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Alright. Past few SUs have been preeettttyyyy depressing. So this one gets to be happier. I want drawing prompts! Also, @CalanoCorvus, how is that Everley scene thing going? Don’t feel rushed though take your time
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Spoiler”are you okay?”
”yes… no.”
OHHH THIS REMINDS ME OF AN IDEA I HAD A WHILE AGO!!!
also you’re good Calano hahaha, you’ve got plenty on your plate.
ooh that’s super fun too, @Lotus Blossom!! These are all great ideas. Let’s see what I can come up with
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I’ve kind of become my family’s personal maid. I’ve been doing chores for them all morning, so I’m still stuck in my pajamas. My mood is low and I should eat something but I’m not hungry. My mom just yelled at me for stuff I didn’t do. She didn’t say thank you for the lunch I made her. At night when she says “I love you”, I don’t really believe it. It’s just become part of her routine. I think I need to hang out with a friend. I hadn’t gotten out of the house for about a week until yesterday, and I’m stuck doing all the stuff my mom wants me to do. Chores and work and cleaning and babysitting my immature siblings. I’m still a kid, but she gives me the workload of a much older person.
Aaaaaanyway. I’ll be fine. How are you guys?
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I’m not the first to say this, by any means, but happy birthday Wizard.
Have a good one, ya old man. 
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Haly,
I did it again. I should stop being stupid, especially since they all four look super intentional next to each other. And what if we go swimming? Or my mom makes me try on clothes? Gosh, I’m sorry, Haly. I said I wouldn’t and then I did. I shouldn’t have and I’m sorry. I also got very little sleep last night. I stayed up at least half pst one and woke up around seven this morning. Sorry.
@CalanoCorvus @The Wandering Wizard I redrew the scene last night and gosh it’s beautiful
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Kind of heavy emotion dump that probably makes about zero sense:
SpoilerI’m extremely tired. I’m so so so tired. Physically and emotionally. I need a new emotional release/coping mechanism because my current one is not healthy, so suggestions are appreciated. Also I don’t think I believe in another life beyond this one. I don’t know if I believe in God or not. I don’t know where I’m going or what I’m doing in the future. I miss school, weirdly. The structure and the people kind of, while tearing me apart, held me together. Now I don’t have any glue and I’m just kind of… existing in little tiny, exhausted, fragmented, scared, confused pieces. I need to get away from my family. Maybe I could go live with Mal and Anna and their family. I love both of them and their parents beyond words. Or maybe I could go live at Lina’s. I wish I had a summer camp or something. I wish I looked and acted more perfect, wish I WAS more perfect. I guess I’m stuck being a mess for now, clinging onto other people for repair and entertainment, and the ones who should love me most strip me down to a horrible feeling, a few negative words, some actions and a face. I think I deserved it when my brother hit me. I think I liked the pain and the message, being reminded that I am small and insignificant and that nobody in this house cares for me anyway. It’s all yelling and crying and screaming and growling and consequences and grounding and trapping and throwing and suffocating and belittling. The only one who I love here is my dad. He’s like a fresh breath of air every day when he walks through that door, even if he’s soaked in sweat from the work he does to hold this broken family—
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In any life I’d choose you all.
You all are good people, down to your core. I’m proud, honored, and happy to call you all my family-away-from-family.
Kajsa, Im glad my words could help. That’s what I try to do: Stitch wounds using prose. Being able to achieve that, and help, that’s what I live for. So, really, I should be thanking you, for giving me the opportunity to tell you these things. That is not to say I’m glad you’re in this situation so I can say it, but I mean I’m glad we’re friends up to this point that I can say it and mean it and know it’s true.
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I'm late but I agree with everything everyone has said. And I'm always glad to talk or to show you your wonderful potential when you can't see it. You are part of my family if you want to be. Cuz you do have amazing and incredible potential, Kajsa and I love you in a brotherly way (the way a brother should love a sister
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Is chronic boredom a real thing?
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Alright everybody. (Well… more like just @The Wandering Wizard and @CalanoCorvus lol) I finished the Everley piece at like 12:30 last night! But… I mean, there are some obvious problems.
1. Everett kind of looks like a child
2. Hadley doesn’t look nearly as anguished as Zelda did, so that bothers me. But I was pretty tired while I was drawing it so that’s my excuse lol (and I’m scared to fix it, especially after I finalized the outline) I think it’s mostly her posture actually—and because her hair is just so voluminous, But I can’t fox either of those things now bc harsh outline
anyways, without further adue…
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Again, there’s obviously things that could be fixed. But whatever, this was just for fun haha!
