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[Tristan]

@Darkness Ascendant Don't forget to direct some of that love to yourself, friend. I can relate to so much of what you've shared, and it hurts to see YOU hurting. Trees can offer all sorts of things, but they've got to soak up some of the sunlight for themselves, too.

[marsoupial they/them]

13 hours ago, Darkness Ascendant said:

I'm so sick of being constantly stunted and held back. Pressured and abused. I only like sort of "woke" at the start of this year. Realised it wasn't normal to be constantly depressed and spiteful. So I tried changing myself. I started being nicer and I reached out to people online. But like, once I realised just how stormed up my life was and that the people around me were horrible I started to withdraw and isolate myself. I'm cursed to love everyone...but never to be loved myself. No one cares, it's always me. Always always me. I always ask people how they are and what's up and I'm always the one who worries and starts conversation. No one ever approaches me, asks how I am. I always ask in the hope that someone ask in return, I'm always the supporter and the affectionate one, hoping that someone repays my kindness with some of their own. But then the moment they leave, so do their thoughts of me. I always am the one who loves indiscriminately and throws his heart out into the depths of the ocean. People love me only because I love them. If I dissapeared tomorrow they would miss me for but a mere moment and forget me soon afterwards. I always feel so hopeless and empty, giving away everything I have freely. Giving hope and love to there at the expense of hopelessness for me and hate for myself. I wish I had more to give, more to say and do. I find myself jealous of everyone. Jealous that they know love where I have never been loved. Jealous that everyone seems to be better off than me. I am always exploited and taken advantage of. I am a tree, People come to me to be sheltered and protected as I reach out and draw people into my embrace. I am so sick of being a mere shadow in people's lives. I want to mean something and be wanted. But I can't help but feel a burden and that people are only using me. I don't think I can keep going like this.

I am here for you. We are here for you. We love you.

Everything is gonna be ok.

[Delightful]

10 hours ago, Darkness Ascendant said:

That's part of what hurts...the only people who care aren't anywhere near to help >>

Lol family XD as for friends irl...*sigh. All gone.

Ah the sky, and the trees, always there for me.

You did wonderfully  

As for professional help...idk...certainly an option but *shrugs

Oh damnation, it's not a suicide note >> so darn sorry it seemed like that...

When it comes to suicide. I'm not bothered. Straight up, it's too much of an effort.

I just had  to vent a little >>

*hugs back* (More out of shame than anything >>)
You're wonderful.

Heh Cookie theory, here's a story a friend wrote for me 

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As we come into this world, each of us carry a jar filled to the brim with glass figurines. These figurines sparkle, and they're beautiful and delicate. And you get a whole jar all to yourself.
They have names. Joy, trust, comfort, happiness, compassion... The list goes on. Each of them beautiful in their own way, and  each of them carrying a part of you.

And as you are a child, playing with other children, you exchange them freely. You laugh, and you trade these gifts with abandon.
But as you grow older, things start changing, don't they?
You start realizing that sometimes, those precious gifts aren't appreciated. Perhaps one day, as you offered one of these figurines, it was turned down. Perhaps it was even taken, but thrown to the ground. Perhaps it was even ground beneath the boot of the receiver.
And you wonder why
Why would they do that??
Why would they take something so precious, so freely given, and do that??
And it hurts so much.
So people... They don't want to be hurt, do they? They. They decide it's safer not to give out a part of themselves to every person they meet. They grow reluctant. They grow protective. And they withdraw from each other, afraid to get hurt. And the world becomes colder because of that.
And for those who keep on giving, those brave souls who soldier on and continue giving out these figurines, they begin to wonder. We keep giving out parts of ourselves, these beautiful figurines. And perhaps people take them. But... We're not getting anything back.
And disquiet sets in. What if we run dry?
And so, perhaps they stop giving as well. They hunch over what they have left, and they sigh and turn away. The fire they carry within them hidden instead of shared.
But there is another type of person. The type you are. The type who has had his figurines shattered before his face, to have the shards ground beneath someone else's boot and felt your heart shatter alongside it. To have continued giving, to have asked the same question. To understand that perhaps, you might run dry someday
And yet.
And yet
You keep on giving anyway
Do you have any idea how beautiful that is?

