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[Tristan]

I'm getting an EEG done tomorrow and I'm quite nervous. Neurologist thinks I'm having multiple seizures a day. I went through a period where they told me I didn't have it anymore, and now it's back and a bit worse than before. That part isn't bad, it's just getting my hopes up that it was gone for good that's kinda bumming me out. 

[Darkness Ascendant he/him]

1 minute ago, Tristan said:

I'm getting an EEG done tomorrow and I'm quite nervous. Neurologist thinks I'm having multiple seizures a day. I went through a period where they told me I didn't have it anymore, and now it's back and a bit worse than before. That part isn't bad, it's just getting my hopes up that it was gone for good that's kinda bumming me out. 

Oh dear  I tend to just twitch randomly every few moments.

Yay for recurring villains!

[StrikerEZ he/him]

So...I'm in the ER for my little brother. He's been throwing up all day and hasn't been able to keep any fluids in his body. After he throws up, he kinda turns white. I was at school when this happened, but my mom said that he had thrown up so badly that his lips had turned white and blue. They IV'd him up, and he eventually went back home, but we're back again because it's been almost 12 hours and like I said, he hasn't been able to drink anything without throwing it up.

[Hemalurgic Headshot he/him]

22 minutes ago, StrikerEZ said:

So...I'm in the ER for my little brother. He's been throwing up all day and hasn't been able to keep any fluids in his body. After he throws up, he kinda turns white. I was at school when this happened, but my mom said that he had thrown up so badly that his lips had turned white and blue. They IV'd him up, and he eventually went back home, but we're back again because it's been almost 12 hours and like I said, he hasn't been able to drink anything without throwing it up.

Oh, that sounds absolutely dreadful. I hope he gets better soon.

[StrikerEZ he/him]

Just now, Hemalurgic_Headshot said:

Oh, that sounds absolutely dreadful. I hope he gets better soon.

Yeah. Thank you.

Though, it doesn't help that he has this horrible, barking cough. He has it all the time, not just recently, but it's been getting gradually worse the past couple days.

[Hemalurgic Headshot he/him]

Has there been a diagnosis?

[StrikerEZ he/him]

2 minutes ago, Hemalurgic_Headshot said:

Has there been a diagnosis?

No, they're not sure what he has. I think that's even scarier than knowing what he has, even if it's dangerous.

[Hemalurgic Headshot he/him]

3 minutes ago, StrikerEZ said:

No, they're not sure what he has. I think that's even scarier than knowing what he has, even if it's dangerous.

That is scary. I think it's a bacteria that's causing this, but I don't have a PhD or anything, so don't count my word for anything. What might be even more concerning if it is a bacteria is if it is antibiotic resistant.

[Sunbird she/her]

@Kaymyth If you're a moron, then so am I, because I did the exact same thing in art class with an X-acto knife once. Was cutting toward my hand, slipped, stabbed myself, and after bandaging my finger resumed cutting toward myself again. XD

[Tristan]

1 hour ago, StrikerEZ said:

Yeah. Thank you.

Though, it doesn't help that he has this horrible, barking cough. He has it all the time, not just recently, but it's been getting gradually worse the past couple days.

Is it a wet or dry cough? Is he running a fever? Certain types of  pneumonia can make you vomit, and if his oxygen is low his lips will turn blue. If they've given him medicine he could also be having a reaction to it. Is his mucus thick and white or rust/brown?

(Going into nurse Tristan mode) 

MOVE ASIDE, PEOPLE 

[Sunbird she/her]

I've set a new personal record for sleep deprivation: I've been awake for the past 36 hours straight! Going to sleep now.

[StrikerEZ he/him]

1 hour ago, Tristan said:

Is it a wet or dry cough? Is he running a fever? Certain types of  pneumonia can make you vomit, and if his oxygen is low his lips will turn blue. If they've given him medicine he could also be having a reaction to it. Is his mucus thick and white or rust/brown?

(Going into nurse Tristan mode) 

MOVE ASIDE, PEOPLE 

It's a dry cough. And I don't know what color his mucus is, because nothing hardly ever comes up, but the cough sounds so painful. They gave him an antibiotic and sent him home finally, but there really doesn't seem to be anything wrong with him that they could find. 

Also, no, I don't know what antibiotic they gave him.

[Mestiv he/him]

@StrikerEZthat sounds horrible the cough sounds scarier than the vomiting IMO, but both are serious. Did the IVs made him feel better? I hope he manages to get some sleep and rest. 

