Having a Bad Day?: Get 'yer Hugs here!!

[The Wandering Wizard he/him]

Covid does suck as I got it in 2020 and I felt horrible and then better in a couple days. I was glad that I was on zoom. I hope that all your family recovers alright as like all sharders I've meet you're a nice person @Szeth's Facepalm.

[Spren of Kindness she/her]

In the month of May I had three emotional breakdowns, two anxiety attacks (at least, there might be some I missed), several almost anxiety attacks, continuous awful emotions, and one night of horrible sleep.  And my school has its first in person assembly since the 'rona in a couple days, and that means I'm probably going to have another anxiety attack.

I cannot wait until my emotions get to some kind of equilibrium, and I hope it happens sooner rather than later.

[Nathrangking he/him]

34 minutes ago, Spren of Kindness said:

In the month of May I had three emotional breakdowns, two anxiety attacks (at least, there might be some I missed), several almost anxiety attacks, continuous awful emotions, and one night of horrible sleep.  And my school has its first in person assembly since the 'rona in a couple days, and that means I'm probably going to have another anxiety attack.

I cannot wait until my emotions get to some kind of equilibrium, and I hope it happens sooner rather than later.

*Hugs* That's awful We are here for you kindness! If you need to talk about it further don't hesitate to reach out.

[Guest]

My best friend (my only friend) and another of her friends played an extremely mean prank on me. They called me some very mean things and called me a loser and other swear words. Called me a slur that horrible people use for LGBTQ people. 

I don't know what to do. I've been unloved and unwanted all my life and then to hear this coming from her.. she was the only irl person i trusted. 

I mean it wasn't actually her but she convinced her friend to message me all this from her phone.  

But still 

Atleast i still have books. Book characters don't judge, they don't abandon. Book characters understand.  

Kaz brekker wouldn't judge. He has been as alone as i have. Kaladin understands what its like to feel that heavy sadness suddenly overtake you. To think you're never gonna see the sun again. But all of these characters forged themselves into something stronger. I can do that too.

Edited June 16, 2022 by Elf

[Nathrangking he/him]

51 minutes ago, Elf said:

My best friend (my only friend) and another of her friends played an extremely mean prank on me. They called me some very mean things and called me a loser and other swear words. Called me a slur that horrible people use for LGBTQ people. 

I don't know what to do. I've been unloved and unwanted all my life and then to hear this coming from her.. she was the only irl person i trusted. 

I mean it wasn't actually her but she convinced her friend to message me all this from her phone.  

But still 

Atleast i still have books. Book characters don't judge, they don't abandon. Book characters understand.  

Kaz brekker wouldn't judge. He has been as alone as i have. Kaladin understands what its like to feel that heavy sadness suddenly overtake you. To think you're never gonna see the sun again. But all of these characters forged themselves into something stronger. I can do that too.

*Hugs.* Firstly, and most importantly you are loved Elf! Very much so! I cannot even begin to comprehend being treated this way by someone that you considered a friend. Secondly, all that I can really say is this if nothing else we are here for you. If you need someone to talk to my DM's are always open as I have said in the past. I am truly sorry that you ever had to go through this! Take these poems. I hope that they can brighten your day.

 

Cleanse 

The spinning waters,

Encircle. Stop and cool the,

Day. Spring rain shower.

 

Season Greeting

Cinnamon clouds float.

Warm waves wash over the land.

The waking Summer.

 

Rise

Warmth calls all life out.

Flora of all kinds are born.

The spring is awake.

[Robin Sedai she/her]

5 hours ago, Elf said:

My best friend (my only friend) and another of her friends played an extremely mean prank on me. They called me some very mean things and called me a loser and other swear words. Called me a slur that horrible people use for LGBTQ people. 

I don't know what to do. I've been unloved and unwanted all my life and then to hear this coming from her.. she was the only irl person i trusted. 

I mean it wasn't actually her but she convinced her friend to message me all this from her phone.  

But still 

Atleast i still have books. Book characters don't judge, they don't abandon. Book characters understand.  

Kaz brekker wouldn't judge. He has been as alone as i have. Kaladin understands what its like to feel that heavy sadness suddenly overtake you. To think you're never gonna see the sun again. But all of these characters forged themselves into something stronger. I can do that too.

