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[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

3 hours ago, strmblsd said:

ok this is sorta a small thing. in my ap history class we have to do these infographics in groups and the other times its happened my group which has my best friend and another friend in it every time we are doing it they tell me to shut up go away and do nothing and not let me work on our GROUP PROJECT. but then on monday we started a new one and the other people in my group all  had choir stuff so it was only me working on it. so I get as much ass I can get done on my own having never worked on these before. now today in this class we are continuing to work on it and literally as soon as they get in they are insulting what I work on and being mean to me and telling me to do nothing and that I practically did nothing when they were all gone and I had no help. they are telling me to get away from it and to stop giving my advise and stuff. it is so annoying. everything I do people get mad at me about. I am so done with this they don't let me work. literally I'm begging to help and they wont let me!! I am so tired of it.  I just want them to accept my help. they weren't here and then when they get here they insult what I did when I had no help.

*hugs*

Yeah... if they really cared about you, and saw you struggling with work, they would help you instead of insulting you and then giving you no information on what you're doing wrong 

[Through the Living Hope]

I just woke up from a dream… I was going on a trip to a really beautiful place with some friends from church, and my mom and sibling were dropping me off. It was raining a little bit and because of flow of traffic, they left before I could get a good goodbye. I texted my sibling to ask my mom if she could turn around to say goodbye, but my mom said she couldn’t. I was being driven to a drive thru to get water, but I was in-dream hallucinating that my parents and sibling were with me. In the dream, I could suddenly see health bars but nothing outside the car. There was a lurch and my sibling took some damage, but my parents’ life bars drained to zero… and then I woke up in the dream, and then my alarm went off 

[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

6 hours ago, Spark of Hope said:

I just woke up from a dream… I was going on a trip to a really beautiful place with some friends from church, and my mom and sibling were dropping me off. It was raining a little bit and because of flow of traffic, they left before I could get a good goodbye. I texted my sibling to ask my mom if she could turn around to say goodbye, but my mom said she couldn’t. I was being driven to a drive thru to get water, but I was in-dream hallucinating that my parents and sibling were with me. In the dream, I could suddenly see health bars but nothing outside the car. There was a lurch and my sibling took some damage, but my parents’ life bars drained to zero… and then I woke up in the dream, and then my alarm went off 

... wow. That's pretty scary

*hugs*

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

6 hours ago, Spark of Hope said:

I just woke up from a dream… I was going on a trip to a really beautiful place with some friends from church, and my mom and sibling were dropping me off. It was raining a little bit and because of flow of traffic, they left before I could get a good goodbye. I texted my sibling to ask my mom if she could turn around to say goodbye, but my mom said she couldn’t. I was being driven to a drive thru to get water, but I was in-dream hallucinating that my parents and sibling were with me. In the dream, I could suddenly see health bars but nothing outside the car. There was a lurch and my sibling took some damage, but my parents’ life bars drained to zero… and then I woke up in the dream, and then my alarm went off 

*hugs*

[Mags she/they]

6 hours ago, Spark of Hope said:

I just woke up from a dream… I was going on a trip to a really beautiful place with some friends from church, and my mom and sibling were dropping me off. It was raining a little bit and because of flow of traffic, they left before I could get a good goodbye. I texted my sibling to ask my mom if she could turn around to say goodbye, but my mom said she couldn’t. I was being driven to a drive thru to get water, but I was in-dream hallucinating that my parents and sibling were with me. In the dream, I could suddenly see health bars but nothing outside the car. There was a lurch and my sibling took some damage, but my parents’ life bars drained to zero… and then I woke up in the dream, and then my alarm went off 

*huuuugs* 

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

6 hours ago, Spark of Hope said:

I just woke up from a dream… I was going on a trip to a really beautiful place with some friends from church, and my mom and sibling were dropping me off. It was raining a little bit and because of flow of traffic, they left before I could get a good goodbye. I texted my sibling to ask my mom if she could turn around to say goodbye, but my mom said she couldn’t. I was being driven to a drive thru to get water, but I was in-dream hallucinating that my parents and sibling were with me. In the dream, I could suddenly see health bars but nothing outside the car. There was a lurch and my sibling took some damage, but my parents’ life bars drained to zero… and then I woke up in the dream, and then my alarm went off 

That’s the kind of dream I wake up crying from. 

*hug* 

[Through the Living Hope]

Just now, The Halcyon Girl said:

That’s the kind of dream I wake up crying from. 

