Having a Bad Day?: Get 'yer Hugs here!!

[Briar King]

Omg! Manchester. I'm so angry right now. Explosions at a Ariana Grande concert packed with kids. 

[Hemalurgic Headshot he/him]

1 minute ago, Queen Elsa Steelheart said:

What a terrible day. Where do I even begin?

 

Yesterday was 12th grade photos, the last photos we were ever going to have. I was ignored by my year, as usual, but the worst part was that during the 12th grade muckup photo, my friends took a selfie and pushed me out the way so I wasn't in the selfie. I nearly fell off the stupid photo stand and the whole year yelled at me. It hurt so bad emotionally. I smiled for the photo, but it was the fakest smile I've ever done in my life. I want to burn that stupid photo when it gets printed. 

 

I quit my school service of prayer leading the year 9 girls. They have treated me like crap and I've had enough. They gain up on me, graffiti on the desk, answer back and when I tell the head teacher they are graffiting, they crowd me at lunch and make me feel guilty. On Thursday and Friday they made me cry.

 

To top it off, after I announced to them saying I resigned from my position, they started coming up to me saying "Oh Jess, why did you quit? We were so nice to you!"

I completely lost it. "crem dung!" I yelled. "IF YOU GUYS WERE NICE TO ME WHY WOULD I QUIT! YOU GUYS TREATED ME LIKE rust!"

 

Then at dancing I mucked up in part of the dance and everyone was whispering and laughing at me. I went to the bathroom and sobbed my eyes out. In my four years at dance, I've never cried at dance. 

 

I was still in a crappy mood this morning and so I was quite snappy. The career advisor got on my nerves. (I've never liked her in the first place because in year 10 she made me cry when told me I would never be a doctor) Today  the career's advisor was treating me like a baby. I was printing something out for Ancient History (I got permission from my teacher) and she comes up to me and is like "You're wandering around like a lost sheep!" Then I tell her I got permission. Then when I go into the office to get scissors because I left my at home, I run into her again at the office (UGHH) I get handed the scissors and she starts with the babying again. She's like; "Oh, be careful with those! Don't run with them! It's very dangerous!

I completely lost it again. I get pissed and say "Miss!! I am 18!! I am an adult and NOT in primary school! I KNOW how to use scissors!!!"

By the time I got home last night. I was suicidal. I'm still pretty pissed today, but pretending everything is fine. I know I'm going to blow sooner or later.

All the hugs. And more hugs. You want some more hugs? Have some hugs. Just ask for more hugs.

[Queen Elsa Steelheart she/her]

Just now, Hemalurgic_Headshot said:

All the hugs. And more hugs. You want some more hugs? Have some hugs. Just ask for more hugs.

I need an infinite amount of hugs *hugs*

[Hemalurgic Headshot he/him]

1 minute ago, Queen Elsa Steelheart said:

I need an infinite amount of hugs *hugs*

More hugs! Hughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughgughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughug...

[Queen Elsa Steelheart she/her]

Just now, Hemalurgic_Headshot said:

More hugs! Hughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughgughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughug...

That feels better

[Hemalurgic Headshot he/him]

1 minute ago, Queen Elsa Steelheart said:

That feels better

Here to help.

[Queen Elsa Steelheart she/her]

Just now, Hemalurgic_Headshot said:

Here to help.

*hugs* more hugs for good luck

[Hemalurgic Headshot he/him]

Just now, Queen Elsa Steelheart said:

*hugs* more hugs for good luck

Just let me copy/paste that other post... 

And you reached 2,222 posts! Congratulations!

[Queen Elsa Steelheart she/her]

Just now, Hemalurgic_Headshot said:

Just let me copy/paste that other post... 

And you reached 2,222 posts! Congratulations!

*gasp* 

 

*happy dance* Thank you!  95% of them are probably about Frozen XD

[Briar King]

19 dead 50 injured so far. I fear it will only be more as more news comes in.  so mad

[StrikerEZ he/him]

55 minutes ago, Queen Elsa Steelheart said:

What a terrible day. Where do I even begin?

