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2 hours ago, LIV_SB-DustBringer said:

I dont like being me sometimes. All my friends are in like AP Calc... I am in geometry and i wish i had brains to be proud of. Stuff just doesnt stick in my head. I actually recently was diagnosed with ADHD , anxiety, and depression. I spend hours every night getting all my homework done, and my younger, overachiever brother loves to rub it in my face. My older sister loves theatre, and I do too, but she is so much better than me. I just wish i had something to be proud of. Its like I spend all my time either working my but off to try and get a B, or sitting there and staring at a wall and just waiting for something to happen to me.

I used to be a member of a church, but stopped going after a talk I heard one week on LGBT...  I was, of course, wearing dress pants rather than a skirt, ( I hate the way I look when I wear a dress) and got some rather pointed looks. I havent gone since, and my siblings and parents keep trying to shame me into going back. I know that there are good people there, it just doesnt feel right for me. I cant talk to anyone physical about it, because I will get the sympathy face. I hate the sympathy face. Even if I did have someone to talk to about it. I used to have a best friend. she  listened to me, and talked to me about her problems. I even crushed her a little bit. Then, she dated my sister. Yes, the theatre sister who is an amazing artist and everyone loves. All of a sudden, the only thing she would talk about was my sister. Then, a month later, she tells all my friends that I was loud and annoying and mean to her. Next thing I know, she dumps my sister, blames it on me because she cant stand being near me, and never talks to either of us again. Now my sister hates me, my friends mostly ignore me, and on top of that, my brother got an award this week for academic excellence, and they all went to get pastries that I cant eat because I just got my braces on. I just need someone to listen too. Praying my family never reads this one...

 

Wow, sorry. That just sort of came out.

 

2 hours ago, LIV_SB-DustBringer said:

*Group hug!!!!*

Hey post anytime and feel free to dm me (I’ll respond as soon as I can) :) 

the invisible ghost people care about you ❤️ 

Posted

I learned that my grandpa has some type of terminal cancer, and I don't think I felt anything, help me my emotions are shot. I'll probably be a sobbing wreck when the time actually comes, but...

also really regretting letting my math grade really fall, I was lazy.

Posted
7 minutes ago, TheRavenHasLanded said:

I learned that my grandpa has some type of terminal cancer, and I don't think I felt anything, help me my emotions are shot. I'll probably be a sobbing wreck when the time actually comes, but...

*huuuuuugs*

Everyone processes big things differently and that's okay. There's nothing wrong with you if you don't understand your emotions/ or if you think like you don't feel the 'right' thing at the right time.

Just take a deep breath, it'll come with time and thought.

Posted (edited)
2 hours ago, TheRavenHasLanded said:

I learned that my grandpa has some type of terminal cancer, and I don't think I felt anything, help me my emotions are shot. I'll probably be a sobbing wreck when the time actually comes, but...

also really regretting letting my math grade really fall, I was lazy.

Hey. I get that feeling. When I was younger, my mom was diagnosed with stage 3d breast cancer. I didnt know what to feel, and felt guilty for not feeling anything. She survived, barely, and is getting better right now... she has made a whole lot of progress. but when it was happening i was beating myself up for it. Emotions are weird, and its okay if they are not what you expected. its alright.

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Posted
3 hours ago, TheRavenHasLanded said:

I learned that my grandpa has some type of terminal cancer, and I don't think I felt anything, help me my emotions are shot. I'll probably be a sobbing wreck when the time actually comes, but...

also really regretting letting my math grade really fall, I was lazy.

*hugs*

I'm so sorry . . .

Posted
3 hours ago, TheRavenHasLanded said:

I learned that my grandpa has some type of terminal cancer, and I don't think I felt anything, help me my emotions are shot. I'll probably be a sobbing wreck when the time actually comes, but...

also really regretting letting my math grade really fall, I was lazy.

Everyone processes grief differently, it's okay, don't let you beat yourself up over it. 

*hugs*

Posted
On 10/22/2024 at 12:22 AM, The Halcyon Girl said:

the invisible ghost people care about you ❤️ 

Thank you, invisible ghost people.

Posted

.. a- well then.. I was hoping not ta have to not be here for the hugs- but- yeah.

