DreamEternal

Thank you all. Kind words were what I needed the most.

So... this may not exactly be bad news. Actually, this may be good news and that is the problem because I can't shake of the feeling that I made a terrible mistake, when I think I was supposed to feel the exactly opposite. What happened? Well, I just... I can't believe I am writing this... I just told my family I (think I) am bisexual. And I feel horrible about it because I feel I have accomplished nothing but making life harder in the near future. And I am feeling so anxious, and I know they are talking about me but I don't know what they are saying, and I need a hug and I probably shouldn't be talking about this here, but I don't have anyone to talk with about this, and I just can't get calm on my own.

I agree with Maxal. Even if Adolin became a villain for some reason I can't even imagine, he still wouldn't backstab his father like that. Adolin is a direct man who prefers direct means. Even thought in battle he can be cunning and opportunistic, we have never seen his capacity to transfer those skills to other contexts, much like his confidence and control only exist when it comes to hitting things with an oversized sword. Not that it really matters, since Adolin worships his dad, and the only way I could see him actively going against him is if Dalinar became a extremistic tyrant and someone close to Adolin convinced him taking his father off the throne by (physical or political) force was the only choice. And he still wouldn't think of his right to depose his father for insanity unless Renarin reminded him of it, because his first thought would be of direct opposition, be it with words or blades.

Have you read the thing itself? Your "Patronus" would most likely turn out to be a Elder God in disguise given the "nature" of the texts in question, which is all but natural. ps: and I am back. Not that you noticed my absence. This days my online activity has mostly restricted to the TVtropes "Writer's Block" forum. Reading, or even thinking too hard about Brandon's books tends to redirect too much of my creative juices towards fanfiction plotbunnies, which I don't want right now because I am busy outlining my novel. Slowly. pps: BTW, I've found the TVtropes forums, or at least the subforum I frequent, about as civil as the shard.

I think I know, but I am not sure how one sends pictures.

I wish it was as simple as that. Well, actually I don't, as it would make me feel almost normal . But yes, that is like, at least 40% of the problem. Most of the rest can be blamed on my depression making it easier to be apathetic, pessimistic and lacking in perspectives for the future, and my current priorities being elsewhere.

Today I had a Calculus test. I gave up without answering even one question. Yay me . It isn't the only discipline I am going horribly at. And it is not even because I find Calculus that hard, it is because I couldn't find the focus to study and couldn't care. Because I enough of a genius to enter one of the hardest to enter courses of one of the hardest to enter universities in Brazil, yet even better at being useless. If there was a way to measure wasted potential, I am quite sure I'd be one of the top ten... And yes, I am fully aware of how masterfully I've mixed arrogance and self-depreciation like I was some kind of fallen demigod, instead of a miserably pathetic young adult aboding deep in very undeserved self-pity. Whatever, I like to feel like my woes are actually meaningful once in a while.

EDIT: I hate how the new site doens't let me split quotes. Totally broke my post.

Maybe not the Ghostbloods, as they are a group of cutthroats that recruit from the criminal underworld, exactly the kind of people Sadeas would find fun to hang around with. But I don't think he was one of them. An ally, or contact? Of course, the Ghostbloods had all reasons in the world to aproach him ans his wife. Actually, if someone is a secret ghostblood, I am quite sure Ialai is our best bet.

You should be ashamed of yourself. Everyone knows Iyatil/Veil is the best ship. Everyone except maskless barbarians, that is.

...Adolin? ...for now, that is.

Shaod, I suppose. It like living in hell in both cases, but at least for the Shaod you still care enough to cling to life, while for bridgemen the only thing you care about is how painful is going to be your inevitable death. EDIT: Would you rather be forced to kill Shallan in a duel she had no hope of winning and was terrified about or be forced to poison Kaladin's stew while all gemstones in a hundred miles radius were dun?

Taravangian is Kaladin's grandfather. /thread

Roion and... no, this can't work. Lin Davar and... do we know Restares' gender? Wait, but Kaladin's hair is fully black... Righteousness+Law? No, that fits a Skybreaker better... Reality+Lies? Shallan already got that one covered...

I don't think checking the gender of characters you write is a good way of measuring one's gender identity except in extreme cases... but I don't feel like regular gender concepts fit me well, and when I write I often include at least one character that plays with the idea of gender in non-standard ways. Other than that, I write male and female characters with more or less the same degree of comfort.

The reason? It is because math is about taking fundamental truths shared across all possible universes, pushing them to the breaking point, jumping inside the cracks and finding more truths to repeat the process ad infinitum. It is bound to break some brains in the process.Abd the numbers weren't looking back. The numbers are only symbols, values. Functions are only patterns. Equations are only riddles. They can't look back. They are abstract, lifeless and true. What looked back was not true. It was beneath the truth, and looked back when I saw through its cover deep into the void. Ok, it wasn't literally like that. I merely had the feeling I was staring into a hole in reality with my third eye after spending too much time trying to divide zero by zero and get a result, and felt that some sort of being could stare back. Completely sane, just like a (most likely) human being confused by her lack of wings.

From what I remember, Brandon said the listeners were not originaly of either Odium or Cultivation, and are not of Honour. That implies they are or were of Cultivation at some point.

The Nightforms are believed to be a voidform, partly due to their name, and they seem to be capable of discerning the future. I think it is not that simple, as most songs speaking of the Nightforms tell their prophecies of a new path and of Odium's possible fall, things I do not believe Odium would like to be show. There are four explanations I came up with: 1)Odium's plans depend on the Listeners betrayal. Unlikely and boring, IMO. 2)Odium's team is a backstabbing carnival of psychos. Infighting between splinters of Odium contained only by fear of their boss and stronger hayred for other shards would fit the intent of Odium, and be an interesting weakness. 3)Future sight granted to mortals is always disconnected from the intent of the investiture powering it, and also protects the seer from being influenced by it, meaning that the nightforms are more capable of thinking indepently and non-hatefully than other forms, making them potential traitors. Ot also means Truthwatchers are more distant from both Honour and Cultivation than other Orders, making them dangerous. 4)Nightforms are not forms of power from Odium, but from Cultivation, Honour, Aldonalsium or a mix of them. Maybe they are granted by Truthwatcher spren, if the theory listeners can merge with Radiant spren to get non-evil forms of power is true.

That is why I am not going to become a mathematician. Between that, my strange dreams and the wings incident, I could very well become a living transplanar portal after trying too hard to find a solution to an equation. But is that the sensation wasn't because I've found a pattern. It was because I couldn't find it, and suddenly felt like I was looking at a hole in reality without finding what fills it. Only looking through... looking through the void... I may not be exactly as outwardly eldritch as 'Zathoth or Voidus, but my universe is still a stranger place than most.

And if there was no other way? Would it be honorable to just sit back and let everything die? Take into account that Honour may have made an oath to protect the humans of Roshar.

I am not so sure. I mean, for all we know Honour's true mandate can be about making others honourable, just like Ati didn't feel like ruining himself.

I accidentally downvoted Rasarr. Can someone upvote her post to compensate?

Don't. There is a reason so many great mathematicians were less than stable.

Today this terrible and enlightening revelation fell upon my mind in its full abstract glory, while I was doing a calculus test: You are only doing it right if after staring long enough at the numbers and formulae, you feel things staring back. If I had choosen the path of a mathematician, I am sure I would be able to hear them whisper by now. EDIT: no, I am not on drugs, and I am also not that sleep deprived. I've just found the truth.

I personally prefer the term "converted" as it seems more aligned with Honor. And maybe Honorspren are windspren who were given extra investiture by Honour and became sapient because of that.