Having a Bad Day?: Get 'yer Hugs here!!

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 minute ago, Ookla The Loser OfThe Game said:

thank you. your one of the most supportive people I (sorta in a way) know

ohh

*hughughug*

[Existential]

2 hours ago, Ookla The Loser OfThe Game said:

to put it as short as I can it was my supposedly close friends birthday party today. I'm the only not invited... again

hey man, I get it, if you wanna talk lmk, idk how much help I will be but yk, i'll try

 

*hug*

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

3 hours ago, Ookla The Loser OfThe Game said:

to put it as short as I can it was my supposedly close friends birthday party today. I'm the only not invited... again

Man that sucks.

*hugs*

[Keke They/he]

20 hours ago, Ookla The Loser OfThe Game said:

to put it as short as I can it was my supposedly close friends birthday party today. I'm the only not invited... again

Oof that must suck, if you need anything we are here.

*bear hug*

[TwinStorm He/Him]

23 hours ago, Ookla The Loser OfThe Game said:

to put it as short as I can it was my supposedly close friends birthday party today. I'm the only not invited... again

*hugs*

I know how you feel. I'm going through the exact same thing rn. If you want to talk about it or rant, my PMs are always open.

[OOKLA_the LIV She/They/Lesbian/hungry]

guess what everybody?

Im back.

@Ookla the Nullified already sort of knows whats going on, but........

here we go.

Spoiler

To understand whats going on, you need to understand my family. my extended family. I live very close to my cousins, like . Their family is basically a mirror of ours. same number of kids, same dynamic, older sister middle sister younger brother. (although my older sibling is technically genderfluid.) Our parents are also super close and share the same interests. My parents names both start with a B, and their parents names both start with a J. So we call them the J´s and they call us the B´s. Like I said. same humor, same everything. Except recently.

Six months ago, my uncle, (I will call him J-1) left the church we are all in. I was okay with this, as I had been wanting to leave myself, as it was........ kinda homoph0bic. So, I was fine with this. My aunt however, ( I will call her J-2) was disappointed, and made a point to tell him. They had been on edge ever since. Two weeks ago, something happened. I don ´ t know what, but they had a huge falling out. J-2 came out the day later, bags packed and everything. Everyone was shocked. J-2 then says that she is leaving for she doesn´t know how long, and might buy a one-way ticket all the way across the country. My youngest cousin, an 11 year old boy, was terrified. Crying and sobbing and begging her not to leave. she just walked out the door. I had no idea that this was going down. All I knew is that J-2 showed up at my house randomly, and stayed a couple nights. J-1 and my cousins had no idea where she was going to go, and if she was ever coming back. Then, she went back to the Js house, unannounced, after disappearing for two days, expecting everyone to be fine. Keep in mind, while J-2 was gone, J-1 was taking care of the kids, making sure they were okay, watching movies and playing games and just generally trying to cheer them up. J-1 was mad when J-2 came back. She left, dumped all the responsibility to him, and then comes back?? then, she says that she wants to take the kids, and MOVE to UTAH WITH THEM. leaving J-1 alone. Obviously, J-1 is not happy. Later, my parents, B-1 and B-2, come and talk to them. they work something out, where they move out of the house every other week, and take care of the kids in shifts. After my parents leave, My youngest cousin, the 11 yr old, asks why J-2 left him alone. She responds:

¨Well, if J-1 hadnt-¨

¨Stop. not in front of the kids.¨ (J-1 says this)

by this point, little cousin is crying.

Then, J-2 decides that she gets the first shift with the kids, and J-1 has to move to my house for the week. The oldest cousin, I´ll call her gus, (psych thing. nickname, dont ask.) tells me that J-2 has not been there. she has been comforting the littlest cousin, but ignoring the other two, not making dinner, and basicallhy just not being there. Gus said that she saw J-1 more than J-2, even when J-2 was living IN HER HOUSE. I am frankly really mad at J-2. She used to be so nice. she made my birthday cake for me and everything. I dont get any say in any of this, and i am terrified of my cousins leaving because they are my best friends in the world.

And i mean, they couldn´t wait three more weeks till christmas was over?? REALLY? I am not going to be there for them either, because my family is going to a family reunion this christmas. We have a disney cruise booked for next year too, and I have no idea how that is going to work if J-1 and J-2 cant be in the same HOUSE, let alone cruise room bunk beds.

 

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

15 minutes ago, OOKLA_the LIV said:

guess what everybody?

Im back.

@Ookla the Nullified already sort of knows whats going on, but........

here we go.

  Reveal hidden contents

To understand whats going on, you need to understand my family. my extended family. I live very close to my cousins, like . Their family is basically a mirror of ours. same number of kids, same dynamic, older sister middle sister younger brother. (although my older sibling is technically genderfluid.) Our parents are also super close and share the same interests. My parents names both start with a B, and their parents names both start with a J. So we call them the J´s and they call us the B´s. Like I said. same humor, same everything. Except recently.

