(Ir)rational Fears

[Condensation she/her]

On 8/23/2020 at 6:25 AM, The Awakened Salad said:

That loud gurgling sound my bath makes whenever it sucks up the last bit of water. It just sounds so angry. Or like it’s screaming out in pain. *shivers*

I DO THIS, but also whenever the lights turn yellow but there’s not enough time to slow down I go mwahaha, you can’t stop me! I defy you, traffic lights!

...I’ve been told I’m entertaining to drive with.

^Also me

I’m quite shy and would probably just stand in the corner or something. Though I think if any meeting were to happen it’d be at a release party or signing, so everyone might be excited enough that nerves lessen a bit?

On 8/23/2020 at 5:51 AM, Scarletfox said:

 

It says irrational or rational, although where I live, the existence of fear is not really acknowledged, so if you shy away from a red wasp, everyone just looks at you like you’re a crazy woman.

I am not as awkward as I used to be, and I guess I’m kind of popular considering I know everyone in upper school by name. (I go to a really small school, but it’s not small enough that everyone knows everyone. People see me a bit insane sometimes) My school doesn’t really have a stepladder anymore, especially this year. I am not disliked by any, which is as close to popularity as one can get here.

On 8/23/2020 at 11:07 AM, DramaQueen said:

*Insert butterfly meme with this^ as the butterfly and me as the boy* "Is this me?"

I'm not disliked by anyone, but there are probably more people in my school who don't know my name than those who do. I wouldn't even consider myself popular amongst the theatre kids. I mean, I can talk to them all and I consider all of them my friends, but I usually only hang out a lot with a smaller group. It also seems like no one really tried to make sure I'm involved with stuff.

On 8/23/2020 at 11:15 AM, Channelknight Fadran said:

I'm pretty sure most of the kids in my school know my name, but not for any good reason (I.E. I'm annoying as crem). Being ignored and left out is something I've been weirdly okay with as I was growing up; possibly because I wasn't ever included in anything at all and I didn't know what it was like--but that makes it sound like I had a super depressing childhood with no friends, which is completely incorrect. I had friends and people to talk to, but because  most of my talents are mental and not physical, I didn't do any of the things that the other kids did (sports, mostly. Never been a sports guy).

It also isn't like people to try to involve others unless they notice that you're being left out. I'm not saying guilt-trip people to be included, but giving them a little slack for being oblivious to how you feel might be a good idea.

On 8/23/2020 at 1:02 PM, Matrim's Dice said:

That's pretty much me. Everyone knows who I am, and approximately 60% of those people probably don't like me all that much  And I can't exactly figure out why. Maybe it's not a dislike, but definitely not a like. The only reason people know who is because I'm the 'smart' one (ie: I actually try in school *gasp*) and I'm not sure a lot of people here are too keen on that type. I'm more tolerable to them then the people who report any and every rule bender, which I typically don't do (which makes me typically more acceptable :P) but still a lot of people probably would rather avoid me.

Social status is weird.

But then again, my lunch table is also the only completely full one in my grade  except for the sports table where all the year-round athletes sit. I've never been a sports person either, and frankly running isn't an 'acceptable' sport in anyone's eyes who doesn't do it at my school  Which is just... not true. Being a runner also attracts weird looks. Why, I'm not sure. It's great! Better then banging into each other while wearing heavy gear chasing a pointed ball, imo.  

On 8/23/2020 at 1:11 PM, Negative_Null said:

I think almost everyone on the Shard falls into the "not sports ball person but somewhat awkward book person", at least in High School

On 8/23/2020 at 3:46 PM, Snorkel said:

I used to be afraid of snakes being in the toilet.  I you google it (I suggest not), it might seem slightly rational.

Except . . . I live on an island with no snakes.

*If

10 hours ago, DramaQueen said:

I'm also not a sports person. I used to just be the book girl, and I'd literally walk through the crowded halls in jr high carrying a book and whenever anyone would ask me what I was reading, I'd first ignore them, then if they kept bugging me, I'd just lift up the book and put it right in front of their face like 'read it yourself,' but now, because of theatre, I'm the annoying reading theatre kid and I go up to people like "COME SEE THE SHOW, USE PROMO CODE [MY NAME] ALSO WOULD YOU LIKE A BOOK RECOMMENDATION? YOU SHOULD READ ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING BY BRANDON SANDERSON"

I WAS JUST ABOUT TO SAY THIS ONE! 

So, apparently I misjudged all y'all? Because I've been reading you guys as, like, the most popular kids in school because you guys are so cool and stuff, and I've been so intimidated! My brain right now: HAHAHA YOU SHALL ALL BOW TO ME FOR I AM SO VERY POPULAR  and then me like no, they're nice people!

Also, I would appreciate it if no one corrected my possible bad grammar, I have had little sleep and now have less patience.

