TwinStorm He/Him Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 23 hours ago, _Null_ said: I know I'm here a lot, talking about stuff, but I guess I just need to get it out somewhere. Hope you guys don't mind. its been a long week, and I really just want to rest. but I can't. People recently keep telling me that if I want to rest that I should take meds or try this or try that. I just wish I could get them to understand. I'm not a normal person. It's not that I don't sleep by choice, or really even by normal insomnia standards. I'm worried about everything, all the time. What if this what if that, yk? I just want to be someone who functions with society, I guess. I don't wanna worry about my parents, my sister, grades, jobs, life. I don't wanna fear that I'll never be able to talk to my girlfriend again because our forms of communication have been taken away. I don't wanna cry, or be a burden making other people do the same. And I can't be the therapist friend as much as I used to. It's hard. and taking other people's burdens is a lot on my shoulders. For some reason, people don't seem to get it. I'm the one who's happy, smiles, and looks put together, but I'm not. I just... feel I have to be because if I'm not, who will be? I guess the big takeaway is I'm just anxious and depressed. I wish I wasn't. I want to be the person everyone wants me to be. They want me to do all these things and I tell them no because if I did those things I might just fall apart adding another thing to my plate. and god bless Glass, she is more than I deserve helping me through this stuff, even if I don't talk about it. I know that was more just a rant, but I needed to get stuff out, and the anonymity here helps me get my thoughts out with less fear of being judged thank you for reading, have a wonderful day brother, I share so many of those feelings *giant hugs* 1
Mags she/they Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 Okay, does anyone else have a friend that is just really emotionally and mentally draining to be around? And it's not their fault, it's entirely my fault and the result of my anxiety and my muddled mess of emotions. It just makes me feel like a bad friend, because they aren't doing anything wrong but it ends up being really difficult for me to be around them. (Obviously other people are hard too, but some people help me feel better and more energized when I'm with them for certain reasons). And I don't feel like I can step away or anything because what am I supposed to say? "You're emotionally exhausting for some reason and I can't be around you right now?" That seems so rude, and I know this person is really sensitive. (Btw I do know why they're exhausting, but it's things that are either really small and just add up, or my own anxiety. It's just really really hard).
Keke They/he Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 On 1/25/2025 at 9:33 PM, Queen Elsa Steelheart said: Could use some hugs. Currently been in hospital since the 16th of Jan because the left side of my body stopped working and walking became really really hard. The functioning of my left side is slowly coming back thankfully, but its been a pretty exhausting journey. I haven't been able to do my favourite things like karate or electric guitar for weeks and my uni degree is currently on hold because I can't do any uni work right now. I miss my friends, my karate friends, my routine (I'm ADHD/Autistic so its important) and everything feels so tiring. Even a shower felt like I had just done fifty pushups. I'm getting better slowly but this was certainly not how I wanted to start 2025 after an amazing 2024. I've never had a hospital admission this long for a physical illness. It's pretty scary That’s really scary. I hope that you get better and can go back to your normal life soon. *huggssss* lemme know if you need anything. On 1/26/2025 at 9:23 PM, _Null_ said: I know I'm here a lot, talking about stuff, but I guess I just need to get it out somewhere. Hope you guys don't mind. its been a long week, and I really just want to rest. but I can't. People recently keep telling me that if I want to rest that I should take meds or try this or try that. I just wish I could get them to understand. I'm not a normal person. It's not that I don't sleep by choice, or really even by normal insomnia standards. I'm worried about everything, all the time. What if this what if that, yk? I just want to be someone who functions with society, I guess. I don't wanna worry about my parents, my sister, grades, jobs, life. I don't wanna fear that I'll never be able to talk to my girlfriend again because our forms of communication have been taken away. I don't wanna cry, or be a burden making other people do the same. And I can't be the therapist friend as much as I used to. It's hard. and taking other people's burdens is a lot on my shoulders. For some reason, people don't seem to get it. I'm the one who's happy, smiles, and looks put together, but I'm not. I just... feel I have to be because if I'm not, who will be? I guess the big takeaway is I'm just anxious and depressed. I wish I wasn't. I want to be the person everyone wants me to be. They want me to do all these things and I tell them no because if I did those things I might just fall apart adding another thing to my plate. and god bless Glass, she is more than I deserve helping me through this stuff, even if I don't talk about it. I know that was more just a rant, but I needed to get stuff out, and the anonymity here helps me get my thoughts out with less fear of being judged thank you for reading, have a wonderful day I get that. You can be whoever, i wont care who you are your a friends thats all that matters. You can be whom ever and whatever you wanna be here. *huggies* pm me if you need anything because i will be the therapist friends instead of you. I’ll take that place. I hope you feel better. 