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[Darkness Ascendant he/him]

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Bleh, Dad had a meeting yesterday with my school coordinator and counsellor -_-. storm it I should have contacted them first gah. Now he's going to make me out as some deranged sociopath GAH. storm nOW I"M GOINg yo lIKE HaVE THIS PERPETUAL FEELING OF DREAD T HE ENTIRE HOLIDAYS NO AREN'T I?  stormING HELL. whe n i gte back from holidays dad said there will be, "Alot of meetings". Ain't nobody got time for that rust. Bleh, I'll just not show up or something if I can.

[A Budgie she/her]

@Darkness Ascendant that sounds bad... *hug*

[Darkness Ascendant he/him]

Bleargh the entire game has changed. Thanks @A Budgie

storm me. Pressure's been increased by tenfold. I know I said I wasn't suicidal....but that will probably change now. There is no way for me to hunker down and weather this storm >> 

[Jondesu he/him]

8 hours ago, Darkness Ascendant said:

Bleargh the entire game has changed. Thanks @A Budgie

storm me. Pressure's been increased by tenfold. I know I said I wasn't suicidal....but that will probably change now. There is no way for me to hunker down and weather this storm >> 

Don't do it, man.  There's lots of people who care about you and would be hurt by you being gone.  I've been at that point before, and knowing that is what brought me back. It's not just an escape for you, though I completely understand that.  It's crushing for those that care about you.

[TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her]

8 hours ago, Darkness Ascendant said:

storm me. Pressure's been increased by tenfold. I know I said I wasn't suicidal....but that will probably change now. There is no way for me to hunker down and weather this storm >> 

 

8 minutes ago, Jondesu said:

Don't do it, man.  There's lots of people who care about you and would be hurt by you being gone.  I've been at that point before, and knowing that is what brought me back. It's not just an escape for you, though I completely understand that.  It's crushing for those that care about you.

Things do get better. Trust me, I was suicidal on and off for years, and now I'm on my own, and things are a thousand times better. It's not always easy, but it is good. If you don't stick around, you'll never know what good things you'll miss out on. You'll never get the thrill of striking out on your own, full of optimism and trepidation. You'll never get the satisfaction of looking at your first paycheck, knowing you earned it and it's yours. You'll never feel the joy of walking out with your first pet, feeling as though your heart will burst as he curls up in your arms, or when he wants to sleep as close to you as possible. You'll never discover another new song that makes you want to spread your arms and sing it to the wind. You'll never discover another new talent that makes you feel as though you've found your place in the world. You might not have to walk through the pain you're going through now, but you'll also never see the joy waiting on the other side. 

[Left he/him]

8 hours ago, Darkness Ascendant said:

Bleargh the entire game has changed. Thanks @A Budgie

storm me. Pressure's been increased by tenfold. I know I said I wasn't suicidal....but that will probably change now. There is no way for me to hunker down and weather this storm >> 

Spoiler

I was suicidal several years ago. I had some severe acute depression, and a triggering event that made me terrified of going through anymore pain and really pushed me to the edge. I know that people intervening in your life and mental health is Crazy scary and anxiety causing and every kind of negative emotion, all at full throttle. All of the unkowns are scary, especially because people around us aren't perfect.
But, when my dad took me to some meetings and stuff, it Wasn't actually that bad. The person was very calm and kind and not only did I go back to my previous level of less risky depression, after a year I started getting far healthier. 

Every year I've gotten better and better, and I've found SO much in life to enjoy. 

I know that it's hard man, but just keep going. It gets better. 

 

[Tristan]

9 hours ago, Darkness Ascendant said:

Bleargh the entire game has changed. Thanks @A Budgie

storm me. Pressure's been increased by tenfold. I know I said I wasn't suicidal....but that will probably change now. There is no way for me to hunker down and weather this storm >> 

Be like Kaladin! Continue fighting, surviving, and weathering the highstorm. Listen to all your Syls: @Left @TwiLyghtSansSparkles @Jondesu

You can do this.

[Tristan]

Posting for Syria. 

[Silverblade5 he/him]

Ended up burning myself on a soldering iron today. The blistering is suggesting a 2nd degree burn. Strange thing is, about 5 seconds after losing contact with the iron, it didn't hurt that much.

[Jondesu he/him]

3 minutes ago, Silverblade5 said:

Ended up burning myself on a soldering iron today. The blistering is suggesting a 2nd degree burn. Strange thing is, about 5 seconds after losing contact with the iron, it didn't hurt that much.

Ack, no good. It's actually not usually a good sign to not feel it that quickly, so keep it covered and clean, and consider seeing a doctor. Sorry to hear about that!

[Quiver he/him]

Thanks to Circumstances, I am doing 2 extra hours at work, for no pay. Two hours early...meaning I'm heading in to work at 4am, and won't be leaving until 6pm

Fantastic.

[Darkness Ascendant he/him]

...my Syls heh @Tristan. 

6 hours ago, Jondesu said:

Don't do it, man.  There's lots of people who care about you and would be hurt by you being gone.  I've been at that point before, and knowing that is what brought me back. It's not just an escape for you, though I completely understand that.  It's crushing for those that care about you.