20 minutes ago, revelryintheart said:

I'm pretty much the opposite of popular

Like even among my different social groups in not popular. I'm kinda a math kid, kinda a choir kid, kinda an anime kid, kinda an art kid, but not well-known among any of those groups. even my teacher forget who I am. they'll ask me "what your name again" and I'm like bro you've had me for two years (but not really I'm terrified of teachers so I kinda just mumble my name)

 

[Mat he/him]

3 minutes ago, Condensation said:

So, apparently I misjudged all y'all? Because I've been reading you guys as, like, the most popular kids in school because you guys are so cool and stuff, and I've been so intimidated! My brain right now: HAHAHA YOU SHALL ALL BOW TO ME FOR I AM SO VERY POPULAR  and then me like no, they're nice people!

 Glad I could help. 

[Channelknight Fadran]

13 hours ago, Condensation said:

So, apparently I misjudged all y'all? Because I've been reading you guys as, like, the most popular kids in school because you guys are so cool and stuff, and I've been so intimidated! My brain right now: HAHAHA YOU SHALL ALL BOW TO ME FOR I AM SO VERY POPULAR  and then me like no, they're nice people!

Also, I would appreciate it if no one corrected my possible bad grammar, I have had little sleep and now have less patience.

*Snorts* you thought I was popular? Me? A Sanderfan?

Heh. You amuse me.

[Condensation she/her]

Well, you're popular on here, you must be popular wherever you are! Right?

At least, that was my thinking.

Thanks. I like knowing I amuse people

[Channelknight Fadran]

7 minutes ago, Condensation said:

Well, you're popular on here, you must be popular wherever you are! Right?

At least, that was my thinking.

Thanks. I like knowing I amuse people

Well, I mean, most people in my school know who I am, but my school is tiny.

[theTruthshaper]

I see all your tiny schools, and I raise you to my school..... It had over a 1000 kids in my year and it is actively increasing this number.

Edited August 25, 2020 by The_Truthwatcher

[AonEne he/him]

19 hours ago, Chinkoln said:

I will not be in the highest degree of the celestial kingdom when I die 

One of my deepest fears is that I will. 

My school is like 2,000 people and we don’t consider it that big, I think? Though we do have 700 who went online this year. 

Edited August 25, 2020 by AonEne

[Chinkoln he/him]

1 minute ago, AonEne said:

One of my deepest fears is that I will. 

WDYM?

[AonEne he/him]

10 minutes ago, Chinkoln said:

WDYM?

I don’t want to be in the highest degree; I don’t deserve to be there and I’m not clean enough to be there. Besides that, I don’t want to be a perfect version of myself - I just wanna be me. I also don’t know whether I’ll end up with someone I want to live eternally with, much less that they’ll be male and LDS - and I don’t want to be around my heavenly family all the time because again, I am not morally good enough or spiritually clean enough for that. 

(Hopefully this doesn’t sound whiny or anything lol, it’s just how it is) 

Edit: I sure as heck don’t want to go to heck, either - one of the lower levels will suit me just fine, hopefully where I can visit my family and friends occasionally. I’d hate to lose some of you forever. 

Edited August 25, 2020 by AonEne

[Chinkoln he/him]

Just now, AonEne said:

I don’t want to be in the highest degree; I don’t deserve to be there and I’m not clean enough to be there. Besides that, I don’t want to be a perfect version of myself - I just wanna be me. I also don’t know whether I’ll end up with someone I want to live eternally with, much less that they’ll be male - and I don’t want to be around my heavenly family all the time because again, I am not morally good enough or spiritually clean enough for that. 

(Hopefully this doesn’t sound whiny or anything lol, it’s just how it is) 

You should aspire for this. Our Heavenly Father wants everyone of his children to join him there, but some will fall short. If you look through the scriptures and at quotes from prophets, it tells you that if you want to achieve this glory, and you are willing to work for it YOU WILL OBTAIN IT. Think about how amazing it would be. Brigham Young said that if we could glimpse a FRACTION of the glory of the Terrestial Kingdom, we would kill ourselves instantly, without hesitation, in an attempt to get there

[AonEne he/him]

Even if I am able to get there, I don’t know if I want to be there, or if I’ll qualify. And forgive me for being a bit leery of someplace that I’d kill myself to get to  

[Hen she/her]

49 minutes ago, AonEne said:

I don’t want to be in the highest degree; I don’t deserve to be there and I’m not clean enough to be there. Besides that, I don’t want to be a perfect version of myself - I just wanna be me. I also don’t know whether I’ll end up with someone I want to live eternally with, much less that they’ll be male and LDS - and I don’t want to be around my heavenly family all the time because again, I am not morally good enough or spiritually clean enough for that. 

