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Tesh last won the day on August 4 2021

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About Tesh

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    But here is a riddle to guess if you can, sing the bells of Notre Dame: What makes a monster and what makes a man?
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    Lover, what have you become? Coal cars and oil drums, warehouse walls and factory floors. I don't know you anymore. And in the meantime up above, the harvest dies and people starve. Oceans rise and overflow. It ain't right and it ain't natural.
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    Farewell my fallen idol and false friend. We had such hopes and now those hopes are shattered.
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    I was once a dreamer, now I'm man's redeemer! We're on the verge of new frontiers! She's going to be perfect! God is here on earth! I am the modern Prometheus, bear witness to her birth!
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    Look around you! I have found you cannot tell, by lookin' at the surface, what is lurkin' there beneath it!
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    For a town should have a tale to tell, be it highwaymen or wishing wells. The ghost that stalks the graveyard, the banshee and her cry. The whisper tree where lovers died. Ev'ry story longs to be heard, and this is hers...
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    On the north-east tip of North America, on an island called Newfoundland, there's an airport. It used to be one of the biggest airports in the world, and next to it is a town called Gander. Welcome to the Rock if you come from away!

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    I love reading (anything from epic fantasy to gothic horror to sociology), writing, musicals (some of my favorites are Come From Away, Les Miserables, and The Clockmaker's Daughter), history, crochet, The Owl House, Hollow Knight, and birds (I have a budgie named Kaladin). I'm currently learning how to use a French smallsword and rapier, and how to speak Welsh and German. And I'm an anthropology major!

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  1. This is one of the first places where I'd send updates on my birds for years. When I shifted to Discord that kinda stopped, but when I got Kaladin I remember asking on here for name suggestions. 

    Figured I'd update people on here, even though most of the people who were around when I got him I mostly talk to on Discord anymore. But he passed away this afternoon. His health has slowly been getting worse for about a year now. He was a wonderful little bird. I'm at school, but my family did their best to give him the best care they could while I've been gone.

    There's really not much of a point to me sharing this here, but I guess that he's kinda just been such a big part of my personality that it feels necessary to just let everyone know. 

    He would've been four this April. 


    1. Robin Sedai

      Robin Sedai

      That's absolutely heartbreaking. My condolences.

  2. I didn't expect Good Omens to burrow into my brain like it has.

    I keep feeling like I'm forgetting something really exciting and then I remember. 

    It's not even anything really overly specific about the show that my brain keeps getting excited about.

    Just getting large surges of happy chemicals.

    I ordered the book though so I'll be reading that over my break. :D

    Anyways, highly recommend the show. It's just so unique and so fun and so good and YES. 

    And I am four days away from being done with my first semester of college so that's fun. :P

    1. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      Ooh, exciting! Nicely done!

      love Good Omens, I've read the book and I keep meaning to watch the show but I just haven't had time.


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    2. The Awakened Salad

      The Awakened Salad

      @AonEne get over here and help me, Tesh needs to remember the truth.

    3. AonEne


      that's a very cute pfp

    4. AonEne


      ...SUs can have read mores now, that's wack

  4. I'm planning on attending! I haven't been to any convention before so I'm really excited. I'll probably not do a full cosplay but I have a crocheted rat with a pirate hat I might attach to my shoulder.
  5. We actually still have occasional book discussions on the Discord server, and sometimes people will pop in and say something and then things will get quiet again. It would definitely be worth it to try and revive this thread though!

    I literally thought about it that morning and then forgot.


    At least I remembered today. :P 

    So... It's been six years now. 

    That's crazy.

    I was in sixth grade then (no one found out, it's fine) and now I'm about to graduate and go to college.

    This community and these books have had such a huge impact on me. I talked quite a bit about that when I posted my Sanderversary so this time I'm going to mention some specific people.

    @The Awakened Salad You are the best half of STAELSAHD, the best leader of The Awakened Salad Co, and the best friend I could ask for. I wish that our time zones and schedules didn't hate each other so much so that we could talk more, but... Despite that, you're amazing. Thank you for introducing me to The Owl House and many books. When I started talking to you it was like I had finally found out what it was like to have a true friend who I genuinely feel comfortable talking to. Befriending you was the first step for me to realize that it was possible for me to actually have real friends. Thank you, thank you, thank you. (And one day I will meet you and we can watch tOH together and it will be awesome.) [insert sanderavalanche gif here]

    @AonEne ENE! The F of the FAB squad, the head of the Bene pantheon, an original member of The Knights of the Cosmere, an original member of TUBA, and now the best 17th Shard mod. (I'm not biased at all.) You're just... You're really cool? It's hard to convey how cool you are. Also you're kind of the mature one out of the three of us which is super weird but I'm also very grateful for that. You're incredibly wise, intelligent, thoughtful, nerdy, and just fun to talk to. I absolutely cannot wait to see more of you next year. Thank you for being my friend, and thank you for being awesome. 

