeeer akdjla;ksdjflkasdjfl:

-My sister is coming to stay, and she's going to stay for an entire month. This alone will be hectic, but she's bringing my 15 month old niece with her. It's . . . going to be a lot, and the house will be busier and I'll have less privacy in my room, and I'm trying not to think about it that hard.

-school. yeah.

-I have a meeting with my Bishop tomorrow, just normal stuff but I always get hyper-nervous about this sort of thing because I don't like direct attention. Idk, it's complicated.

-Young womens is also tomorrow (about an hour after my meeting with my bishop). My mom told me it's something formal and we have to dress up, and that the missionaries will be in charge of it. Once again, anxiety ick, people ick I can't handle anything because I'm a coward ick.

-I have a bunch of assignments due on Wednesday that need be done either tonight or tomorrow. Hopefully tonight, realistically tomorrow.

mkay I should go eat something it will make me feel better I know

Edited by J. Magi
Posted
15 minutes ago, J. Magi said:

*deep breath*

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Reasons why tommorrow is going to be the most stressful day eveeeer akdjla;ksdjflkasdjfl:

-My sister is coming to stay, and she's going to stay for an entire month. This alone will be hectic, but she's bringing my 15 month old niece with her. It's . . . going to be a lot, and the house will be busier and I'll have less privacy in my room, and I'm trying not to think about it that hard.

-school. yeah.

-I have a meeting with my Bishop tomorrow, just normal stuff but I always get hyper-nervous about it because I have a lot anxiety surrounding church related things and this is one of the biggest one. 

-Young womens is also tomorrow (about an hour after my meeting with my bishop). My mom told me it's something formal and we have to dress up, and that the missionaries will be in charge of it. Once again, anxiety ick, people ick I can't handle anything because I'm a coward ick.

-I have a bunch of assignments due on Wednesday that need be done either tonight or tomorrow. Hopefully tonight, realistically tomorrow.

mkay I should go eat something it will make me feel better I know

*hugs*

I'm sorry, JM! Good luck with all the things! 😬

Posted
4 hours ago, J. Magi said:

*deep breath*

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Reasons why tommorrow is going to be the most stressful day eveeeer akdjla;ksdjflkasdjfl:

-My sister is coming to stay, and she's going to stay for an entire month. This alone will be hectic, but she's bringing my 15 month old niece with her. It's . . . going to be a lot, and the house will be busier and I'll have less privacy in my room, and I'm trying not to think about it that hard.

-school. yeah.

-I have a meeting with my Bishop tomorrow, just normal stuff but I always get hyper-nervous about this sort of thing because I don't like direct attention. Idk, it's complicated.

-Young womens is also tomorrow (about an hour after my meeting with my bishop). My mom told me it's something formal and we have to dress up, and that the missionaries will be in charge of it. Once again, anxiety ick, people ick I can't handle anything because I'm a coward ick.

-I have a bunch of assignments due on Wednesday that need be done either tonight or tomorrow. Hopefully tonight, realistically tomorrow.

mkay I should go eat something it will make me feel better I know

...Wow, that's a lot.

Wish you all the best for that! I know you can do it!

*huuuuugs*

  • 3 weeks later...
Posted

Alright, it's been a minute since I've been in here, but I can't seem to keep my foolish feelings to myself.

So, here I go.

Spoiler

I have come to the conclusion that I am replaceable. Completely and utterly so. My existence, therefore, tends to lack meaning because I possess so little value. If you can simply swap me out with somebody else, then what's the point of being me? Very little, in my estimation. And, in my view, the aspect of my existence that gives it the most value is the people around me. But, if I have little meaning, and the people around me are the most important parts of my existence, then why wouldn't I simply be replaced? There is no reason to not simply swap me out for someone else. If the meaning of my existence is defined by those around me, and I am replaced, then what is the point of trying? When I am replaced, my life loses all meaning that it could have, which means that there is little reason for continued effort. Why do I try? Why do I care? What's the point?