You keep on giving, my friend, and one day, you will meet someone, someone who takes your last figurine, looks at it, and smiles. Someone who appreciates what you have just given them, and your heart will sing as they put it in their own jar.
Not only that, as a tear runs down their face, they will gift you a handful of their own.
Look at you. One day, you will touch a person who hunches over his or her own protectively, who sees your generosity and your beauty. And who knows? You might inspire them to start giving again.
You bring beauty and love and care into this world, you bring warmth. You reignite warmth.

And if people don't appreciate that... It's their fault. Don't mind them. Continue giving. You're an amazing person.
One day, you will be appreciated, this I promise

But he's gone now too :/ 

I love you all...dam...I really do.   You've all stuck with me longer than anyone else.

That's beautiful. At least he left you with that.

And I'm always a fan of getting professional help. We gotta take mental illness as seriously as physical. 

[StrikerEZ he/him]

17 hours ago, Darkness Ascendant said:

That's part of what hurts...the only people who care aren't anywhere near to help >>

Lol family XD as for friends irl...*sigh. All gone.

Ah the sky, and the trees, always there for me.

You did wonderfully  

As for professional help...idk...certainly an option but *shrugs

Oh damnation, it's not a suicide note >> so darn sorry it seemed like that...

When it comes to suicide. I'm not bothered. Straight up, it's too much of an effort.

I just had  to vent a little >>

*hugs back* (More out of shame than anything >>)
You're wonderful.

Heh Cookie theory, here's a story a friend wrote for me 

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As we come into this world, each of us carry a jar filled to the brim with glass figurines. These figurines sparkle, and they're beautiful and delicate. And you get a whole jar all to yourself.
They have names. Joy, trust, comfort, happiness, compassion... The list goes on. Each of them beautiful in their own way, and  each of them carrying a part of you.

And as you are a child, playing with other children, you exchange them freely. You laugh, and you trade these gifts with abandon.
But as you grow older, things start changing, don't they?
You start realizing that sometimes, those precious gifts aren't appreciated. Perhaps one day, as you offered one of these figurines, it was turned down. Perhaps it was even taken, but thrown to the ground. Perhaps it was even ground beneath the boot of the receiver.
And you wonder why
Why would they do that??
Why would they take something so precious, so freely given, and do that??
And it hurts so much.
So people... They don't want to be hurt, do they? They. They decide it's safer not to give out a part of themselves to every person they meet. They grow reluctant. They grow protective. And they withdraw from each other, afraid to get hurt. And the world becomes colder because of that.
And for those who keep on giving, those brave souls who soldier on and continue giving out these figurines, they begin to wonder. We keep giving out parts of ourselves, these beautiful figurines. And perhaps people take them. But... We're not getting anything back.
And disquiet sets in. What if we run dry?
And so, perhaps they stop giving as well. They hunch over what they have left, and they sigh and turn away. The fire they carry within them hidden instead of shared.
But there is another type of person. The type you are. The type who has had his figurines shattered before his face, to have the shards ground beneath someone else's boot and felt your heart shatter alongside it. To have continued giving, to have asked the same question. To understand that perhaps, you might run dry someday
And yet.
And yet
You keep on giving anyway
Do you have any idea how beautiful that is?

You keep on giving, my friend, and one day, you will meet someone, someone who takes your last figurine, looks at it, and smiles. Someone who appreciates what you have just given them, and your heart will sing as they put it in their own jar.
Not only that, as a tear runs down their face, they will gift you a handful of their own.
Look at you. One day, you will touch a person who hunches over his or her own protectively, who sees your generosity and your beauty. And who knows? You might inspire them to start giving again.
You bring beauty and love and care into this world, you bring warmth. You reignite warmth.

