Flying

They are now your squire

2020 has been kind of weird for me because my mental health is doing like 10 times better than it was before. I love being able to be a hermit in my room and no one being able to judge me for it. Last year I was so stressed and miserable because I kept being dragged into social situations and I tend to panic and get overwhelmed around people. I get really claustrophobic in crowds and it can lead to panic attacks, so now I can't even be in situation where there's a crowd and it's storming amazing. Two years ago I also had what I think was situational depression, but I'm not really sure if that's the right term for it. All I know is that the whole year was really bad for me and I ended up in therapy. But luckily I only felt that horrible for a short amount of time, and after that I've been doing fine. Also if you look at my Shard profile you can kinda see that I suddenly stopped posting sometime in 2018, and that's because that's around the time when I just gave up on doing everything I enjoyed. I kind of joke sometimes about how my account is three years old and I haven't posted that much... but the sad truth is my account's like that because I was severely depressed for a while and didn't have the motivation to do anything at all. Anyways, I don't know why I wrote this. I'm doing really good right now; the chaos of 2020 has actually helped me relax a lot and I'm so much happier. Life before death!

*is chasing!* (Honestly I'd probably get tired of running after like three minutes so I don't think you guys have much to worry about)

Yes I do know da wae. I have spoken.

I was waiting for someone to say that

These are good options. But if we don't have an alternate universe, instead of wearing masks we can all be nerdy Mandalorians and just never take off our helmets. Helmets count as masks... I think?

I don't know if it's just me that did it really badly, but it didn't work out well. Honestly the stovetop thing kind of worked until I burned the marshmallow; that's when everything went wrong.

On the topic of s'mores, this summer I was quarantined, bored, and tried to make s'mores inside my house because I couldn't go to a campfire. None of the methods I used worked very well, so now I'm going to rate and explain them (because they're honestly kind of hilarious). I burst out laughing now whenever I think about the things I did because of my s'mores addiction. Microwave: 2/10 The chocolate melts fine in the microwave, but the marshmallows become an unholy abomination. They inflate, dry out, and become disgusting. I used a bunch of those tiny marshmallows, and this worked somewhat decently (although they now tasted horrible). However, do not put a normal s'mores-sized marshmallow in a microwave. After I took it out of the microwave, I sat there staring in disappointment at the thing I'd created, vowing to never do it again. Holding marshmallow over stovetop: 4/10 Tasted delicious and actually worked pretty well, but I'm an idiot and then let the marshmallow catch on fire. I almost set off the fire alarm and the entire house smelled like smoke for the next hour, even though we opened every single window in the house. Then I got yelled at by my parents. Would not recommend.

I remember reading Kingkiller Chronicle and relating to Auri. She's kind of a strange character to relate to because she's honestly really weird, but there's certain aspects of her character that remind me of myself. I know this is a manga, but I also relate to L from Death Note. It's actually for the most stupid reasons ever. I too eat unhealthy amounts of candy, get way too little sleep, wear the same outfits all the time, and hate socks. I identify with this dude so much and I seriously wish I was joking. What I've learned right now from typing this out is that I am a complete weirdo. I'm concerned now.

I'm Renarin when I'm at a social gathering or around people I don't know, but when I'm around people I know well I'm a weird mix of Lightsong and Syl. So basically at school and parties I'm incredibly awkward, but around friends and family I'm pretty compassionate and have a weird/witty sense of humor.

Yeah, I struggled through it a lot on the first read through. But after I read through it once I appreciated it a lot and that's when I became a fan. I also watched the movies like hundreds of times.

My favorites were Harry Potter and Lord of the Rings. Harry Potter was my first obsession, and then I read Lord of the Rings. I didn't really appreciate LOTR at first because it was more difficult to read, but by the end of elementary school I was basically a die hard fan. I still love Harry Potter and LOTR, and that's a good thing because my room is basically covered in merchandise that I started buying back then. I have a ridiculous amount...It's honestly kind of concerning. But my room looks epic now so I don't care. However, I am kind of embarrassed of the other fandom I was in. I was one of those kids that read Warrior cats and roleplayed as cats on Animal Jam (and maybe in real life too). I feel like every school had a warrior cat kid, and, unfortunately, that was me. I only read the first 4 before literally rage quitting because I couldn't handle my favorite character dying, but those 4 books were enough to make me crazy.

My first name is a palindrome...

It's good to know that it's still entertaining. I haven't read Armada, but I know people who have and didn't like it, so if Ready Player Two is better than that it should at least be a fun read.

Since it's near Christmas my mom keeps buying candy canes and all I can think about when I see the red and white is singer skin patterns. I upvoted them for you

I'm not very skilled at coming up with fictional swear words, but the two I've come up with for my characters I use all the time. I write the swears so often that sometimes I catch myself saying them out loud. I'll hit my toe on a table or something and mutter "Guardians!" or "Eldest!" in like the most annoyed voice ever. And then I question my sanity because I realize I am using the swears that the imaginary people in my head use.

I actually have an Asperger's diagnosis. I almost mentioned it in my first post on this thread (about my stories and stuff), but I decided against it because I thought it would be too random. But now I guess I can talk about it anyways. It's honestly hard for me to explain to people because it is so misunderstood. I feel like a lot of the facts about it are difficult to easily find on the Internet. I'm a girl who has been diagnosed with it, but it's hard telling people because they most associate Asperger's with how it appears in boys. Some people have even gone so far to tell me that I probably don't have it, but I have been diagnosed and have gone through testing so I know for sure that I do. But, even though it's often misunderstood, I've kind of just accepted it as an important part of who I am. I like to think that social interaction is a video game and I'm playing it on hard mode, and because it's so difficult me, I've become proud of what I've accomplished. I'm extra skilled because I'm playing the game on the most difficult setting and somehow still surviving

I finished RoW last night, so now I'm going to start reading Ready Player Two. I honestly don't have very high expectations because I haven't really heard anything good about it (and also Daniel Greene's review killed whatever hope I had left). However, I was a huge fan of Ready Player One when I first read it and I'm hoping that the sequel at least has some fun moments. I won't be severely disappointed if it's bad, but I will probably still be disappointed Also, a few weeks from now is Christmas break and I'm going to use the two weeks off from school to start reading Wheel of Time. I'll probably only make it through one book, if I'm being honest, but I'm excited to actually start reading the series. I've put it off for years because I'm intimidated, but I think with quarantine I'll have more time to actually read it.

Okay, that makes sense. I kind of thought it was just that, but I wanted to know what it actually was in case there was something I didn't know about. Thanks

This might be a really dumb question, but the last time I was on the Shard was three years ago and I have absolutely no idea what a Shardbuddy is. Is it just acknowledging someone is a friend, or are there like special things you guys do? I've been really confused about this ever since I came back, and it's actually kind of funny because I've seen it mentioned so much and have just been confused the whole time.

Yes, I have read RoW. I finished it last night. But I did kinda feel like Wit, not gonna lie

I'm honestly pretty socially awkward. I love books because I have a hard time talking to people in real life, so I feel less lonely when I get to read about fictional people. Renarin and Kaladin are my homies (and literally my whole family knows this because I've called them "my homies" multiple times). Also, I have like two close friends in real life and I constantly pester them with random paragraphs from things I've written. They normally get kind of annoyed because I will send the most random paragraphs that only I think are cool, but today I texted one of them something and he actually liked it. And then later in the day he asked me for a story. Normally everyone is annoyed at me but today someone actually asked me to tell them about my stories. This made me way happier than it probably should have and honestly has been a huge confidence boost. Hoid would be proud :')