[StrikerEZ he/him]

2 minutes ago, Mestiv said:

@StrikerEZthat sounds horrible the cough sounds scarier than the vomiting IMO, but both are serious. Did the IVs made him feel better? I hope he manages to get some sleep and rest. 

Yeah, the antibiotic helped a lot, especially because he isn't white anymore (like, pale white). I figured he was starting to feel better because before I left, he had to stay just a little longer but my dad took me home, he was complaining about how weird having an IV feels. When they first put the medicine in him a few hours ago, he commented about how it felt so cold, and how it was spreading throughout his entire body. Before they gave him the medicine, he just sat there, squirming in pain. Usually when he's sick, he still bounces all over the place even though we tell him to rest, so that was scary that he didn't even want to get up.

[A Budgie she/her]

15 hours ago, Darkness Ascendant said:

Thanks @A Budgie

can u eat profiteroles hot? maybe make some of them

...no...they're eaten cold and with cream.

I was going to say nice things for everyone, but there's so many...so just, yeah. Sounds bad. Hope things get better.

[Tristan]

1 hour ago, StrikerEZ said:

It's a dry cough. And I don't know what color his mucus is, because nothing hardly ever comes up, but the cough sounds so painful. They gave him an antibiotic and sent him home finally, but there really doesn't seem to be anything wrong with him that they could find. 

Also, no, I don't know what antibiotic they gave him.

Ahhh maybe bronchitis or something. That can make you cough so hard you puke. Whatever it is, I hope he feels better. ~~~~~~~*positive vibes*~~~~~~~~

[Darkness Ascendant he/him]

Ah man.

*MASSIVE GROUP HUG*

@Sunbird YOU'LL NEVER BEAT MY RECORD MWAAHAHAHAHAHA

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Anyway, now for my suddenly developed bad day.

Family went out to watch Beauty and the Beast and left me behind. Sure, I have assignments to do. But I at least expect to be aware of the fact y'all are going out somewhere, and even nicer if you ask if I want to tag along

Edited April 4, 2017 by Darkness Ascendant

[Quiver he/him]

Sometimes I kind of feel like people don't want me. Like I'm annoying, or the tag-along kid. I haven't really got any kind of social circle offline, and I'm starting to get really self-conscious and maybe a little lonely/bothered by it.

[Delightful]

3 minutes ago, Quiver said:

Sometimes I kind of feel like people don't want me. Like I'm annoying, or the tag-along kid. I haven't really got any kind of social circle offline, and I'm starting to get really self-conscious and maybe a little lonely/bothered by it.

This probably does't help, but it's probably in your head. You're awesome. Own that awesomeness. Appreciate it. Find others that appreciate it too. Fake some confidence till you actually get some. 

[A Budgie she/her]

8 minutes ago, Quiver said:

Sometimes I kind of feel like people don't want me. Like I'm annoying, or the tag-along kid. I haven't really got any kind of social circle offline, and I'm starting to get really self-conscious and maybe a little lonely/bothered by it.

*hug*
I sometimes feel the same, despite the fact I do have a group I'm rather immersed in. 
I don't know what else to say but...remember you do have friends.

[Darkness Ascendant he/him]

5 minutes ago, Quiver said:

Sometimes I kind of feel like people don't want me. Like I'm annoying, or the tag-along kid. I haven't really got any kind of social circle offline, and I'm starting to get really self-conscious and maybe a little lonely/bothered by it.

Well, like delightful says, thinking this can really alter how one acts. You'll tend to be in the background, just hovering around, yeah I know this feeling very well heh. LIIIST MY FRIEND! start focusing on what makes you amazing and awesome  

4 minutes ago, Delightful said:

Fake some confidence till you actually get some. 

 Not sure 'bout this. I've been faking alot of crap my whole life, and well, it hasn't gotten me anywhere, it's just a cycle that slowly gets tighter around you, strangling you. 'course, could be different for others. What you need to do Quiver is start with yourself. LIST! Do some soul-searching, find somewhere to just stop. Stop thinking, stop worrying, just let it all go.

As @A Budgie has stated, remember, YOU HAVE FRIENDS, tell me, how comfortable are you here? Clearly a fair bit comfortable here, you seem to be happier with yourself while you're here. Try and make that happen irl, engage more with others, smile, laugh, joke, mess around with others. Stop listening to insults, absorb them, and use them as added momentum. Push yourself, try and better your flaws. I honestly cannot stand you beating yourself up this much.