29 minutes ago, Magi said: Okay, does anyone else have a friend that is just really emotionally and mentally draining to be around? And it's not their fault, it's entirely my fault and the result of my anxiety and my muddled mess of emotions. It just makes me feel like a bad friend, because they aren't doing anything wrong but it ends up being really difficult for me to be around them. (Obviously other people are hard too, but some people help me feel better and more energized when I'm with them for certain reasons). And I don't feel like I can step away or anything because what am I supposed to say? "You're emotionally exhausting for some reason and I can't be around you right now?" That seems so rude, and I know this person is really sensitive. (Btw I do know why they're exhausting, but it's things that are either really small and just add up, or my own anxiety. It's just really really hard). I wish i had some advice for that but i dont. But i do have. *huggggggssssssssss* hopefully your get it sorted out 2
Mags she/they Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 22 minutes ago, Thee insane said: I wish i had some advice for that but i dont. But i do have. *huggggggssssssssss* hopefully your get it sorted out Thaaanks I appreciate it
Through the Living Wrath he/him Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 *sigh* shool has been… ow Spoiler So like, in Spanish 4, we gots lots and lots of project, in which we act out different scenarios. Usually we choose a team in the beginning of the year, and we stick with them until the end. But my team has been…. AAAHHH I teamed up with someone I knew (a), someone who is usually very reasonable, and two others joined us (b and c), I didn’t know them. A is a good worker usually, but WHEN HE IS TEAMED WITH B… The first ones weren’t actually that bad… relatively. Usually A and B would just sit, try to work, but then it would devolve into jokes… the type of which made me vastly uncomfortable. But that was it - I would write the script, and even tho I did most of it on my own, it wasn’t that bad. (C would contribute too) But recently, it’s been getting worse. Recently, they expect me to write the script, but as soon as I make a suggestion they would (jokingly… probably) swear at me and tell me to… just be quiet. And if I try to ask them to do something… *sigh* It got to its worst today - I made blunders in a few projects (and usually I like to make silly projects [We were on a cruise, the ship sunk, stuff like that]… this started their disrespect…) - and now they don’t trust me to do anything. So I’m just sitting there, A is writing a script, and it’s supposed to be teamwork, but when I try to plan with them, they tell me to shut up… so I just sat there while A decided literally everything… and I had no say. Not even in the character I was to play... I want to ask for another team, but they are all already made… *sigh* *sigh*
Vyzkel He/Him Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 8 minutes ago, SpiritOfWrath said: *sigh* shool has been… ow Reveal hidden contents So like, in Spanish 4, we gots lots and lots of project, in which we act out different scenarios. Usually we choose a team in the beginning of the year, and we stick with them until the end. But my team has been…. AAAHHH I teamed up with someone I knew (a), someone who is usually very reasonable, and two others joined us (b and c), I didn’t know them. A is a good worker usually, but WHEN HE IS TEAMED WITH B… The first ones weren’t actually that bad… relatively. Usually A and B would just sit, try to work, but then it would devolve into jokes… the type of which made me vastly uncomfortable. But that was it - I would write the script, and even tho I did most of it on my own, it wasn’t that bad. (C would contribute too) But recently, it’s been getting worse. Recently, they expect me to write the script, but as soon as I make a suggestion they would (jokingly… probably) swear at me and tell me to… just be quiet. And if I try to ask them to do something… *sigh* It got to its worst today - I made blunders in a few projects (and usually I like to make silly projects [We were on a cruise, the ship sunk, stuff like that]… this started their disrespect…) - and now they don’t trust me to do anything. So I’m just sitting there, A is writing a script, and it’s supposed to be teamwork, but when I try to plan with them, they tell me to shut up… so I just sat there while A decided literally everything… and I had no say. Not even in the character I was to play... I want to ask for another team, but they are all already made… *sigh* *sigh* Oof, it sucks when you get paired up with the wrong people. *hugs* 1
Through The Living Glass She/They Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 2 hours ago, Magi said: Okay, does anyone else have a friend that is just really emotionally and mentally draining to be around? And it's not their fault, it's entirely my fault and the result of my anxiety and my muddled mess of emotions. It just makes me feel like a bad friend, because they aren't doing anything wrong but it ends up being really difficult for me to be around them. (Obviously other people are hard too, but some people help me feel better and more energized when I'm with them for certain reasons). And I don't feel like I can step away or anything because what am I supposed to say? "You're emotionally exhausting for some reason and I can't be around you right now?" That seems so rude, and I know this person is really sensitive. (Btw I do know why they're exhausting, but it's things that are either really small and just add up, or my own anxiety. It's just really really hard). *hugs* Yeah, I know how that is. I'm sorry 17 minutes ago, SpiritOfWrath said: *sigh* shool has been… ow Reveal hidden contents So like, in Spanish 4, we gots