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Oh no.
Humans, I think I was flirting on accident.
Spoileraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Help I think I have done an awkward thing but maybe it was actually okay but I don’t know so now I’m way overthinking
gahhhhhhh
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I found a poem that I think I'd like to share. (Spoilered for length)
SpoilerDulce et Decorum Estby Wilfred OwenBent double, like old beggars under sacks,Knock-kneed, coughing like hags, we cursed through sludge,Till on the haunting flares we turned our backs,And towards our distant rest began to trudge.Men marched asleep. Many had lost their boots,But limped on, blood-shod. All went lame; all blind;Drunk with fatigue; deaf even to the hootsOf gas-shells dropping softly behind.Gas! GAS! Quick, boys!—An ecstasy of fumblingFitting the clumsy helmets just in time,But someone still was yelling out and stumblingAnd flound’ring like a man in fire or lime.—Dim through the misty panes and thick green light,As under a green sea, I saw him drowning.In all my dreams before my helpless sight,He plunges at me, guttering, choking, drowning.If in some smothering dreams, you too could paceBehind the wagon that we flung him in,And watch the white eyes writhing in his face,His hanging face, like a devil’s sick of sin;If you could hear, at every jolt, the bloodCome gargling from the froth-corrupted lungs,Obscene as cancer, bitter as the cudOf vile, incurable sores on innocent tongues,—My friend, you would not tell with such high zestTo children ardent for some desperate glory,The old Lie: dulce et decorum est pro patria moriThe words "ducle et decorum est pro patria mori." were written by the poet Horace, and mean, "it is sweet and fitting to die for one's country. The poem was published after the author's death during the first World War. Wilfred Owen was a war poet, and wrote many poems about war and it's awfulness.
Anyway, this poem really touched me. It makes me wonder if humans truly are mostly good at heart, or if it may be the other way around. How do we do these things to each other? On the other hand, this poem gives me an appreciation for art and human expression through tragedy. I find it to be a truly wonderful thing.
I'm sorry. It seems my brain has been wandering strange corridors as of late.
That's all I have.
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That's an amazing and chilling poem. I love this version my sister shared with me, read by Christopher Eccleston (who some may know as the Ninth Doctor).
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Oh no...
I forgot that you left.
This is saddening.
We miss you, muffin cat!
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COME BACK MUFFIN KITTY
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*throws muffins at everyone*
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*tries to summon Telrao*
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Oh hey Mr. Calano are you still active on here very much?
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Hello my fellow sharders! I'm back for now. (If anyone has threads I should participate in please let me know)
I need books/series to read. Or really any form of consumable creative media. Can I get some recommendations?
I'm doing alright. I finally got diagnosed with anxiety yaay. So now I'm medicated and it feels strange. Things are still hard, but I generally feel like I'm doing a better job of holding it together and keeping my emotional state grounded.
I think that's all I've got right now. Oh, except I did get asked out by a girl a couple months ago and that was extremely scary.
Bye?
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@That1Cellist have you read Walden pond? By Thoreau?
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Movies- Suspiria (2018) (be warned it is very very very gory and disturbing. would highly recommend checking out the trigger warnings. Beautiful boy (2018). Bones and All (2022). Pulp Fiction (1994). Rosemary's Baby (1968)
TV Shows- Maniac (2018), Mindhunter (2017), The Umbrella Academy (2019)
Books- Convenience Store Woman, The Complete Horror Stories of Ray Russel (particularly Sardonicus', 'Sanguinarius', and 'Sagittarius'.) Frankenstein, or The Modern Prometheus, Heart of Darkness (very dense read).
Podcasts- I Am In Eskew, Malevolent
Here, these are my reccs! Keep in mind though, my taste tends to veer towards the dark and disturbing or the melancholic and reflective and all this is definitely that.
Also, thanks @Edema Rue for the shoutout!
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WAIT WHAT YOU'RE BACK???
YAAAAAAAAAAAYYY
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She kinda is but yes hooray!!!
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Hello insane one.
It is good to see that you are still around.
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*grabs all three and pulls into a hug*
You’re both wonderful people, even if you aren’t here much anymore
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Hi Cellist!
It's nice to see you too.
And thank you for the hugs.
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*Joins the hug cause I missed Cellist too*
It's wonderful to see you again!
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Again, I'm not sure that I know what a panic attack feels like. But, what I'm experiencing right now seems to check off a bunch of the symptoms.
Guys. Guys. I can't I can't I can't why do I even exist anymore.
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CELLIST WE LOVE YOU!!
and trust me, you don't sound that waay at all, okay? you're an amazing human, and you deserve the best <33
you got this, bestie <3333
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I’m late…
It’s a lot, sometimes it’s so much so much too much and all you want is for it to all just stop. There are moments of joy despite it all though. Fine them, please find them. You are worthy of a joyful existence.
We care. We’re here.
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We all do deeply care about you. We really do.
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Happy Birthday!
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Whoops forgot to say thanks!
Thank you Cellary stick person!
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So, guys, I'm contemplating a name change. Should I be "JustSomeCellist" instead of "That1Cellist"?
Or, I guess if there are any other good cello related names you can think of, you could suggest those. Also, if I decide not to change my name, I'll probably change my pfp soon. I thought I should prepare you guys, since I've had this one for quite some time.
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Honestly, as long as "Cellist" is in there somewhere, I'm good.
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I agree with Thaid
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As long a Cellist is there I think you should choose
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Can I… can I get some hugs?
please
I feel like I should talk, but I don’t know how or what I would say.
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We love giving hugs. Please ask anytime you have an inkling of wanting one.
*more hugs*
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I'm terribly late, sorry Cellist!
