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Elf last won the day on March 31 2023

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About Elf

  • Birthday 11/30/2006

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    "Ruin me, ruin us, and I'll let you."- The Burning God- R.F. Kuang
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    "Voldemort is my past, present, and future."- Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets - J.K. Rowling
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    "When you were five years old you turned a laundry tub into a pirate ship and launched an attack against the hydrangeas in my garden. Do not try to convince me that you would choose that farm."- The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern
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    When the world owed you nothing, you demanded something of it anyway.- Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo
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    We were like Gods at the dawning of the world and our joy was so bright we could see nothing else but the other.- The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller
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    "You are an ember in the ashes, Elias Veturius. You will spark and burn, ravage and destroy. You cannot change it. You cannot stop it."- An Ember in the Ashes by Sabaa Tahir
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    "Death is the mother of all beauty." "And what is beauty?" "Terror" - The Secret History by Donna Tartt

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    And isn't death just the apocalypse in the first person?
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    Tom Riddle <3
    Dark fiction
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    Currently listening to Welcome to Nightvale
    All hail the mighty glowcloud

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  1. Just finished American Horror Story season 1 and I am already in love. Evan Peters was so great as Tate
  2. So I'm gonna be getting braces soon, most probably!! 

    Any of my friends who've had/have braces who can give me any advice?

    1. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      Oo, exciting!!

      Hmm...if you can get a power toothbrush and a water pick do it, it helps a ton. OH and don't ever get green, black, or yellow bands.

  3. Ahhhhhhh 

    I was finally able to get the patches and spikes needed to make my first battle jacket 

    A pivotal moment in every goth's life 

    This is my inspiration 




    I'm so excited! 

    And I even got a black lipstick 

    I am complete ✨ 

  4. guys 

    becoming an adult feels exhilarating and scary both 

    i mean, ill soon be what the American system calls a "high school senior", and next year off to proper college 

    ive gotten some salaried work and im looking for more so i can buy a secondhand pair of wheels, which i think should be doable 

    ill be able to legally vote and drive and do other things from November 

    storming crackers 

    in a month or so it will be my third shardiversary

    joined when i was not even 15 and am an 18 come november of this year

    where did the time go? 

    1. Thaidakar the Ghostblood

      Thaidakar the Ghostblood

      That’s awesome! Isn’t it crazy that it’s been three years? It was like a week ago when I saw one of your posts for the first time. Man, this has been a wild few years.

      im glad things are going good for you!

    2. Elf



      It's been so crazy 

      Also thanks! I am pretty happy with how things are going currently 

  5. GUYS 

    I got my first salary 

    From a tutoring side hustle

    1. The cheeseman

      The cheeseman

      Nice! What are you tutoring?

    2. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      Yessss well done!! Way to get money!!

    3. Elf


      I'm tutoring in English!

      Thank you!

  6. Is it the look of a fire that you remember? Or the burning it leaves on your skin?
    Do you remember the orange flames reaching towards you, or the kisses left behind by the heat? 
    The rain drizzles down onto the gray pavement and all I think of is your smile.
    I think, I think, i think. 
    That was always the problem, wasn't it? 
    I thought too much and you never thought enough. 
    You wove yourself into the very fabric of my being, into the humanity in this husk we call a body. 
    And now I can't look at the stars without thinking of what might have been.
    You had your demons, alright. 
    But you always shied away from mine 
    Did they scare you? Can you imagine how they scared me? 
    Love was supposed to be the absolution, the salvation. 
    Love was supposed to be a cup of tea on a winter day; a warm bed on a rainy day; wine on a moonlit night.
    Love was supposed to be so much more than this. 
    And yet.
    Downy snow falls around me and it feels like your touch. 
    I run my thumb through a lighter and your laughter echoes like a church bell.
    Because you were a fire, strong and burning 
    How I wished we could have burned together 
    But now my soul scatters away like the ash of an unwanted thing.
    Unwanted, undesirable 
    Loved, craved,
    With you, I was all of these.
    I changed myself, bones cracking and heart shattering so you could form me as you wished. 
    Weren't you supposed to accept me? Wasn't i supposed to be much more than clay? 
    Did you love me for me, or for what you could make me? 
    I don't think I'll ever know. 
    I can only blame you as much as I can blame myself. 
    Fire eats everything in the end, the buildings, the people, the life 
    It will eat the earth itself and the birds will wander aimless on a barren wasteland. 
    Because it takes its beauty from destroying 
    And it's only lovely as long as you're not the one it's ruining 
    We were never meant to be. 
    We weren't "right person, wrong time" because for the right person there's never a wrong time. 
    We were simply young and dumb, drunk on life and each other. 
    I can't hate you, and I hope you don't hate me either. 
    This chapter ends, now. 
    Page turned.