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Them:
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This is fricking random but I was super bored lol
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Everett Meander:
SpoilerAppearance:
Spoiler-Messy blonde “swooshy-spikish” (in Haly’s words) hair
-Golden/bronze eyes
-Tall and lean, not particularly muscular but not twiggy either
I’ll post some pictures:
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(just imagine his eyes like a bronze/gold/honey color)
Backstory:
SpoilerKind of complicated…
he was born in Riese, a tribe whose abilities are based on the heart—Ev can detect lies. He had a little sister named Telena who made him very happy, and he and his parents and Tel were a very happy family. He made friends with Mira Dethridge when he was a kid, and later he fell for her and had a romantic relationship with her—until she massacred the Riesen tribe. (Long story, not getting into it right now) he was the only one that survived due to Mira’s emotional ties to him. He often has nightmares and blames himself for the Riesen Massacre. After The Massacre, he found Quialla [Lastname not disclosed], and Rissa and Olux [Lastname—I def didn’t forget this, nope] and went nomadic. He’s been living with them ever since.
Personality:
SpoilerHe’s kind of timid and awkward but he’s also totally adorable. He’s very guarded and hates talking about his past. He’s stubborn but soft on the inside. He makes time for having fun and taking breaks from life.
Hadley Harlow:
SpoilerAppearance:
Spoiler-Long rusty red hair, waist-length and pin straight
-Icy blue eyes
-Some freckles but not a lot
-Average height, muscular
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Backstory:
SpoilerHadley was born Hadley Helena Tarondotter, princess of Elysia and second in line to the throne. She was trained for battle from a very young age (so don’t mess with her or she’ll mess you up) and excelled in combat—but specifically hand-to-hand and sword fighting. When she turned ten, her parents began choosing suitors, one of whom was Jaeger (if you’ve ever seen Pacific Rim it’s like how they say it—I swear I didn’t name him after the mechs lol) Yergenson. Hadley really liked him but did not trust him, and as soon as they were engaged, the power-hungry teen staged an accident for Turner (Hadley’s older brother and heir to the throne) and murdered him. Hadley was an eye witness because things went wrong, so he ran. Hadley followed, vowing to avenge her brother. Over a few years, she lost his trail, and one person had information and promised to get more—if she worked for him. Ludwig employed her as a bounty hunter and assassin in exchange for good pay and information on Jaeger.
Personality:
SpoilerShe has trust issues but she’s very headstrong. She’s stubborn and doesn’t like to mess around. She’s down to business and doesn’t mind passing up fun for a chance to improve or get paid.
Sorry this took so long. If you have any questions please ask!!!! I’d love to clarify any confusion you may have—Especially since these were kind of a mess…
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Two things:
1. I’m about to start working on the Zelink inspired Everley piece again
2. Today’s outfit is giving goblincore and I freaking love it (I also kind of look like my pfp today
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please give me everley content.
…wait a minute.
kajsa can i write with these two characters you know my skill madame please allow me to craft glorious beautiful scenes.
all i would need are like some synopsis on the characters. i wanna write with em. up to you tho i won’t pressure. you can say no if you want to
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Somehow as soon as I turn on Low Power Mode, my phone dies even FASTER. Like wut
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“Sorry, I was looking at gourmet cheeses and got distracted.” -@Shining Silhouette, yesterday night
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How To Be Happy 101:
listen to “Gonna Get Over You” by Sara Bareilles while cooking quesadillassuch a vibe
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Haven’t done one of these in a while! I’m gonna keep it short and simple though for fear of Mom taking my phone away haha.
Mental health update:
SpoilerMentally, I’ve actually been really good lately. Friday was an exception, I was pretty bad that night especially. I did some stuff I shouldn’t have, but I’m good now. Despite all the dumb stuff that’s happening in life right now, I’m really really good, and I might go as far as to say hat I’m happy.
Life update:
SpoilerLife, on the other hand, has sucked a pretty good amount. Last night was specifically kind of rough because my mom got really mad that I was drawing, so she took my stuff away, then I got angry with her, so my dad got upset (my siblings were also not being particularly friendly) and sent us all to bed early. My older brother and I were struggling to go to sleep so he decided that we could hang out in his room, which was fine, but there was a point at which I wanted to leave but he wanted me to stay. I tried to leave, and he hit me. Eventually, though, I escaped to the basement and slept in the fort with my little siblings. This whole week has been pretty crazy, and then that on top of it was just bleh. But mentally I’m good.
That doesn’t really explain a lot, but it sums it up. I should go now so Mom doesn’t get mad
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Good morning, lovely humans!
It’s going to be a good day today, even if it doesn’t want to be! Having a bit of a slow start, but that’s okay since this week has been somewhat busy
Yogurt is delicious. Change my mind.
Fre Sha Voca Do!
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Kansa’s random piano wisdom of the day:
this song was stuck in my head so I walked to the piano to figure out how to play it and YAY!!!