Spoiler

Well- I kinda sorta just went through my first break up.. I.. just feel horrid... and- well- she may have been the one to initiate it- but.. not her.. she didn't want to tell me herself, which I understand- but it makes it worse.. just.. I get it.. but.. it feels like did something wrong- and.. I just feel bad.

 

Posted

Imma give sorta a trigger warning here, there are talks of suicides here, so yk, just be cautious.

Spoiler

It's been a rough year. I started off losing one of my closer 2nd cousins, who had commited suicide at the beginning of the year, and it was just really hard on my family. I had accepted that, when one of my great grandparents had died. I wasn't super close to him, but I was more worried about my dad. It hit him pretty hard. I think that was when I started on a long path that isn't great, when I got the news that another one of my family members was on the brink of death, and it hit my mom pretty hard. I wanted to try to support her, but I haven't been close to my family in a while. And now, last week, my 2nd cousin who I was very close with, killed himself and another driver in a car accident. I just don't know how to deal with the grief, and I don't know how to deal with feeling, so I haven't been. I think that's been affecting my relationships, because people can tell I'm withholding, and consuming myself with work all the time, without breaks or without stopping. I needed to get this out, and I saw this thread and figured it would be a good place to out with my emotions and my emotional state. Thank you for reading my rant

 

Posted
36 minutes ago, Wierdo said:

.. a- well then.. I was hoping not ta have to not be here for the hugs- but- yeah.

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Well- I kinda sorta just went through my first break up.. I.. just feel horrid... and- well- she may have been the one to initiate it- but.. not her.. she didn't want to tell me herself, which I understand- but it makes it worse.. just.. I get it.. but.. it feels like did something wrong- and.. I just feel bad.

 

*hugs hugs hugs* 

Being a lonely single I do not know what that’s like. But I can imagine it hurts… a lot. I’m so sorry. 

17 minutes ago, Null_84 said:

Imma give sorta a trigger warning here, there are talks of suicides here, so yk, just be cautious.

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It's been a rough year. I started off losing one of my closer 2nd cousins, who had commited suicide at the beginning of the year, and it was just really hard on my family. I had accepted that, when one of my great grandparents had died. I wasn't super close to him, but I was more worried about my dad. It hit him pretty hard. I think that was when I started on a long path that isn't great, when I got the news that another one of my family members was on the brink of death, and it hit my mom pretty hard. I wanted to try to support her, but I haven't been close to my family in a while. And now, last week, my 2nd cousin who I was very close with, killed himself and another driver in a car accident. I just don't know how to deal with the grief, and I don't know how to deal with feeling, so I haven't been. I think that's been affecting my relationships, because people can tell I'm withholding, and consuming myself with work all the time, without breaks or without stopping. I needed to get this out, and I saw this thread and figured it would be a good place to out with my emotions and my emotional state. Thank you for reading my rant

 

*hugs hugs hugs* 

I don’t have much to say for that. I’m so sorry. 

Posted
30 minutes ago, Null_84 said:

Imma give sorta a trigger warning here, there are talks of suicides here, so yk, just be cautious.

  Reveal hidden contents

It's been a rough year. I started off losing one of my closer 2nd cousins, who had commited suicide at the beginning of the year, and it was just really hard on my family. I had accepted that, when one of my great grandparents had died. I wasn't super close to him, but I was more worried about my dad. It hit him pretty hard. I think that was when I started on a long path that isn't great, when I got the news that another one of my family members was on the brink of death, and it hit my mom pretty hard. I wanted to try to support her, but I haven't been close to my family in a while. And now, last week, my 2nd cousin who I was very close with, killed himself and another driver in a car accident. I just don't know how to deal with the grief, and I don't know how to deal with feeling, so I haven't been. I think that's been affecting my relationships, because people can tell I'm withholding, and consuming myself with work all the time, without breaks or without stopping. I needed to get this out, and I saw this thread and figured it would be a good place to out with my emotions and my emotional state. Thank you for reading my rant

 

I’m so sorry. I don’t know what to say. 
*manly back pat as opposed to “hug”, which is against the bro code*

Posted
1 hour ago, Null_84 said:

Imma give sorta a trigger warning here, there are talks of suicides here, so yk, just be cautious.