[Delightful]

3 hours ago, Darkness Ascendant said:

Well, like delightful says, thinking this can really alter how one acts. You'll tend to be in the background, just hovering around, yeah I know this feeling very well heh. LIIIST MY FRIEND! start focusing on what makes you amazing and awesome  

 Not sure 'bout this. I've been faking alot of crap my whole life, and well, it hasn't gotten me anywhere, it's just a cycle that slowly gets tighter around you, strangling you. 'course, could be different for others. What you need to do Quiver is start with yourself. LIST! Do some soul-searching, find somewhere to just stop. Stop thinking, stop worrying, just let it all go.

As @A Budgie has stated, remember, YOU HAVE FRIENDS, tell me, how comfortable are you here? Clearly a fair bit comfortable here, you seem to be happier with yourself while you're here. Try and make that happen irl, engage more with others, smile, laugh, joke, mess around with others. Stop listening to insults, absorb them, and use them as added momentum. Push yourself, try and better your flaws. I honestly cannot stand you beating yourself up this much.

Well to clarify: I you act more confident and people don't actively push you away, that's proof that they don't dislike you. Keep being confident, keep being YOU, watch people not react badly, watch them react well, and that cold hard evidence that you are not a mess-up and that people don't hate you will create confidence because you won't be guess, you'll have interacted with them and you'll know that you're bearable at the very least.

Then, take note when people laugh at your jokes. When they make an effort to include you. When they ask for your opinion. When they make you smile and when you smile at them. Write it down if that helps. Compile your evidence that you are liked, and that will be your confidence.

Also, what Darkness said, "Love others like you love yourself" starts with loving yourself. What do you like about yourself? What are your favourite qualities? What do you love doing? What don't you like about yourself, and how can you change that? You need to be painfully honest, writing it all down will most likely help, but really you have to be comfortable with your own company before others can be very comfortable with you. Between you and yourself, you need to take down all the masks and be honest, then be selective in which masks you put back up in which situations.

[Darkness Ascendant he/him]

So what is one supposed to do when threatened to be kicked out of their home?

EDIT: Blah, pressed enter and it sent for some reason. I wanted to provide some context.

So last night dad rushes into my room and starts yelling at me (among other....things) at how I ruined my parent's lives, how I'm a failure of a son etc etc and how, because of a few events in my life, I don't deserve to live under their roof. And this is the sort of thing that I've put up with my entire life. So, It like, hurts, but It doesn't, I usually just feel myself drawing back into my depression in the morning. But this morning is different, I feel alot more broken than I have before, I've tried pretty darn hard lately and I thought, I thought I was slowly getting closer to my parents, I found myself forgiving them and forgetting about all the rust they've done. But like, today is different, I wouldn't say I'm suicidal or that any of my thoughts are leaning towards self-harm; because to be quite frank, I've been so scarred and beaten down by those around me, I don't see the point in adding to my own misery. But I'm just so tired and weary, I kind of hope my parents kick me out....just so I can sort of drift off and forget everything, perhaps just die.

And yes I know I said I wasn't suicidal, but I've transgressed all that depression crap I believe. Emotionless Robot State Achieved.

Edited April 4, 2017 by Darkness Ascendant

[Arraenae]

14 minutes ago, Darkness Ascendant said:

So what is one supposed to do when threatened to be kicked out of their home?

EDIT: Blah, pressed enter and it sent for some reason. I wanted to provide some context.

So last night dad rushes into my room and starts yelling at me (among other....things) at how I ruined my parent's lives, how I'm a failure of a son etc etc and how, because of a few events in my life, I don't deserve to live under their roof. And this is the sort of thing that I've put up with my entire life. So, It like, hurts, but It doesn't, I usually just feel myself drawing back into my depression in the morning. But this morning is different, I feel alot more broken than I have before, I've tried pretty darn hard lately and I thought, I thought I was slowly getting closer to my parents, I found myself forgiving them and forgetting about all the rust they've done. But like, today is different, I wouldn't say I'm suicidal or that any of my thoughts are leaning towards self-harm; because to be quite frank, I've been so scarred and beaten down by those around me, I don't see the point in adding to my own misery. But I'm just so tired and weary, I kind of hope my parents kick me out....just so I can sort of drift off and forget everything, perhaps just die.

And yes I know I said I wasn't suicidal, but I've transgressed all that depression crap I believe. Emotionless Robot State Achieved.

That sounds awful.  *hugs DA.

[Darkness Ascendant he/him]

7 minutes ago, Arraenae said:

That sounds awful.  *hugs DA.

Blerhg. I've been staring at your message for the past 9 minutes, failing to type up an adequate response.

Apathy is storming great