I'm so sorry that you've been treated like that, Elf. *hugs* It isn't true, and you're a wonderful person.

[Morningtide she/her]

On 6/16/2022 at 1:58 AM, Elf said:

My best friend (my only friend) and another of her friends played an extremely mean prank on me. They called me some very mean things and called me a loser and other swear words. Called me a slur that horrible people use for LGBTQ people. 

I don't know what to do. I've been unloved and unwanted all my life and then to hear this coming from her.. she was the only irl person i trusted. 

I mean it wasn't actually her but she convinced her friend to message me all this from her phone.  

But still 

Atleast i still have books. Book characters don't judge, they don't abandon. Book characters understand.  

Kaz brekker wouldn't judge. He has been as alone as i have. Kaladin understands what its like to feel that heavy sadness suddenly overtake you. To think you're never gonna see the sun again. But all of these characters forged themselves into something stronger. I can do that too.

That's awful! I don't understand people who do things that hurt others. Nothing that they said is true! You are loved. If you want to talk, I'm here. 

As for book characters, that is so true. I read depressing book scenes when I'm sad. I sympathize with the characters and then I feel a bit better. Maybe try that?

[Guest]

<3 <3 thanks so much all of you! I love you guys a lot <3 

Morningtide, i will try that. It sounds like a good idea. Thanks once again

[+Slowswift]

Hugbots aren't mean either! Here, I'll mail you one. *mails*

(It's also good at listening if hugging isn't your jam.)

[Draginon he/him]

Wasn’t sure where to post this.

Last month my mother had found out she had stage 4 cancer. She was put into the hospital a couple weeks ago after fluid got into her lungs and they discovered that the cancer wasn’t on the lungs like they thought but inside them and eating it away. They put her on morphine last night to ease her out of the pain and she passed away at 3AM.

My sister and dad are both there taking care of the arrangements to get her cremated and get rid of some of her stuff we won’t need now. I’m not there because I’m halfway across the country and work at a theme park so I can’t just drop by and be there without letting my supervisors know.

One thing my sister wants us to do is go on a Disney Cruise and scatter the ashes at Disney’s private island but I did the research to see how legal it is and, unless you contact the cruise beforehand to make an arrangement, you could get into big legal trouble, as in banned for life if caught. I really don’t want to do something that could get us into trouble at that level. People caught scattering ashes at the theme parks get lifetime bans and I don’t want to get banned from something I love. I even told them over the phone when they told me she passed and my sister didn’t care about doing it properly and legally. It’s going to raise some red flags if they see ashes coming aboard but none leaving since they screen the bags before and after and it would be morbid to be carrying ashes in a carry on bag.

I didn’t love my mother at all by the end, she was a toxic person who mentally and emotionally abused me, but even I don’t think breaking the rules is worth doing that just to give her a final resting place. I’m also trying to figure out when we could even go to do something like this. Do it at Christmas? Around her birthday? Just a random Tuesday?

I’m just torn over what to do in this situation at the moment.

[Robin Sedai she/her]

I'm so sorry, Draginon. That's terrible, and I hope you can find a good solution.

[Spren of Kindness she/her]

I've recently become uncomfortably aware of the fact that most likely, I will not be able to celebrate a graduation of any sort with my grandparents.  I will most likely not be able to walk down the aisle at my wedding, if I'm lucky enough to marry, with them in the audience.  My children will not know their great-grandparents.  I may have already said goodbye to the homes that meant so much to me as child, that still mean so much to me, at least for the reasons that these places are so important - the people in them.

It sucks.  I hate that I'm old enough to recognize it.

That plus other family things that I have been made aware of that are confusing and uncomfortable.

[Coolmint]

@Draginon, I'm sorry for your loss.  My condolences, and I hope you find a good resolution.

@Spren of Kindness, sorry to hear that, too.

My best friend of many, many years just informed me yesterday she may not have much longer.  Very sudden, and I'm in shock.