Six months ago, my uncle, (I will call him J-1) left the church we are all in. I was okay with this, as I had been wanting to leave myself, as it was........ kinda homoph0bic. So, I was fine with this. My aunt however, ( I will call her J-2) was disappointed, and made a point to tell him. They had been on edge ever since. Two weeks ago, something happened. I don ´ t know what, but they had a huge falling out. J-2 came out the day later, bags packed and everything. Everyone was shocked. J-2 then says that she is leaving for she doesn´t know how long, and might buy a one-way ticket all the way across the country. My youngest cousin, an 11 year old boy, was terrified. Crying and sobbing and begging her not to leave. she just walked out the door. I had no idea that this was going down. All I knew is that J-2 showed up at my house randomly, and stayed a couple nights. J-1 and my cousins had no idea where she was going to go, and if she was ever coming back. Then, she went back to the Js house, unannounced, after disappearing for two days, expecting everyone to be fine. Keep in mind, while J-2 was gone, J-1 was taking care of the kids, making sure they were okay, watching movies and playing games and just generally trying to cheer them up. J-1 was mad when J-2 came back. She left, dumped all the responsibility to him, and then comes back?? then, she says that she wants to take the kids, and MOVE to UTAH WITH THEM. leaving J-1 alone. Obviously, J-1 is not happy. Later, my parents, B-1 and B-2, come and talk to them. they work something out, where they move out of the house every other week, and take care of the kids in shifts. After my parents leave, My youngest cousin, the 11 yr old, asks why J-2 left him alone. She responds:

¨Well, if J-1 hadnt-¨

¨Stop. not in front of the kids.¨ (J-1 says this)

by this point, little cousin is crying.

Then, J-2 decides that she gets the first shift with the kids, and J-1 has to move to my house for the week. The oldest cousin, I´ll call her gus, (psych thing. nickname, dont ask.) tells me that J-2 has not been there. she has been comforting the littlest cousin, but ignoring the other two, not making dinner, and basicallhy just not being there. Gus said that she saw J-1 more than J-2, even when J-2 was living IN HER HOUSE. I am frankly really mad at J-2. She used to be so nice. she made my birthday cake for me and everything. I dont get any say in any of this, and i am terrified of my cousins leaving because they are my best friends in the world.

And i mean, they couldn´t wait three more weeks till christmas was over?? REALLY? I am not going to be there for them either, because my family is going to a family reunion this christmas. We have a disney cruise booked for next year too, and I have no idea how that is going to work if J-1 and J-2 cant be in the same HOUSE, let alone cruise room bunk beds.

 

oh

hot dang

*hugs*

That's awful 

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

48 minutes ago, OOKLA_the LIV said:

guess what everybody?

Im back.

@Ookla the Nullified already sort of knows whats going on, but........

here we go.

  Reveal hidden contents

To understand whats going on, you need to understand my family. my extended family. I live very close to my cousins, like . Their family is basically a mirror of ours. same number of kids, same dynamic, older sister middle sister younger brother. (although my older sibling is technically genderfluid.) Our parents are also super close and share the same interests. My parents names both start with a B, and their parents names both start with a J. So we call them the J´s and they call us the B´s. Like I said. same humor, same everything. Except recently.

Six months ago, my uncle, (I will call him J-1) left the church we are all in. I was okay with this, as I had been wanting to leave myself, as it was........ kinda homoph0bic. So, I was fine with this. My aunt however, ( I will call her J-2) was disappointed, and made a point to tell him. They had been on edge ever since. Two weeks ago, something happened. I don ´ t know what, but they had a huge falling out. J-2 came out the day later, bags packed and everything. Everyone was shocked. J-2 then says that she is leaving for she doesn´t know how long, and might buy a one-way ticket all the way across the country. My youngest cousin, an 11 year old boy, was terrified. Crying and sobbing and begging her not to leave. she just walked out the door. I had no idea that this was going down. All I knew is that J-2 showed up at my house randomly, and stayed a couple nights. J-1 and my cousins had no idea where she was going to go, and if she was ever coming back. Then, she went back to the Js house, unannounced, after disappearing for two days, expecting everyone to be fine. Keep in mind, while J-2 was gone, J-1 was taking care of the kids, making sure they were okay, watching movies and playing games and just generally trying to cheer them up. J-1 was mad when J-2 came back. She left, dumped all the responsibility to him, and then comes back?? then, she says that she wants to take the kids, and MOVE to UTAH WITH THEM. leaving J-1 alone. Obviously, J-1 is not happy. Later, my parents, B-1 and B-2, come and talk to them. they work something out, where they move out of the house every other week, and take care of the kids in shifts. After my parents leave, My youngest cousin, the 11 yr old, asks why J-2 left him alone. She responds:

¨Well, if J-1 hadnt-¨

¨Stop. not in front of the kids.¨ (J-1 says this)

by this point, little cousin is crying.

Then, J-2 decides that she gets the first shift with the kids, and J-1 has to move to my house for the week. The oldest cousin, I´ll call her gus, (psych thing. nickname, dont ask.) tells me that J-2 has not been there. she has been comforting the littlest cousin, but ignoring the other two, not making dinner, and basicallhy just not being there. Gus said that she saw J-1 more than J-2, even when J-2 was living IN HER HOUSE. I am frankly really mad at J-2. She used to be so nice. she made my birthday cake for me and everything. I dont get any say in any of this, and i am terrified of my cousins leaving because they are my best friends in the world.

And i mean, they couldn´t wait three more weeks till christmas was over?? REALLY? I am not going to be there for them either, because my family is going to a family reunion this christmas. We have a disney cruise booked for next year too, and I have no idea how that is going to work if J-1 and J-2 cant be in the same HOUSE, let alone cruise room bunk beds.

 

Dang, that’s a pretty hot mess of a dumpster fire. 

*hug* 

Good luck, girlipop. 

[OOKLA_the LIV She/They/Lesbian/hungry]

4 minutes ago, oOklA thE shInyYyy said:

Dang, that’s a pretty hot mess of a dumpster fire. 

*hug* 

Good luck, girlipop. 

storms know Im gonna need it.

[kajsa ㅇㅅㅇ she/her]

1 hour ago, OOKLA_the LIV said:

guess what everybody?

Im back.

@Ookla the Nullified already sort of knows whats going on, but........

here we go.

  Reveal hidden contents

To understand whats going on, you need to understand my family. my extended family. I live very close to my cousins, like . Their family is basically a mirror of ours. same number of kids, same dynamic, older sister middle sister younger brother. (although my older sibling is technically genderfluid.) Our parents are also super close and share the same interests. My parents names both start with a B, and their parents names both start with a J. So we call them the J´s and they call us the B´s. Like I said. same humor, same everything. Except recently.