lots and lots of project, in which we act out different scenarios. Usually we choose a team in the beginning of the year, and we stick with them until the end. But my team has been…. AAAHHH I teamed up with someone I knew (a), someone who is usually very reasonable, and two others joined us (b and c), I didn’t know them. A is a good worker usually, but WHEN HE IS TEAMED WITH B… The first ones weren’t actually that bad… relatively. Usually A and B would just sit, try to work, but then it would devolve into jokes… the type of which made me vastly uncomfortable. But that was it - I would write the script, and even tho I did most of it on my own, it wasn’t that bad. (C would contribute too) But recently, it’s been getting worse. Recently, they expect me to write the script, but as soon as I make a suggestion they would (jokingly… probably) swear at me and tell me to… just be quiet. And if I try to ask them to do something… *sigh* It got to its worst today - I made blunders in a few projects (and usually I like to make silly projects [We were on a cruise, the ship sunk, stuff like that]… this started their disrespect…) - and now they don’t trust me to do anything. So I’m just sitting there, A is writing a script, and it’s supposed to be teamwork, but when I try to plan with them, they tell me to shut up… so I just sat there while A decided literally everything… and I had no say. Not even in the character I was to play... I want to ask for another team, but they are all already made… *sigh* *sigh* *huuugs* 2
The Wandering Wizard he/him Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 20 minutes ago, SpiritOfWrath said: *sigh* shool has been… ow Reveal hidden contents So like, in Spanish 4, we gots lots and lots of project, in which we act out different scenarios. Usually we choose a team in the beginning of the year, and we stick with them until the end. But my team has been…. AAAHHH I teamed up with someone I knew (a), someone who is usually very reasonable, and two others joined us (b and c), I didn’t know them. A is a good worker usually, but WHEN HE IS TEAMED WITH B… The first ones weren’t actually that bad… relatively. Usually A and B would just sit, try to work, but then it would devolve into jokes… the type of which made me vastly uncomfortable. But that was it - I would write the script, and even tho I did most of it on my own, it wasn’t that bad. (C would contribute too) But recently, it’s been getting worse. Recently, they expect me to write the script, but as soon as I make a suggestion they would (jokingly… probably) swear at me and tell me to… just be quiet. And if I try to ask them to do something… *sigh* It got to its worst today - I made blunders in a few projects (and usually I like to make silly projects [We were on a cruise, the ship sunk, stuff like that]… this started their disrespect…) - and now they don’t trust me to do anything. So I’m just sitting there, A is writing a script, and it’s supposed to be teamwork, but when I try to plan with them, they tell me to shut up… so I just sat there while A decided literally everything… and I had no say. Not even in the character I was to play... I want to ask for another team, but they are all already made… *sigh* *sigh* 2 hours ago, Magi said: Okay, does anyone else have a friend that is just really emotionally and mentally draining to be around? And it's not their fault, it's entirely my fault and the result of my anxiety and my muddled mess of emotions. It just makes me feel like a bad friend, because they aren't doing anything wrong but it ends up being really difficult for me to be around them. (Obviously other people are hard too, but some people help me feel better and more energized when I'm with them for certain reasons). And I don't feel like I can step away or anything because what am I supposed to say? "You're emotionally exhausting for some reason and I can't be around you right now?" That seems so rude, and I know this person is really sensitive. (Btw I do know why they're exhausting, but it's things that are either really small and just add up, or my own anxiety. It's just really really hard). *hugs you both fiercely*
Bird Furious she/her/un/important Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 3 hours ago, Magi said: Okay, does anyone else have a friend that is just really emotionally and mentally draining to be around? And it's not their fault, it's entirely my fault and the result of my anxiety and my muddled mess of emotions. It just makes me feel like a bad friend, because they aren't doing anything wrong but it ends up being really difficult for me to be around them. (Obviously other people are hard too, but some people help me feel better and more energized when I'm with them for certain reasons). And I don't feel like I can step away or anything because what am I supposed to say? "You're emotionally exhausting for some reason and I can't be around you right now?" That seems so rude, and I know this person is really sensitive. (Btw I do know why they're exhausting, but it's things that are either really small and just add up, or my own anxiety. It's just really really hard). That’s… a hard position. If you’re up for it, maybe tell the friend you just need space generally and not individually. Love you 1 hour ago, SpiritOfWrath said: *sigh* shool has been… ow Reveal hidden contents So like, in Spanish 4, we gots lots and lots of project, in which we act out different scenarios. Usually we choose a team in the beginning of the year, and we stick with them until the end. But my team has been…. AAAHHH I teamed up with someone I knew (a), someone who is usually very reasonable, and two others joined us (b and c), I didn’t know them. A is a good worker usually, but WHEN HE IS TEAMED WITH B… The first ones weren’t actually that bad… relatively. Usually A and B would just sit, try to work, but