Having a Bad Day?: Get 'yer Hugs here!!

[Pestis the Spider she/her]

Basically what happened is that I stopped replying in a round Sanderson Elimination. it may seem stupid, but that is enough to keep me away from here even forever. I might be paranoid a bit. But thank for welcoming me back, that is really reassuring. 

On 4.06.2017 at 11:31 AM, Idealistic Mistborn said:

*hugs* sorry to hear that,sounds awful.

Yesterday I had a pretty bad day too, I had an important exam but I couldn't do it because like an hour before the exam's begining I had an anxiety attack, I couldn't breathe and I was crying a lot.So now I'm gonna spend all the summer studyng because I need to pass this subject in September.

Oh, god, that's awful. I totally know how you feel, as this year I missed two of my exams due to anxiety attack (they were day after day), and I'm still don't know if they will let me try these exams again. I hope you get better and you pass your exams.

Edited June 5, 2017 by Pestis the Spider

[Sparkrunner he/him]

Well, stay wary of the contribution crusaders, but have some *hugs*.

[Pestis the Spider she/her]

I am currently on holidays at my parents house, so I left my pet rats with a friend. Just 5 minutes ago, I got a text that one of my rats was crushed by a sofa and died. omg. 

[Erandeni he/him]

@A Budgie@Slowswift@Pestis the Spider Thanks guys! I am better now and ready to a month full of exams.

[Delightful]

17 minutes ago, Pestis the Spider said:

I am currently on holidays at my parents house, so I left my pet rats with a friend. Just 5 minutes ago, I got a text that one of my rats was crushed by a sofa and died. omg. 

OMG  

[ryshadium90]

27 minutes ago, Pestis the Spider said:

I am currently on holidays at my parents house, so I left my pet rats with a friend. Just 5 minutes ago, I got a text that one of my rats was crushed by a sofa and died. omg. 

I'm sorry! May your pet rat go to a place with lots of food to eat and time to watch over his/her loved ones (you). What was his/her name?

[Pestis the Spider she/her]

damnation. She was only 6 months old. Her name was Freya and she was such a lovely pet. And I treat my pets like my babies almost. She died way too soon, and in a way too cruel way. I loved her so much, and now she's gone, and I can't even go and hug my other rats, because I am in Poland. And they are probably just as sad as I am. I really can't believe that has just happened. Sorry, for long complaining here, but I am crying pretty bad now. Jeezuz. 

[ryshadium90]

Ah! No, don't cry! I'm sorry if I just started you into a human water pump! *facepalm* I've never really had a pet, but I've known some animals well enough to call them my own, so I can sympathize. That's a beautiful name by the way. *hugs* I don't know if you've heard of this, but some (fantasy) stories have it that when a loved one passes away, their spirit can be seen as dust/sparkle like in the stars as they ascend to heaven. Maybe you'll see her and can tell her you love her. 

[Pestis the Spider she/her]

It's not you. I was crying before you even asked. I was just absolutely unprepared for that. And I don't believe in any form of life after death, so she's just gone. I won't see her again. I don't even want to see her again, so she doesn't remind me of her death. She deserved better carer than me and better longer life. When I bought her I promised the breeder I will take good care of all of them, but I failed, and now one of them is gone. 

[Delightful]

2 minutes ago, Pestis the Spider said:

It's not you. I was crying before you even asked. I was just absolutely unprepared for that. And I don't believe in any form of life after death, so she's just gone. I won't see her again. I don't even want to see her again, so she doesn't remind me of her death. She deserved better carer than me and better longer life. When I bought her I promised the breeder I will take good care of all of them, but I failed, and now one of them is gone. 

*hugs*

Sometimes bad things just happen and there's nothing we can do. I'm sorry for your loss. 

[Erandeni he/him]

@Pestis the Spider*hugs* I had pets too, so I feel you, we are here for you.