Ha. I think I sound more and more like a madman as time goes on. I'm sure those of you who are familiar with me know the things I say tend to not make sense.

Posted
6 minutes ago, That1Cellist said:

Alright, it's been a minute since I've been in here, but I can't seem to keep my foolish feelings to myself.

So, here I go.

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I have come to the conclusion that I am replaceable. Completely and utterly so. My existence, therefore, tends to lack meaning because I possess so little value. If you can simply swap me out with somebody else, then what's the point of being me? Very little, in my estimation. And, in my view, the aspect of my existence that gives it the most value is the people around me. But, if I have little meaning, and the people around me are the most important parts of my existence, then why wouldn't I simply be replaced? There is no reason to not simply swap me out for someone else. If the meaning of my existence is defined by those around me, and I am replaced, then what is the point of trying? When I am replaced, my life loses all meaning that it could have, which means that there is little reason for continued effort. Why do I try? Why do I care? What's the point?

Ha. I think I sound more and more like a madman as time goes on. I'm sure those of you who are familiar with me know the things I say tend to not make sense.

*hugs very many*

You are absolutely not replaceable. I'll extrapolate. But my point is that nobody is you, and nobody will ever be as good as you. You're an incredible and amazing and completely irreplaceable person, Cellist. I promise. 

You don't sound like a madman. You've put into words a vague fear I have too. You tend to do that. 

Posted
22 minutes ago, That1Cellist said:

Alright, it's been a minute since I've been in here, but I can't seem to keep my foolish feelings to myself.

So, here I go.

  Reveal hidden contents

I have come to the conclusion that I am replaceable. Completely and utterly so. My existence, therefore, tends to lack meaning because I possess so little value. If you can simply swap me out with somebody else, then what's the point of being me? Very little, in my estimation. And, in my view, the aspect of my existence that gives it the most value is the people around me. But, if I have little meaning, and the people around me are the most important parts of my existence, then why wouldn't I simply be replaced? There is no reason to not simply swap me out for someone else. If the meaning of my existence is defined by those around me, and I am replaced, then what is the point of trying? When I am replaced, my life loses all meaning that it could have, which means that there is little reason for continued effort. Why do I try? Why do I care? What's the point?

Ha. I think I sound more and more like a madman as time goes on. I'm sure those of you who are familiar with me know the things I say tend to not make sense.

*hugs*

No one is truly replaceable, my guy.

*more hugs*

Posted
On 10/17/2024 at 11:12 PM, That1Cellist said:

Alright, it's been a minute since I've been in here, but I can't seem to keep my foolish feelings to myself.

So, here I go.

  Reveal hidden contents

I have come to the conclusion that I am replaceable. Completely and utterly so. My existence, therefore, tends to lack meaning because I possess so little value. If you can simply swap me out with somebody else, then what's the point of being me? Very little, in my estimation. And, in my view, the aspect of my existence that gives it the most value is the people around me. But, if I have little meaning, and the people around me are the most important parts of my existence, then why wouldn't I simply be replaced? There is no reason to not simply swap me out for someone else. If the meaning of my existence is defined by those around me, and I am replaced, then what is the point of trying? When I am replaced, my life loses all meaning that it could have, which means that there is little reason for continued effort. Why do I try? Why do I care? What's the point?

Ha. I think I sound more and more like a madman as time goes on. I'm sure those of you who are familiar with me know the things I say tend to not make sense.

Dude. Imma rant bout this because I at times get a similar insecurity, and I can’t rant rant about myself, that’s narcissistic.