    @Knight of Iron K O I ! You are also super cool. I'm so grateful for your friendship. You're the only reason I ever beat Hollow Knight, you're so thoughtful in your friendships, and you're getting really storming good at thinking about things critically and challenging your assumptions, and it's so cool watching you learn and grow. Life has not been very kind to you, but you keep pushing through, and I'm so so so glad that you're in my life.

    @DramaQueen You, my friend, are just as awesome as everyone else on this list. It's so fun to talk to you, and I'm so glad that we were able to connect and get to know each other better. Honestly, you're not really the kind of person I generally see myself being friends with, but... we are! And it works! And I'm so glad that we are. Hanging out with you has always been so fun, and thank you for introducing me to a bunch of super cool musicals. I can't wait to be roommates next year and to come up with some great cosplays and for you to meet Kaladin and everything else on our list. :) 

    @Ed Venture Vennie, I love you to death. You're such a neat person, even though your sense of humor is mildly disturbing. Thank you for your help with all of my random questions about college, and for just always being there for me. It means so much. I can't wait to see you more next year. (I haven't forgotten about dress shopping.)

    @Vapor You are such an incredible person. I'm amazed every time I talk to you by your resilience and bravery. You're so cool, you have awesome hair, and hanging out with you is always a joy. You're such a kind and delightful human being. 

    @Condensation TELL SPOOK I SAY HI! You are also amazing. I know we don't talk very much, but I always feel comfortable around you and it's so easy to talk with you. You're awesome and you've got this. I really hope to see more of you and Vapor next year as well. 

    @Doomstick I know we're kind of more casual friends, but when I do chat with you it's always great. Thanks for being my first friend on Duolingo, and I hope that we have the chance to ski together again a few more times in the future. (I'll read Bluebear at some point, I promise.)

    Of course there are so many more people, but these eight have probably had the largest influence on who I currently am. To everyone else, you're also awesome and it's a joy and a blessing to know you and have you in my life. The community I've found through this site rivals no other, and I have genuinely made life long friends. And it's so nice knowing that it'll always be incredibly easy to find someone to discuss Sanderson books with. :D 

    Until next year!

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    2. Robin Sedai

      Robin Sedai

      Happy shardiversary! You're such a cool person :D

    3. Flying




    4. Slowswift


      Happy Shardiversary!

  7. Heh, absolutely. I have a few people who follow me who are no longer active on here who are still green from the first time I did this. (Oh no, the lack of Discord emojis is really throwing off my communication style ahhhhhhhhhhh.)
  8. Hey guys! Just wanted to let y'all know that I just posted the mental health awareness thread for 2023! 

    Please stop by and show your support by changing your profile pictures green for the month of May! And it'd also be great if some of you would be willing to spread the word around a bit. Most of the people who follow me are no longer active. :P 

  9. Hello! For those who don't know me, I'm Tesh. I've been on the Shard for nearly six years now, though I've been primarily active in smaller Sharder circles on Discord the last couple years, so I'm guessing most of you don't know me and I probably don't know most of you. For the last few years, though, I've posted a thread at the beginning of May to recognize mental health awareness month. (I'm doing it early this year because my AP tests start on May 1st so if I don't do it now I'm definitely going to forget. ) Mental illness and just brain stuff in general has had a huge impact on my life, and I know that individuals in circles such as these tend to be more likely to deal with mental illness. Every year, I share a bit of my experience with stuff related to this and encourage others to share theirs, as well as encourage everyone to change their profile pictures green for the month. I started posting these when I was in middle school and developed some pretty bad depression and anxiety, as well as a dissociative disorder (depersonalization/derealization disorder). My entire family has dealt with mental health things of some sort, and that year was really bad because of that. Not only was I struggling, but due to the struggles of my family members I didn't get anywhere the level of help that I needed at the time. I was able to make some friends that year, though, and beginning with that my depression began to lessen. Now I just have occasional depressive episodes but it's nowhere near as bad as it was that year. Over two years ago now I began to do some research into autism and how it shows up differently for AFABs than the more commonly portrayed AMAB presentation. Aaaand I kind of had a "oh wait that kind of explains everything." I have an informal diagnosis now, but decided not to pursue a formal one for a variety of reasons. (I know quite a bit about low support needs autism now, so if anyone has any questions or would like some resources on it just let me know. Oh, and I should note that autism isn't a mental illness, it's technically a developmental disorder.) Please feel free to share your experiences below. Just try to spoil potentially triggering topics (and mention what's spoiled so people can stay away easily if they need to). Remember to be respectful and kind and to change your profile pictures green! You are not alone. Resources For people in the US, you can call or text 988 to contact the national suicide hotline. Here's a link to the website of a suicide hotline in Canada. Here's a link to The Trevor Project's website, an organization with support services for LGBTQIA+ youth. Feel free to reply with any other resources I should add! Past Mental Health Awareness threads! (I'm going to leave out the first one because I was rather uninformed and the post is just a mess. I'd definitely encourage you guys to read through people's responses to these though.) 2019 2020 2021 2022 Some pfps some people have made in the past Green Szeth Green old Shard logo Green Stormlight symbol If anyone has any Cosmere symbol or something similar they'd like green-ified feel free to DM me and I can do that.
  10. Okay so I missed my Sanderversary. 