[Mestiv he/him]

@Pestis the Spider I know your pain. We had 4 little kittens die in our hands this November because of a virus The pain after such loss is terrible, all the hugs to you *hugs* be strong

[Sunbird she/her]

@Pestis the Spider I'm so sorry you lost Freya. I didn't even know her and I'm crying too, because I know what it feels like to lose a pet. *all the hugs*

[Sunbird she/her]

1 hour ago, Queen Elsa Steelheart said:

I hate school. I hate the stress. I am so close to dropping out. I'm halfway through year 12, but considering I've been suicidal for two weeks in a row, I'm pretty much ready to give up. I'm emotionally and physically exhausted, I'm unmotivated as hell, and I'm ready to lie down in the middle of the road and let a truck crush me. I hate that I'm being ignored at home and at school. I'm too stressed to study, I don't want to work and my dream of becoming a doctor is literally gone. I see no point in going on.

People tell me things are going to get better, but to be honest I'm not believing them anymore. I tried to stab myself in the pelvis last night (because I've been in so much physical pain there and my parents wouldn't believe me) but the knife wasn't sharp enough because my parents have hid all the swiss army knives.

 

I don't bother telling anyone how I feel because all it ends in is school suspension. I have so many trust issues. I merely feel like a spare part, everywhere I go. 

*huge hugs*

I don't really know what to say. I hate that you're suffering, and I want to help you feel better and more optimistic about the future, but I don't know what I can do or say to accomplish that. Please know that we all love you and care deeply about you, Elsa. Even though it feels like your life is falling apart right now, keep going. We would be devastated if we lost you. Hang in there. *more huge hugs*

Edited June 6, 2017 by Sunbirb

[A Budgie she/her]

1 hour ago, Queen Elsa Steelheart said:

I hate school. I hate the stress. I am so close to dropping out. I'm halfway through year 12, but considering I've been suicidal for two weeks in a row, I'm pretty much ready to give up. I'm emotionally and physically exhausted, I'm unmotivated as hell, and I'm ready to lie down in the middle of the road and let a truck crush me. I hate that I'm being ignored at home and at school. I'm too stressed to study, I don't want to work and my dream of becoming a doctor is literally gone. I see no point in going on.

People tell me things are going to get better, but to be honest I'm not believing them anymore. I tried to stab myself in the pelvis last night (because I've been in so much physical pain there and my parents wouldn't believe me) but the knife wasn't sharp enough because my parents have hid all the swiss army knives.

 

I don't bother telling anyone how I feel because all it ends in is school suspension. I have so many trust issues. I merely feel like a spare part, everywhere I go. 

*ALL OF THE HUGS!*
I'm really sorry to hear all of that. But remember, we're here for you and we care about you, okay?

[StrikerEZ he/him]

3 hours ago, Queen Elsa Steelheart said:

I hate school. I hate the stress. I am so close to dropping out. I'm halfway through year 12, but considering I've been suicidal for two weeks in a row, I'm pretty much ready to give up. I'm emotionally and physically exhausted, I'm unmotivated as hell, and I'm ready to lie down in the middle of the road and let a truck crush me. I hate that I'm being ignored at home and at school. I'm too stressed to study, I don't want to work and my dream of becoming a doctor is literally gone. I see no point in going on.

People tell me things are going to get better, but to be honest I'm not believing them anymore. I tried to stab myself in the pelvis last night (because I've been in so much physical pain there and my parents wouldn't believe me) but the knife wasn't sharp enough because my parents have hid all the swiss army knives.

 

I don't bother telling anyone how I feel because all it ends in is school suspension. I have so many trust issues. I merely feel like a spare part, everywhere I go. 

*giant hugs*

Hey, we're here for you. Even when everything in your real life may seem to be going horribly, we will still always be here for you. I know it really, really, really seems tough right now, but I know it can get better. Plus, you're only halfway through that hellhole right now. By the time it's over, you'll look back on it and be so glad that you survived it. We all care for you here, so please, stay safe and don't do anything too brash. Heck, if you need help, I'm sure there are several hotlines in Australia that you can call and would help you with this. Just know that we really do care about you here.