(Hopefully this doesn’t sound whiny or anything lol, it’s just how it is) 

Edit: I sure as heck don’t want to go to heck, either - one of the lower levels will suit me just fine, hopefully where I can visit my family and friends occasionally. I’d hate to lose some of you forever. 

I feel the same way. I’m terrified that if I become perfect, I won’t be myself, because I’m not perfect. There are certain parts of my personality that are flawed, and I’m scared that if I lose those, I’ll be someone else. 
 

Annnywayyyy. I’m stupid scared of librarians for some reason? I have no idea why, cause I’m a big reader (obviously) and I’m not shy or anything, but I just can’t. talk. to. librarians. 

Edited August 25, 2020 by Hentient

[Chinkoln he/him]

4 minutes ago, Hentient said:

 

Annnywayyyy. I’m stupid scared of librarians for some reason? I have no idea why, cause I’m a big reader (obviously) and I’m not shy or anything, but I just can’t. talk. to. librarians. 

This is completely rational, after all, all Librarians are parts of a society that want to rule the world and tell lies to all of the Hushlands.

[revelryintheart she/her]

3 hours ago, The_Truthwatcher said:

I see all your tiny schools, and I raise you to my school..... It had over a 1000 kids in my year and it is actively increasing this number.

I raise you my school of 2,563 people (yes I just checked).

[Condensation she/her]

I'm scared that my family will leave me at Noblitz again.

[Mist she/her]

8 minutes ago, Condensation said:

I'm scared that my family will leave me at Noblitz again.

That's not irrational. 

[theTruthshaper]

8 hours ago, AonEne said:

My school is like 2,000 people and we don’t consider it that big, I think? Though we do have 700 who went online this year. 

My school has a thousand people only in my year. Overall, there are like 5000 even though my school only has Middle school and up.

[AonEne he/him]

16 minutes ago, The_Truthwatcher said:

My school has a thousand people only in my year. Overall, there are like 5000 even though my school only has Middle school and up.

I got that, sorry, I was just stating our number, not trying to say it was bigger. 

[Condensation she/her]

18 minutes ago, Mist said:

That's not irrational. 

The title literally says (Ir)rational fears! Rational fears count!

Yes, there is a story about that. If you ask, you can hear it.

[Mat he/him]

My school has... like 800 people? Total? In 4 grades.

[theTruthshaper]

6 minutes ago, AonEne said:

I got that, sorry, I was just stating our number, not trying to say it was bigger. 

Oh, I am sorry, I thought that you misunderstood me.

[Condensation she/her]

Maeser has 6 grades, about 100 people per grade, usually it's a bit above 600.

[revelryintheart she/her]

9 hours ago, AonEne said:

I don’t want to be in the highest degree; I don’t deserve to be there and I’m not clean enough to be there. Besides that, I don’t want to be a perfect version of myself - I just wanna be me. I also don’t know whether I’ll end up with someone I want to live eternally with, much less that they’ll be male and LDS - and I don’t want to be around my heavenly family all the time because again, I am not morally good enough or spiritually clean enough for that. 

(Hopefully this doesn’t sound whiny or anything lol, it’s just how it is) 

Edit: I sure as heck don’t want to go to heck, either - one of the lower levels will suit me just fine, hopefully where I can visit my family and friends occasionally. I’d hate to lose some of you forever. 

Here's my opinion on this (in gonna spoiler box this because it doesn't really got in the irrational fears category).

Spoiler

God knows us perfectly. He knows our hopes, desires and fears, and he has a perfect plan for us. He knows what our idea of perfect is. I think that whatever "perfection" means for you, while maybe different than other people, will be just that- perfection! As for the marriage thing, I totally get that. I don't really want to get married. But once again, God knows us and has a plan for us. And sometimes just being told to wait and see is extremely unsatisfying, but we just need to have faith that God will make it right.

Anyway that's just my opinion. Feel free to dispute it or ignore it or anything idk haha

 

[Condensation she/her]

Can we get back to the original topic? I don't like talking about this, even if I'm with people of my own faith like you guys.

[Illwei]

Wow. you guys go to school with a lot of people. In my highschool there was about 200 people in each grade +-50. And yeah I feel like probably the only people who knew me at my school was half of the robotics team and the drama club (probably because I only actually was at the school Freshman and Senior year though) :P. I honestly felt like the choir I was in (er, a 20 person choir) didn't even know my name. (though they probably did.)

I'm saying this because it ties in to one of my irrational fears - A constant fear that the people talking to me are only talking to me because they are mistaking me for someone else :P. 

Also spiders. I'm scared of spiders. 

Oh. Also people older than me/my age. not so much older that they could be my parents, but maybe 1-10 years my senior. :P.

Oh look a fourth fear. Emojis

Edited August 26, 2020 by Illwei
I have many more fears but they're all kinda oddly specific...