Spoiler

In the world today, there is not nearly as much creativity and uniqueness required for the workforce has waaaaaaay gone down. There are not nearly as many chances to use one’s uniqueness in this world as there are in the times when the primarily esteemed position was an artisan job, when each product was made separately, differently, and with care. Your statement here, through, that your words often don’t make sense, is a testament to the fact that your logic is yours. Not to say it’s confusing, but rather to say that the very fact that you connect ideas and present them differently is a sign of your uniqueness. And also, you read Sanderson. The type of person to read Sanderson is not the type to follow mindlessly society and be a clone to dozens of other people. Rather, they read Sanderson because they appreciate a good idea, and the uniqueness. And lastly, you care about being unique. You don’t want to be a run of the mill person, and that sets you apart. Solely your effort to do this makes you more unique.

I had a sadness, but writing that made me forget what it was.

Posted
7 minutes ago, SpiritOfWrath said:

Dude. Imma rant bout this because I at times get a similar insecurity, and I can’t rant rant about myself, that’s narcissistic.

  Reveal hidden contents

In the world today, there is not nearly as much creativity and uniqueness required for the workforce has waaaaaaay gone down. There are not nearly as many chances to use one’s uniqueness in this world as there are in the times when the primarily esteemed position was an artisan job, when each product was made separately, differently, and with care. Your statement here, through, that your words often don’t make sense, is a testament to the fact that your logic is yours. Not to say it’s confusing, but rather to say that the very fact that you connect ideas and present them differently is a sign of your uniqueness. And also, you read Sanderson. The type of person to read Sanderson is not the type to follow mindlessly society and be a clone to dozens of other people. Rather, they read Sanderson because they appreciate a good idea, and the uniqueness. And lastly, you care about being unique. You don’t want to be a run of the mill person, and that sets you apart. Solely your effort to do this makes you more unique.

I had a sadness, but writing that made me forget what it was.

Regardless if you wanted to talk about yourself or not, I'm still giving you a hug.

*hug*

Posted
13 minutes ago, SpiritOfWrath said:

Dude. Imma rant bout this because I at times get a similar insecurity, and I can’t rant rant about myself, that’s narcissistic.

  Reveal hidden contents

In the world today, there is not nearly as much creativity and uniqueness required for the workforce has waaaaaaay gone down. There are not nearly as many chances to use one’s uniqueness in this world as there are in the times when the primarily esteemed position was an artisan job, when each product was made separately, differently, and with care. Your statement here, through, that your words often don’t make sense, is a testament to the fact that your logic is yours. Not to say it’s confusing, but rather to say that the very fact that you connect ideas and present them differently is a sign of your uniqueness. And also, you read Sanderson. The type of person to read Sanderson is not the type to follow mindlessly society and be a clone to dozens of other people. Rather, they read Sanderson because they appreciate a good idea, and the uniqueness. And lastly, you care about being unique. You don’t want to be a run of the mill person, and that sets you apart. Solely your effort to do this makes you more unique.

I had a sadness, but writing that made me forget what it was.

*hug*

I hope you don’t remember soon. And I hope it resolves itself. 

*offere magic food*

Posted

Oh! I remembered what it was.

Spoiler

I… I don’t like being smart. Whenever I do or think something smart, I either a) am overly proud, or b) become saddened because I feel guilty because of being smart and or proud. Option an always leads to b. 
Also, I beat myself up a lot for being proud.

 

Posted
2 minutes ago, SpiritOfWrath said:

Oh! I remembered what it was.

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I… I don’t like being smart. Whenever I do or think something smart, I either a) am overly proud, or b) become saddened because I feel guilty because of being smart and or proud. Option an always leads to b. 
Also, I beat myself up a lot for being proud.

 

Owch that hits home 

being smart is definitely overrated sometimes 

*hugs more*

Posted
3 minutes ago, SpiritOfWrath said:

Oh! I remembered what it was.

  Reveal hidden contents

I… I don’t like being smart. Whenever I do or think something smart, I either a) am overly proud, or b) become saddened because I feel guilty because of being smart and or proud. Option an always leads to b. 
Also, I beat myself up a lot for being proud.