 

Yesterday was 12th grade photos, the last photos we were ever going to have. I was ignored by my year, as usual, but the worst part was that during the 12th grade muckup photo, my friends took a selfie and pushed me out the way so I wasn't in the selfie. I nearly fell off the stupid photo stand and the whole year yelled at me. It hurt so bad emotionally. I smiled for the photo, but it was the fakest smile I've ever done in my life. I want to burn that stupid photo when it gets printed. 

 

I quit my school service of prayer leading the year 9 girls. They have treated me like crap and I've had enough. They gain up on me, graffiti on the desk, answer back and when I tell the head teacher they are graffiting, they crowd me at lunch and make me feel guilty. On Thursday and Friday they made me cry.

 

To top it off, after I announced to them saying I resigned from my position, they started coming up to me saying "Oh Jess, why did you quit? We were so nice to you!"

I completely lost it. "crem dung!" I yelled.  (i didn't yell that but 17s doesn't let it swore) "IF YOU GUYS WERE SO NICE TO ME WHY WOULD I QUIT! YOU GUYS TREATED ME LIKE rust!" (swear word again for the word poop) 

 

Then at dancing I mucked up in part of the dance and everyone was whispering and laughing at me. I went to the bathroom and sobbed my eyes out. In my four years at dance, I've never cried at dance. 

 

I was still in a crappy mood this morning and so I was quite snappy. The career advisor got on my nerves. (I've never liked her in the first place because in year 10 she made me cry when told me I would never be a doctor) Today  the career's advisor was treating me like a baby. I was printing something out for Ancient History (I got permission from my teacher) and she comes up to me and is like "You're wandering around like a lost sheep!" Then I tell her I got permission. Then when I go into the office to get scissors because I left my at home, I run into her again at the office (UGHH) I get handed the scissors and she starts with the babying again. She's like; "Oh, be careful with those! Don't run with them! It's very dangerous!

I completely lost it again. I get pissed and say "Miss!! I am 18!! I am an adult and NOT in primary school! I KNOW how to use scissors!!!"

By the time I got home last night. I was suicidal. I'm still pretty pissed today, but pretending everything is fine. I know I'm going to blow sooner or later.

I just want you to know that, no matter how tough things get, we'll always be here for you.

*hugs and never lets go*

[Orlion Blight he/him]

29 minutes ago, Briar King said:

19 dead 50 injured so far. I fear it will only be more as more news comes in.  so mad

I hear you. 

 

[A Budgie she/her]

@Queen Elsa Steelheart *all of the hugs* That sounds awful.

[Queen Elsa Steelheart she/her]

Laughed at in English.  It just doesn't storming stop, does it?!

I've reached the end of the line. I can't leave school because I'll miss lessons.

 

I don't want to do this anymore. I want to die.

[Mestiv he/him]

2 hours ago, Briar King said:

Omg! Manchester. I'm so angry right now. Explosions at a Ariana Grande concert packed with kids. 

 

2 hours ago, Briar King said:

19 dead 50 injured so far. I fear it will only be more as more news comes in.  so mad

Is this a terrorist attack? What happened? if ISIS did it I think they're gonna eat a lot of US missiles in a couple of days... 

54 minutes ago, Queen Elsa Steelheart said:

Laughed at in English.  It just doesn't storming stop, does it?!

I've reached the end of the line. I can't leave school because I'll miss lessons.

 

I don't want to do this anymore. I want to die.

Isn't the school about to end? Keep going, you're close to being free from all this crem! 

[Queen Elsa Steelheart she/her]

7 minutes ago, Mestiv said:

 

Is this a terrorist attack? What happened? if ISIS did it I think they're gonna eat a lot of US missiles in a couple of days... 

Isn't the school about to end? Keep going, you're close to being free from all this crem! 

School ends 17th September. It's different in Australia.

Edited May 23, 2017 by Queen Elsa Steelheart

[Briar King]

@Mestiv I would assume it is indeed is an attack but idk if any group has claimed credit yet. I had to turn the news off as I was so pissed. No idea if it is a group or was just a lone suicide bomber but it was a known event with 1000's of children. Horrible news and much chaos has been made today.

 

ed: assumed suicide bomber indeed. Now to find out if they were a lone wolf or part of a cell.

