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That's kinda easy tbh Just "pseudo" twice, then "hypothyroidism" which if u forget is just "hypo" and "thyroidism" which is just "thyroid" and "ism" uhhhhh

*sob* Kill Tonk Fah, Kiss Denth, ...m-marry Moash Wind, Stone, Night

Yay, Nirvana! i forget who's guilty but maybe dalinar? idk

Oh and MCR right? I love that line Yes.

Oof

Pride month yip yip!

Wow did she really stay up all night huh?

...yes, why?

I love trying to be or thinking myself philosophical For originality... I don't like when me, or someone, has a thought or idea that has been thought by others- and maybe even so common a thought/idea that it's one of those thoughts that are fortunately/unfortunately relatable by every other stranger or friend. But, I think, to have more original or impactful thoughts you need to venture *deeper,* as most everyone goes surface-level- that's just shower thought-type stuff. Less people think deeper, etc. Yeah. Idk if that's true or not but it sounds right. There are a *lot* of people, and lots of things are the same- like the products we use or the movies or books we read. You ever think of how so many people know some song, band, or movie? Not even counting "classics" all the time. But by making an effort and doing something less people have done, you can be meaningful. The trouble sometimes can be knowing what has or hasn't been done; thinking yourself so creative only to realize it's already an established concept or whatever, and millions of people know about/do whatever it is.

How so? Sounds insightful but idk lol 🩵🩷🩷🩵

I coulda swore lol U like chapel roane and tchaik six tho? wait, would it be correct to call that a truism?

Oh lollll (i have no idea, but it's some popular meme. i saw ot months ago) Thanks!

https://www.17thshard.com/forums/topic/201793-trans-hangout-thread/page/4/#findComment-2028016 I get it I hope/think Thanks for that That last sentence is what I say to myself, a bit. Good point about talking to others, honestly. Just make sure they can actually contribute and aren't just friends who will nod and listen. Though, they can probably have insight, especially if they are in related fields? Idk, everything is confusing, so many exceptions or doubts, and clarifications/caveats. Heh. But uhm. I like the idea that I actually have something to contribute- that it's not all "solved" already. Like how in math there are unsolved/unproved/un-disproves problems and stuff? Probably the same with philosophy but I don't know enough to form a sentence I'm confident in- which would maybe just be a clichéd one? One everyone repeats, so I learned it and it's true? Also, with the "fancy" words and stuff, I've found I can use "fancy" words subconsciously- naturally. Idk.

Oh, was it you, then? I lose track of people and who said what and I don't like it..

Yes I have some diary pages or at least entries devoted to trying to untangle this- or, not really trying, just analysis-paralysis, I guess. I worry that the reason I write/create art is simply for recognition- a reason I see as "bad", selfish, etc. whatever the word is. I just don't want to think my writing is very good and then have reality hit painfully when someone with authority in the area, or just some rando, makes me realize or says it's actually not that good, or points out flaws etc. Wouldn't that be i.e., not e.g.? #pedantry #maybewrong omg... the fear of correcting someone and then it turns out you are wrong and they were right From the Start...

Double post merger is likely server-side and, like, even if it wasn't it's part of the website so idk how rhat wouldn't work but maybe I'm understanding but it doesn't matter

yes

Missed you too! But not U2 Because I don't listen to them But yeah. Idk if you're like me but if I were you, I might feel guilt or pressure about the death count, like to do it. But if you do, don't worry about it! I get it. It can be hard to maintain and stuff. Life. Uhhh... if I'm totally off-base then that's why sometimes I don't say my guesses at others' thoughts and minds oh, lol yeah

(It's a title of a Linkin Park song) So... I'm listening to The Emptiness Machine for the second separate time. First time(s) was months ago, I think it was suggested by @Honors Spectral Image, or someone? I've been craving music like Linkin for weeks. Now, another song is on. Just shuffle- More the Victim now. This all goes back to what happened a few weeks ago, and some temporary great people I met. There was one who loved Linkin and other music, and another who liked this one song. I miss them both deeply, and so I'm trying to use music to remind myself of them- not sure how much it's working. Not only that but I also just developed a craving for this music, even while still with them. So I'm finally allowing myself - and allowed - it. Sometimes I struggle, when I *want* to feel a specific emotion or feeling or thought from something, but can't. Same when reading something and I want to get something out of it but can't understand or get anything and I can't focus on it, because I'm just trying to feel something. Not sure if that makes sense. Like, (and I realize I need to actually provide examples sometimes, because what I have in mind is likely not in mind for You, lol) when reading poetry or something I know I should get meaning or feel something from, I... just can't- or find it difficult. I end up re-reading or analyzing the words or just trying to get to the point where I can nod slowly at how thought-provoking and "deep" it probably is. Sigh. Unrelated, but you know how you can say something that sounds right and is "fancy" or will make you sound smart? There's actually a good scene from the movie Goodwill Hunting (it's rated R btw and uhhh don't watch it if you're young or whatever?), but basically this college student recited something from a book that sounded intellectual, to some college girls or whatever, and then the main character, Will, exposes that guy for being not what he sounds like, and Will talks smarter/burns him (verbally, of course). So yeah. Also basically this one phrase has been on my mind lately... it was probably on the internet somewhere when I looked up something about philosophy... "central to the human condition." As in "____ is central to the human condition." I don't fully even know what the human condition is, though I kinda do. But it sounds kinda scholarly, no? But if you don't actually know if it is correct, you can't use it? Though, I would/will/do just fall in the... perfectionism trap of not believing myself able to talk about something until I've read it all, understood it, and understand essentially everything in that field. Because, what if I say something that is incorrect or debunked or whatever, in that very field? How can I trust that my interpretation of some text is accurate? And, if no one (of few) agree(s) with you on something, it shouldn't necessarily disprove you? Maybe they just never thought of that. Or, you are simply wrong, they are right, you know no better and thus should not even be here- what are you doing here, with no expertise, stick to what you know, the basics, don't venture beyond. Just some thoughts- some I already wrote in a journal or thought of, some I thought of but didn't get down.

ye, lol and one other thing, maybe. but yeah or maybe italian, since I looked up and was Italian not Spanish

Uh-oh that's good and odd and not good that u can't type but interesting Must be one o' them apple watches

FIRST i just wanna say that I was trying to think of that novel yesterday! Thanks I actually saw it today, but didn't get it cuz I confused it with a Homer book? I was also looking at Odyssey/Iliad (didn't get, tho) I'll have to get Ulysses. I've heard of it. Yes. Thanks btw. I live off praise hehe... Tbh I admire you as a thinker/person with good writing and words. I honestly didn't hold my stream-of-conscious writings in a high regard. Idk. I shouldn't hold them in *too* high a regard so as not to be... whatever the word is I always struggle to know. Being too proud of your work that doesn't match the level of pride you have. Like being cocky, I guess. I see or hear word "transient" a lot, and didn't really know what it meant hehe.. but looked it up now and you used it quite well in my mind, meaning what it conveyed was good.

Lol I'm good, right now Indeed it has been I see you drew your OC/PFP like u were sayin u were gonna and got Subnautica 2 das nice I been just groovy, baby! uhm.. idk, kinda isolated but finding some joys and still clean