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Kajsa last won the day on April 14

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About Kajsa

  • Birthday June 22

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    I’ll learn to let go
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    I never have the time to do the nothing that I want to do
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    Nowhere? Everywhere? The void? All the places in between?
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    Drawing on paper
    Drawing on iPad
    Drawing on myself
    Pretending I'm British or Australian because they're the coolest people
    Sleeping At Last
    Making people happy
    Literally everything Hygge
    All the things
    Chocolate :))))
    Smiley faces
    Billie Freaking Eilish

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  1. It’s Tuesday! I’m actually kinda excited for choir today, and math shouldn’t be so bad! the only class i was like “eh” on today is english but it wasn’t even that bad


  2. ok hello lovely people i'm new here and i have a question i'm sorry if this is, like, awkward asf so i've been straight my entire life, right? right ok but for a while i've been questioning things help how do you know?
  3. life is weird

    1. Thaidakar the Ghostblood

      Thaidakar the Ghostblood

      Yes. Yes it is.

      i like to wave to it as it walks past

    2. The Bookwyrm

      The Bookwyrm

      You're just learning this?

    3. Kajsa



    cheers to more years!

  5. potential trigger warnings: mentions of hopelessness, depression, self harm, and suicide-related topics Oh my chasms. I know I'm kinda late to this, but I relate to this with every single fiber of my being. It's like you just... eloquently summed up a whole two-ish years of my life in a few paragraphs. I don't know if you came here for comfort, advice, or something else, but I just want you to know that you are not alone, and I'd like to share a few of my past experiences to prove it. For one, I have also been held to the "perfect" standard for a lot of my life. But the interesting thing about that is it was never actually the expectations of anybody else but the the pressure I put on myself due to my past record and my perception of others' standards/expectations. And that can be really damaging for self-esteem and mental health. I still get panic attacks because of homework, due dates, and grades, and I'm especially stressed out currently due to my two Bs (yes, I know, I know), overdue homework, and etc. And it's devastating when people find out you're not the hyper-perfect person you're cracked up to be, and the look they give you when they find out you missed a few extra questions on your test makes your insides squirm, maybe even because you've been trying to hide it. You've spent years trying to reach perfection. I myself am definitely trying to work on getting out of that mental distortion, that perfectionist mindset, and it's hard. It's not impossible, but it's hard; I'm not going to lie. But with help, it's definitely possible. I've already been able to break through a few of the things that used to tie me down mentally because of that mindset. Second, I absolutely feel you on the homework procrastination (haha, literally doing it right now) and YouTube videos. It's a habit that's been especially difficult for me to work with, and I haven't been able to overcome it yet. We should try to do it together! Third, the way you worded some of those emotions is absolutely incredible. Specifically these few parts I almost cried reading these parts specifically because I feel them so deeply. These thoughts and emotions eat away at you until you're just empty and raw, and you can't feel anything anymore because you've been feeling too much for too long, and now... there's nothing except the husk of who you were two months ago, which looks completely different from the person you were two years ago. Your mental plights make you physically tired, almost weak, and it's hard to get out of bed in the morning because what's the point of another day if it's only going to go the same way they've been going for the past eternity of a lifetime? And when you remember you have those late assignments to finish and turn in, it's another blow to the face, but you can't bring yourself to work on them because you're too busy taking Do I Have Depression? tests online. You're too busy grasping for help you're scared to ask for. And that's terrifying. All of that is so terrifying. In my personal experience, it drove me to commit self harm almost daily for several months, and I was considering suicide. Eventually, it was so bad that when my parents noticed something was off, and I told them I was fine, they wouldn't let me leave the room. I ended up telling them everything. Thankfully, I'm better now. I have a great therapist, much better friends and a better mindset, and though the healing process has been slow, I'm much better now than I used to be. And you can have that too. It may just take a bit of time, maybe a bit of a push. I'm sorry if this makes absolutely no sense or feels out of place or even downright wrong, assuming and/or out of place, as that's certainly not my intention. There is healing, but you are going to have to take the first steps. Please know that you are not alone. My PMs are open if you ever need to talk, okay? I hope that's not weird since we don't really know each other, but I want to help in any way I can, so please reach out if you feel you need to. And last but not least, here are a few hugs for you if you'd like them.
  6. You guys.

    You guys.



    Also, story time! My little sister told me earlier today that she's concerned for me, because apparently I say a lot of my intrusive thoughts out loud. And I get a lot of those. She also said that she doesn't want me around her while I'm holding potentially dangerous objects, which I guess is valid because I was chopping some branches earlier with a giant pruner and I told her that if there was ever an intruder in the house to grab it and go for the jugular.


    "Boom, dead. And if that doesn't work, you can always go for the other major arteries. Femoral, brachial... basically any of those will make them bleed to death."

    She looks at me with mild confusion, mixed with slight horror. "...Why do you know this??"

    "A girl's gotta be prepared, [name]. You never know when you might need to kill someone out of self defense, or at least mortally wound them. Also," I add hastily, noticing the expression on her face, "I write fantasy books. With sword fights. You know this."

    My sister pauses, studying me, then reaches for the pruners, which I immediately pull away. "Okay, true. But maybe I should..."

    "No! ...Hey, do you think if I threw these hard enough, I could shatter the window?"

    "Honey, that's called an intrusive thought. We don't say those. Just give me the--"

    "No, Dad gave me these! It's my job! Give me that branch."