*hug* 

Well, I did, so... and then I cried as I told and hugged each parent

[OOKLA_the LIV She/They/Lesbian/hungry]

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I cant do this anymore. I am currently on my porch in the freezing cold crying. My mom keeps getting on my back about cleaning my room all the way. She gave me a list with everything wrong, and it is a really long list. like really long list. Today is not my fu--ing day for fu--ing lists. This week my room got pretty bad. I dont have the time to clean it out all the way. I have pretty good grades in all honor classes and after having skipped math grade. I have SEVERE depression and anxiety. I spend most nights staying up past midnight doing homework, trying to get everything in on time. Then I go to school early in the morning after almost no sleep, and do my best to take the notes, to get a good grade on the quiz, pay attention to remember the stuff for the pop quiz the next class, and get a but-ton of homework from every class. When I point this out to my mom, she immediatly points at my extra curriculars, theatre and choir. She told me that if things dont turn around, then we might have to cut me off from those things.

I cant be both. I CANT. She can have her daughter who goes to church every week and has all A´s and a perfectly clean bedroom, but that girl wont last more then a week. If she takes away my extracurriculars, she will have that perfect daughter, but that daughter will want to die. That daughter will find a fu--ing way. I dont want to want to die, but if you take away the only thing that makes me want to get up in the morning, then i will not make it. And honestly sometimes I wish she would do that so I would have a goda_m  excuse. 

I am only here because I have opportunities to stop stressing. I am only here because of the breaks, and friends, and books and moments of free time. She can either have a girl who has okay grades, an okay room, and want to live past the week, or she can have the storming opposite.

AND i started an adhd med today and am so tired. I fell asleep in math and my teacher sent me to the nurse because she was genuinly worried about me.  I cant deal with this sh!-t today. I just cant.

 

Edited November 23, 2024 by LIV_SB-DustBringer

[Vyzkel He/Him]

2 minutes ago, LIV_SB-DustBringer said:

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I cant do this anymore. I am currently on my porch in the freezing cold crying. My mom keeps getting on my back about cleaning my room all the way. She gave me a list with everything wrong, and it is a really long list. like really long list. Today is not my fu--ing day for fu--ing lists. This week my room got pretty bad. I dont have the time to clean it out all the way. I have pretty good grades in all honor classes and after having skipped math grade. I have SEVERE depression and anxiety. I spend most nights staying up past midnight doing homework, trying to get everything in on time. Then I go to school early in the morning after almost no sleep, and do my best to take the notes, to get a good grade on the quiz, pay attention to remember the stuff for the pop quiz the next class, and get a but-ton of homework from every class. When I point this out to my mom, she immediatly points at my extra curriculars, theatre and choir. She told me that if things dont turn around, then we might have to cut me off from those things.

I cant be both. I CANT. She can have her daughter who goes to church every week and has all A´s and a perfectly clean bedroom, but that girl wont last more then a week. If she takes away my extracurriculars, she will have that perfect daughter, but that daughter will want to die. That daughter will find a fu--ing way. I dont want to want to die, but if you take away the only thing that makes me want to get up in the morning, then i will not make it. And honestly sometimes I wish she would do that so I would have a goda_m  excuse. 

I am only here because I have opportunities to stop stressing. I am only here because of the breaks, and friends, and books and moments of free time. She can either have a girl who has okay grades, an okay room, and want to live past the week, or she can have the storming opposite.

 

*big hugs*

I wish I could say something, but this is all I can do for now.

[TwinStorm He/Him]

6 minutes ago, LIV_SB-DustBringer said:

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I cant do this anymore. I am currently on my porch in the freezing cold crying. My mom keeps getting on my back about cleaning my room all the way. She gave me a list with everything wrong, and it is a really long list. like really long list. Today is not my fu--ing day for fu--ing lists. This week my room got pretty bad. I dont have the time to clean it out all the way. I have pretty good grades in all honor classes and after having skipped math grade. I have SEVERE depression and anxiety. I spend most nights staying up past midnight doing homework, trying to get everything in on time. Then I go to school early in the morning after almost no sleep, and do my best to take the notes, to get a good grade on the quiz, pay attention to remember the stuff for the pop quiz the next class, and get a but-ton of homework from every class. When I point this out to my mom, she immediatly points at my extra curriculars, theatre and choir. She told me that if things dont turn around, then we might have to cut me off from those things.

I cant be both. I CANT. She can have her daughter who goes to church every week and has all A´s and a perfectly clean bedroom, but that girl wont last more then a week. If she takes away my extracurriculars, she will have that perfect daughter, but that daughter will want to die. That daughter will find a fu--ing way. I dont want to want to die, but if you take away the only thing that makes me want to get up in the morning, then i will not make it. And honestly sometimes I wish she would do that so I would have a goda_m  excuse. 

I am only here because I have opportunities to stop stressing. I am only here because of the breaks, and friends, and books and moments of free time. She can either have a girl who has okay grades, an okay room, and want to live past the week, or she can have the storming opposite.

AND i started an adhd med today and am so tired. I fell asleep in math and my teacher sent me to the nurse because she was genuinly worried about me.  I cant deal with this sh!-t today. I just cant.