*hugging intensifies*

 

[Queen Elsa Steelheart she/her]

1 hour ago, StrikerEZ said:

*giant hugs*

Hey, we're here for you. Even when everything in your real life may seem to be going horribly, we will still always be here for you. I know it really, really, really seems tough right now, but I know it can get better. Plus, you're only halfway through that hellhole right now. By the time it's over, you'll look back on it and be so glad that you survived it. We all care for you here, so please, stay safe and don't do anything too brash. Heck, if you need help, I'm sure there are several hotlines in Australia that you can call and would help you with this. Just know that we really do care about you here.

*hugging intensifies*

 

 

3 hours ago, A Budgie said:

*ALL OF THE HUGS!*
I'm really sorry to hear all of that. But remember, we're here for you and we care about you, okay?

 

3 hours ago, A Budgie said:

*ALL OF THE HUGS!*
I'm really sorry to hear all of that. But remember, we're here for you and we care about you, okay?

 

3 hours ago, Sunbirb said:

*huge hugs*

I don't really know what to say. I hate that you're suffering, and I want to help you feel better and more optimistic about the future, but I don't know what I can do or say to accomplish that. Please know that we all love you and care deeply about you, Elsa. Even though it feels like your life is falling apart right now, keep going. We would be devastated if we lost you. Hang in there. *more huge hugs*

Thank you for the support guys. Much appreciated  

[Jondesu he/him]

5 hours ago, Queen Elsa Steelheart said:

I hate school. I hate the stress. I am so close to dropping out. I'm halfway through year 12, but considering I've been suicidal for two weeks in a row, I'm pretty much ready to give up. I'm emotionally and physically exhausted, I'm unmotivated as hell, and I'm ready to lie down in the middle of the road and let a truck crush me. I hate that I'm being ignored at home and at school. I'm too stressed to study, I don't want to work and my dream of becoming a doctor is literally gone. I see no point in going on.

People tell me things are going to get better, but to be honest I'm not believing them anymore. I tried to stab myself in the pelvis last night (because I've been in so much physical pain there and my parents wouldn't believe me) but the knife wasn't sharp enough because my parents have hid all the swiss army knives.

 

I don't bother telling anyone how I feel because all it ends in is school suspension. I have so many trust issues. I merely feel like a spare part, everywhere I go. 

I'm gonna take a different tact from some of the others, since I've been in your shoes and still am much of the time (you've probably seen me post about the chulldung in my life):

I don't know if life is going to get better.  I can't tell you it will, because I have no storming way to know.

What I do know, and what pulled me back from the brink, is that there are people who will be absolutely rusting crushed if you kill yourself. Torn to pieces, driven to the edge themselves, absolutely destroyed. Because they love you. And they don't want you to die, sure, but they also really don't want you to take your own life, because they want to help you instead. Just because there aren't many in your life, or they aren't acting like it, or they're not close by, don't let yourself believe your death wouldn't be a world-shattering tragedy for those who love you.

You matter to someone. You matter to a lot of us here, and you matter to your family even if they act like cremlings. Life will always bring something new. And that new thing might suck too. But your life is important and you can rusting get through this.

[Claincy he/him]

6 hours ago, Queen Elsa Steelheart said:

I hate school. I hate the stress. I am so close to dropping out. I'm halfway through year 12, but considering I've been suicidal for two weeks in a row, I'm pretty much ready to give up. I'm emotionally and physically exhausted, I'm unmotivated as hell, and I'm ready to lie down in the middle of the road and let a truck crush me. I hate that I'm being ignored at home and at school. I'm too stressed to study, I don't want to work and my dream of becoming a doctor is literally gone. I see no point in going on.

People tell me things are going to get better, but to be honest I'm not believing them anymore. I tried to stab myself in the pelvis last night (because I've been in so much physical pain there and my parents wouldn't believe me) but the knife wasn't sharp enough because my parents have hid all the swiss army knives.

 

I don't bother telling anyone how I feel because all it ends in is school suspension. I have so many trust issues. I merely feel like a spare part, everywhere I go. 