Six months ago, my uncle, (I will call him J-1) left the church we are all in. I was okay with this, as I had been wanting to leave myself, as it was........ kinda homoph0bic. So, I was fine with this. My aunt however, ( I will call her J-2) was disappointed, and made a point to tell him. They had been on edge ever since. Two weeks ago, something happened. I don ´ t know what, but they had a huge falling out. J-2 came out the day later, bags packed and everything. Everyone was shocked. J-2 then says that she is leaving for she doesn´t know how long, and might buy a one-way ticket all the way across the country. My youngest cousin, an 11 year old boy, was terrified. Crying and sobbing and begging her not to leave. she just walked out the door. I had no idea that this was going down. All I knew is that J-2 showed up at my house randomly, and stayed a couple nights. J-1 and my cousins had no idea where she was going to go, and if she was ever coming back. Then, she went back to the Js house, unannounced, after disappearing for two days, expecting everyone to be fine. Keep in mind, while J-2 was gone, J-1 was taking care of the kids, making sure they were okay, watching movies and playing games and just generally trying to cheer them up. J-1 was mad when J-2 came back. She left, dumped all the responsibility to him, and then comes back?? then, she says that she wants to take the kids, and MOVE to UTAH WITH THEM. leaving J-1 alone. Obviously, J-1 is not happy. Later, my parents, B-1 and B-2, come and talk to them. they work something out, where they move out of the house every other week, and take care of the kids in shifts. After my parents leave, My youngest cousin, the 11 yr old, asks why J-2 left him alone. She responds:

¨Well, if J-1 hadnt-¨

¨Stop. not in front of the kids.¨ (J-1 says this)

by this point, little cousin is crying.

Then, J-2 decides that she gets the first shift with the kids, and J-1 has to move to my house for the week. The oldest cousin, I´ll call her gus, (psych thing. nickname, dont ask.) tells me that J-2 has not been there. she has been comforting the littlest cousin, but ignoring the other two, not making dinner, and basicallhy just not being there. Gus said that she saw J-1 more than J-2, even when J-2 was living IN HER HOUSE. I am frankly really mad at J-2. She used to be so nice. she made my birthday cake for me and everything. I dont get any say in any of this, and i am terrified of my cousins leaving because they are my best friends in the world.

And i mean, they couldn´t wait three more weeks till christmas was over?? REALLY? I am not going to be there for them either, because my family is going to a family reunion this christmas. We have a disney cruise booked for next year too, and I have no idea how that is going to work if J-1 and J-2 cant be in the same HOUSE, let alone cruise room bunk beds.

 

scud that sounds so stressful, i’m so sorry! family issues are the worst kind. 

i kinda have some experience with the church thing? like we used to be LDS (our family has been for generations), but we left a couple of years ago several reasons. my grandparents on my dad’s side are very conservative and have very… uh…… black-and-white worldviews, i guess. ever since they found out we’d left, things have been different. not necessarily hostile, at least not openly, but there have been instances where they’ve asked uncomfortable questions or said passive aggressive things to us, usually when our parents aren’t around, and i’ve really grown apart from them in the last couple of years that we pulled away. i’ve rlly only seen them once since that happened, but it was still so… off. religion can cause so many problems within families, which totally sucks. i’m so sorry you’re going through this, and if you ever need anything a stranger on the internet can help with, let me know.  

you got this!

[Through the Living Wrath he/him]

3 hours ago, OOKLA_the LIV said:

guess what everybody?

Im back.

@Ookla the Nullified already sort of knows whats going on, but........

here we go.

  Reveal hidden contents

To understand whats going on, you need to understand my family. my extended family. I live very close to my cousins, like . Their family is basically a mirror of ours. same number of kids, same dynamic, older sister middle sister younger brother. (although my older sibling is technically genderfluid.) Our parents are also super close and share the same interests. My parents names both start with a B, and their parents names both start with a J. So we call them the J´s and they call us the B´s. Like I said. same humor, same everything. Except recently.

Six months ago, my uncle, (I will call him J-1) left the church we are all in. I was okay with this, as I had been wanting to leave myself, as it was........ kinda homoph0bic. So, I was fine with this. My aunt however, ( I will call her J-2) was disappointed, and made a point to tell him. They had been on edge ever since. Two weeks ago, something happened. I don ´ t know what, but they had a huge falling out. J-2 came out the day later, bags packed and everything. Everyone was shocked. J-2 then says that she is leaving for she doesn´t know how long, and might buy a one-way ticket all the way across the country. My youngest cousin, an 11 year old boy, was terrified. Crying and sobbing and begging her not to leave. she just walked out the door. I had no idea that this was going down. All I knew is that J-2 showed up at my house randomly, and stayed a couple nights. J-1 and my cousins had no idea where she was going to go, and if she was ever coming back. Then, she went back to the Js house, unannounced, after disappearing for two days, expecting everyone to be fine. Keep in mind, while J-2 was gone, J-1 was taking care of the kids, making sure they were okay, watching movies and playing games and just generally trying to cheer them up. J-1 was mad when J-2 came back. She left, dumped all the responsibility to him, and then comes back?? then, she says that she wants to take the kids, and MOVE to UTAH WITH THEM. leaving J-1 alone. Obviously, J-1 is not happy. Later, my parents, B-1 and B-2, come and talk to them. they work something out, where they move out of the house every other week, and take care of the kids in shifts. After my parents leave, My youngest cousin, the 11 yr old, asks why J-2 left him alone. She responds:

¨Well, if J-1 hadnt-¨

¨Stop. not in front of the kids.¨ (J-1 says this)

by this point, little cousin is crying.