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OH NO IT AUTOCORRECTED MY NAME! I just realized why @TheAlpha929 spelled it like that…
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So I was flipping through my sketchbook and noticed some drastic differences between my old drawings and my new drawings. I wanted to post them to show you guys what a bit of practice and dedication can do! I think the older ones are mostly from early 2022, and the newer ones are anywhere from late 2022 to today.
old ones:
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New ones:
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There’s definitely a long way to go, but I’m happy with where my style and skill is at right now. I can’t wait to see where I go with more practice!!!
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Okay you guys, who wants to play a game?
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@CalanoCorvus, I have 40 minutes to work on your commissions! It MIGHT be enough time to get one of them done, but no promises.
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IM STILL VERY TIRED, BUT:
1. I HAVE SO MUCH ENERGY
2. TODAY IS SCOOTERS DAY SO IT DOESNT MATTER THAT IM TIRED BECAUSE IM GETTING COFFEE SO THERE
3. I have to be awake to take care of my little brother because I think he’s sick
and Mom and Dad are still sleeping, so…
4. today’s gonna be a good day anyway.
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I. Am. EXHAUSTED.
BUT!!!
I went shopping and got four (mini) skirts, three shirts (though I already have a fourth), three dresses, a pair of shorts, and a pair of cute little boots. IM SO HAPPY! They’re all kind of cottagecore academia. I can make 48 different outfits!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I’ll post pictures a little later
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I’m tired but restless. I think I’ll finally be able to go thrifting today!
we just watched some adorable little show choir babies put on their summer camp show
it was 80s themed and they were SO SCUDDING PRECIOUS. And guess who was there watching?
LUCAS! MY “SON” FROM THE MUSICAL!!! There was an audience contest for who could dress the most 80s and he was wearing this shiny colorful striped suit. Epic.
So I texted Mal a picture with the caption, “Look who I found” and he was like “what is our son doing” xD
Me: “apparently he’s found a passion for the 80s”
Mal: “I’m not surprised”and then we talked about his sister’s softball tourney in Oklahoma and how they’d been rained out. It was refreshing to chat with him! I think I often forget I have his number in my phone lol
That’s about it. ALSO, PEN TATTOOS? YESYESYES. They’re adorable but washable! (I have commitment issues hahaha) And paint pens are even better, especially the shiny ones. They stay longer, too.
I should go do my chores now so I can go to Plato’s (Plato’s Closet is a thrift store—kind of upscale but not really?) and get more clothes!!! I cleaned out my closet yesterday and got rid of 67% of its contents to make room for all kinds of new cool stuff!!! Also I cut up a pair of peeling leather boots because cutting things is therapeutic (and I needed the buckles for a project).
I’ll post pictures of my haul when I’m done shopping!!! Fre sha voca do!!!!
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I slept on the floor last night. Good reminder.
also, for @The Halcyon Girl’s eyes only:SpoilerIf you’re not Haly, shoo
SpoilerSeriously, last chance! Leave!
SpoilerI broke our promise. I’m really sorry, I just needed to feel something. Besides, they’re really really small. And I didn’t remember I’d promised I wouldn’t until I’d already done it. I’m sorry, Fried.
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I too have slept on the floor the past… 3 nights? I’m in Tennessee, remodeling a house. I hope you slept okay! I know I did, I slept like a rock. Got up, had a sausage egg and cheese sandwich from Bojangle’s, played some MtG, and am now working on texturing the ceiling. Or, well, I was working on texturing the ceiling. I’m taking a short break now haha
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If I were to machine wash/tumble dry something that’s supposed to be hand washed/air dried, would it shrink? Hypothetically, of course.
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Also, today was pretty rough. I’m not going to get too much into it but basically I played Mom all day again on top of cleaning out my closet and doing a thousand other things for other people, which lead to no thrifting. I guess there’s always tomorrow… *sigh*. It’s just so frustrating because I’m still a kid. I’m BARELY a teenager. And I have so much piled on my shoulders that I can’t stop to take a breath. It’s exhausting…
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Good morning! I’m playing Mom again for who knows how long, and I got very few hours of sleep last night. BUT! I’m ready to try and have a good day. :)
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Maybe you'll show us if you do? :3
Oh yeah ofc!
QuoteMedieval Collectibles is a great place to buy fantasy wardrobes from, it's where I get my stuff. Although, it's probably significantly more expensive than thrifting.
Noted.
QuoteYou got this!!
Thanks Silh
QuoteIt leads to fun conversations lass! The kind that end with all your breath being taken by the pixies and replaced with dem giggles!!
True enough, I suppose.
Have a good one, ya old man. 
and Mom and Dad are still sleeping, so…
