Usseewa
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hmm? Art thou accusing me of idiocy? i embrace insanity
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So... I read this post like 11 hours ago so I forget what I'm supposed to respond to but I'll do the part about the interests. Also I'm only diagnosed with ADHD, not autism, though I *may* have autism. Haven't looked into it much, though. Beyond a mental breakdown over realizing I might have it, a few months ago. Yeah. So.. my interest probably used to be reading, but I guess I'd say it's writing? Though honestly I'm not sure. It could simply be watching TV/anime, lol? Well, maybe still is reading, if you count Internet rabbit holes (cough wikipedia cough). Idk, maybe I don't have one. The trouble is when I don't do much of my interests cuz too busy or exhausted. And hungry. When I'm hungry, I simply can't concentrate on things. Though even that varies. If I'm trying to write/read a research paper/article while hungry, thirsty, and with a headache, I will NOT want/be able to do it. But sometimes if I've already been doing something for hours, I don't want to stop just cuz I get hungry. But starting is kinda impossible. I'm hungry (and kinda mentally exhausted) right now, and just thinking about writing (creatively, not as much like this) or reading a book doesn't sound good. Even watching anime wouldn't be as enjoyable. Idk. Is that off-topic? Technically I listen to music for hours. Like, all day sometimes. At least I used to before some disruptions, but I'm getting back to it. Listening rn. My interest probably used to be coding/programming... but I haven't done it in a bit and I don't think I'm as interested in it anymore. But that's sort of another topic. I could spend all day at the bookstore/library, though. I got a lot of books recently lol. I love it. I love choosing and wearing clothing/outfits/styles. I could spend hours making dozens or just a dozen outfits lol.
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Nope, but also it costs a lil bit of money to use it i think.. I met a girl while i was in the psych ward and we didn't exchange contact info and she doesn't live near me, so I'll most likely never see or talk to her again even though I really want to. i consider 80s music popculture lol. by popculture i don't always mean new stuff. not sure if that means im using it wrong. but i mean popular stuff and also classic stuff, idk. 80s music is nice tho, i like too.
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help ic ant find the girl i met in the psych ward
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cools oh, neat. i honestly... both want my voice different but am kinda fine to be like i am now in that I'm still a girl, still trans. I don't like my voice, but idk. Yeah.. i don't like making choices sometiems I can't find her
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I WATCHED IT A FEW DAYS AGO OMG it made me cry so much especially one of the last episode, I forget which. spoilers the whole thing was amazing. I just randomly found it on netflix and it looked cool so i binged it in 2 days and it was amazing
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i gotta get bloodwork too.. it'll be fine... hehe.. *weak nervous half-smile thing* u should look into anxiety meds for sure if thats issue. personally i tried like one a while back and i don't think it worked. maybe i need axneith meds ahh...ehha yeah that's what i thought. just didn't wana give more evidence for what country I'm in that's great! i mean.. I don't see how it wouldn't be enough time (except if you mean with HRT). You can get clothes and come out in days/weeks. Voice training is harder ofc (i haven't started ) also make sure u don't get injections if you can't handle needles. unless ur fine, idk. i got a patch for the E just cuz it seemed the safest, idk. well i mean i didn't want injections and pill seemed to have more risks yeah, maybe i tried searching her and idk idk if i even got the last name right... i found one random tiktok thumbnail that looked kinda like her but idk
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but is it weird/stalkery? to just look her up? she didn't even give me her socials also I'd have to make accounts lol cuz i dont have the standard social medias but that's ofc fine
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congrats I won't see her again tho cuz she was so unless i look her up (i know her first and last name, I think) and hope I can find her, but it might be creepy or too late... I can't even figure out what i feel anymore also it wouldn't work as a crush since I won't see her IRL even if i text bjt texting would be nice and/or vidoe calls never done those much
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i spent too long under one still am, in some ways... i envy people here haheh
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too bad i don't have her number
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i always look away i don't think I've ever seen a needle enter my body, and I don't wish to. i struggle both during and after. i feel weird after. i don't remember exactly since most of today i haven't been able to rhink properly/as much (it happens) but yeah. i got an anti-androgen med, yes.
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IT DEPENDS WHEN/HOW I SEE IT actually i think it always unsettles me, except for random minor stuff I guess but cuts and blood draws it's not always the blood itself but what it implies and what it is
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oops. i got it drawn again after that (way less tho) and it bruised too. i hate it so much. i was barely breathing during it, or was doing shallow. I think I could see fine, though. But what was also bad is when I closed my eyes during the draw to try and handle it, I got very distressing images so I had to open them and of course I also saw the vials of blood afterwards and oh god.... It's just scary for some people, i guess? Like Tess and Lily. why
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Yeah, 'tis cool. gulp, yeah. i got bloodwork (not related to HRT, though) a bit ago and it gave me something (anxiety attack, anxiety, panic attack, idk what it's called). It also bruised badly... uhhhhhh check and check. cool
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quality french accent and pronunciation
there's something about french that is pleasing to my ears
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do i overuse hyphens or
does everyone else just
not use them enough?
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oh wait did you mean you are recording your own? i meant, like, making a spotify playlist just with metal songs i like
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haha they upped the dosage i dont share pictures even of the sky even though i want to because Rainbolt
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see my doublepostmerger also i think my meds have been inceeasing some of my adhd symptoms
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why weren't the others lol yes i saw also i dont want a metal album because ill make my own if and when i want to but thanks for the offer and id love some songs
