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[TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her]

I got pulled over today. 

 

My tags were expired and I couldn't find my insurance card. I didn't get a ticket, but I did get a condescending lecture from the officer about how I'm 24 years old and I should be able to handle my own finances, and how the MVD isn't responsible for sending out late notices. (IT WAS IN MY OLD STATE, IT SHOULD BE HERE.) 

 

Turns out, I may have gotten a notice to renew my tags. I just never saw it because my mom checked the mail and left the notice, unopened, on the counter instead of giving it to me so I could renew. After opening the latest letter, I found out that I also owe late fees AND need an emissions test. 

 

MOM! Y U NO TELL ME THINGS?????? THIS SCREWS ME OVER, NOT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

 

And the worst part? If I tell her that this is her fault, that I'm the one who gets punished for her failure to put my mail in my hand (and she doesn't leave it out where I'll find it, either; sometimes she'll stuff it in a drawer or leave it in the car), I'll get punished for it. She'll give me this long lecture about how I need to be more responsible, or if I would check the mail once in a while, this wouldn't happen. I'm usually not home when the mail comes. I'm at work. I get home in the evening after someone else has checked the mail. So no matter what happens, this is my fault.

Edited November 24, 2014 by TwiLyghtSansSparkles

[Delightful]

I got pulled over today. 

 

My tags were expired and I couldn't find my insurance card. I didn't get a ticket, but I did get a condescending lecture from the officer about how I'm 24 years old and I should be able to handle my own finances, and how the MVD isn't responsible for sending out late notices. (IT WAS IN MY OLD STATE, IT SHOULD BE HERE.) 

 

Turns out, I may have gotten a notice to renew my tags. I just never saw it because my mom checked the mail and left the notice, unopened, on the counter instead of giving it to me so I could renew. After opening the latest letter, I found out that I also owe late fees AND need an emissions test. 

 

MOM! Y U NO TELL ME THINGS?????? THIS SCREWS ME OVER, NOT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

 

And the worst part? If I tell her that this is her fault, that I'm the one who gets punished for her failure to put my mail in my hand (and she doesn't leave it out where I'll find it, either; sometimes she'll stuff it in a drawer or leave it in the car), I'll get punished for it. She'll give me this long lecture about how I need to be more responsible, or if I would check the mail once in a while, this wouldn't happen. I'm usually not home when the mail comes. I'm at work. I get home in the evening after someone else has checked the mail. So no matter what happens, this is my fault.

That sucks  

 

Can you non-blamingly ask her to leave your mail somewhere in particular? It's not you fault obviously, but if you can sort of take the blame this time and be like "ok fine mum, I want to be responsible so I'm making this my set place for my mail, can you leave my stuff here please" - obviously I don't know your mum but could something like that solve the problem for the future?

 

Also that's really presumptuous of the officer to lecture you like that. He doesn't even know you! 

[TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her]

That sucks

 

Can you non-blamingly ask her to leave your mail somewhere in particular? It's not you fault obviously, but if you can sort of take the blame this time and be like "ok fine mum, I want to be responsible so I'm making this my set place for my mail, can you leave my stuff here please" - obviously I don't know your mum but could something like that solve the problem for the future?

 

Also that's really presumptuous of the officer to lecture you like that. He doesn't even know you! 

 

I could try it. Actually, that sounds like it could work. She's really sensitive, though, so I'd have to catch her in a good mood. 

 

Honestly, I have a theory about that.

 

See, I've been driving that car, expired tags and all, for two months and haven't gotten so much as a second glance from one of the cops I've passed. But this weekend, we had some old friends from out of town visit. One of them is a guy about my age who happens to be black. He was sitting in the front seat (I was driving) when I got pulled over. The cop was rude and condescending from beginning to end. I've dealt with cops before. They're usually super nice to me, and I'm super nice to them. I was nice in this case, but it didn't change anything (except maybe convinced him not to give me a ticket). 

 

I don't like accusing people of racism—if you're wrong, you've just ruined their reputation for no reason, and it's a horrible thing to accuse someone of falsely—but it does seem suspicious that the one day it looks like I'm dating a black guy, I get pulled over and treated like an idiot.

[Delightful]

That's disturbing.

