Having a Bad Day?: Get 'yer Hugs here!!

[ToaCalune he/him]

Not really a horrible thing, but I am bored out of my mind. I am homeschooled, so at least I still have that going on, but today I was bored and played my violin for almost 2 hours (now that I think of it, that’s probably not such a bad thing). I am just sitting around, trying to not go on a walk because in my area we have been advised to not go outside in case we come in contact with others. I try to go to the back yard, but do what? I am ready for all of this to be over.

[The Forgetful Archivist he/him]

Being fairly introverted I was totally on board with the social distancing, I figured I would hang out at home, make some stuff and generally have a good time. But now things aren't seeming so great. I work on a on call basis, when someone books an escape room I come into work, but now that no one is booking I'm not working so I'm not getting paid. My laptop broke and I lost a bunch of files trying to fix it, my SLA 3D printer broke as well, and now to top it all off the power just went out. Every time I think of something to do I realize that it wouldn't work. I can't sculpt stuff because I use an bake clay and have no power, I want to print some minis but no printer and no power, how about building something out of foam, my foam cutter needs electricity Wich I happen to have none. I'm glad I'm not in a hospital with Covid 19 or anything, but life in a world ravaged by precautionary measures sucks.

[+Doomstick he/him]

On 3/18/2020 at 7:46 PM, ToaCalune said:

played my violin for almost 2 hours

YOU SHOULD BE PRACTICING 40 HOURS A DAY!!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!?!? LING LING DISAPPROVES!!!

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If you don’t understand, then your boredom is cured! Go watch some TwoSet Violin on YouTube! If you do understand, PRACTICE MORE!!

[ToaCalune he/him]

23 hours ago, DoomStick said:

YOU SHOULD BE PRACTICING 40 HOURS A DAY!!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!?!? LING LING DISAPPROVES!!!

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If you don’t understand, then your boredom is cured! Go watch some TwoSet Violin on YouTube! If you do understand, PRACTICE MORE!!

Yes, indeed. I just started watching them a few weeks ago when the shutdown started in my area. I’ve been trying to work up to that 40 hours a day. It was four yesterday and five today. On the bright side, I have a new found joy for playing violin, and I think I have gotten noticeably better...

[+Doomstick he/him]

1 hour ago, ToaCalune said:

Yes, indeed. I just started watching them a few weeks ago when the shutdown started in my area. I’ve been trying to work up to that 40 hours a day. It was four yesterday and five today. On the bright side, I have a new found joy for playing violin, and I think I have gotten noticeably better...

Yay!

[Draginon he/him]

At work yesterday one of the rooms got flooded from a dripping ac unit. This room is supposed to be a meeting room but for the past couple years has been used as a technology repair room for one of the tech guys so my mother, the maintenance head and me moved all the stuff out so that the maintenance guy could get fans in there and dry the carpet out over the weekend. The maintenance guy called his people to find out who turned the air down since the only people who were there this past week were the three of us plus 4 of his cleaning people and the three of us know not to mess with the units, I tend to forget where the one for the unit in question is since I don’t usually go into that area, so it had to be one of them who did it. He somehow narrowed it down to this one lady and she vehemently denied it but from what I understand she is getting her pay docked for the damages.

[Draginon he/him]

On 3/21/2020 at 11:09 PM, ToaCalune said:

Yes, indeed. I just started watching them a few weeks ago when the shutdown started in my area. I’ve been trying to work up to that 40 hours a day. It was four yesterday and five today. On the bright side, I have a new found joy for playing violin, and I think I have gotten noticeably better...

40 hours? You need to aim for 80 hours! You need to be twice as good as them!

[Silverblade5 he/him]

I got 13% on a big test. How you might ask? Apparently some images didn't survive a file format conversion as well as I'd thought they did.

[+Slowswift]

18 hours ago, Silverblade5 said:

I got 13% on a big test. How you might ask? Apparently some images didn't survive a file format conversion as well as I'd thought they did.

Oh dear. I'm sorry, that must feel awful.  

Any chance you can explain that it was a technical problem and get another shot?

Edited April 15, 2020 by Slowswift

[Silverblade5 he/him]

3 hours ago, Slowswift said:

Oh dear. I'm sorry, that must feel awful.  

Any chance you can explain that it was a technical problem and get another shot?

He gave very explicit instructions and a three hour buffer for this scenario. It's really my fault for not double checking everything before submitting. That's the funny thing. I submitted multiple pages. They just ended up being blank lol

[+Slowswift]

1 hour ago, Silverblade5 said:

He gave very explicit instructions and a three hour buffer for this scenario. It's really my fault for not double checking everything before submitting. That's the funny thing. I submitted multiple pages. They just ended up being blank lol

Aw man, that really bites. Hope the rest of the year goes better!