 

i feel this 

i beat myself up for all kinds of stuff too allllllll the time so you’re not alone :)

*huggg*

Posted
7 minutes ago, SpiritOfWrath said:

Oh! I remembered what it was.

  Reveal hidden contents

I… I don’t like being smart. Whenever I do or think something smart, I either a) am overly proud, or b) become saddened because I feel guilty because of being smart and or proud. Option an always leads to b. 
Also, I beat myself up a lot for being proud.

 

*'nother hug*

Oh my gosh that's so relatable . . .

Posted (edited)

I dont like being me sometimes. All my friends are in like AP Calc... I am in geometry and i wish i had brains to be proud of. Stuff just doesnt stick in my head. I actually recently was diagnosed with ADHD , anxiety, and depression. I spend hours every night getting all my homework done, and my younger, overachiever brother loves to rub it in my face. My older sister loves theatre, and I do too, but she is so much better than me. I just wish i had something to be proud of. Its like I spend all my time either working my but off to try and get a B, or sitting there and staring at a wall and just waiting for something to happen to me.

I used to be a member of a church, but stopped going after a talk I heard one week on LGBT...  I was, of course, wearing dress pants rather than a skirt, ( I hate the way I look when I wear a dress) and got some rather pointed looks. I havent gone since, and my siblings and parents keep trying to shame me into going back. I know that there are good people there, it just doesnt feel right for me. I cant talk to anyone physical about it, because I will get the sympathy face. I hate the sympathy face. Even if I did have someone to talk to about it. I used to have a best friend. she  listened to me, and talked to me about her problems. I even crushed on her a little bit. Then, she dated my sister. Yes, the theatre sister who is an amazing artist and everyone loves. All of a sudden, the only thing she would talk about was my sister. Then, a month later, she tells all my friends that I was loud and annoying and mean to her. Next thing I know, she dumps my sister, blames it on me because she cant stand being near me, and never talks to either of us again. Now my sister hates me, my friends mostly ignore me, and on top of that, my brother got an award this week for academic excellence, and they all went to get pastries that I cant eat because I just got my braces on. I just need someone to listen too. Praying my family never reads this one...

 

Wow, sorry. That just sort of came out.

Edited by LIV_SB-DustBringer
Posted
4 minutes ago, LIV_SB-DustBringer said:

I dont like being me sometimes. All my friends are in like AP Calc... I am in geometry and i wish i had brains to be proud of. Stuff just doesnt stick in my head. I actually recently was diagnosed with ADHD , anxiety, and depression. I spend hours every night getting all my homework done, and my younger, overachiever brother loves to rub it in my face. My older sister loves theatre, and I do too, but she is so much better than me. I just wish i had something to be proud of. Its like I spend all my time either working my but off to try and get a B, or sitting there and staring at a wall and just waiting for something to happen to me.

I used to be a member of a church, but stopped going after a talk I heard one week on LGBT...  I was, of course, wearing dress pants rather than a skirt, ( I hate the way I look when I wear a dress) and got some rather pointed looks. I havent gone since, and my siblings and parents keep trying to shame me into going back. I know that there are good people there, it just doesnt feel right for me. I cant talk to anyone physical about it, because I will get the sympathy face. I hate the sympathy face. Even if I did have someone to talk to about it. I used to have a best friend. she  listened to me, and talked to me about her problems. I even crushed her a little bit. Then, she dated my sister. Yes, the theatre sister who is an amazing artist and everyone loves. All of a sudden, the only thing she would talk about was my sister. Then, a month later, she tells all my friends that I was loud and annoying and mean to her. Next thing I know, she dumps my sister, blames it on me because she cant stand being near me, and never talks to either of us again. Now my sister hates me, my friends mostly ignore me, and on top of that, my brother got an award this week for academic excellence, and they all went to get pastries that I cant eat because I just got my braces on. I just need someone to listen too. Praying my family never reads this one...

 

Wow, sorry. That just sort of came out.