 

It could just be coincidence and could just be the officer having a bad day and being grumpy but that seems unlikely. 

 

At least you were nice and at least you didn't get a ticket...

[TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her]

That's disturbing.

It could just be coincidence and could just be the officer having a bad day and being grumpy but that seems unlikely.

At least you were nice and at least you didn't get a ticket...

That's what I'm hoping. I want it to be just a coincidence, but that's not seeming likely at this point.

That's the bright side. I'll take my car in for an emissions test today and mail the payment right after.

[traceria she/her]

First, Kobald King, you have my condolences also on the loss of your cat.  It's amazing just how much those furballs get all tangled in your heartstrings.  When my parents dog died, I cried from two states away and not having lived with their dog since right out of college (about 12 years by that point).  I know these words don't help fill the void, but know that we do understand and feel your pain, if only virtually.

 

Twilyght, that's terrible!  First, getting pulled over is always nerve racking, but to be treated that way, etc., and the whole thing with the email....  *shakes head *  I hope a better mail arrangement can be found!

[Steel he/him]

I hate "We Are Young" by Fun.

 

I hate it so much.

 

It just does not make any sense whatsoever.

 

I will now go through the song, analysing the lines one by one.

 

Give me a second I
I need to get my story straight

Okay, this line, at least, makes sense. He's drunk, and can't remember what's happening.

My friends are in the bathroom
Getting higher than the Empire State

And where are you?

My lover she's waiting for me
Just across the bar

Again, where the hell are you?

My seats been taken by some sunglasses
Asking 'bout a scar

Has Voldemort taken to wearing sunglasses and asking about Harry Potter?

 

And I know I gave it to you months ago

Who did you give what to? A scar to some sunglasses?

 

I know you're trying to forget
But between the drinks and subtle things
The holes in my apologies
You know I'm trying hard to take it back

TAKE WHAT BACK!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?! THE SCAR!?!?!?

So if by the time the bar closes

The if should be omitted, otherwise this sentence makes no sense.

 

And you feel like falling down
I'll carry you home

 

Tonight
We are young
So let's set the world on fire
We can burn brighter
Than the sun

Tonight
We are young
So let's set the world on fire
We can burn brighter
Than the sun

Now, this chorus is what ticks me off the most. We are young. That implies two things, or one of them: that whoever is speaking, and his lover, I presume, are young, and have their lives ahead of them to enjoy and cherish. The other implication is that they are young and carefree, and willing to take risks. However, the next line completely contradicts both implications. He says that he wants to "set the world on fire", and that he can "...burn brighter than the sun." By setting the world on fire, they would destroy themselves, and making it "burn brighter than the sun" would, in fact, leave absolutely no trace of them or their bodies. So unless, when he says "we are young", he means that they are, in fact, drunk suicidal teenagers, he is completely contradicting himself.

 

In addition, the fact that he wants to destroy the world shows a psycopathy, of sorts, which does not bode well for this artist's reputation.

Now I know that I'm not
All that you got

At this point, it is unclear if he is talking to his lover, or some Mistwraith. In either case, unless the entity is poverty stricken and has no possessions whatsoever, then he/she is OBVIOUSLY not all that he/she has got.

I guess that I
I just thought maybe we could find new ways to fall apart

For this, a punctuation mark is my only response: ?

 

But our friends are back
So let's raise a cup

Wait... Where are you sitting? Also, I don't believe your friends, who are, as stated, "higher than the Empire State", are in any condition to be raising a cup.

Cause I found someone to carry me home
Whom, may I ask?

Tonight
We are young
So let's the set the world on fire
We can burn brighter
Than the sun

Tonight
We are young
So let's set the world on fire
We can burn brighter
Than the sun

Carry me home tonight
Just carry me home tonight
Carry me home tonight
Just carry me home tonight
Who are you talking to? Maybe you should clarify this.

The world is on my side

In which case, why do you wish to burn it?

I have no reason to run

Then don't! Nobody told you to.

So will someone come and carry me home tonight

I THOUGHT YOU WERE ALREADY BEGGING SOMEONE ELSE TO CARRY YOU HOME! Also, if you need someone to carry you, how do you think you're going to carry the person you promised to carry in the first verse?

The angels never arrived

Were they called?