And if people don't appreciate that... It's their fault. Don't mind them. Continue giving. You're an amazing person.
One day, you will be appreciated, this I promise

But he's gone now too :/ 

I love you all...dam...I really do.   You've all stuck with me longer than anyone else.

Man, that really was inspirational. I loved that little story so much! That person really was a genius with words. Sorry if this is a sore subject, but is he gone as in no longer friends with you or moved away?

Also, just know that you're appreciated here, and we all love and support you. I'm not that great at motivational stuff, but I'll be here to help you if you ever need it, as I'm sure the rest of the community here will be as well.

[Erunion he/him]

I'm feeling really down today. No good reason - ok, lots of little reasons, but no big outstanding reason. It's just - I don't want to feel like this. I don't want to be like this. I need a hug. I really need a hug. That's all for now.

[Sunbird she/her]

14 minutes ago, Erunion said:

I'm feeling really down today. No good reason - ok, lots of little reasons, but no big outstanding reason. It's just - I don't want to feel like this. I don't want to be like this. I need a hug. I really need a hug. That's all for now.

*hugs*

[A Budgie she/her]

@Erunion *hug*

[Darkness Ascendant he/him]

2 hours ago, Erunion said:

I'm feeling really down today. No good reason - ok, lots of little reasons, but no big outstanding reason. It's just - I don't want to feel like this. I don't want to be like this. I need a hug. I really need a hug. That's all for now.

*all the hugs* (want me to pray for you like you did for me?  )

13 hours ago, Tristan said:

@Darkness Ascendant Don't forget to direct some of that love to yourself, friend. I can relate to so much of what you've shared, and it hurts to see YOU hurting. Trees can offer all sorts of things, but they've got to soak up some of the sunlight for themselves, too.

It's really hard yeah. Some days I feel on top of the world, and then that feeling gets crushed by the people around me :/ Trees also get cut down, despite the amount of rings they have grown.

13 hours ago, bleeder said:

I am here for you. We are here for you. We love you.

Everything is gonna be ok.

And I love you all as well. I appreciate you all a great deal.

We'll see.

12 hours ago, Delightfully Smoak said:

That's beautiful. At least he left you with that.

And I'm always a fan of getting professional help. We gotta take mental illness as seriously as physical. 

Yeah, he was amazing (why the hell am I talking about him in past tense >>)

eh. Professional help would open up a whole new mess of problems...problems I don't have time to think about 

5 hours ago, StrikerEZ said:

Man, that really was inspirational. I loved that little story so much! That person really was a genius with words. Sorry if this is a sore subject, but is he gone as in no longer friends with you or moved away?

Also, just know that you're appreciated here, and we all love and support you. I'm not that great at motivational stuff, but I'll be here to help you if you ever need it, as I'm sure the rest of the community here will be as well.

He really is amazing :1.

Nah. He's off on a mission. I haven't heard from him since and I hope he's ok, he's due to return in 3 months, but...we'll see.

Knowing you all are here for me is motivation enough 

[Tristan]

2 hours ago, Darkness Ascendant said:

Trees also get cut down, despite the amount of rings they have grown.

Hm. In that case you should be a whomping willow. Lol

[Erunion he/him]

@Darkness Ascendant - that's always appreciated

 

and thanks guys, I'm feeling better today!

[Jedal he/him]

I'm feeling mega sick. Like there are bugs crawling inside of my body and making me warm and cold and I can't see right and everything is twisting and turning. I can't speak or think. I just slept for twelve hours and I'm still storming sick.

[Erandeni he/him]

I barely have slept in the whole week, I had to prepare a lot of exams and essays, wich was kind of pointless, because all went awful, anyway I am not be upset, being worry is a task for future me,right now I just can think about going to sleep.

[A Budgie she/her]

6 hours ago, Jedal said:

I'm feeling mega sick. Like there are bugs crawling inside of my body and making me warm and cold and I can't see right and everything is twisting and turning. I can't speak or think. I just slept for twelve hours and I'm still storming sick.