To tell the truth no-one in real life would care, sure, my "friends" would probably be a little confused and rust, but honestly, they probably will know the reason why, being dicks to me all the time and all. Family would be confused and angry, they don't understand anything. *shrug. Only people who would genuinely care are all from this site. Well. I guess my mother would be heartbroken, but eh

6 hours ago, TwiLyghtSansSparkles said:

Things do get better. Trust me, I was suicidal on and off for years, and now I'm on my own, and things are a thousand times better. It's not always easy, but it is good. If you don't stick around, you'll never know what good things you'll miss out on. You'll never get the thrill of striking out on your own, full of optimism and trepidation. You'll never get the satisfaction of looking at your first paycheck, knowing you earned it and it's yours. You'll never feel the joy of walking out with your first pet, feeling as though your heart will burst as he curls up in your arms, or when he wants to sleep as close to you as possible. You'll never discover another new song that makes you want to spread your arms and sing it to the wind. You'll never discover another new talent that makes you feel as though you've found your place in the world. You might not have to walk through the pain you're going through now, but you'll also never see the joy waiting on the other side. 

Storm you  Had to bring up the pet thing eh? 

*sigh all of that would seem so nice, but well, I always, on the rare instances that I have dreams, I get nightmares about the future, and bleargh, it don't look good. 
Thank you for that however, It means alot 

8 hours ago, Left said:

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I was suicidal several years ago. I had some severe acute depression, and a triggering event that made me terrified of going through anymore pain and really pushed me to the edge. I know that people intervening in your life and mental health is Crazy scary and anxiety causing and every kind of negative emotion, all at full throttle. All of the unkowns are scary, especially because people around us aren't perfect.
But, when my dad took me to some meetings and stuff, it Wasn't actually that bad. The person was very calm and kind and not only did I go back to my previous level of less risky depression, after a year I started getting far healthier. 

Every year I've gotten better and better, and I've found SO much in life to enjoy. 

I know that it's hard man, but just keep going. It gets better. 

 

The problem with the meetings is that well...my parents are doctors too, and anything that they say is going to have a higher regard than anything I say. And the way they are going on about the meetings is very daunting. Sincerely the best way to treat me is to leave me on my own and give me alot of space.

And well, dad's now attempting to stop me from accessing the shard as well as my mates on discord.

[A Budgie she/her]

@Darkness Ascendant *hugs*
I'm sorry to hear all of that. Just...good luck I suppose.

[Pinnacle-Ferring he/him]

19 hours ago, Silverblade5 said:

Ended up burning myself on a soldering iron today. The blistering is suggesting a 2nd degree burn. Strange thing is, about 5 seconds after losing contact with the iron, it didn't hurt that much.

Funny. That's exactly what my recent burn was like.

[Sunbird she/her]

DA posted this on Discord last night:

I am still very worried.

[TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her]

5 minutes ago, Sunbird said:

DA posted this on Discord last night:

I am still very worried.

I'd say it's time to get the police involved, or CPS at least.  

[Delightful]

56 minutes ago, TwiLyghtSansSparkles said:

I'd say it's time to get the police involved, or CPS at least.  

@Darkness Ascendant if you need it  http://www.community.nsw.gov.au/preventing-child-abuse-and-neglect/resources-for-mandatory-reporters/how-to-make-a-report

(might be a good idea to nose around the website so at the very least you'll be armed with info and know what your worst-case fallback options are. )

do you have the kids help line? 

Edited April 9, 2017 by Delightful

[Delightful]

Pesach tomorrow. Lots of stress. Had a huge argument with my roommate who is just weird and blames her insecurities on me and I might post more about that if I have energy later but right now I feel shitty about aaalmost everything and I need hugs and assurances that I'm not a terrible selfish lazy person. 

[TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her]

@Delightful You're not a terrible selfish lazy person. You're a person in a stressful situation who is having to deal with another person in a stressful situation, and this other person seems to handle the same stressful situation badly. You're fine. Pesach will start soon, and you'll be prepared to enjoy the holiday.  

[A Budgie she/her]

@Delightful that sounds bad...*hugs*
And you're a good person! You're not selfish at all; just look at how you reacted to DA's message. A terrible, selfish lazy person wouldn't want to help. You're a good budgie. You're all good budgies.

[Sunbird she/her]

1 hour ago, A Budgie said:

@Delightful that sounds bad...*hugs*
And you're a good person! You're not selfish at all; just look at how you reacted to DA's message. A terrible, selfish lazy person wouldn't want to help. You're a good budgie. You're all good budgies.

New favorite compliment: "You're a good budgie."

[Darkness Ascendant he/him]

@Delightful Ditto everyone else, that response really warmed me up  You are definitely not selfish, or lazy and the mere fact you are here for me just shows how well, not terrible. At all.

*hugs* 

Yes you're a very good budgie.

(and none of you call the coppers ya hear me?)

 

[A Budgie she/her]

I often call my friends good budgies, or bad budgies, or at one point medicorce budgies.
Or potatoes.

[Staphylococcus she/her]

I came home from a histology lab, look like a first grader after an art class (because who wears gloves, right???) and I'm just sooo hungry because noone thought about giving us a lunch break!

Can I have a cookie instead of a hug? Or both? Or a pizza?

[TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her]

I'm legit not feeling well. I started feeling bad yesterday, and now I'm feeling worse. Staying home is the best thing I can do for not just myself, but my coworkers.

I've worked for the library just over a year at this point, and this is the first sick day I've taken. I have more than enough sick leave to cover this one shift.

I'm going to stay home and recover, not go out and party. 

The manager I spoke to expressed no doubt that I was actually ill. 

So why do I feel so guilty?