 

*hugs*

you're incredible, sweet and funny, Liv. I hope the world knows that.

[OOKLA_the LIV She/They/Lesbian/hungry]

i just want to be done. 

all i want is to be done and i dont know what to do.

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i tried to  c--u t but i wasnt strong enough. i was to scared of the pain. i dont know how to feel better

 and NOTHING works

Edited November 23, 2024 by LIV_SB-DustBringer

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

33 minutes ago, LIV_SB-DustBringer said:

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I cant do this anymore. I am currently on my porch in the freezing cold crying. My mom keeps getting on my back about cleaning my room all the way. She gave me a list with everything wrong, and it is a really long list. like really long list. Today is not my fu--ing day for fu--ing lists. This week my room got pretty bad. I dont have the time to clean it out all the way. I have pretty good grades in all honor classes and after having skipped math grade. I have SEVERE depression and anxiety. I spend most nights staying up past midnight doing homework, trying to get everything in on time. Then I go to school early in the morning after almost no sleep, and do my best to take the notes, to get a good grade on the quiz, pay attention to remember the stuff for the pop quiz the next class, and get a but-ton of homework from every class. When I point this out to my mom, she immediatly points at my extra curriculars, theatre and choir. She told me that if things dont turn around, then we might have to cut me off from those things.

I cant be both. I CANT. She can have her daughter who goes to church every week and has all A´s and a perfectly clean bedroom, but that girl wont last more then a week. If she takes away my extracurriculars, she will have that perfect daughter, but that daughter will want to die. That daughter will find a fu--ing way. I dont want to want to die, but if you take away the only thing that makes me want to get up in the morning, then i will not make it. And honestly sometimes I wish she would do that so I would have a goda_m  excuse. 

I am only here because I have opportunities to stop stressing. I am only here because of the breaks, and friends, and books and moments of free time. She can either have a girl who has okay grades, an okay room, and want to live past the week, or she can have the storming opposite.

AND i started an adhd med today and am so tired. I fell asleep in math and my teacher sent me to the nurse because she was genuinly worried about me.  I cant deal with this sh!-t today. I just cant.

 

*hugs*

Oh, Liv.

I'm so sorry.

You're amazing and sweet and kind and wonderful. I hope things get better quickly. 

1 minute ago, LIV_SB-DustBringer said:

i just want to be done. 

all i want is to be done and i dont know what to do.

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i tried to  c--u t but i wasnt strong enough. i was to scared of the pain. i dont know how to feel better

 and NOTHING works

I hope you know you're loved, Liv. Not only by people but by God, as well.

[Through the Living Wrath he/him]

47 minutes ago, LIV_SB-DustBringer said:

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I cant do this anymore. I am currently on my porch in the freezing cold crying. My mom keeps getting on my back about cleaning my room all the way. She gave me a list with everything wrong, and it is a really long list. like really long list. Today is not my fu--ing day for fu--ing lists. This week my room got pretty bad. I dont have the time to clean it out all the way. I have pretty good grades in all honor classes and after having skipped math grade. I have SEVERE depression and anxiety. I spend most nights staying up past midnight doing homework, trying to get everything in on time. Then I go to school early in the morning after almost no sleep, and do my best to take the notes, to get a good grade on the quiz, pay attention to remember the stuff for the pop quiz the next class, and get a but-ton of homework from every class. When I point this out to my mom, she immediatly points at my extra curriculars, theatre and choir. She told me that if things dont turn around, then we might have to cut me off from those things.

I cant be both. I CANT. She can have her daughter who goes to church every week and has all A´s and a perfectly clean bedroom, but that girl wont last more then a week. If she takes away my extracurriculars, she will have that perfect daughter, but that daughter will want to die. That daughter will find a fu--ing way. I dont want to want to die, but if you take away the only thing that makes me want to get up in the morning, then i will not make it. And honestly sometimes I wish she would do that so I would have a goda_m  excuse. 

I am only here because I have opportunities to stop stressing. I am only here because of the breaks, and friends, and books and moments of free time. She can either have a girl who has okay grades, an okay room, and want to live past the week, or she can have the storming opposite.

AND i started an adhd med today and am so tired. I fell asleep in math and my teacher sent me to the nurse because she was genuinly worried about me.  I cant deal with this sh!-t today. I just cant.

 

 

11 minutes ago, LIV_SB-DustBringer said:

i just want to be done. 

all i want is to be done and i dont know what to do.

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i tried to  c--u t but i wasnt strong enough. i was to scared of the pain. i dont know how to feel better

 and NOTHING works

I am so sorry, Liv.

I wish for you to know that you are capable. And that you can do it. 
And that you are funny, and smart. And that I always smile a bit when I see the little demon duck carrying a dagger. 