Oh, that sounds bad...I hope you get better soon. *hug*

2 hours ago, Idealistic Mistborn said:

I barely have slept in the whole week, I had to prepare a lot of exams and essays, wich was kind of pointless, because all went awful, anyway I am not be upset, being worry is a task for future me,right now I just can think about going to sleep.

*hug* That also sounds bad. Just...try not to stress out too much, 'kay? When you wake from hibernation.

[Tristan]

Got up at 5:30am on a Saturday to go write at a coffeeshop at 6.

Arrived at said coffeeshop.

Coffeeshop doesn't open until 6:30.

I COULD HAVE SLEPT FOR 30 MORE MINUTES 

[Erandeni he/him]

13 hours ago, A Budgie said:

That also sounds bad. Just...try not to stress out too much, 'kay? When you wake from hibernation.

Thanks, I'll try, how to handle failure is one of the best things I've learnt at college.

[Riversong she/her]

This is horrible. I just finished the last Alcatraz book. I don't want to give anything away, but those of you who have finished it will know why I was lying on the floor for ten minutes, completely despondent while my sister dragged me down the stairs (literally). The worst part is, I have to go to a large public function in a few hours and socialize with people.

[Mestiv he/him]

@Riversongdid you find the note at the end?

[Seonid he/him]

I hate papers and I hate moving and I hate my job and I hate procrastination and I hate depression and so on and so forth.

Sorry, just had to vent. We're moving in a week or two, and I'm quitting my job (which means I need to find a new one) and I have 2 papers to write before the next two weeks are over and my stress level is a little too high.

And my boss is...difficult. But at least quitting will take care of that problem.

[Riversong she/her]

@Mestiv Yes, I did, but I still feel a little bit dead.

[Voidus]

So... I randomly fainted for no reason this morning.
12 hours, 2 hospitals and multiple tests later and... I still have no idea what happened.

[A Budgie she/her]

3 minutes ago, Voidus said:

So... I randomly fainted for no reason this morning.
12 hours, 2 hospitals and multiple tests later and... I still have no idea what happened.

damnation...hope they figure it out, then.

[Darkness Ascendant he/him]

32 minutes ago, Voidus said:

So... I randomly fainted for no reason this morning.
12 hours, 2 hospitals and multiple tests later and... I still have no idea what happened.

Oh dear >> That sucks :/ ditto budgie, hope they figure it out...hope it isn't a blood problem 

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I for one had a pretty bad day which I will divulge into tomorrow as I don't feel like talking about it.

But I spent the past couple of hours investing all my bad feels and hurt into writing, and I wrote 4 and a bit thousand words on SongWeavers, which you guys can check out over in Creator's Corner

Edited April 23, 2017 by Mestiv
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[A Budgie she/her]

28 minutes ago, Darkness Ascendant said:

I for one had a pretty bad day which I will divulge into tomorrow as I don't feel like talking about it.

*hug*

[Claincy he/him]

*hugs to all*

My health has been particularly shoddy over the past couple of days, slightly more than what's normal for me at the moment. There were a couple of events that I wanted to go to and thought I kinda should be going to but I just couldn't. Well, technically I could but it would have been decidedly difficult and would have made my health worse. I really don't like having to make that choice of when to go and when the consequences are bad enough that it would be wiser not to. *sigh*

On the other hand in the same timeframe I wrote a short story and designed an rpg in 200 words for a game design challenge. And I'm pretty happy with both. So that improves things markedly

[TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her]

Brain: Hey, Twi. 

Me: Yeah? 

Brain: You know that job you have? The civil service job, with like a bazillion protections in place to keep managers from just firing employees willy-nilly?

Me: Yes….

Brain: How you've been there a year, passed your probation period with flying colors, and have never once had a manager take you aside to tell you about some "problems they've noticed"? 

Me: Yeah….

Brain: YoU'rE gOiNg To GeT FiReD! 

Edited April 23, 2017 by TwiLyghtSansSparkles