    On April 19, 2017, I bought my first Brandon Sanderson book. (I found the receipt a while back which is the only reason I know the date.) I started reading it that day.

    And now I get to flex that my first Sanderson book was The Way of Kings and that I read it when I was twelve. :P 

    So... Yeah, it's crazy. These books have been such a huge part of my life for the last six years. I've grown up so much since then. (And I still have a lot more growing up to do, trust me.) The Cosmere has completely reshaped my understanding of stories and of fantasy in particular, and Brandon honestly is just a great person. The books are no longer my entire personality as they were when I was in middle school, but they have made up a lot of who I am now. And even if at some point I move on from them (unlikely), that mark will always remain.

    And honestly, I'm just so grateful for Brandon. I love how much he has grown as an author, especially when it comes to representation and diversity in his books, and how he's been handling that of late. As a queer, autistic, AFAB individual, it means the world to me that my favorite author is an open supporter of these comminities I'm a part of, and is not only standing up for us (specifically in relation to the LGBTQIA+ community), but also is seeking to accurately depict us and others in his works of fiction. 

    Representation. Means. Everything. 

    And the more I've come to understand bias and how representation can affect that, the more I've come to appreciate Brandon. Because no one really does it like he does, especially with how open he is with his fans about it. I especially appreciate how he's acknowledged his past shortcomings, such as his lack of female characters in Mistborn, and that he has been open about them, as well as the fact that his desire to improve in these regards is clear in his newer works.

    He's not perfect. I disagree with the way he approaches a lot of things, especially his work with his charity and the way he handled the Kickstarter. But when it comes down to it, he's honestly just a good human being. And I'll never forget how kind he was when little seventh grade me came to a signing and asked "do you care how many books you sign?" and he said no and then proceeded to sign all fifteen books that I brought. I look up to him in a lot of ways. 

    And... Honestly, most importantly, these books led me to finding a community when I had none. When I was in middle school, I wanted nothing more than to have friends that I could talk to about the Cosmere. But, understandably, most kids in that age range don't really want to be friends with the one weird kid who just wants to talk about the giant epic fantasy bricks and who constantly pesters everyone to read them. But I came here. (Yes, I was too young. But no one caught me so hah. /lh) I found a community. I started a role play that continued for I think three years, I was the second member of TUBA, and eventually I got on discord and through the community that came together through the Shard, I met a bunch of people who are now some of my closest friends in the world. (I'll give some of them a shoutout next month in my Shardiversary post.)

    I seriously just can't express how large a role these books have played in my life. (Though my list of how many times I've read each book in my about me may provide an idea.) 

    But.... Yeah. Just... I'll always be a Sanderfan, in one way or another.



    Oh also I read over half of Elantris today. This was only my third time reading it and I enjoyed it so much more than I remembered. Raoden is such a good bean. Also now that I've started fencing, the fencing scenes were so fun. I think I currently like it more than I like Warbreaker, which is kind of unexpected. My second to last time reading Warbreaker I read it in under 24 hours, but last time it just kinda fell flat. But I loved Elantris so much this time. I think the difference between those two for me this time around was my perception of the characters. The characters in Warbreaker (sorry for reusing the same phrase) just fell flat for me. But Elantris felt far more driven by the individual characters. The characters felt less like plot devices, I guess.


    Elantris was fun.

    I have the tenth anniversary edition too so I got the fun little scene with Hoid doing Hoid things at the end.


    It got far too late far too fast. Stupid sentimentality. :P 

    Who decided I'm qualifed to go to college ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

    If you are currently in a time zone where now is a good time to go to bed, please go to bed. Thank youuuuuuuu. 