    TWO MONTHS TO READ AND LISTEN TO THE MAGNUS ARCHIVES (and others, cause let's be honest I'll finish magnus archives within the week) TO WATCH MOVIES AND INDULGE IN MY HOBBIES 


    1. Experience
    2. Thaidakar the Ghostblood
    3. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      HOORAY!!!! Heehee tell me when you get to season 5…

  8. Finished season 3 of The Magnus Archives 

    This show is SO GOOD (says I about a show that constantly pulls at all the heartstrings ) 

    I especially loved the Gerry Keay episode, I'm going as him to comic con!!!

    I have finals and it's itching at me that I have to study before listening more 


    (Itching huh? Maybe I should be wary of The Corruption?)

    1. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      ISNT IT AMAZING?! And season 4 and season 5 are where it really, like, comes alive (at least for me it did).

      Don’t get corrupted! It’ll make Jon sad!

    2. Elf


      I'm so excited!

      I'll try not to, jon goes through so much already I don't wanna contribute to the sadness of this wet cat of a man

    3. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      Oh my chasms that’s-that’s the best description of Jon I’ve ever heard-poor little wet cat of a man. 

  9. Elffff I started Malevolent, and I’m not far at all but I already love it and you’re right I ship them so hard. 

    1. Elf


      Whooohoo!! Welcome to the malevolent family  

      I mainly listened to it in the gym and to and fro on my one hour (one hour there and one hour back 😭) commute to college (well, 11th grade, but it's known as junior college here) made both those endeavours way more fun

      You have to let me know when you reach the episode with Kayne. 

      No spoilers but please I need to know your reaction to him lol

  10. Okayy another TMA one 


    Before i truly got into it, i thought it was like a found family thing? Like that's what most of the fandom presents it as 

    But these people genuinely like hate each other?? Except for jon and martin?? 

    I was just waiting for the reconciliations and apologies and all and i realise that's probably not happening?? 

    No hate though, love the realism. 


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    2. Edema Rue
    3. Elf


      That smile scares me 

    4. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      It should, it’s a web sort of smile :)

  11. OH MY GOD MAG.80????? 


    And now listening to Jon's past is Mag.81- a guest for mr spider is pulling at all the heart strings 

    I'm getting quickly obsessed with this podcast and might frequent the Shard more just to be able talk to others who've been caught in this web 

    1. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      Oh I am completely caught up in its web. So is @Wittles, but he’s gone for now.

  12. Hiiii Edema (Also you just lost the game again)
  13. Okay, first of all I was doing not so hot for a while there but things are admittedly better now. I'm able to cope 

    But guess who was finally able to get into audio dramas! I listened to I am In Eskew, Malevolent

    And now I'm on episode 64 of....you guessed it! 

    The Magnus Archives 

    Took a little long to get here, but im here! 

    Jonathan Sims my beloved (the character, obviously)

    And also, the thing that calls itself Micheal. Why do I love this absolutely unhinged creature again?

    1. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      Ooh, are I am In Eskew and Malevolent good? I need something to listen to since the Magnus protocol is on hiatus until April 11th…


    2. Elf


      Oh they are very good! I didn't think I'd ever be the type of person to listen to audio dramas but these two certainly hooked me 

      Fair warning for I Am in Eskew, it is pretty depressing and doesn't really have any happy resolution. It's a story that explores grief, alienation, mental illness, hostile architecture and so on

      And it is absolutely more terrifying than the The Magnus Archives and Malevolent and there's very few happy moments.

      But if you're looking for something new to listen to, I would suggest Malevolent a HUNDRED TIMES OVER!!! 

      It's set in Lovecraft's Cthulu Mythos, without the racism and misogyny. 

      It's about a 1930's private detective who wakes up blind, with an entity in his head and his partner dead next to him. He must unravel the circumstances surrounding what happened to him and look for a way to seperate him and the entity in his head. 

      No spoilers, but you will ship him with the entity. 

      And there's a character who's surprisingly like Micheal and always covered in blood. 

      Please listen to it, you will not regret. At least I hope not

    3. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      Oooo ok!! I will!!

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