Edited November 23, 2024 by SpiritOfWrath

[TwinStorm He/Him]

14 minutes ago, LIV_SB-DustBringer said:

i just want to be done. 

all i want is to be done and i dont know what to do.

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i tried to  c--u t but i wasnt strong enough. i was to scared of the pain. i dont know how to feel better

 and NOTHING works

Liv... just take it one day at a time, and remember, there's light at the end of the tunnel. Somebody loves you. Think about how they would feel. Somebody always cares, even if you don't know it. Don't think in terms for the present, remember there is a brighter future ahead. 

[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

9 hours ago, LIV_SB-DustBringer said:

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I cant do this anymore. I am currently on my porch in the freezing cold crying. My mom keeps getting on my back about cleaning my room all the way. She gave me a list with everything wrong, and it is a really long list. like really long list. Today is not my fu--ing day for fu--ing lists. This week my room got pretty bad. I dont have the time to clean it out all the way. I have pretty good grades in all honor classes and after having skipped math grade. I have SEVERE depression and anxiety. I spend most nights staying up past midnight doing homework, trying to get everything in on time. Then I go to school early in the morning after almost no sleep, and do my best to take the notes, to get a good grade on the quiz, pay attention to remember the stuff for the pop quiz the next class, and get a but-ton of homework from every class. When I point this out to my mom, she immediatly points at my extra curriculars, theatre and choir. She told me that if things dont turn around, then we might have to cut me off from those things.

I cant be both. I CANT. She can have her daughter who goes to church every week and has all A´s and a perfectly clean bedroom, but that girl wont last more then a week. If she takes away my extracurriculars, she will have that perfect daughter, but that daughter will want to die. That daughter will find a fu--ing way. I dont want to want to die, but if you take away the only thing that makes me want to get up in the morning, then i will not make it. And honestly sometimes I wish she would do that so I would have a goda_m  excuse. 

I am only here because I have opportunities to stop stressing. I am only here because of the breaks, and friends, and books and moments of free time. She can either have a girl who has okay grades, an okay room, and want to live past the week, or she can have the storming opposite.

AND i started an adhd med today and am so tired. I fell asleep in math and my teacher sent me to the nurse because she was genuinly worried about me.  I cant deal with this sh!-t today. I just cant.

 

9 hours ago, LIV_SB-DustBringer said:

i just want to be done. 

all i want is to be done and i dont know what to do.

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i tried to  c--u t but i wasnt strong enough. i was to scared of the pain. i dont know how to feel better

 and NOTHING works

*hugs*

I know we haven't interacted much, but from everything I've seen, you are a really cool and fun and sweet and brave person. And I really wish things will go better for you eventually.

Please try to get your mother to understand that the current situation is really unhealthy and not sustainable at all. You probably have already said her that, but is there someone you could get to talk to her? A family member you trust, a doctor, a teacher?

If you want to talk/vent, my PMs will always be open. I might not answer immediately (timezones) but I will listen and answer.

*big hugs*

[strmblsd he/him]

to put it as short as I can it was my supposedly close friends birthday party today. I'm the only not invited... again

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

2 minutes ago, Ookla The Loser OfThe Game said:

to put it as short as I can it was my supposedly close friends birthday party today. I'm the only not invited... again

oh

*hugs*

The same friends?

[Through the Living Wrath he/him]

4 minutes ago, Ookla The Loser OfThe Game said:

to put it as short as I can it was my supposedly close friends birthday party today. I'm the only not invited... again

*hug as well*
Sorry.

[strmblsd he/him]

4 minutes ago, Ookla the Inconclusive said:

oh

*hugs*

The same friends?

yep same ones

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 minute ago, Ookla The Loser OfThe Game said:

yep same ones

Maybe . . . you should find some new people.

As hard as it is to do that . . . I'm sorry.

[strmblsd he/him]

7 minutes ago, Ookla the Inconclusive said:

Maybe . . . you should find some new people.

As hard as it is to do that . . . I'm sorry.

yeah I know... I need to.. if you have ANY questions or anything you wanna know just ask

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

2 minutes ago, Ookla The Loser OfThe Game said:

yeah I know... I need to.. if you have ANY questions or anything you wanna know just ask

I don't, but . . . I'm still sorry.

[strmblsd he/him]

Just now, Ookla the Inconclusive said:

I don't, but . . . I'm still sorry.

its fine. I'll be ok.i played a game with my brother for a long time and it helped

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

Just now, Ookla The Loser OfThe Game said:

its fine. I'll be ok.i played a game with my brother for a long time and it helped

Oh. Well . . . that's good.

I'm still sorry though.

I hope things turn out. *tight hug*

[strmblsd he/him]

3 minutes ago, Ookla the Inconclusive said:

Oh. Well . . . that's good.

I'm still sorry though.

I hope things turn out. *tight hug*

thank you. your one of the most supportive people I (sorta in a way) know