But I can hear the choir

Perhaps that is simply your hallucinations. Don't forget, you're in a drunken stupor.

So will someone come and carry me home

By God man! We know you need someone to carry you home! Jesus!

Tonight
We are young
So let's set the world on fire
We can burn brighter
Than the sun

Tonight
We are young
So let's set the world on fire
We can burn brighter
Than the sun

So if by the time the bar closes
And you feel like falling down
I'll carry you home tonight

Contradictory statements galore!

 

And that concludes my rant for today.

[Delightful]

I hate "We Are Young" by Fun.

I hate it so much.

It just does not make any sense whatsoever.

I will now go through the song, analysing the lines one by one.

Give me a second I

I need to get my story straight

Okay, this line, at least, makes sense. He's drunk, and can't remember what's happening.

My friends are in the bathroom

Getting higher than the Empire State

And where are you?

My lover she's waiting for me

Just across the bar

Again, where the hell are you?

My seats been taken by some sunglasses

Asking 'bout a scar

Has Voldemort taken to wearing sunglasses and asking about Harry Potter?

And I know I gave it to you months ago

Who did you give what to? A scar to some sunglasses?

I know you're trying to forget

But between the drinks and subtle things

The holes in my apologies

You know I'm trying hard to take it back

TAKE WHAT BACK!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?! THE SCAR!?!?!?

So if by the time the bar closes

The if should be omitted, otherwise this sentence makes no sense.

And you feel like falling down

I'll carry you home

Tonight

We are young

So let's set the world on fire

We can burn brighter

Than the sun

Tonight

We are young

So let's set the world on fire

We can burn brighter

Than the sun

Now, this chorus is what ticks me off the most. We are young. That implies two things, or one of them: that whoever is speaking, and his lover, I presume, are young, and have their lives ahead of them to enjoy and cherish. The other implication is that they are young and carefree, and willing to take risks. However, the next line completely contradicts both implications. He says that he wants to "set the world on fire", and that he can "...burn brighter than the sun." By setting the world on fire, they would destroy themselves, and making it "burn brighter than the sun" would, in fact, leave absolutely no trace of them or their bodies. So unless, when he says "we are young", he means that they are, in fact, drunk suicidal teenagers, he is completely contradicting himself.

In addition, the fact that he wants to destroy the world shows a psycopathy, of sorts, which does not bode well for this artist's reputation.

Now I know that I'm not

All that you got

At this point, it is unclear if he is talking to his lover, or some Mistwraith. In either case, unless the entity is poverty stricken and has no possessions whatsoever, then he/she is OBVIOUSLY not all that he/she has got.

I guess that I

I just thought maybe we could find new ways to fall apart

For this, a punctuation mark is my only response: ?

But our friends are back

So let's raise a cup

Wait... Where are you sitting? Also, I don't believe your friends, who are, as stated, "higher than the Empire State", are in any condition to be raising a cup.

Cause I found someone to carry me home

Whom, may I ask?

Tonight

We are young

So let's the set the world on fire

We can burn brighter

Than the sun

Tonight

We are young

So let's set the world on fire

We can burn brighter

Than the sun

Carry me home tonight

Just carry me home tonight

Carry me home tonight

Just carry me home tonight

Who are you talking to? Maybe you should clarify this.

The world is on my side

In which case, why do you wish to burn it?

I have no reason to run

Then don't! Nobody told you to.

So will someone come and carry me home tonight

I THOUGHT YOU WERE ALREADY BEGGING SOMEONE ELSE TO CARRY YOU HOME! Also, if you need someone to carry you, how do you think you're going to carry the person you promised to carry in the first verse?

The angels never arrived

Were they called?

But I can hear the choir

Perhaps that is simply your hallucinations. Don't forget, you're in a drunken stupor.

So will someone come and carry me home

By God man! We know you need someone to carry you home! Jesus!

Tonight

We are young

So let's set the world on fire

We can burn brighter

Than the sun

Tonight

We are young

So let's set the world on fire

We can burn brighter

Than the sun

So if by the time the bar closes

And you feel like falling down

I'll carry you home tonight

Contradictory statements galore!

And that concludes my rant for today.

I actually only know the lyrics to the chorus, but I have been wondering why setting the world on fire is positive/empowering. Perhaps instead of 'we are young', this song should be called 'we are pyromaniacs'.

[TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her]

Why do some people get so rude when you ask to see their ID? Especially when it's THEIR card and they have nothing to hide. We are trying to prevent identity theft here; why are you treating me like crap because I asked to see a laminated card with your picture on it?

[SmurfAquamarineBodies he/him]

Babies. Why do they exist? I know why, it's to always put me in a position where I look like a pedophile. It's starting to become annoying. Context you ask. When ever I go to the mall and am sitting on a bench inevitably a baby will arrive and climb on me looking for someone to talk to. Now I'm always down to talk but when their parents find me they always look at me like I'm the scum of the earth. But if I don't let the baby climb on to my lap the child will start screaming down the building until I pick them up. WHY?????? All babies everywhere seem to love me and are attracted to me. It's so weird and annoying.

[RawToast225 he/him]

I hate "We Are Young" by Fun.

 

I hate it so much.

 

It just does not make any sense whatsoever.

 

I will now go through the song, analysing the lines one by one.

 

Give me a second I

I need to get my story straight

Okay, this line, at least, makes sense. He's drunk, and can't remember what's happening.

My friends are in the bathroom

Getting higher than the Empire State

And where are you?

My lover she's waiting for me

Just across the bar

Again, where the hell are you?

My seats been taken by some sunglasses

Asking 'bout a scar

Has Voldemort taken to wearing sunglasses and asking about Harry Potter?

 

And I know I gave it to you months ago

Who did you give what to? A scar to some sunglasses?

 

I know you're trying to forget

But between the drinks and subtle things

The holes in my apologies

You know I'm trying hard to take it back

TAKE WHAT BACK!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?! THE SCAR!?!?!?

So if by the time the bar closes

The if should be omitted, otherwise this sentence makes no sense.

 

And you feel like falling down

I'll carry you home

 

Tonight

We are young

So let's set the world on fire

We can burn brighter

Than the sun

Tonight

We are young

So let's set the world on fire

We can burn brighter

Than the sun

Now, this chorus is what ticks me off the most. We are young. That implies two things, or one of them: that whoever is speaking, and his lover, I presume, are young, and have their lives ahead of them to enjoy and cherish. The other implication is that they are young and carefree, and willing to take risks. However, the next line completely contradicts both implications. He says that he wants to "set the world on fire", and that he can "...burn brighter than the sun." By setting the world on fire, they would destroy themselves, and making it "burn brighter than the sun" would, in fact, leave absolutely no trace of them or their bodies. So unless, when he says "we are young", he means that they are, in fact, drunk suicidal teenagers, he is completely contradicting himself.

 

In addition, the fact that he wants to destroy the world shows a psycopathy, of sorts, which does not bode well for this artist's reputation.

Now I know that I'm not

All that you got

At this point, it is unclear if he is talking to his lover, or some Mistwraith. In either case, unless the entity is poverty stricken and has no possessions whatsoever, then he/she is OBVIOUSLY not all that he/she has got.

I guess that I

I just thought maybe we could find new ways to fall apart

For this, a punctuation mark is my only response: ?

 

But our friends are back

So let's raise a cup

Wait... Where are you sitting? Also, I don't believe your friends, who are, as stated, "higher than the Empire State", are in any condition to be raising a cup.

Cause I found someone to carry me home

Whom, may I ask?

Tonight

We are young

So let's the set the world on fire

We can burn brighter

Than the sun

Tonight

We are young

So let's set the world on fire

We can burn brighter

Than the sun

Carry me home tonight

Just carry me home tonight

Carry me home tonight

Just carry me home tonight

Who are you talking to? Maybe you should clarify this.

The world is on my side

In which case, why do you wish to burn it?

I have no reason to run

Then don't! Nobody told you to.

So will someone come and carry me home tonight

I THOUGHT YOU WERE ALREADY BEGGING SOMEONE ELSE TO CARRY YOU HOME! Also, if you need someone to carry you, how do you think you're going to carry the person you promised to carry in the first verse?

The angels never arrived

Were they called?

But I can hear the choir

Perhaps that is simply your hallucinations. Don't forget, you're in a drunken stupor.