Edited May 23, 2017 by Briar King

[Darkness Ascendant he/him]

@Queen Elsa Steelheart *hugs tightly* 

mm no you don't want to die, you want to push through all this and become a doctor, do all those things you told me about, *hugs tighter*

I'm here if you need to talk

[A Budgie she/her]

@Queen Elsa Steelheart I know I already gave hugs earlier but *MORE HUGS*

[Queen Elsa Steelheart she/her]

I don't want to live. I want to commit suicide. Things ain't getting better.

 

I swear I'm going to cut. I am finding it immpossible to function and i need to jump off a balcony. I just want to die. 

Stop telling me things are going to get better. If they were getting better each day would improve. I've got suicidal everyday this week. i just want to sleep....forever. 

[Mestiv he/him]

2 minutes ago, Queen Elsa Steelheart said:

I don't want to live. I want to commit suicide. Things ain't getting better.

 

I swear I'm going to cut. I am finding it immpossible to function and i need to jump off a balcony. I just want to die. 

Stop telling me things are going to get better. If they were getting better each day would improve. I've got suicidal everyday this week. i just want to sleep....forever. 

You don't want to die, you just want to get out of the toxic environment that you're currently in. This is hard, I know, I have no idea how your school system works etc, but you have to get out of the place you're in. Even if it results in failing a year and repeating it, do whatever you can to switch school or class. 

I know it's risky to write, but I also think you're starting to see things that are not necessarily there. Just because someone is saying something near you that you cannot hear, doesn't mean that it's about and against you. 

Remember, words can hurt only as much as you let them, and there is no one who can hurt you more than yourself. You are a valuable human being. You have flaws like everyone else. But you are NOT worse than the others! Stay strong, these days will pass no matter what you think. 

[Orlion Blight he/him]

@Queen Elsa Steelheart like Mestiv said, the principle desire you have is to escape a toxic situation. You believe you do not have many options, but you do. 

One thing you need to do is seek help. The following link is a phone number where you can speak and get help anonymously. By calling this number, you will be taking control of this crisis in a positive manner.

http://www.thesamaritans.org.au/?gclid=CjwKEAjwu4_JBRDpgs2RwsCbt1MSJABOY8ang22lOcJRoZdkYxTefPYLBKVmtVy30jIog8ckA-ZWrRoCzcXw_wcB

[Queen Elsa Steelheart she/her]

1 hour ago, Mestiv said:

You don't want to die, you just want to get out of the toxic environment that you're currently in. This is hard, I know, I have no idea how your school system works etc, but you have to get out of the place you're in. Even if it results in failing a year and repeating it, do whatever you can to switch school or class. 

I know it's risky to write, but I also think you're starting to see things that are not necessarily there. Just because someone is saying something near you that you cannot hear, doesn't mean that it's about and against you. 

Remember, words can hurt only as much as you let them, and there is no one who can hurt you more than yourself. You are a valuable human being. You have flaws like everyone else. But you are NOT worse than the others! Stay strong, these days will pass no matter what you think. 

 

12 minutes ago, Orlion On a Cob said:

@Queen Elsa Steelheart like Mestiv said, the principle desire you have is to escape a toxic situation. You believe you do not have many options, but you do. 

One thing you need to do is seek help. The following link is a phone number where you can speak and get help anonymously. By calling this number, you will be taking control of this crisis in a positive manner.

http://www.thesamaritans.org.au/?gclid=CjwKEAjwu4_JBRDpgs2RwsCbt1MSJABOY8ang22lOcJRoZdkYxTefPYLBKVmtVy30jIog8ckA-ZWrRoCzcXw_wcB

Thank you guys so much 

[A Budgie she/her]

So...

I got my marks back from an english essay and...I got 53%. And...I thought I was good at English? And I feel really bad for getting such a low mark. So, hugs? Please?

[Elenion he/him]

3 hours ago, A Budgie said:

So...

I got my marks back from an english essay and...I got 53%. And...I thought I was good at English? And I feel really bad for getting such a low mark. So, hugs? Please?

*Hug* English classes can be a pain because some teachers are just a butt with grading. It's why I prefer math. Your grade does not necessarily reflect on the quality of your writing.