Then, J-2 decides that she gets the first shift with the kids, and J-1 has to move to my house for the week. The oldest cousin, I´ll call her gus, (psych thing. nickname, dont ask.) tells me that J-2 has not been there. she has been comforting the littlest cousin, but ignoring the other two, not making dinner, and basicallhy just not being there. Gus said that she saw J-1 more than J-2, even when J-2 was living IN HER HOUSE. I am frankly really mad at J-2. She used to be so nice. she made my birthday cake for me and everything. I dont get any say in any of this, and i am terrified of my cousins leaving because they are my best friends in the world.

And i mean, they couldn´t wait three more weeks till christmas was over?? REALLY? I am not going to be there for them either, because my family is going to a family reunion this christmas. We have a disney cruise booked for next year too, and I have no idea how that is going to work if J-1 and J-2 cant be in the same HOUSE, let alone cruise room bunk beds.

 

Sorry.

*hug*

(Do you ever call Gus Burton? Or Guster? I’ve heard it both ways.)

[TwinStorm He/Him]

3 hours ago, OOKLA_the LIV said:

guess what everybody?

Im back.

@Ookla the Nullified already sort of knows whats going on, but........

here we go.

  Hide contents

To understand whats going on, you need to understand my family. my extended family. I live very close to my cousins, like . Their family is basically a mirror of ours. same number of kids, same dynamic, older sister middle sister younger brother. (although my older sibling is technically genderfluid.) Our parents are also super close and share the same interests. My parents names both start with a B, and their parents names both start with a J. So we call them the J´s and they call us the B´s. Like I said. same humor, same everything. Except recently.

Six months ago, my uncle, (I will call him J-1) left the church we are all in. I was okay with this, as I had been wanting to leave myself, as it was........ kinda homoph0bic. So, I was fine with this. My aunt however, ( I will call her J-2) was disappointed, and made a point to tell him. They had been on edge ever since. Two weeks ago, something happened. I don ´ t know what, but they had a huge falling out. J-2 came out the day later, bags packed and everything. Everyone was shocked. J-2 then says that she is leaving for she doesn´t know how long, and might buy a one-way ticket all the way across the country. My youngest cousin, an 11 year old boy, was terrified. Crying and sobbing and begging her not to leave. she just walked out the door. I had no idea that this was going down. All I knew is that J-2 showed up at my house randomly, and stayed a couple nights. J-1 and my cousins had no idea where she was going to go, and if she was ever coming back. Then, she went back to the Js house, unannounced, after disappearing for two days, expecting everyone to be fine. Keep in mind, while J-2 was gone, J-1 was taking care of the kids, making sure they were okay, watching movies and playing games and just generally trying to cheer them up. J-1 was mad when J-2 came back. She left, dumped all the responsibility to him, and then comes back?? then, she says that she wants to take the kids, and MOVE to UTAH WITH THEM. leaving J-1 alone. Obviously, J-1 is not happy. Later, my parents, B-1 and B-2, come and talk to them. they work something out, where they move out of the house every other week, and take care of the kids in shifts. After my parents leave, My youngest cousin, the 11 yr old, asks why J-2 left him alone. She responds:

¨Well, if J-1 hadnt-¨

¨Stop. not in front of the kids.¨ (J-1 says this)

by this point, little cousin is crying.

Then, J-2 decides that she gets the first shift with the kids, and J-1 has to move to my house for the week. The oldest cousin, I´ll call her gus, (psych thing. nickname, dont ask.) tells me that J-2 has not been there. she has been comforting the littlest cousin, but ignoring the other two, not making dinner, and basicallhy just not being there. Gus said that she saw J-1 more than J-2, even when J-2 was living IN HER HOUSE. I am frankly really mad at J-2. She used to be so nice. she made my birthday cake for me and everything. I dont get any say in any of this, and i am terrified of my cousins leaving because they are my best friends in the world.

And i mean, they couldn´t wait three more weeks till christmas was over?? REALLY? I am not going to be there for them either, because my family is going to a family reunion this christmas. We have a disney cruise booked for next year too, and I have no idea how that is going to work if J-1 and J-2 cant be in the same HOUSE, let alone cruise room bunk beds.

 

oh Liv, that's awful

*hugs*

though the Disney cruise was really fun when my family went!

Edited December 4, 2024 by Ookla the Irreplaceable

[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

On 12/4/2024 at 8:45 PM, OOKLA_the LIV said:

guess what everybody?

Im back.

@Ookla the Nullified already sort of knows whats going on, but........

here we go.

  Reveal hidden contents

To understand whats going on, you need to understand my family. my extended family. I live very close to my cousins, like . Their family is basically a mirror of ours. same number of kids, same dynamic, older sister middle sister younger brother. (although my older sibling is technically genderfluid.) Our parents are also super close and share the same interests. My parents names both start with a B, and their parents names both start with a J. So we call them the J´s and they call us the B´s. Like I said. same humor, same everything. Except recently.