  Hide contents

It's been a rough year. I started off losing one of my closer 2nd cousins, who had commited suicide at the beginning of the year, and it was just really hard on my family. I had accepted that, when one of my great grandparents had died. I wasn't super close to him, but I was more worried about my dad. It hit him pretty hard. I think that was when I started on a long path that isn't great, when I got the news that another one of my family members was on the brink of death, and it hit my mom pretty hard. I wanted to try to support her, but I haven't been close to my family in a while. And now, last week, my 2nd cousin who I was very close with, killed himself and another driver in a car accident. I just don't know how to deal with the grief, and I don't know how to deal with feeling, so I haven't been. I think that's been affecting my relationships, because people can tell I'm withholding, and consuming myself with work all the time, without breaks or without stopping. I needed to get this out, and I saw this thread and figured it would be a good place to out with my emotions and my emotional state. Thank you for reading my rant

 

*biiiiiig hug*

Just try your best to be genuine as much as possible, I used to have a case of blank-face also, just know that people enjoy your time.

Posted
20 hours ago, Null_84 said:

Imma give sorta a trigger warning here, there are talks of suicides here, so yk, just be cautious.

  Reveal hidden contents

It's been a rough year. I started off losing one of my closer 2nd cousins, who had commited suicide at the beginning of the year, and it was just really hard on my family. I had accepted that, when one of my great grandparents had died. I wasn't super close to him, but I was more worried about my dad. It hit him pretty hard. I think that was when I started on a long path that isn't great, when I got the news that another one of my family members was on the brink of death, and it hit my mom pretty hard. I wanted to try to support her, but I haven't been close to my family in a while. And now, last week, my 2nd cousin who I was very close with, killed himself and another driver in a car accident. I just don't know how to deal with the grief, and I don't know how to deal with feeling, so I haven't been. I think that's been affecting my relationships, because people can tell I'm withholding, and consuming myself with work all the time, without breaks or without stopping. I needed to get this out, and I saw this thread and figured it would be a good place to out with my emotions and my emotional state. Thank you for reading my rant

 

*massive hugs*

I don't really know what to say, nor do I have any real advice for you, but I can imagine what you're going through. 

Posted
On 10/31/2024 at 3:05 PM, Null_84 said:

Imma give sorta a trigger warning here, there are talks of suicides here, so yk, just be cautious.

  Reveal hidden contents

It's been a rough year. I started off losing one of my closer 2nd cousins, who had commited suicide at the beginning of the year, and it was just really hard on my family. I had accepted that, when one of my great grandparents had died. I wasn't super close to him, but I was more worried about my dad. It hit him pretty hard. I think that was when I started on a long path that isn't great, when I got the news that another one of my family members was on the brink of death, and it hit my mom pretty hard. I wanted to try to support her, but I haven't been close to my family in a while. And now, last week, my 2nd cousin who I was very close with, killed himself and another driver in a car accident. I just don't know how to deal with the grief, and I don't know how to deal with feeling, so I haven't been. I think that's been affecting my relationships, because people can tell I'm withholding, and consuming myself with work all the time, without breaks or without stopping. I needed to get this out, and I saw this thread and figured it would be a good place to out with my emotions and my emotional state. Thank you for reading my rant

 

*hugs*

Death is...it's so tricky to navigate and there's no one right to navigate it. I'm really sorry about all of that, and wish you the best in figuring out how to get through it. 

*more hugs*

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ok this is sorta a small thing. in my ap history class we have to do these infographics in groups and the other times its happened my group which has my best friend and another friend in it every time we are doing it they tell me to shut up go away and do nothing and not let me work on our GROUP PROJECT. but then on monday we started a new one and the other people in my group all  had choir stuff so it was only me working on it. so I get as much ass I can get done on my own having never worked on these before. now today in this class we are continuing to work on it and literally as soon as they get in they are insulting what I work on and being mean to me and telling me to do nothing and that I practically did nothing when they were all gone and I had no help. they are telling me to get away from it and to stop giving my advise and stuff. it is so annoying. everything I do people get mad at me about. I am so done with this they don't let me work. literally I'm begging to help and they wont let me!! I am so tired of it.  I just want them to accept my help. they weren't here and then when they get here they insult what I did when I had no help.

