Certified Gay Disasters

[Aeoryi she/her]

Just now, Through The Living Girl said:

how so?

parents would hate to have their children around a trans girl because what if it corrupts their child

 

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

Just now, Through The Living Skies said:

parents would hate to have their children around a trans girl because what if it corrupts their child

 

ah...

more like exposes them to good stuff so they actually like

like i'd think that'd be good

[Aeoryi she/her]

Just now, Through The Living Girl said:

ah...

more like exposes them to good stuff so they actually like

like i'd think that'd be good

yeah but it'll hurt the program and I can't do that. Not all parents like LGBTQ people and a lot of people see trans people as creeps unfortunately 

[Verdance he/him]

When it reopens and im remployed ill take some pictures of the back rooms of the ice cream shops and youll see why i say its a mistake

i need a new job bad :3

[AonEne he/him]

3 minutes ago, Through The Living Grass said:

When it reopens and im remployed ill take some pictures of the back rooms of the ice cream shops and youll see why i say its a mistake

i need a new job bad :3

Should I be scared?? 

[Verdance he/him]

2 minutes ago, AonEne said:

Should I be scared?? 

Well, the floor plan is like this one big room, with two hallways going to the security office in the back, bathrooms to the right, closet to the left, backstage up front

[AonEne he/him]

1 hour ago, Through The Living Grass said:

Well, the floor plan is like this one big room, with two hallways going to the security office in the back, bathrooms to the right, closet to the left, backstage up front

Okay maybe I'm missing something obvious, I am not scared by this XD 

[SpartanBrigade He/Him]

1 hour ago, Through The Living Grass said:

Well, the floor plan is like this one big room, with two hallways going to the security office in the back, bathrooms to the right, closet to the left, backstage up front

Are you by chance seeking employment at Freddy Fazbear’s Pizzeria 

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

oh almighty

something so interesting:

basically I don't identify with "my old" gender or name, to the point where saying "my old" doesn't even feel accurate. like I guess it feels like an "old me" but a very different "me," you know? Like not actually me. Like I guess this brain and body used to be that... apparition..., but I'm a different person from it. Idk yeah.

Edit: Like I guess it doesn't feel like I was ever that person now.

 

Edit2: Im hungry..

Edited March 20 by Through The Living Girl

[Verdance he/him]

9 hours ago, AonEne said:

Okay maybe I'm missing something obvious, I am not scared by this XD 

Yeah that was a FNaF ref :3

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Like… you were always a girl? I don’t understand is that a good thing or a bad thing

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

1 hour ago, Through The Living Grass said:

Like… you were always a girl? I don’t understand is that a good thing or a bad thing

It's... maybe a good thing?

I mean technically I was always a girl but didn't realize it lol, and didn't like really feel it or know it, yk?

Yeah so also lately I've been realizing I never actually thought of myself as a male, though not necessarily as a female either? Also it's not like I was like "I don't think of myself as male. Omg, that means I'm trans UwU!!"

I also didn't know much about trans or didn't think about it or idk

But basically I think of my old name and pronouns and the image (if there is one) or feeling associated with them is.. weird. Not me.

I can explain more if u want.. but I'm stormin' hungry rn so i'ma eaatttt

 

edit cuz I thought of smth else: I've also, like, always/for a while/on several occasions wanted to be seen as or .. be .. a girl, but I always either thought that was a bad thing or didn't think it meant anything. Yeah. 'Specially online.. but I never fully committed. I usually didn't tell anyone my gender or pronouns. I also.. kinda tried to make people think I was a girl or girly without, like, saying it, yk? Like sometimes I used ":3" and "UwU" and other stuff a bunch and yeah and this one time a while back I actually said I was a girl but then backed out hehe... because, like, just cuz I wanted to be one (I'm realizing I literally did, actually), didn't mean I was or thought I could be, and I thought I'd be decieving them, or that it just wasn't a thing I could do, idk. But I'm realizing I wanted to be a girl years ago... sigh

 

edit2: also my favorite color has been purple for who-knows-how-long and I've always basically made it a point to tell people (mainly when they ask) and also to use purple lol. And pink.

because I was well aware that people often associate those colors (or, at least pink) with femininity and stuff.. so yah.

Basically I gave out hints (almost without fully realizing it) without actually saying anything, and then I wasn't... <word> enough to actually say "I'm a girl" cuz, like, I thought I wasn't. As I mentioned, I didn't know much about trans stuff. I knew some basics (especially later on), but never considered, like, that that could be/was me.

I mean.. yeah. I guess it's somewhat obvious in retrospect, but such is the way of things.

 

edit: I just kinda wish I'd actually been... brave? enough and, like, used she/her pronouns and stuff way earlier, cuz, like, I wanted to.

Edited March 20 by Through The Living Girl

[Akimikoisthecutest]

13 hours ago, Through The Living Girl said:

haha ive never had a job haha

I have. I need to get another job. I just work part time stage crew, so I don't really get paid, I just get paid like 9 times a year...

I need another job, but I don't have time.

47 minutes ago, Through The Living Girl said:

But basically I think of my old name and pronouns and the image (if there is one) or feeling associated with them is.. weird. Not me.