I'd like to echo what the others said above and add a piece of advice (if you think it's stupid just ignore it). I'm coming from a similar direction to Jondesu here as I've just reached the 4 year mark of being in constant pain. So unsurprisingly this has been on my mind a bit lately. Most aspects of life get better and worse over time and new good and bad things happen but some bad things do stick around. It really helps to find just 1 or 2 things that are unrelated to all the crem going on and that you really care about. Not just long term things that will hopefully come to fruition years in the future but things that you can do right now. For me that's my faith and tabletop roleplaying games but it can really be anything. Whether that's making a new series of videos, writing music, writing fiction, a game, a sport, a social group, faith or something else entirely. Something that is present in the short term (though something that pays off in both the short and long term is great) and that you can look forward to on a daily or weekly basis and/or actively make progress towards.

I can be struggling to cope with the pain, feeling like there's no end to it and that I'm screwing up my job because I haven't been up to working. And on top of that I'm not making any progress towards my real goals. Then at the end of the week or fortnight I sit down and run an RPG for friends and see the enjoyment they get out of it. Thinking about crafting the adventure that they draw that enjoyment from and creating specific things they will enjoy is something that helps sustain me throughout the rest of the time. My point there is that sometimes it can be something that you do for others as much as for yourself, if you feel like you are positively impacting others (like you are already doing on this forum btw) it can help.

I'm not saying that is easy, it's not. But finding and actively choosing a thing or two like that to focus on when it's bad can help.

[Steeldancer he/him]

15 hours ago, Queen Elsa Steelheart said:

I hate school. I hate the stress. I am so close to dropping out. I'm halfway through year 12, but considering I've been suicidal for two weeks in a row, I'm pretty much ready to give up. I'm emotionally and physically exhausted, I'm unmotivated as hell, and I'm ready to lie down in the middle of the road and let a truck crush me. I hate that I'm being ignored at home and at school. I'm too stressed to study, I don't want to work and my dream of becoming a doctor is literally gone. I see no point in going on.

People tell me things are going to get better, but to be honest I'm not believing them anymore. I tried to stab myself in the pelvis last night (because I've been in so much physical pain there and my parents wouldn't believe me) but the knife wasn't sharp enough because my parents have hid all the swiss army knives.

 

I don't bother telling anyone how I feel because all it ends in is school suspension. I have so many trust issues. I merely feel like a spare part, everywhere I go. 

All I can say is to find something you love. That's what keeps me going. 

[Sunbird she/her]

It's barely 9am and I'm already having a completely cremmy day. I was woken up early by my stomach trying to tie itself in knots and ended up losing last night's dinner all over my bathroom floor. So I have the onerous task of cleaning that up while I still feel rotten. And as if that weren't bad enough, I also managed to gouge my finger open on one of the cleaning tools.

[Hemalurgic Headshot he/him]

22 minutes ago, Sunbirb said:

It's barely 9am and I'm already having a completely cremmy day. I was woken up early by my stomach trying to tie itself in knots and ended up losing last night's dinner all over my bathroom floor. So I have the onerous task of cleaning that up while I still feel rotten. And as if that weren't bad enough, I also managed to gouge my finger open on one of the cleaning tools.

Hugs. More hugs. Did I forget to mention hugs?

[ryshadium90]

1 hour ago, Sunbirb said:

It's barely 9am and I'm already having a completely cremmy day. I was woken up early by my stomach trying to tie itself in knots and ended up losing last night's dinner all over my bathroom floor. So I have the onerous task of cleaning that up while I still feel rotten. And as if that weren't bad enough, I also managed to gouge my finger open on one of the cleaning tools.

I can offer you a Band-Aid. Would you like Ninja Turtles or Captain America?

[Sunbird she/her]

@ryshadium90 Captain America! Thanks. You made me smile  And thank you also to @Hemalurgic_Headshot for the hugs.

[Darkness Ascendant he/him]

*stumbles in
AAAAAAH *HUGS EVERYONE*
>> love you all XD

(It's really hard for me to be here for some reason, I would respond more...but it is genuinely painful spending time here >> I don't know why, suspicions only >> Sorry >>)