then it would devolve into jokes… the type of which made me vastly uncomfortable. But that was it - I would write the script, and even tho I did most of it on my own, it wasn’t that bad. (C would contribute too) But recently, it’s been getting worse. Recently, they expect me to write the script, but as soon as I make a suggestion they would (jokingly… probably) swear at me and tell me to… just be quiet. And if I try to ask them to do something… *sigh* It got to its worst today - I made blunders in a few projects (and usually I like to make silly projects [We were on a cruise, the ship sunk, stuff like that]… this started their disrespect…) - and now they don’t trust me to do anything. So I’m just sitting there, A is writing a script, and it’s supposed to be teamwork, but when I try to plan with them, they tell me to shut up… so I just sat there while A decided literally everything… and I had no say. Not even in the character I was to play... I want to ask for another team, but they are all already made… *sigh* *sigh* AUGH GRR I’m usually the one doing most of the work because it makes me feel comfortable but uh that sounds awful and you should scud them across the sky in a yacht. *hug* 1
ShatteredDiamond She/Her Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 I just have to say how much I love this place. I know I hardly know most of ya'll but I come across this thread and it literally made my day HUGS FOR EVERYONE 2
Through The Living Glass She/They Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 1 minute ago, Phendorana said: I just have to say how much I love this place. I know I hardly know most of ya'll but I come across this thread and it literally made my day HUGS FOR EVERYONE *hugs* 1
Keke They/he Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 21 minutes ago, Phendorana said: I just have to say how much I love this place. I know I hardly know most of ya'll but I come across this thread and it literally made my day HUGS FOR EVERYONE As my philosophy says, “everyone is my friends until they do something to stop it” so your my friend and so that means i know you!!! 1
ShatteredDiamond She/Her Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 8 minutes ago, Thee insane said: As my philosophy says, “everyone is my friends until they do something to stop it” so your my friend and so that means i know you!!! Yes I truly believe everyone is a good person there are so so few exceptions to this everyone has been raised different and has different perspectives and opinions and ideas and beliefs and psychology but I have yet to meet a person that I hated once I took half a second to try and understand them. 2
Bird Furious she/her/un/important Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 2 minutes ago, Ironwill2112 said: I love hugs *gives hugs* *whispers* IS THAT TWENTYONEPILOTSINYOURSIGNATURE 1
Ironwill2112 he/him Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 Just now, Halcyon The Only said: *gives hugs* *whispers* IS THAT TWENTYONEPILOTSINYOURSIGNATURE yes
The Wandering Wizard he/him Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 *gives hugs to all who seek them* 1
Bird Furious she/her/un/important Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 3 minutes ago, Ironwill2112 said: yes I love them so much :3 1
Ironwill2112 he/him Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 Just now, Halcyon The Only said: I love them so much :3 Favorite Album? When did you become a fan?
Through The Living Glass She/They Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 15 minutes ago, Ironwill2112 said: I love hugs 1
Bird Furious she/her/un/important Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 13 minutes ago, Ironwill2112 said: Favorite Album? When did you become a fan? Imma be honest, I love how the Twenty One Pilots album feels. Besides that, it's honestly probably Regional at Best Trench would prolly be my third. You? Oh and I became a fan shortly before Clancy. Heard about them before but never really got into it.
Ironwill2112 he/him Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 Just now, Halcyon The Only said: Imma be honest, I love how the Twenty One Pilots album feels. Besides that, it's honestly probably Regional at Best Trench would prolly be my third. You? Oh and I became a fan shortly before Clancy. Heard about them before but never really got into it. I became a fan after scaled and icy era ended. but long before the first signs of clancy were poping up. Clancy is my favorite since its the first I lived through and the theme of the album was SUPER relavint to for me at the time and helped me a ton.
Bird Furious she/her/un/important Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 3 minutes ago, Ironwill2112 said: I became a fan after scaled and icy era ended. but long before the first signs of clancy were poping up. Clancy is my favorite since its the first I lived through and the theme of the album was SUPER relavint to for me at the time and helped me a ton. My friend told me a new album was coming out in a month or something and I was like 'huh maybe worth a shot' so I'm a bit newer than you What's one of your favorite of their songs? 1
Ironwill2112 he/him Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 1 minute ago, Halcyon The Only said: My friend told me a new album was coming out in a month or something and I was like 'huh maybe worth a shot' so I'm a bit newer than you What's one of your favorite of their songs? Ode to Sleep and Holding onto you make my soul weep. they are super good
Bird Furious she/her/un/important Posted January 28, 2025 Posted January 28, 2025 2 minutes ago, Ironwill2112 said: Ode to Sleep and Holding onto you make my soul weep. they are super good FOR REAL I LOVE THOSE ONeS O2S is in my top five at least, and HO2U might be too 1
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