 

I still associate my old self with my current self. I don't have much of a choice, since I'm out to hardly anyone. 

 

I would like to ask, how is it to be out to most everyone.

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

1 minute ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

I have. I need to get another job. I just work part time stage crew, so I don't really get paid, I just get paid like 9 times a year...

I need another job, but I don't have time.

Yeah I kinda don't have the time either, but I kinda really want one.

if only to be around people a bit more..

and do something 

[Verdance he/him]

Pink used to he a masculine color, and blue feminine, for the longest time. Which is funny

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

4 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

I still associate my old self with my current self. I don't have much of a choice, since I'm out to hardly anyone. 

 

 

I would like to ask, how is it to be out to most everyone.

I also wanna ask... you said earlier you weren't a girl? Are you comfortable sharing anything? Like has something changed, cuz I thought you said earlier you were.

Feel free to ignore that if you aren't comfortable sharing.

 

So.. it's kind of a relief, because I don't have to worry much. Now that I'm out to pretty much everyone (you can basically treat that as everyone), it's just.. easier. Like I can just say "Hi, my name is Lily" or something, or have people use the right name and pronouns, and I don't have to worry about some people knowing and some not. It's good.

Just now, Through The Living Grass said:

Pink used to he a masculine color, and blue feminine, for the longest time. Which is funny

Yah tru

 

 

Also I kinda never really thought it was okay for me to be LGBTQ+ or try out new pronouns, not like I do now.

Even tho I was basically an ally.

Idk.

[Akimikoisthecutest]

13 minutes ago, Through The Living Girl said:

I also wanna ask... you said earlier you weren't a girl? Are you comfortable sharing anything? Like has something changed, cuz I thought you said earlier you were.

 

I mean kind of. I'm not a real girl.

 

15 minutes ago, Through The Living Girl said:

So.. it's kind of a relief, because I don't have to worry much. Now that I'm out to pretty much everyone (you can basically treat that as everyone), it's just.. easier. Like I can just say "Hi, my name is Lily" or something, or have people use the right name and pronouns, and I don't have to worry about some people knowing and some not. It's good.

Wow. I hope that I can eventually get to that point.

[Verdance he/him]

11 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

I mean kind of. I'm not a real girl.

 

Wow. I hope that I can eventually get to that point.

What is that attitude? People are defined by their choices, there is a concrete truth but in general its up to you. 

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

1 hour ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

I mean kind of. I'm not a real girl.

Maybe your struggling to think of yourself that way, but that is likely part of it in and of itself. If you tell yourself "I'm not a "real" girl," then that just feeds the doubts.

You can be a girl even if you don't transition, especially when it's not safe to do so or you can't. And if your just not ready, that's okay too. But you shouldn't tell yourself your aren't who you are, unless you actually aren't.

Like, why do you say you aren't a "real" girl?

 

Edit:

Updated my siggy lol. Just the top line

From

STRIFE BEFORE WEALTH... | ...ANGST BEFORE BLEAKNESS... | ...WORRY BEFORE DESPERATION

to

LOVE BEFORE STRIFE... | ...LIGHT BEFORE BLEAKNESS... | ...HELP BEFORE DESPERATION

 

Maybe I need an L synonym for Help or something.
Eh it's fine

It doesn't rhyme/sound-as-similar to the OG LifeB4Death, but yeah.

Edited March 20 by Through The Living Girl

[momadrac they/them]

2 hours ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

I mean kind of. I'm not a real girl.

 

Wow. I hope that I can eventually get to that point.

Shut up of course you are

[Akimikoisthecutest]

42 minutes ago, momadrac said:

Shut up of course you are

Not really. I don't really count on the fact that I likely won't ever be able to transition

[momadrac they/them]

1 minute ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

Not really. I don't really count on the fact that I likely won't ever be able to transition

Gender is literally a social construct; what matters is what you actually are. And you're not going to be a kid and be dependent on your parents forever. 

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

1 minute ago, momadrac said:

Gender is literally a social construct; what matters is what you actually are. And you're not going to be a kid and be dependent on your parents forever. 

Yeah this

Sooner or later you'll be making (more?) decisions for yourself

[Akimikoisthecutest]

8 minutes ago, momadrac said:

Gender is literally a social construct; what matters is what you actually are. And you're not going to be a kid and be dependent on your parents forever. 

My problem is that it is getting more and more illegal. My parents are supportive, but it's just illegal to get any transitional therapy.

6 minutes ago, Through The Living Girl said:

Sooner or later you'll be making (more?) decisions for yourself

Yeah, I will be making more decisions in the near future.

[momadrac they/them]

Just now, Akimikoisthecutest said:

My problem is that it is getting more and more illegal. My parents are supportive, but it's just illegal to get any transitional therapy.

Yeah, I will be making more decisions in the near future.

Again, you'll be able to make your own choices in a couple of years. You can move to a state or counrty where its not illegal. There's also other things you can do until then, like clothes and voice lessons. 

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

31 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

Not really. I don't really count on the fact that I likely won't ever be able to transition

29 minutes ago, momadrac said:

Gender is literally a social construct; what matters is what you actually are. And you're not going to be a kid and be dependent on your parents forever. 

Literally what momadrac said