[Silva]

June SAT Subject tests are canceled. I didn't learn about it just now, but its ramifications finally dawned on me in their entirety. I planned on taking three this year, two in June and one in August. The two would basically be supplemental finals studying and the third could be studied for over the summer. 

Except now, if I want to take them, it'll be in August (hopefully). Already more of an issue because a lot of the information won't be as freshly drilled into my head by teachers. It'll require more independent studying during a summer that I was expecting to be pretty chill. Additionally, it'd mean I'd have to take three in one day unless I wanted to be studying for a subject test during what looks like it's going to be the most stressful year I've faced to date. Yay. So I'm probably going to end up scrapping the third one since it's the one I suspect I'd do the worst on and end up just doing two come August.

There are definitely bigger things I should be worrying about currently (and besides, these are subject tests, not even the actual SAT). Probably why my brain is focusing on this not really so important one. 

Edited April 20, 2020 by Silva
Forgot a word...

[Ammanas]

Got in over my head with a Do it yourself project. Tried to fix a leaky faucet and things were well until a the last piece instead of coming out smoothly ended up shattering and getting jammed ridiculously tight in the copper pipe. Of course the water was turned off to the house and couldn’t turn it on without it gushing water because of the piece. Ended up having to call a plummer which charges a arm and a leg for “house calls.” A very frustrating and costly day spent without water. Hopefully tomorrow is better!

[Briar King]

Why didn’t you just turn it off at the sink instead?

[Ammanas]

8 hours ago, Briar King said:

Why didn’t you just turn it off at the sink instead?

It was the bathtub/shower cartridge. All the YouTube videos said the you had to turn off the water to the entire house.

[AonEne he/him]

Why is getting a diagnosis so unofficial? Talked to my doctor about it today and she agreed that it sounds like I’m dealing with OCD, like professionals have in the past, and it has gotten worse - enough to count as the disorder, I think, and I take the checklists online and they agree, so do I call myself officially diagnosed now? She approved me for treatment, said it would be a good idea to look into. There was no paper or anything saying “Ene has this”, no one looking me in the eyes and going Yes-capital-Y. Does it count? Argh. I’m going to work under the assumption that professional agreement is what matters and I’m “diagnosed” now. No one has said anything about any other unmet requirements for being diagnosed. So that’s what I’m going with, that all the medical and mental health professionals agreeing means it’s official now. I don’t remember it being any different for being diagnosed with depression or anxiety. 

Yaaaay  

[Orlion Blight he/him]

On 5/11/2020 at 3:19 PM, AonEne said:

Why is getting a diagnosis so unofficial? Talked to my doctor about it today and she agreed that it sounds like I’m dealing with OCD, like professionals have in the past, and it has gotten worse - enough to count as the disorder, I think, and I take the checklists online and they agree, so do I call myself officially diagnosed now? She approved me for treatment, said it would be a good idea to look into. There was no paper or anything saying “Ene has this”, no one looking me in the eyes and going Yes-capital-Y. Does it count? Argh. I’m going to work under the assumption that professional agreement is what matters and I’m “diagnosed” now. No one has said anything about any other unmet requirements for being diagnosed. So that’s what I’m going with, that all the medical and mental health professionals agreeing means it’s official now. I don’t remember it being any different for being diagnosed with depression or anxiety. 

Yaaaay  

If you are getting treated for it, I think that counts as officially being diagnosed. Though if you want to dance around with language in the future, you could write "Received treatment designed for OCD" and let everyone draw their own conclusions

[AonEne he/him]

On 5/16/2020 at 7:52 PM, Orlion the Platypus said:

If you are getting treated for it, I think that counts as officially being diagnosed. Though if you want to dance around with language in the future, you could write "Received treatment designed for OCD" and let everyone draw their own conclusions

Yeah, that is an option  

[Darth Woodrack he/him]

I've recently been having several emotional breakdowns traced back to my depression and sense of loneliness. As in everyone I encounter ends up liking other people way more then me. I have three to four actual friends who actually seem to put me first. It's really hard to say this without seeming selfish, but it's just like... nobody seems to like me.

[Nathrangking he/him]

8 hours ago, Darth Woodrack said:

I've recently been having several emotional breakdowns traced back to my depression and sense of loneliness. As in everyone I encounter ends up liking other people way more then me. I have three to four actual friends who actually seem to put me first. It's really hard to say this without seeming selfish, but it's just like... nobody seems to like me.

*Hugs* The world can seem a lonely place at times. However, bear this in mind those three or four friends that you mentioned are there for you. We are here for you Darth. You are not selfish for not wanting to feel lonely. Such feelings are awful. There are people who like you even if it does not always appear that way. Stay strong and remember you always have us.