Six months ago, my uncle, (I will call him J-1) left the church we are all in. I was okay with this, as I had been wanting to leave myself, as it was........ kinda homoph0bic. So, I was fine with this. My aunt however, ( I will call her J-2) was disappointed, and made a point to tell him. They had been on edge ever since. Two weeks ago, something happened. I don ´ t know what, but they had a huge falling out. J-2 came out the day later, bags packed and everything. Everyone was shocked. J-2 then says that she is leaving for she doesn´t know how long, and might buy a one-way ticket all the way across the country. My youngest cousin, an 11 year old boy, was terrified. Crying and sobbing and begging her not to leave. she just walked out the door. I had no idea that this was going down. All I knew is that J-2 showed up at my house randomly, and stayed a couple nights. J-1 and my cousins had no idea where she was going to go, and if she was ever coming back. Then, she went back to the Js house, unannounced, after disappearing for two days, expecting everyone to be fine. Keep in mind, while J-2 was gone, J-1 was taking care of the kids, making sure they were okay, watching movies and playing games and just generally trying to cheer them up. J-1 was mad when J-2 came back. She left, dumped all the responsibility to him, and then comes back?? then, she says that she wants to take the kids, and MOVE to UTAH WITH THEM. leaving J-1 alone. Obviously, J-1 is not happy. Later, my parents, B-1 and B-2, come and talk to them. they work something out, where they move out of the house every other week, and take care of the kids in shifts. After my parents leave, My youngest cousin, the 11 yr old, asks why J-2 left him alone. She responds:

¨Well, if J-1 hadnt-¨

¨Stop. not in front of the kids.¨ (J-1 says this)

by this point, little cousin is crying.

Then, J-2 decides that she gets the first shift with the kids, and J-1 has to move to my house for the week. The oldest cousin, I´ll call her gus, (psych thing. nickname, dont ask.) tells me that J-2 has not been there. she has been comforting the littlest cousin, but ignoring the other two, not making dinner, and basicallhy just not being there. Gus said that she saw J-1 more than J-2, even when J-2 was living IN HER HOUSE. I am frankly really mad at J-2. She used to be so nice. she made my birthday cake for me and everything. I dont get any say in any of this, and i am terrified of my cousins leaving because they are my best friends in the world.

And i mean, they couldn´t wait three more weeks till christmas was over?? REALLY? I am not going to be there for them either, because my family is going to a family reunion this christmas. We have a disney cruise booked for next year too, and I have no idea how that is going to work if J-1 and J-2 cant be in the same HOUSE, let alone cruise room bunk beds.

 

Seeing this late because reasons, but... holy crap what even is this

You have every right to be mad at J2, she really seems horrible

It's always horrible when people get mad at each other for stupid reasons and they end up having everyone else pay for it

*hugs*

[OOKLA_the LIV She/They/Lesbian/hungry]

On 12/4/2024 at 6:36 PM, Ookla the Dragonslayer said:

Sorry.

*hug*

(Do you ever call Gus Burton? Or Guster? I’ve heard it both ways.)

oh my gosh yes

and also Magic Head

and Super Sniffer

and the Wizard

[Existential]

*sigh* I didn't wanna come back here.

 

@Ookla the Inconclusive knows pretty much all of this already.

here we go guys.

I can't sleep. Gonna be honest, I can't really eat either. My anxiety is just flaring, knowing I'm getting closer and closer to being on my own. Among other things, I just want a way to output all this. I wanna feel normal. I wanna make it so people don't have to worry about me. I keep slipping up, I keep hurting myself (unintentionally) because my lack of sleep makes me tipsy confusable and uncoordinate. I wanna be the person that can help others, not the one who needs to be helped, yk? I just don't know how to deal with it. I keep putting it on other people (glass mostly, sorry again) and I'm sick of it. I don't wanna put my problems on other peoples shoulders. And now, one of the things I love, is crumbling to bits. My schools tech crew. my coworkers, my friends. all either ready to pull a gun, hate and yell at each other, or just quit. lately, its been quit. We've lost almost all of our leadership, some of my closest friends, and for whatever reason I feel kinda like It's my fault, like I was supposed to be the glue that held it together. I just want to have everything be ok. I want to be able to talk and see a specific person like a normal human, but there is someone that constantly causes problems with that case. 

 

Sorry this is out of the blue. I needed to rant and get this out. 

 

Thanks for reading

[TwinStorm He/Him]

6 minutes ago, Ookla the Nullified said:

*sigh* I didn't wanna come back here.

 

@Ookla the Inconclusive knows pretty much all of this already.

here we go guys.

I can't sleep. Gonna be honest, I can't really eat either. My anxiety is just flaring, knowing I'm getting closer and closer to being on my own. Among other things, I just want a way to output all this. I wanna feel normal. I wanna make it so people don't have to worry about me. I keep slipping up, I keep hurting myself (unintentionally) because my lack of sleep makes me tipsy confusable and uncoordinate. I wanna be the person that can help others, not the one who needs to be helped, yk? I just don't know how to deal with it. I keep putting it on other people (glass mostly, sorry again) and I'm sick of it. I don't wanna put my problems on other peoples shoulders. And now, one of the things I love, is crumbling to bits. My schools tech crew. my coworkers, my friends. all either ready to pull a gun, hate and yell at each other, or just quit. lately, its been quit. We've lost almost all of our leadership, some of my closest friends, and for whatever reason I feel kinda like It's my fault, like I was supposed to be the glue that held it together. I just want to have everything be ok. I want to be able to talk and see a specific person like a normal human, but there is someone that constantly causes problems with that case. 

 

Sorry this is out of the blue. I needed to rant and get this out. 

 

Thanks for reading

*hugs*

I'm feeling the same way about a lot of things you said rn, if you wanna talk abt it my PMs are always open.

[Existential]

1 minute ago, Ookla the Irreplaceable said:

*hugs*

I'm feeling the same way about a lot of things you said rn, if you wanna talk abt it my PMs are always open.

thanks, sending hugs to you too

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

12 hours ago, Ookla the Nullified said:

*sigh* I didn't wanna come back here.

 

@Ookla the Inconclusive knows pretty much all of this already.

here we go guys.