Oh my, I realize how some people can have… let’s just say biased opinions on some modern problems, I can’t say much else.

*hugs*

Posted
11 minutes ago, LIV_SB-DustBringer said:

I dont like being me sometimes. All my friends are in like AP Calc... I am in geometry and i wish i had brains to be proud of. Stuff just doesnt stick in my head. I actually recently was diagnosed with ADHD , anxiety, and depression. I spend hours every night getting all my homework done, and my younger, overachiever brother loves to rub it in my face. My older sister loves theatre, and I do too, but she is so much better than me. I just wish i had something to be proud of. Its like I spend all my time either working my but off to try and get a B, or sitting there and staring at a wall and just waiting for something to happen to me.

I used to be a member of a church, but stopped going after a talk I heard one week on LGBT...  I was, of course, wearing dress pants rather than a skirt, ( I hate the way I look when I wear a dress) and got some rather pointed looks. I havent gone since, and my siblings and parents keep trying to shame me into going back. I know that there are good people there, it just doesnt feel right for me. I cant talk to anyone physical about it, because I will get the sympathy face. I hate the sympathy face. Even if I did have someone to talk to about it. I used to have a best friend. she  listened to me, and talked to me about her problems. I even crushed her a little bit. Then, she dated my sister. Yes, the theatre sister who is an amazing artist and everyone loves. All of a sudden, the only thing she would talk about was my sister. Then, a month later, she tells all my friends that I was loud and annoying and mean to her. Next thing I know, she dumps my sister, blames it on me because she cant stand being near me, and never talks to either of us again. Now my sister hates me, my friends mostly ignore me, and on top of that, my brother got an award this week for academic excellence, and they all went to get pastries that I cant eat because I just got my braces on. I just need someone to listen too. Praying my family never reads this one...

 

Wow, sorry. That just sort of came out.

*hugs*

I'm sorry you've been going through all that. That sounds awful.

And hey, you don't need to apologize for writing all that. We chose to read it, after all. ❤️‍🩹

Posted
19 minutes ago, LIV_SB-DustBringer said:

I dont like being me sometimes. All my friends are in like AP Calc... I am in geometry and i wish i had brains to be proud of. Stuff just doesnt stick in my head. I actually recently was diagnosed with ADHD , anxiety, and depression. I spend hours every night getting all my homework done, and my younger, overachiever brother loves to rub it in my face. My older sister loves theatre, and I do too, but she is so much better than me. I just wish i had something to be proud of. Its like I spend all my time either working my but off to try and get a B, or sitting there and staring at a wall and just waiting for something to happen to me.

I used to be a member of a church, but stopped going after a talk I heard one week on LGBT...  I was, of course, wearing dress pants rather than a skirt, ( I hate the way I look when I wear a dress) and got some rather pointed looks. I havent gone since, and my siblings and parents keep trying to shame me into going back. I know that there are good people there, it just doesnt feel right for me. I cant talk to anyone physical about it, because I will get the sympathy face. I hate the sympathy face. Even if I did have someone to talk to about it. I used to have a best friend. she  listened to me, and talked to me about her problems. I even crushed her a little bit. Then, she dated my sister. Yes, the theatre sister who is an amazing artist and everyone loves. All of a sudden, the only thing she would talk about was my sister. Then, a month later, she tells all my friends that I was loud and annoying and mean to her. Next thing I know, she dumps my sister, blames it on me because she cant stand being near me, and never talks to either of us again. Now my sister hates me, my friends mostly ignore me, and on top of that, my brother got an award this week for academic excellence, and they all went to get pastries that I cant eat because I just got my braces on. I just need someone to listen too. Praying my family never reads this one...

 

Wow, sorry. That just sort of came out.

I know how you feel, with overachieving siblings.

*hugs*

Posted
6 minutes ago, LIV_SB-DustBringer said:

Wow, you guys are making me feel a lot better. I didnt realize this would help so much. I am glad I joined.

We’re glad too😊

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