    Oh and also, y'all should watch The Owl House. :D 

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    2. Trutharchivist


      Happy Sanderversary! I may or may not have a chance of ever finding mine, depending on how far back the records in my local library go.

    3. Nathrangking


      Happy Shardiversary!!

    4. Ookla of Colors

      Ookla of Colors

      Happy Sanderversary!

  11. Tesh

    I drew some stuff

    I drew some Owl House and Hollow Knight stuff and I think it turned out well.
  12. Very soon. Very very soon. About to watch For the Future, then I'll have a few minutes before Watching and Dreaming will be up on YouTube. I'm terrified but a friend of mine watched it a couple hours ago on Disney Channel and said it's absolutely phenomenal. So... Yeah. I think all shall be well. Minus the fact that it'll be over but so it goes. Edit: I cried for literally thirty minutes straight afterwards and I'm still at the edge and anything might tip me over it and make me start sobbing again.
  13. Hoooooooo boy. Heads up, maaaaajor Owl House spoilers. I'm currently working on another rewatch so that I can go straight from FtF to WaD tomorrow but I'm currently only on episode 15 of season two so I'll have a lot of watching to do. (This may or may not be my eleventh time watching the show the whole way through, minus FtF.) My favorite characters are Hunter and Raine, but I am not getting the vibes that anything's gonna happen to either of them. Hunter's already been through a looooot and we've just barely had Raine and Eda's relationship set up for it to get torn down. Due to the poster, though, as well as the little moment right at the beginning of FtF when Luz gets stuck between realms, I think we're definitely going to get some titan lore. Which will be epic and will likely go hand in hand with stuff about the Collector. HOWEVER I WILL BE SO DISAPOINTED IF WE DON'T GET A WHITTEBANE FLASHBACK. I have a very intense emotional connection to Caleb and just the whole history there in part due to like a 24 hour period where I found a song that fits Caleb and Philip's story *so closely* and listened to it on repeat for literally hours and hours and I planned out an entire animatic despite not having the skills or resources to create and animatic. But yes. I love him. But considering the little bit of lore we got in TtT and then seeing his ghost/hallucination in FtF as well as Belos trying to inhabit the unfinished grimwalker, that just feels like it's building up to something more. A flashback is a best case scenario for me. I know most people think that what we see of Caleb in FtF is a hallucination, but I reaaaaaally hope it's actually a ghost and that we can get some interaction between Caleb and Hunter even though I know that's super unlikely. Just... I need something to feed the Whittebrainrot. We'll definitely get at least some hints as to what Hunter's going to get into, as there have been lots of hints of him learning how to carve palismen primarily due to Eda's conversation with her dad and then Hunter directly saying that he wants to learn how (there was just so much set up with Eda's dad to have this pushed to the side), which also reinforeces the idea that Eda is a descendant of Evelyn so we're hopefully going to get some info on *that.* *takes a deep breath* Also if Luz ends up having to leave the Boiling Isles behind (that was kind of done in a different Disney show that I will not mention because spoilers) then honestly I'll be incredibly disappointed. I don't think there's really any way that they can pull that off. Because... everything that she has is in the demon realm. (I'm trying to reassure myself.) So much of her journey has been her accepting that she is strange and that there are people out there who love her despite being a weirdo. Her only tie to the human realm is her mom and maybe Vee. (Speaking of Vee we've got to get some closure with her storyline.) Big brain dump right there, but... yeah. My brain is a mess. And I've seen this storming show so many times that it's all just embeded deep in my brain right now. Oh and we're definitely going to have another confrontation between Hunter and Belos. Cause what happened in King's Tide just felt like the precursor to an actual conclusion to that specific aspect of the story. Just... more than anything I just need a big family reunion between Luz, King, Eda, Lilith, and Hooty. Oh and I've seen a lot of theories about Belos trying to inhabit the corspe of the Titan which I think would be hecking awesome and honestly I can totally see that happening. I will be back tomorrow afternoon to gush about the parallels in the score, by the way. (Because not only have I seen the show a ton, I've also listened to the music. It is like... very deep in the folds of my brain.) Oh also if you guys haven't seen, they recently posted the actual art from Hollow Mind and it's super cool and there are a few in there that weren't very clear in the show itself (if they were in there at all, honeslty) and they're cooooool. "This is the end." Oh I'm on Understanding Willow right now though and when Luz said "She never said anything about shenanigans" I just about lost it. Hey Dana? No shenanagins tomorrow, please and thank you. Hopefully that was at least semi coherent, it's been a long day and the brain gremlins have been awakened. Oh and if we don't get a happy ending I will riot. /hj
  14. I just finished Tress.


    That is all.

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