I can't sleep. Gonna be honest, I can't really eat either. My anxiety is just flaring, knowing I'm getting closer and closer to being on my own. Among other things, I just want a way to output all this. I wanna feel normal. I wanna make it so people don't have to worry about me. I keep slipping up, I keep hurting myself (unintentionally) because my lack of sleep makes me tipsy confusable and uncoordinate. I wanna be the person that can help others, not the one who needs to be helped, yk? I just don't know how to deal with it. I keep putting it on other people (glass mostly, sorry again) and I'm sick of it. I don't wanna put my problems on other peoples shoulders. And now, one of the things I love, is crumbling to bits. My schools tech crew. my coworkers, my friends. all either ready to pull a gun, hate and yell at each other, or just quit. lately, its been quit. We've lost almost all of our leadership, some of my closest friends, and for whatever reason I feel kinda like It's my fault, like I was supposed to be the glue that held it together. I just want to have everything be ok. I want to be able to talk and see a specific person like a normal human, but there is someone that constantly causes problems with that case. 

 

Sorry this is out of the blue. I needed to rant and get this out. 

 

Thanks for reading

*hugs hugs hugs*

I'm so sorry. That sounds awful. 

*hugs more*

[Vyzkel He/Him]

12 hours ago, Ookla the Nullified said:

*sigh* I didn't wanna come back here.

 

@Ookla the Inconclusive knows pretty much all of this already.

here we go guys.

I can't sleep. Gonna be honest, I can't really eat either. My anxiety is just flaring, knowing I'm getting closer and closer to being on my own. Among other things, I just want a way to output all this. I wanna feel normal. I wanna make it so people don't have to worry about me. I keep slipping up, I keep hurting myself (unintentionally) because my lack of sleep makes me tipsy confusable and uncoordinate. I wanna be the person that can help others, not the one who needs to be helped, yk? I just don't know how to deal with it. I keep putting it on other people (glass mostly, sorry again) and I'm sick of it. I don't wanna put my problems on other peoples shoulders. And now, one of the things I love, is crumbling to bits. My schools tech crew. my coworkers, my friends. all either ready to pull a gun, hate and yell at each other, or just quit. lately, its been quit. We've lost almost all of our leadership, some of my closest friends, and for whatever reason I feel kinda like It's my fault, like I was supposed to be the glue that held it together. I just want to have everything be ok. I want to be able to talk and see a specific person like a normal human, but there is someone that constantly causes problems with that case. 

 

Sorry this is out of the blue. I needed to rant and get this out. 

 

Thanks for reading

*hugs*

I just read this, and my advice is meditation, it has really helped me with my anxiety so if you want to try that feel free to.

[Existential]

5 hours ago, oOklA thE shInyYyy said:

*hugs hugs hugs*

I'm so sorry. That sounds awful. 

*hugs more*

 

5 hours ago, Ookla the Invyzable said:

*hugs*

I just read this, and my advice is meditation, it has really helped me with my anxiety so if you want to try that feel free to.

Thanks, guys.

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

(spoilered for length)

Spoiler

heyyyyyy guysssss

so things have been kinda rough the past five years . . .

and every once in a while it just gets really bad.

so @Ookla the Nullified invited me to go to a little get together-activity thing tomorrow at the place where he works (and he already know most of this anyway)

but everything I want to do has to go through my mom (because of course [*sigh*])

so for the past few days i've been asking her and asking her about it and she wouldn't give me a freaking definitive answer.

then today he really needed to know because his boss was getting a headcount for tomorrow

so I went and talked to her

AND AFTER HALF AN HOUR OF REPEATING THE SAME QUESTION

she finally gave me an answer-

and that answer was no.

now, that by itself doesn't bother me too much; her saying no is nothing new (although it's still sad)

it was the why that made me really sad.

Apparently, she thinks that "you're not responsible enough to do things you want anymore." (literally her words; i'm so freaking mad)

like I'm sorry that my actually literally perfect grades aren't good enough for you

or the fact that I do my best to accomplish whatever it is you tell me to do

or that I never talk back like ALL my siblings

or that I always try to be as respectful as possible and always be as grateful for the things you provide me with and make sure to tell you that

BUT NO

THE REASON WHY SHE DOESN'T THINK I'M RESPONSIBLE

IS BECAUSE I'M SO DEPRESSED IN THE MORNINGS THAT I CAN'T EVEN GET OUT OF BED WHEN MY ALARM GOES OFF

AND SO I'VE BEEN LATE TO SCHOOL EVERY DAY FOR THE PAST THREE WEEKS

AND ALL SHE'S DONE TO "HELP" IS TELL ME HOW DISAPPOINTED SHE IS IN ME FOR NOT GETTING UP ON TIME

WHICH MAKES IT WORSE

*sigh*

so yeah

and she hasn't ever really cared about my mental health and won't listen to me if I try to talk to her about something I don't like that she's doing (she only ever listened once. ONCE.)

she treats my sister the same way, and my sister's mental health has been majorly declining the past two years because of it (she got pulled out of school against her will and is now homeschooled and she hates it [and also has really bad anxiety and depression and all the things because our mom is very overbearing and doesn't seem to have a sense of privacy {and also-also is literally the most extroverted person i've ever met and isn't allowed to see or talk to her friends which just absolutely destroyed her |she saw some of them a few months ago and apparently they literally thought she had died *she recently has been going to seminary which hasn't helped because no one knows her and they're treating her weird and she doesn't have any other opportunity to get to know people -hugs for her would be appreciated too-*|}])

I can't wait to leave for college. my sister's been begging me to take her with me (we both know I can't, but y'know).

so yeah

i've been in tears for the past while because of everything.