Posted
8 minutes ago, strmblsd said:

ok this is sorta a small thing. in my ap history class we have to do these infographics in groups and the other times its happened my group which has my best friend and another friend in it every time we are doing it they tell me to shut up go away and do nothing and not let me work on our GROUP PROJECT. but then on monday we started a new one and the other people in my group all  had choir stuff so it was only me working on it. so I get as much ass I can get done on my own having never worked on these before. now today in this class we are continuing to work on it and literally as soon as they get in they are insulting what I work on and being mean to me and telling me to do nothing and that I practically did nothing when they were all gone and I had no help. they are telling me to get away from it and to stop giving my advise and stuff. it is so annoying. everything I do people get mad at me about. I am so done with this they don't let me work. literally I'm begging to help and they wont let me!! I am so tired of it.  I just want them to accept my help. they weren't here and then when they get here they insult what I did when I had no help.

*hug* 

That’s absolutely infuriating. Scud all of them off a cliff. I’ll be your new friend. 

Posted
11 minutes ago, The Halcyon Girl said:

*hug* 

That’s absolutely infuriating. Scud all of them off a cliff. I’ll be your new friend. 

I'm so freaking tired of them. no matter what it is I'm inferior I'm not wanted to help and I try again and again

Posted
43 minutes ago, strmblsd said:

ok this is sorta a small thing. in my ap history class we have to do these infographics in groups and the other times its happened my group which has my best friend and another friend in it every time we are doing it they tell me to shut up go away and do nothing and not let me work on our GROUP PROJECT. but then on monday we started a new one and the other people in my group all  had choir stuff so it was only me working on it. so I get as much ass I can get done on my own having never worked on these before. now today in this class we are continuing to work on it and literally as soon as they get in they are insulting what I work on and being mean to me and telling me to do nothing and that I practically did nothing when they were all gone and I had no help. they are telling me to get away from it and to stop giving my advise and stuff. it is so annoying. everything I do people get mad at me about. I am so done with this they don't let me work. literally I'm begging to help and they wont let me!! I am so tired of it.  I just want them to accept my help. they weren't here and then when they get here they insult what I did when I had no help.

 

22 minutes ago, strmblsd said:

I'm so freaking tired of them. no matter what it is I'm inferior I'm not wanted to help and I try again and again

*hugs*

I hate to say it, but . . . it might be time to find some new friends?

I know it's not nearly that simple but no one should be treating their friend like that

Posted
48 minutes ago, strmblsd said:

ok this is sorta a small thing. in my ap history class we have to do these infographics in groups and the other times its happened my group which has my best friend and another friend in it every time we are doing it they tell me to shut up go away and do nothing and not let me work on our GROUP PROJECT. but then on monday we started a new one and the other people in my group all  had choir stuff so it was only me working on it. so I get as much ass I can get done on my own having never worked on these before. now today in this class we are continuing to work on it and literally as soon as they get in they are insulting what I work on and being mean to me and telling me to do nothing and that I practically did nothing when they were all gone and I had no help. they are telling me to get away from it and to stop giving my advise and stuff. it is so annoying. everything I do people get mad at me about. I am so done with this they don't let me work. literally I'm begging to help and they wont let me!! I am so tired of it.  I just want them to accept my help. they weren't here and then when they get here they insult what I did when I had no help.

… you sure they’re your friends?

*hugs*

28 minutes ago, strmblsd said:

I'm so freaking tired of them. no matter what it is I'm not inferior I wanted to help and I try again and again

*hugs more*

Posted
1 hour ago, strmblsd said:

ok this is sorta a small thing. in my ap history class we have to do these infographics in groups and the other times its happened my group which has my best friend and another friend in it every time we are doing it they tell me to shut up go away and do nothing and not let me work on our GROUP PROJECT. but then on monday we started a new one and the other people in my group all  had choir stuff so it was only me working on it. so I get as much ass I can get done on my own having never worked on these before. now today in this class we are continuing to work on it and literally as soon as they get in they are insulting what I work on and being mean to me and telling me to do nothing and that I practically did nothing when they were all gone and I had no help. they are telling me to get away from it and to stop giving my advise and stuff. it is so annoying. everything I do people get mad at me about. I am so done with this they don't let me work. literally I'm begging to help and they wont let me!! I am so tired of it.  I just want them to accept my help. they weren't here and then when they get here they insult what I did when I had no help.

WELL
THEY SUCK.

YEAH.

you´ll pull through. its not your fault and you are completly justified in being mad.

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