Going_North_cal

today is may 28th

my family has a rule that you cannot discuss your birthday unless it is within the next month.

today is one month before my birthday.

it’s time to plan my birthday and tell my parents.

ITS THE ONE TIME A YEAR I GET TO BE SELFISH WOO

wow i just saw that i’m NOT following you.

i’ve fixed that

Okay so more details.

So, if you didn't see my previous SU here, then go read it before reading this, it'll provide context.

If you're too lazy for that, basically I had a dream about my future daughter, about a week or two after I had a dream of my future son. This SU is what I remember of that dream.

Some of it has faded, I will tell you what I remember.

So, I was watching it through a third person perspective, like I was watching myself and her interact.

It was in a forest, a little wooded area, and she looked to be about 12-13. She had a bow in hand, and a quiver at her hip. Although it was never mentioned, I can assume I was teaching her archery. Doesn't make much sense, because I don't do archery. At least, not rn. It was also a dream, sooooo.

Anyway,

We were walking softly, and she had long, wavy brown hair. Went down to just below her shoulder blades. She had brown eyes, and pardon the dramatics, but they were just alight with energy and childish wonder.

We walked a ways before stopping behind a tree trunk that was on the ground. Just over it and ahead a bit was a deer.

I said to her, "We're not here to shoot it, we're just here to look. It's not hunting season yet."

I think I woke up a short time after that, as that's all I really remember.

But... uh, yeah. Weird that it happened again.

oh my gosh i never mentioned:

so remember that time i dreamed/hallucinated/had-an-arwen-moment of my future son???

…

it happened again.

it happened. again. for a second time. last night.

why does my brain keep doing this to me.

im almost off work, i’ll post a longer su with more details.

i do not know why this keeps happening i swear, it is so weird.

and this time it wasn’t my son,

i saw my daughter this time.

why me, man?

my normal weekday work schedule:

tuesday, 5:00-9:30 pm

friday, 5:00-9:30 pm

next week weekday work schedule:

monday, 11:00 am-8:00 pm

thursday, 11:00 am-8:00 pm

friday, 12:00-9:30 pm

im gonna cry

but it’s okay, i’m on vacation for two weeks after that, and i’ll still be able to pay my bills.

yall think i should cover Three, Six, Seven, and Nine? now that I’ve done, One, Two, Four, and Eight?

i won’t do Five, I don’t really like that one.

Hello ladies and gentlemen.

As you may recall, on the 12th I promised my beloved Luna, my moon and stars, that one day I would marry her. or, to be more funny (and also less funny and rather cringe) *ahem* "wife her up." (you may laugh, cry, or scold me now)

Anyways.

Tonight was our first date after this promise. We listened to music and danced for a bit, then took her dog on a walk.

During said walk, we discussed the future.

Our future.

Here is what we discussed:

Spoiler

housing for the future:

- victorian style house, renovation will most likely happen

- big library instead of living room

- no formal dining room

- it’ll be in oregon, maybe salem

- basement will be gaming area/snack bar

- bay windows

- open floor plan: wouldn’t want to have too many walls between each other now would we? gotta have those little moments where i just watch her do smth and then we smile at each other (i fantasize ab the little things)

 

company in the house:

- children yes: in her words, “this is not up to discussion.” good thing i agree

- pets: def a dog, a big mountain dog most likely. maybe a cat. and we’ll domesticate the wild crows.

 

other things:

- she wants a garden and a music room. she’ll grow mint, other herbs, and maybe some fruits and veggies

- im reconsidering a mission… would it be out of love?? probably. i could request a service mission, or the two of us could do an old couples mission in the future. idk, we’ll cross that bridge when we come to it.

if you have questions feel free to ask :]

I’m a Two.

That’s my personality type.

I know some people may say, “Oh, that’s just something that people say in an effort to understand themselves, it’s too vague. Personality is a broad yet specific thing, you can’t define it.”

That’s the biggest load of crap I’ve ever heard.

A Two is someone who cares.

Someone who loves.

Someone who serves.

Someone who cries with you.

Someone who cries for you.

Someone who’s there for you to cry on.

Someone who won’t leave.

Someone who’s me.

I’m a Two, and I have two hearts.

One for me, and one for everybody else.

My heart beats slowly, softly, with just enough love that I don’t hate myself unless I get in a really low spot.

My other heart, the one for everyone else, beats powerfully, loudly, with a love that aims to fix everyone's problems.

I hate to see people in pain. I hate to see people cry. I hate to see people love, and then be broken by love.

I hate it. I hate it so much.

They don’t deserve it, they never ever do.

They deserve love, not heartbreak. They deserve peace, not pain. They deserve warmth, not cold.

If I could always have a sign that says, “Hey, if you’re having a hard time, ask me for a hug or some consoling words,” I would.

I would love to be able to help everyone. Even strangers.

Especially strangers. You never know what someone else might be going through.

And the opportunity to help someone else, to let them feel love, peace, and warmth, is incredible to me.

My heart beats softly, and people say, “Oh, don’t forget to take breaks from helping others, and help yourself.”

But helping people is what helps me.

When my other heart beats hard for people, my heart beats a bit louder, a bit stronger, for myself.

I love helping others. It makes me feel important. It makes me feel whole, and it makes me feel love.

I love, love, love making sure others smile. Genuinely smile.

Please smile.

Please know you’re loved.

Please know you’re strong.

Please believe in yourself.

Please know that you can do this, that this is just a bump in the road.

curses by crane wives is a banger

i’m standing firm on the fact that chris pine should play kelsier

soooo thoughts on what i’ve made today?

the sleeping at last covers and the two new scenes in my creators corner page?

please?

feedback (and/or praise (i like validation)) is appreciated