[+Slowswift]

[Thaidakar the Ghostblood he/him]

  For all those who need it  

[Nathrangking he/him]

I find myself being swallowed by guilt that I may or may not have earned. In the short version I had a falling out with someone years ago. I had considered them a friend for years. 5 years ago I discovered multiple times that instead of communicating with me she preferred to play the victim whenever I would try and get a handle on our friendship. See I though I had a crush on her and truth be told our friendship was tenuous. I later realized that this was not the case. However, she was dismissive of me and what I had to say. Things eventually boiled over and she said things that attacked me. This pattern proved so toxic that I blocked her and moved on. Early this week she messaged from a new social media account. I deleted the message and blocked the new account. Since then I have felt partially guilty. Maybe I was right maybe I was wrong, but my guilt seems to linger.

 

As always thanks for listening.

 

 

[That1Cellist he/him]

Hugs all around, humans. 

I both love and hate these sorts of things at the same time. On one hand, it's amazing to see people come and share their stories, and the receive support from others. On the other hand, it's awful that people have to go through these things, and I am tired of feeling like I can do absolutely nothing to help.

Good luck with your lives, everyone.

Edited August 3, 2022 by That1Cellist

[Draginon he/him]

Had a permanent address all lined up and the inspection came back showing there was at least $6000 of mold repair, a new AC needed & a water heater as well.

My sister was the one keeping in contact with the realtor since my hours are unpredictable, I might have a 8-5 shift one day but a 1-9 the next, and she decided to cancel the contract so now I’m meeting with the realtor on my day off to look at a couple more places.

I loved how that place looked and I’m just tired of being in flux like this and just want to have a home to call my own. I’m hoping the new ones lined up look nice otherwise I don’t know what I’m going to do.

[+Slowswift]

2 minutes ago, Draginon said:

Had a permanent address all lined up and the inspection came back showing there was at least $6000 of mold repair, a new AC needed & a water heater as well.

My sister was the one keeping in contact with the realtor since my hours are unpredictable, I might have a 8-5 shift one day but a 1-9 the next, and she decided to cancel the contract so now I’m meeting with the realtor on my day off to look at a couple more places.

I loved how that place looked and I’m just tired of being in flux like this and just want to have a home to call my own. I’m hoping the new ones lined up look nice otherwise I don’t know what I’m going to do.

Moving bites. Hope you find a good place soon!

[That1Cellist he/him]

7 hours ago, Draginon said:

Had a permanent address all lined up and the inspection came back showing there was at least $6000 of mold repair, a new AC needed & a water heater as well.

My sister was the one keeping in contact with the realtor since my hours are unpredictable, I might have a 8-5 shift one day but a 1-9 the next, and she decided to cancel the contract so now I’m meeting with the realtor on my day off to look at a couple more places.

I loved how that place looked and I’m just tired of being in flux like this and just want to have a home to call my own. I’m hoping the new ones lined up look nice otherwise I don’t know what I’m going to do.

Yikes. As Slowswift said, moving can be rough. That's really unfortunate. Good luck!

[Going_North_cal]

For those who don't know, my little sister figure River tried to take their own life a couple Tuesday's ago.

Today is River's birthday.

I'm struggling. Bad.

Some hugs would be nice.

[Nathrangking he/him]

5 minutes ago, CalanoCorvus said:

For those who don't know, my little sister figure River tried to take their own life a couple Tuesday's ago.

Today is River's birthday.

I'm struggling. Bad.

Some hugs would be nice.

*Hugs*. We are all here if you need to vent. I'm only a message away.

[Going_North_cal]

i've done a lot of venting, it's mostly out of my system so...

but thank you Nath

[+Slowswift]

10 minutes ago, CalanoCorvus said:

For those who don't know, my little sister figure River tried to take their own life a couple Tuesday's ago.

Today is River's birthday.

I'm struggling. Bad.

Some hugs would be nice.

*hugs*

[That1Cellist he/him]

8 minutes ago, CalanoCorvus said:

For those who don't know, my little sister figure River tried to take their own life a couple Tuesday's ago.

Today is River's birthday.

I'm struggling. Bad.

Some hugs would be nice.

*Hugs* It may sound dumb, but sometimes when It's rough for me, I like to remind myself of the first Ideal of the Knights Radiant. "Life before death, strength before weakness, journey before destination."