So will someone come and carry me home

By God man! We know you need someone to carry you home! Jesus!

Tonight

We are young

So let's set the world on fire

We can burn brighter

Than the sun

Tonight

We are young

So let's set the world on fire

We can burn brighter

Than the sun

So if by the time the bar closes

And you feel like falling down

I'll carry you home tonight

Contradictory statements galore!

 

And that concludes my rant for today.

First, his friends are getting high and he's just staying away from it.

 

He cut his girlfriend giving her a scar and there is some sort of officer asking about it.

 

The "if" shouldn't be omitted because the sentence is an if then statement. It goes on to the next line.

 

Set the world on fire is an idiom for something, but I just can't remember what. It was on Jeapordy, you could probably find it.

 

"Maybe we could find new ways to fall apart." He is trying to convince a girl he knows to sleep with him and it's working. He gets interrupted by his friends who are back so the raise a GLASS not CUP because he found someone to carry him home *wink*.

 

The angels thing is about how he thinks God left him so it's okay to drink and party or whatever.

 

The last part means "hey, we're both super drunk, let's go have sex!"

 

There you go. Now you get the song. Are you any good at understanding imagery?

 

My rant goes something like this:

 

In a few days it will be a year to the day since my best friend killed himself. Jerk.

 

I miss him so much, but at the same time I am having the hardest time forgiving him for what he did. I can't get his stupid laugh out of my head and I can't let him go, either. I lay awake night after night bawling my eyes out and cursing his name at the same time. Such contradictory and complimentary emotions as hate and love for a kid who was like a brother to me cannot be described further. I want him alive for sure, but it's not possible for him to be. I miss him so much.

Edited December 2, 2014 by Arthur Dent

[Quiver he/him]

I hate my brain, specifically the storming chemical imbalance or whatever it does that makes me freak out. To wit:

 

I'm sort-of a germophobe, with an ObsessiveCompulsive Disorder. Specifically, I don't like touching certain things, or touching things that have been touched by things, or things touched by people who touched things, or...

You get the point. About the only good thing to come out of it is the fact that it gave me an idea for a magic system for a fantasy story. Besides that though, it's... not fun.

 

In fact, I outright storming hate it.

 

The thing is, I have been doing stuff to deal with it. I had exercises and some medication which I worked my way off of.

(It's a personal thing; I hate medicine. All kinds of medicine; I hate the idea of being dependent on drugs to feel better... anyway...)

Anyway, I had stuff I was doing to feel better. And I was feeling better. And then someone set an old book on a table, and touched the drawers, and the cutlery, and...

Basically, my nerves feel like piano wire right now. 

[TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her]

I hate my brain, specifically the storming chemical imbalance or whatever it does that makes me freak out. To wit:

 

I'm sort-of a germophobe, with an ObsessiveCompulsive Disorder. Specifically, I don't like touching certain things, or touching things that have been touched by things, or things touched by people who touched things, or...

You get the point. About the only good thing to come out of it is the fact that it gave me an idea for a magic system for a fantasy story. Besides that though, it's... not fun.

 

In fact, I outright storming hate it.

 

The thing is, I have been doing stuff to deal with it. I had exercises and some medication which I worked my way off of.

(It's a personal thing; I hate medicine. All kinds of medicine; I hate the idea of being dependent on drugs to feel better... anyway...)

Anyway, I had stuff I was doing to feel better. And I was feeling better. And then someone set an old book on a table, and touched the drawers, and the cutlery, and...

Basically, my nerves feel like piano wire right now. 

 

Upvoted for support. 

 

I might understand a teensy bit of what you're going through. I like to think of myself as fairly easygoing—and sometimes I am. But there are some little things, trivial things, that get to me. Like when people smack their lips, especially on hard candy….*shudder*. I know it's dumb, and I know life would be easier if I'd just get over it, but….I can't. 

 

It sucks when your own brain seems to hate you. I'm sorry, Quiver. 

[Voidus]

*Hugs for Twi and Quiver*

I don't even know where to start with this last week, it's just been one of those times where it's just one thing after another and you finally feel like you've got some stability again and then something else horrible goes wrong.