*extra extra hugs, because you're awesome*
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*hugs*
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I would like to apologize for my existence.
I'm sorry, everyone.
I think it's going to be a long week. I don't understand how I can be surrounded by people I care about and still feel alone. And I'm tired of not being good enough. Inadequate.
Time is cruel.
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It is a cruel life.
I don't accept your apology, though. You can't apologize for an existence that has brought many people joy.
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Don't apologize for something wonderful,
mostly, I just want to ditto what Thaid said. Life is hard, but you are not inadequate. I know how you feel, I really do, I feel that way sometimes too. But its wrong, completely wrong.
People in your life love and care about you I promise, even me, a random person on the internet. I don't know you very well, but I do know you're a wonderful person. The little voice inside telling you otherwise is wrong.
I'm happy to talk in PM's if you need someone to listen.
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Your existence is a good thing! Please know that we care about you. (sorry for my extreme lateness.)
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Dang it.
I’m in mourning over a fictional character.
Again.
Has this ever happened to you humans? Over what character?
(Spoiler boxes please so I know what the character is from. That way if I or others care about spoilers they may be avoided)
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@Edema Ruh huh nobody’s called me “celly” before.
Thanks for the input of everyone.
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huh nobody’s called me “celly” before.
Well I had to find a nickname that ended in -y or -ie, and that was the least gross sounding one. (I considered Cellisty for a good 2 seconds)
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All of mine have mostly been said already so here's a probably unpopular opinion
Words of radiance spoilers
SpoilerELHOKAR my duuude I was so ready for a redemtion/training arc ya'll
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Death note (manga) is so good.
I’m disturbed and disgusted, but at the same time it’s so good.
For anyone who hasn’t seen or read it and would like to, I’d just like to warn you that there’s some minor language and a lot of, well, death (Go figure)
Mmmmmmmm
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This sounds interesting. I should give it a read.
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Let’s play a game: I’ll make a reference and we see who gets it. (Actually this would be a fun forum game)
Anyway, here it is:
“But in the end? If strength cannot save you, than what can?”
And one more thing: Viola is the only actual instrument in this game’s soundtrack.
Bonus points if you know who the quote is from.
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Well done!
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thanks!
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Hollow Knight's soundtrack features the viola? Hmm. I might have to play this game.
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I’m still here, humans, I’m just a lot less active. I might just leave, we’ll see how it goes.
Anyway, here’s a short poem I wrote.
Little flecks of soul
Floating away into space
Flaking, falling all apart
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DON’T LEAVE CELLIST PLEASE
I would miss you so much!
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It was a sweet lil poem. If you feel like it’s best for you to leave, go ahead, but we’ll miss you if you do.
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Aww... don't leave...
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my brother’s animal crossing world is kinda weird
One of the villagers gave him a sword and told him to make good use of it. And, a skeleton fell out of a tree right by his house.
my brother also just sends blank letters to villagers so they give him stuff.
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O.o
Sounds like a cursed world ngl :eyes:
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One time my brother was playing and a villager was like, "I found the skeleton you were looking for!" And gave him a skeleton.
Also, a villager who was a hamster had a pet hamster. In a cage.
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Kidnapping?!
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don’t mind me i’m just ignoring the sadness and don’t know what to do
mmmmm yeah I have no idea
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If I was to make a "Darth Vader Vs. (Some kind of radiant or other invested thingy)" thread, where would I put it? I'm not sure so I thought I'd ask you guys.
As for my own state, well, it's hard to tell. Mixed bag, I guess? Everything is still here. It's all still happening.
Something make sense for once please.Listen to the Sammartini Cello Sonata. The grave movement is really nice. Or listen to Elegy by Gabriel Faure. Or both.
And And And And I got into that orchestra I auditioned for.
So anyway, that's just kind of how things are. I'm not doing a good job of explaining myself. Oh well.
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I'm trying to decide how I feel today. It's hard to tell.
I wish I made sense.
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Tears of the Kingdom is great so far.
The bunnies are doing pretty well. They were so happy when we got back from a family trip to Missouri. Rabbits love getting lots of attention, even if they're quiet most of the time. You can tell by their body language once you've spent a bunch of time around them.
I also auditioned for an orchestra the other day. It was really stressful. Also, the sight-reading portion was hand written, which made it way harder for no reason whatsoever. whut.
Thanks for listening, guys!
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*tries and fails to use an abbreviation*
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Tears of the Kingdom Kingdom.
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The kingdom of tears of kingdom the
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Guys I... can't...
I just can't. No more. no more.
I couldn't even explain it if I tried, I think. And I have tried.
It's not worth it. I'm not worth it.
I'm tired of being useless. I'm tired of existing, actually. See, and if I look at the future it kinda looks like pain.
I feel like I should probably say something to lighten the mood of my SU. I don't really have anything.
And a song. "On the Nature of Daylight" By Max Richter.
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Please know that you are loved and worth something.
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You are loved, Cellist. People need you. Someone out there thinks you are everything to them.
And we love you. You are anything but useless. Anything but worthless. And the Shard-- everyone here-- is living proof of that.
It is worth it, and it will be worth it, and it was worth it. Everyone cares about you, Cellist. You're a storming incredible person and if anyone in damnation thinks less then they can storm off. Please. We love you. The future doesn't have to be pain. It may hold joy. Kindness. Hang on to that one strand of hope. Let it carry you through this rough patch and one day you'll look back and thank yourself.
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The world would be worse without you, dude.
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I had a dream last night that I met you in person (Or you just happened to be there) and I called you by your username but I pronounced it wrong and you got mad at me or were about to and so I switched the dream off because of stress. or something.
why brain why
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that’s…. interesting.
that’s quite interesting.
lol
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