    She begrudgingly obliges, and I cut the branch into a few different pieces so they fit in our black trash can, then I pack them down into the tangle of other branches using the long wood scraps my dad left for us. 


    Random comments like these aren't rare from me, but I probably have extra today due to the fact that I got less than five hours of rest. I couldn't fall asleep until about 5:45 (am) and woke up around 10. It was rough. Terrible, actually, but whatever. Hakuna Matata, right? Lol. Anyways, I'm gonna go eat a snack and then do my homework that I totally neglected for the whole of spring break. Wish me luck 🫡

  7. i need a buddy

    to go with me to some haunted hotels

    Hotel Phillips in Kansas City, either room 1513, 913, or 511

    The Stanley Hotel in Estes Park, Colorado, room 401, 407, 428, or 217



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    2. shortcake


      meeeeeee I wanna goooooo

    3. Crowstavern


      Committing crimes with cash would be valle cause he definitely knows the best spots to commit said crimes


      I’m joking, this is for legal reasons.


    4. Cash67


      I don’t know the spots….

      but it ain’t hard to figure them out. 

      What’s even better is finding the things that ain’t crimes but are just out of the ordinary: like throwing sodium into a lake. 

  8. me singing while cleaning the bathroom is chaotic af


    I AM!!!

    so, here’s some REN FAIRE FIT PICS!!!!

    piece-by-piece walkthrough with info on each part, in case you’re curious:


    These sleeves are from Emory Park. i thrifted them for 12$. IMG_3157.thumb.jpeg.3bd026afe8debf06246d7bcc7eddc61e.jpeg

    tank top from Dress Forum, thrifted for 7$IMG_3158.thumb.jpeg.496e2829a229692429687ce4a4bc221f.jpeg

    corset from Amazon, I don’t know the brand, but i think the price was around 20-30$. you def hafta break it in but once you do it’s really nice and surprisingly comfyIMG_3159.thumb.jpeg.80f1ed30f1353968281c410027109bfc.jpeg

    skirt from Scarlet Darkness, kind of pricy (30-40$ish?) but amazing qualityIMG_3160.thumb.jpeg.2bd2b951e4fc184dd9a2a03c4d7921d8.jpeg

    i got this fur thing off of Facebook Marketplace. i have no idea what its original purpose, brand, or price was but i saw it and had to buy it. IMG_3161.thumb.jpeg.8171f5cdbe076bcdf6aeecd93093ff52.jpeg

    belt from temu, like 3$IMG_3162.thumb.jpeg.15627bae964d46330bd5e806d55e56f6.jpeg

    bracers from Amazon, i think they were about 12$IMG_3165.thumb.jpeg.cbf7e98b20e74419f266eeceee62b454.jpeg

    Necklaces thrifted for like 1$ IMG_3164.thumb.jpeg.940c08f4c4c20d9ac88b12ae883d5b95.jpeg

    Found these boots at a garage sale a few years ago for insanely cheap (2.50$?) and i couldn’t pass them up.IMG_3174.thumb.jpeg.7d85c0a68ed986f1e8dfd74d70c99a98.jpeg 

    this bag was like 5$ at goodwill, it fits literally so much and works perfectly with the aesthetic IMG_3166.thumb.jpeg.bccaadd600516563a969ad136b7170ec.jpeg

    ✨🔥✨the outfit :3✨🔥✨



    i’m literally so obsessed i can’t—

    is it possibly slightly overkill?

    yeah, maybe a little bit. 

    do i care?

    absolutely not. 

    *ob* *sessed.*

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    2. shortcake
    3. Just-A-Stick




      Going to a ren fair has been on my bucket list for years, ngl-

      But your outfit SLAYYYS GIRLY!!!

      ❤️ ❤️❤️❤️ 

    4. Kajsa



  10. you guys i got three new fantasy clothing pieces yesterday at the thrift store :3 :] 

    i will post ✨pictures✨ later today, as well as pics of the whole current ren faire fit because i’m literally obsessed. i just need to find a decent necklace and a few extra accessories now. 

    1. The cheeseman

      The cheeseman

      My gf and I are planning to go to the NE Ren Faire this fall.

    2. shortcake


      ooh @The cheeseman I've always wanted to go to one of thoseee

  11. I’m trying to start a drawing of my protagonist, Hadley (the “hero” to Mira’s story), BUT I CANT SCUDDING FIND A REFERENCE THAT I LIKE AND ITS KILLING ME. so if you happen to find any random pictures of muscular, warrior-looking women in cool poses please do send

    1. shortcake


      i'll be on the lookout!

      I'm prolly gonna be on Pinterest later today, too so that should help

    2. Kajsa


      i gave up and now i’m just doing a character sheet lmao

  12. i’m about to attempt making a hoop skirt out of ribbon, wire coat hangers, and hot glue. i’ll let you know how it goes 😬😂💀✨

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    2. The cheeseman

      The cheeseman

      Noooooo. Math sucks.

    3. The Bookwyrm

      The Bookwyrm

      Let's just switch to the metric system already.

    4. Kajsa


      @The Bookwyrm i’m on board lol

  13. to quote donkey:

    parfaits are the most delicious thing on the whole damn planet. 

    and i just had a storming delicious parfait. 

    also, i’m going with my family and a friend to see Kung-Fu Panda 4 today, and i’m so excited lol. i love jack black and i love the kung-fu panda series so yay

    ill let y’all know what i think when i get back!

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