Spoiler

I swear i'm not making this up @Ookla the Nullified can attest

 

thanks for reading

advice or help would be greatly appreciated.

um . . .

yeah

help

Edited December 15, 2024 by Ookla the Inconclusive

[+Slowswift]

I'm afraid all I can offer right now are hugs and prayers. *hugs*

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

1 hour ago, Ookla the Inconclusive said:

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  Reveal hidden contents

heyyyyyy guysssss

so things have been kinda rough the past five years . . .

and every once in a while it just gets really bad.

so @Ookla the Nullified invited me to go to a little get together-activity thing tomorrow at the place where he works (and he already know most of this anyway)

but everything I want to do has to go through my mom (because of course [*sigh*])

so for the past few days i've been asking her and asking her about it and she wouldn't give me a freaking definitive answer.

then today he really needed to know because his boss was getting a headcount for tomorrow

so I went and talked to her

AND AFTER HALF AN HOUR OF REPEATING THE SAME QUESTION

she finally gave me an answer-

and that answer was no.

now, that by itself doesn't bother me too much; her saying no is nothing new (although it's still sad)

it was the why that made me really sad.

Apparently, she thinks that "you're not responsible enough to do things you want anymore." (literally her words; i'm so freaking mad)

like I'm sorry that my actually literally perfect grades aren't good enough for you

or the fact that I do my best to accomplish whatever it is you tell me to do

or that I never talk back like ALL my siblings

or that I always try to be as respectful as possible and always be as grateful for the things you provide me with and make sure to tell you that

BUT NO

THE REASON WHY SHE DOESN'T THINK I'M RESPONSIBLE

IS BECAUSE I'M SO DEPRESSED IN THE MORNINGS THAT I CAN'T EVEN GET OUT OF BED WHEN MY ALARM GOES OFF

AND SO I'VE BEEN LATE TO SCHOOL EVERY DAY FOR THE PAST THREE WEEKS

AND ALL SHE'S DONE TO "HELP" IS TELL ME HOW DISAPPOINTED SHE IS IN ME FOR NOT GETTING UP ON TIME

WHICH MAKES IT WORSE

*sigh*

so yeah

and she hasn't ever really cared about my mental health and won't listen to me if I try to talk to her about something I don't like that she's doing (she only ever listened once. ONCE.)

she treats my sister the same way, and my sister's mental health has been majorly declining the past two years because of it (she got pulled out of school against her will and is now homeschooled and she hates it [and also has really bad anxiety and depression and all the things because our mom is very overbearing and doesn't seem to have a sense of privacy {and also-also is literally the most extroverted person i've ever met and isn't allowed to see or talk to her friends which just absolutely destroyed her |she saw some of them a few months ago and apparently they literally thought she had died *she recently has been going to seminary which hasn't helped because no one knows her and they're treating her weird and she doesn't have any other opportunity to get to know people -hugs for her would be appreciated too-*|}])

I can't wait to leave for college. my sister's been begging me to take her with me (we both know I can't, but y'know).

so yeah

i've been in tears for the past while because of everything.

  Reveal hidden contents

I swear i'm not making this up @Ookla the Nullified can attest

 

thanks for reading

advice or help would be greatly appreciated.

um . . .

yeah

help

*hug* 

Ill DM you 

[The Wandering Wizard he/him]

1 hour ago, Ookla the Inconclusive said:

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heyyyyyy guysssss

so things have been kinda rough the past five years . . .

and every once in a while it just gets really bad.

so @Ookla the Nullified invited me to go to a little get together-activity thing tomorrow at the place where he works (and he already know most of this anyway)

but everything I want to do has to go through my mom (because of course [*sigh*])

so for the past few days i've been asking her and asking her about it and she wouldn't give me a freaking definitive answer.

then today he really needed to know because his boss was getting a headcount for tomorrow

so I went and talked to her

AND AFTER HALF AN HOUR OF REPEATING THE SAME QUESTION

she finally gave me an answer-

and that answer was no.

now, that by itself doesn't bother me too much; her saying no is nothing new (although it's still sad)

it was the why that made me really sad.

Apparently, she thinks that "you're not responsible enough to do things you want anymore." (literally her words; i'm so freaking mad)

like I'm sorry that my actually literally perfect grades aren't good enough for you

or the fact that I do my best to accomplish whatever it is you tell me to do

or that I never talk back like ALL my siblings

or that I always try to be as respectful as possible and always be as grateful for the things you provide me with and make sure to tell you that

BUT NO

THE REASON WHY SHE DOESN'T THINK I'M RESPONSIBLE

IS BECAUSE I'M SO DEPRESSED IN THE MORNINGS THAT I CAN'T EVEN GET OUT OF BED WHEN MY ALARM GOES OFF

AND SO I'VE BEEN LATE TO SCHOOL EVERY DAY FOR THE PAST THREE WEEKS

AND ALL SHE'S DONE TO "HELP" IS TELL ME HOW DISAPPOINTED SHE IS IN ME FOR NOT GETTING UP ON TIME

WHICH MAKES IT WORSE

*sigh*

so yeah

and she hasn't ever really cared about my mental health and won't listen to me if I try to talk to her about something I don't like that she's doing (she only ever listened once. ONCE.)

she treats my sister the same way, and my sister's mental health has been majorly declining the past two years because of it (she got pulled out of school against her will and is now homeschooled and she hates it [and also has really bad anxiety and depression and all the things because our mom is very overbearing and doesn't seem to have a sense of privacy {and also-also is literally the most extroverted person i've ever met and isn't allowed to see or talk to her friends which just absolutely destroyed her |she saw some of them a few months ago and apparently they literally thought she had died *she recently has been going to seminary which hasn't helped because no one knows her and they're treating her weird and she doesn't have any other opportunity to get to know people -hugs for her would be appreciated too-*|}])

I can't wait to leave for college. my sister's been begging me to take her with me (we both know I can't, but y'know).

so yeah

i've been in tears for the past while because of everything.

  Reveal hidden contents

I swear i'm not making this up @Ookla the Nullified can attest

 

thanks for reading

advice or help would be greatly appreciated.

um . . .

yeah

help

 

20 hours ago, Ookla the Nullified said:

*sigh* I didn't wanna come back here.