[The Awakened Salad they/them]

On 19/05/2020 at 3:08 PM, Darth Woodrack said:

I've recently been having several emotional breakdowns traced back to my depression and sense of loneliness. As in everyone I encounter ends up liking other people way more then me. I have three to four actual friends who actually seem to put me first. It's really hard to say this without seeming selfish, but it's just like... nobody seems to like me.

Storms, I know this feeling all too well. It’s horrible, feeling like the entire world is against you, but please know that you’re not alone. We’re here for you, and I’m sure your friends in real life care about you, more than you might realise. 

I also just want to add that it’s not selfish to be feeling like this. Your feelings are valid and important. However, they do not necessarily reflect the truth, or other people’s thoughts about you. No one can read minds, so even though it may seem that people dislike you, it may not be true. 

Edited May 20, 2020 by The Awakened Salad

[Jaywalk he/him]

For a long time, I’ve had a really good relationship with my dad. But lately, tension’s been building between us (a problem stemming partly from the struggles of quarantine, I think), and today it came to a head. Suddenly I feel as if he’s lost confidence in me, having less in me than I do in myself, which is saying something, because I’m not a naturally confident person. Half of me says he’s completely justified, and the other half wants to listen to my loving mother, who tells me I should be confident in myself. I’m torn between the two, lost as to how I feel. I love both my parents, I know they both love me, but the best way I can put my state right now... is lost.

I just feel very, very lost.

[Nathrangking he/him]

7 minutes ago, Jaywalk said:

For a long time, I’ve had a really good relationship with my dad. But lately, tension’s been building between us (a problem stemming partly from the struggles of quarantine, I think), and today it came to a head. Suddenly I feel as if he’s lost confidence in me, having less in me than I do in myself, which is saying something, because I’m not a naturally confident person. Half of me says he’s completely justified, and the other half wants to listen to my loving mother, who tells me I should be confident in myself. I’m torn between the two, lost as to how I feel. I love both my parents, I know they both love me, but the best way I can put my state right now... is lost.

I just feel very, very lost.

*Hugs* being torn by such things is not easy. At times it can feel as though there is something wrong to fix. It can be overwhelming and it can create real doubt. Ultimately, that feeling though is something which is an illusion. Your parents as you said do love you. Sometimes things may get heated or it may seem that they are disappointed. However, remember that they do love you and care. If you remember that and the fact that you are capable then that feeling of being lost will be shown to be an illusion. Stay strong!

[Truthless of Shinovar he/him]

16 hours ago, Jaywalk said:

For a long time, I’ve had a really good relationship with my dad. But lately, tension’s been building between us (a problem stemming partly from the struggles of quarantine, I think), and today it came to a head. Suddenly I feel as if he’s lost confidence in me, having less in me than I do in myself, which is saying something, because I’m not a naturally confident person. Half of me says he’s completely justified, and the other half wants to listen to my loving mother, who tells me I should be confident in myself. I’m torn between the two, lost as to how I feel. I love both my parents, I know they both love me, but the best way I can put my state right now... is lost.

I just feel very, very lost.

Hey man, that’s tough. First off, remember (and I’m sure you already know this) that no matter what, you are a valued and gifted individual who is incredibly unique and wonderful. Even if other people don’t hold that confidence, try to maintain it yourself. I’d advise you to focus on the positive experiences that you’ve had with your father in the past. Remember all the reasons you know that your father loves you. If you feel up to it, maybe you could try talking to him (if you haven’t already), perhaps tell him how you’ve been feeling. I’ve always found it incredible how much can be solved and begin to be healed just by talking. 

Anyways, that’s just my advice, hope it makes sense. If you want to talk more about it, don’t hesitate to shoot me a PM!

[Jaywalk he/him]

16 hours ago, Nathrangking said:

*Hugs* being torn by such things is not easy. At times it can feel as though there is something wrong to fix. It can be overwhelming and it can create real doubt. Ultimately, that feeling though is something which is an illusion. Your parents as you said do love you. Sometimes things may get heated or it may seem that they are disappointed. However, remember that they do love you and care. If you remember that and the fact that you are capable then that feeling of being lost will be shown to be an illusion. Stay strong!

15 minutes ago, Truthless of Shinovar said:

Hey man, that’s tough. First off, remember (and I’m sure you already know this) that no matter what, you are a valued and gifted individual who is incredibly unique and wonderful. Even if other people don’t hold that confidence, try to maintain it yourself. I’d advise you to focus on the positive experiences that you’ve had with your father in the past. Remember all the reasons you know that your father loves you. If you feel up to it, maybe you could try talking to him (if you haven’t already), perhaps tell him how you’ve been feeling. I’ve always found it incredible how much can be solved and begin to be healed just by talking. 

Anyways, that’s just my advice, hope it makes sense. If you want to talk more about it, don’t hesitate to shoot me a PM!

Thanks you two for your support, it really means a lot.