Well to start with my panic attacks started up again, mines not OCD or anything, I have a couple of minor compulsions but no where near strong enough to be classified as OCD, just stuff like not stepping on cracks in pavement, always putting the volume on an even number but none of them give me that much trouble. I mostly just get social anxiety, put me in a crowd and 3 minutes later you'l find me in a sweaty ball in the corner somewhere. So that' started getting worse, then I had to sift through the 50 or so rejection letters from jobs for the week, which is really disheartening when it's for the 20th week in a row, then I got an email with an actual job offer from an international auction company for helping their ebay sellers, normally I'd be a bit suspicious of something like that but I do a fair bit of eBay selling myslef so I thought it might be worth a try, turns out that was a money laundering scam and I had to go to the police station and they said they couldn't do anything because it's international so that was all horrible.
Anyway we ended up just closing all our accounts and making new ones, it was a horrible couple of days but we got through it. Then we got severely underpaid for the last weeks worth of catalogues we delivered, like $100 less than we should have, which we needed for food and then finished up the day with a call from my mum telling me that my grandmother has been diagnosed with terminal pancreatic cancer and she may not make it to christmas.

It has been a horrible week.

[Delightful]

*Hugs for Twi and Quiver*

I don't even know where to start with this last week, it's just been one of those times where it's just one thing after another and you finally feel like you've got some stability again and then something else horrible goes wrong.

Well to start with my panic attacks started up again, mines not OCD or anything, I have a couple of minor compulsions but no where near strong enough to be classified as OCD, just stuff like not stepping on cracks in pavement, always putting the volume on an even number but none of them give me that much trouble. I mostly just get social anxiety, put me in a crowd and 3 minutes later you'l find me in a sweaty ball in the corner somewhere. So that' started getting worse, then I had to sift through the 50 or so rejection letters from jobs for the week, which is really disheartening when it's for the 20th week in a row, then I got an email with an actual job offer from an international auction company for helping their ebay sellers, normally I'd be a bit suspicious of something like that but I do a fair bit of eBay selling myslef so I thought it might be worth a try, turns out that was a money laundering scam and I had to go to the police station and they said they couldn't do anything because it's international so that was all horrible.

Anyway we ended up just closing all our accounts and making new ones, it was a horrible couple of days but we got through it. Then we got severely underpaid for the last weeks worth of catalogues we delivered, like $100 less than we should have, which we needed for food and then finished up the day with a call from my mum telling me that my grandmother has been diagnosed with terminal pancreatic cancer and she may not make it to christmas.

It has been a horrible week.

Hugs. Hugs for everyone. The world needs more hugs.

I hope you find the bright side of all this. Things will get better soon. Just.... look for the beauty in things, focus on what's good, and take another hug. *hugs*

Edited December 8, 2014 by Delightful

[TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her]

*Hugs for Twi and Quiver*

I don't even know where to start with this last week, it's just been one of those times where it's just one thing after another and you finally feel like you've got some stability again and then something else horrible goes wrong.

Well to start with my panic attacks started up again, mines not OCD or anything, I have a couple of minor compulsions but no where near strong enough to be classified as OCD, just stuff like not stepping on cracks in pavement, always putting the volume on an even number but none of them give me that much trouble. I mostly just get social anxiety, put me in a crowd and 3 minutes later you'l find me in a sweaty ball in the corner somewhere. So that' started getting worse, then I had to sift through the 50 or so rejection letters from jobs for the week, which is really disheartening when it's for the 20th week in a row, then I got an email with an actual job offer from an international auction company for helping their ebay sellers, normally I'd be a bit suspicious of something like that but I do a fair bit of eBay selling myslef so I thought it might be worth a try, turns out that was a money laundering scam and I had to go to the police station and they said they couldn't do anything because it's international so that was all horrible.

Anyway we ended up just closing all our accounts and making new ones, it was a horrible couple of days but we got through it. Then we got severely underpaid for the last weeks worth of catalogues we delivered, like $100 less than we should have, which we needed for food and then finished up the day with a call from my mum telling me that my grandmother has been diagnosed with terminal pancreatic cancer and she may not make it to christmas.

It has been a horrible week.

Hugs. You need a hug.

You need all the hugs.

[Zas678 he/him]

Yeah, sometimes there are just those days that don't seem to go out right. Those days where you're pushed to the brink, than just a little further. Those days are hard.