 

@Ookla the Inconclusive knows pretty much all of this already.

here we go guys.

I can't sleep. Gonna be honest, I can't really eat either. My anxiety is just flaring, knowing I'm getting closer and closer to being on my own. Among other things, I just want a way to output all this. I wanna feel normal. I wanna make it so people don't have to worry about me. I keep slipping up, I keep hurting myself (unintentionally) because my lack of sleep makes me tipsy confusable and uncoordinate. I wanna be the person that can help others, not the one who needs to be helped, yk? I just don't know how to deal with it. I keep putting it on other people (glass mostly, sorry again) and I'm sick of it. I don't wanna put my problems on other peoples shoulders. And now, one of the things I love, is crumbling to bits. My schools tech crew. my coworkers, my friends. all either ready to pull a gun, hate and yell at each other, or just quit. lately, its been quit. We've lost almost all of our leadership, some of my closest friends, and for whatever reason I feel kinda like It's my fault, like I was supposed to be the glue that held it together. I just want to have everything be ok. I want to be able to talk and see a specific person like a normal human, but there is someone that constantly causes problems with that case. 

 

Sorry this is out of the blue. I needed to rant and get this out. 

 

Thanks for reading

*massive massive hugs for the both of you two *

I don't have any answers just many hugs and a caring heart.

[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

On 12/15/2024 at 5:00 AM, Ookla the Nullified said:

*sigh* I didn't wanna come back here.

 

@Ookla the Inconclusive knows pretty much all of this already.

here we go guys.

I can't sleep. Gonna be honest, I can't really eat either. My anxiety is just flaring, knowing I'm getting closer and closer to being on my own. Among other things, I just want a way to output all this. I wanna feel normal. I wanna make it so people don't have to worry about me. I keep slipping up, I keep hurting myself (unintentionally) because my lack of sleep makes me tipsy confusable and uncoordinate. I wanna be the person that can help others, not the one who needs to be helped, yk? I just don't know how to deal with it. I keep putting it on other people (glass mostly, sorry again) and I'm sick of it. I don't wanna put my problems on other peoples shoulders. And now, one of the things I love, is crumbling to bits. My schools tech crew. my coworkers, my friends. all either ready to pull a gun, hate and yell at each other, or just quit. lately, its been quit. We've lost almost all of our leadership, some of my closest friends, and for whatever reason I feel kinda like It's my fault, like I was supposed to be the glue that held it together. I just want to have everything be ok. I want to be able to talk and see a specific person like a normal human, but there is someone that constantly causes problems with that case. 

 

Sorry this is out of the blue. I needed to rant and get this out. 

 

Thanks for reading

 

9 hours ago, Ookla the Inconclusive said:

(spoilered for length)

  Reveal hidden contents

heyyyyyy guysssss

so things have been kinda rough the past five years . . .

and every once in a while it just gets really bad.

so @Ookla the Nullified invited me to go to a little get together-activity thing tomorrow at the place where he works (and he already know most of this anyway)

but everything I want to do has to go through my mom (because of course [*sigh*])

so for the past few days i've been asking her and asking her about it and she wouldn't give me a freaking definitive answer.

then today he really needed to know because his boss was getting a headcount for tomorrow

so I went and talked to her

AND AFTER HALF AN HOUR OF REPEATING THE SAME QUESTION

she finally gave me an answer-

and that answer was no.

now, that by itself doesn't bother me too much; her saying no is nothing new (although it's still sad)

it was the why that made me really sad.

Apparently, she thinks that "you're not responsible enough to do things you want anymore." (literally her words; i'm so freaking mad)

like I'm sorry that my actually literally perfect grades aren't good enough for you

or the fact that I do my best to accomplish whatever it is you tell me to do

or that I never talk back like ALL my siblings

or that I always try to be as respectful as possible and always be as grateful for the things you provide me with and make sure to tell you that

BUT NO

THE REASON WHY SHE DOESN'T THINK I'M RESPONSIBLE

IS BECAUSE I'M SO DEPRESSED IN THE MORNINGS THAT I CAN'T EVEN GET OUT OF BED WHEN MY ALARM GOES OFF

AND SO I'VE BEEN LATE TO SCHOOL EVERY DAY FOR THE PAST THREE WEEKS

AND ALL SHE'S DONE TO "HELP" IS TELL ME HOW DISAPPOINTED SHE IS IN ME FOR NOT GETTING UP ON TIME

WHICH MAKES IT WORSE

*sigh*

so yeah

and she hasn't ever really cared about my mental health and won't listen to me if I try to talk to her about something I don't like that she's doing (she only ever listened once. ONCE.)

she treats my sister the same way, and my sister's mental health has been majorly declining the past two years because of it (she got pulled out of school against her will and is now homeschooled and she hates it [and also has really bad anxiety and depression and all the things because our mom is very overbearing and doesn't seem to have a sense of privacy {and also-also is literally the most extroverted person i've ever met and isn't allowed to see or talk to her friends which just absolutely destroyed her |she saw some of them a few months ago and apparently they literally thought she had died *she recently has been going to seminary which hasn't helped because no one knows her and they're treating her weird and she doesn't have any other opportunity to get to know people -hugs for her would be appreciated too-*|}])

I can't wait to leave for college. my sister's been begging me to take her with me (we both know I can't, but y'know).

so yeah

i've been in tears for the past while because of everything.

  Reveal hidden contents

I swear i'm not making this up @Ookla the Nullified can attest

 

thanks for reading

advice or help would be greatly appreciated.

um . . .

yeah

help

*hugs both of you tight and long*

I wish I knew how to make things better for you. I wish it so much.

Edited December 16, 2024 by Ookla the Living