 

Take some more hugs!

[traceria she/her]

All of you dealing with anxiety and OCD have my deepest condolences.  I only have minor episodes now and then, nothing officially diagnosed (though I was on anxiety medication once for a few months due to a past stressful job, but my general practitioner gave that to me as a 'just in case' measure), and those can be annoying enough.  WIth that said, I will continue with the hug trend:

 

*SUPER HUGS TO EVERYONE *

 

 

As for me, today is just one of those days where life is laughing at me.  I went to get coffee from the office kitchen, and we use these pre-measured filters where the coffee is actually inside the filter.  Well, the dripping mechanism was missing the coffee and going off to the side, so the first pot of coffee was looking more like tea.  I was the one to discover this, so I put a new pot on.  Then I go back 15 minutes later to find that all the coffee vultures in the office had already gotten to it and the entire pot...the ENTIRE pot...was gone.  I had to wait for a third pot to brew before I could finally get some coffee.  Then I discovered my bracelet, which was a gift from a good friend from about 15 years ago and one of my favorites, was no longer on my wrist.  I'm still hoping it came off at home, because it was nowhere to be found in the parking lot, my car, stuck somewhere in my coat, or in my office.  *sigh * 

[SmurfAquamarineBodies he/him]

Sick babies suck. They are just snot, vomit and fecal matter machines.

[RawToast225 he/him]

I posted about this before, but it was kind of hidden. My best friend killed himself almost a year ago to the day. I freaking hate him for it. I want him back and alive, but I can't have that because he is a selfish prick. I obviously have some forgiving to do, but I just don't want to. I feel like my heart gets a little bit more shriveled any time I think about it, so I don't like confronting it in my mind. It's just too hard emotionally.

 

I understand why he did it because I've been there. I've attempted it before. I just wish that he took the route that I took and got myself out of the situation that lead to the attempt. I really want him back. I loved him.

 

Have you ever had a friend who was like a brother to you? He was this kind of friend to me. He taught me how to interact with people. I am who I am today because of him, and now he is dead. A lot of times, people tend to be put on pedestals after their deaths, but for me he was always on that pedestal. He was the Best. I don't blame God and I don't blame myself, at least not any more. I just want him back. I want to see him and hear his contagious laugh one more time. I want one of his hugs. They were the best damnation hugs you could imagine.

[traceria she/her]

I posted about this before, but it was kind of hidden...

Though not exactly the same, I had a friend years ago (about 12) that died of an overdose. When tragedy occurs like that, it can take a long time to process it, especially when you were so close to the person.  It took me a good five years to come to terms with losing that friend.  He was also one of those people who was full of life and brought others together.  Know that there are others who understand your pain and confusion and anger and try to be understanding with yourself that it might take longer than you expect to heal (as much as is possible).  *hugs *

[RawToast225 he/him]

Thank you. I never realized that I needed to be understanding with myself. That might help. Thanks.

[Delightful]

Arthur, I wish I knew the right thing to say that would bring your friend back and stop your heart hurting and make things ok, but I'm not sure such words exist. Just know that I am deeply sorry, and I really care, and I wish you all the best In healing from this.

I do want to ask though, have you considered seeking professional help? Unfortunately there's still some stigma attached, but you might find it worthwhile. Just a suggestion.

*hugs and support*

Edited December 13, 2014 by Delightful

[Voidus]

Arthur, I wish I knew the right thing to say that would bring your friend back and stop your heart hurting and make things ok, but I'm not sure such words exist. Just know that I am deeply sorry, and I really care, and I wish you all the best In healing from this.

I do want to ask though, have you considered seeking professional help? Unfortunately there's still some stigma attached, but you might find it worthwhile. Just a suggestion.

*hugs and support*

^

One of my best friends went the same way a few years ago, it's just the most difficult situation to be in, the emotions are just so complex. I know that I needed to find a therapist to cope with it in the end, although I put it off for far too long. It really does help some people.

*Hugs*

[RawToast225 he/him]

I have gone the therapy route before for something else prior to this, but it didn't help a whole ton. It is something I have been considering going to because I had a breakdown in the middle of work yesterday...

Thank you for the kind words. They have made my heart a little bit lighter today. It's good to know that there are more out there who care.