Mental health club!

[Verdance he/him]

2 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

i kinda agree maybe even if what I'm thinking is different 

it has actually made me feel so much better about myself to shift blame of all my issues or potential issues to other things that I can't help or control. And by telling myself that other people go through it too

Good to hear! Just make sure you’re not being a jerk and take responsibility for your decisions when you need to. 

[Usseewa]

2 minutes ago, Verdance said:

Good to hear! Just make sure you’re not being a jerk and take responsibility for your decisions when you need to. 

yeah ik ik........

sigh

what do i do with my life plz tell me

[Aeoryi she/her]

13 minutes ago, Honors cognitive shadow said:

Izzy no fight Izzy pat on head

*Squishes*

[Usseewa]

4 minutes ago, Aeoryi said:

*Squishes*

ooh squish me pls

i wanna feel my bones break

[Verdance he/him]

9 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

yeah ik ik........

sigh

what do i do with my life plz tell me

Well one good life decision is, and i quote by the great philosopher acloudyskye

”never kill yourself”

also, an even greater philosopher, me, once saith,

”dont ask the internet for major life advice lmao”

truly profound. 

[Usseewa]

1 minute ago, Verdance said:

Well one good life decision is, and i quote by the great philosopher acloudyskye

”never kill yourself”

also, an even greater philosopher, me, once saith,

”dont ask the internet for major life advice lmao”

truly profound. 

ok then i won't listen to what u said

now...

damnit i don't have a knife with me!!!

[Verdance he/him]

Just now, Usseewa said:

ok then i won't listen to what u said

now...

damnit i don't have a knife with me!!!

Okey well ‘never kill yourself’ isnt major life advice it just common sense

also dont joke about that not funny

[Usseewa]

Just now, Verdance said:

Okey well ‘never kill yourself’ isnt major life advice it just common sense

also dont joke about that not funny

fine sorry

i won't joke about it

...

(Implied SH and stuff)

(also SH jokes)

Spoiler

Ok srry but:

"Harsh words won't solve problems, action will."

me: "okay!"

 

i saw knives at a store and wanted to get one

i also saw sharp stuff at a different store and picked them up and went stab stab motions in the air towards myself and also touched the blade and i don't think it was that sharb

 

OOH OOOH OOH

i should stay up all night

[CoderDrag0n8 He/They]

I have long been intimidated by this thread, as I am pretty sure many of the people here hate me, and felt out of place within all of the chaos going on here

But I really, truly, am not okay.

[Usseewa]

Just now, CoderDrag0n8 said:

I have long been intimidated by this thread, as I am pretty sure many of the people here hate me, and felt out of place within all of the chaos going on here

But I really, truly, am not okay.

You're welcome here! Wanna talk about what anything?

[Aeoryi she/her]

1 minute ago, CoderDrag0n8 said:

I have long been intimidated by this thread, as I am pretty sure many of the people here hate me, and felt out of place within all of the chaos going on here

But I really, truly, am not okay.

 

If I may ask, what in particular are you intimidated by? 

[Verdance he/him]

21 minutes ago, CoderDrag0n8 said:

I have long been intimidated by this thread, as I am pretty sure many of the people here hate me, and felt out of place within all of the chaos going on here

But I really, truly, am not okay.

What do you mean people here hate you

You’re very welcome here!

do you want to talk about it?

[Denissimo He/him]

6 hours ago, CoderDrag0n8 said:

I have long been intimidated by this thread, as I am pretty sure many of the people here hate me, and felt out of place within all of the chaos going on here

But I really, truly, am not okay.

Now would you look at that. Here is your proof that no one here "hate hate"'s you.

6 hours ago, Verdance said:

What do you mean people here hate you

You’re very welcome here!

do you want to talk about it?

 

6 hours ago, Aeoryi said:

 

If I may ask, what in particular are you intimidated by? 

 

6 hours ago, Usseewa said:

You're welcome here! Wanna talk about what anything?

Hating is senseless, anyways. Mostly.

I think a common fear people have regarding this thread, is that they are "interrupting something", whether it be other people's problems or somehow seeking attention.
Well, thats what all are doing here, isn't it? Seeking attention. Seeking understanding. There is no problem with this.
I doubt anyone has any problem with someone jumping in with worries or issues of their own. 
There should never be a schedule for when you matter. Feel free to ask for help any time.

[Adonalsium Will Return He/him]

9 hours ago, CoderDrag0n8 said:

I have long been intimidated by this thread, as I am pretty sure many of the people here hate me, and felt out of place within all of the chaos going on here

But I really, truly, am not okay.

First: What do you mean, hate you? 

Second: Welcome! What variety of not okay are you?

[SpartanBrigade He/Him]

13 hours ago, CoderDrag0n8 said:

I have long been intimidated by this thread, as I am pretty sure many of the people here hate me, and felt out of place within all of the chaos going on here

But I really, truly, am not okay.

*hugs* 

Talk to us man

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

13 hours ago, CoderDrag0n8 said:

I have long been intimidated by this thread, as I am pretty sure many of the people here hate me, and felt out of place within all of the chaos going on here

But I really, truly, am not okay.

*huggg*

[Ink and Embers Any pronouns]

15 hours ago, CoderDrag0n8 said:

I have long been intimidated by this thread, as I am pretty sure many of the people here hate me, and felt out of place within all of the chaos going on here

But I really, truly, am not okay.

*hugs so much*

You are always welcome here!

[Hmmm lies she/her]

16 hours ago, CoderDrag0n8 said:

I have long been intimidated by this thread, as I am pretty sure many of the people here hate me, and felt out of place within all of the chaos going on here

But I really, truly, am not okay.

Please don't feel intimidated. This thread is for all mental health, and there's no reason you should feel like you can't post here. Please, talk about it.

[CoderDrag0n8 He/They]

17 hours ago, Usseewa said:

You're welcome here! Wanna talk about what anything?

Thanks!

17 hours ago, Aeoryi said:

 

If I may ask, what in particular are you intimidated by? 

uhhhh

kinda the people

who i kinda thought hated me from other places

but now i realize don't really?

also i am very socially nervous so that too

17 hours ago, Verdance said:

What do you mean people here hate you

You’re very welcome here!

do you want to talk about it?

Thanks

10 hours ago, Denissimo said:

Now would you look at that. Here is your proof that no one here "hate hate"'s you.

 

 

Hating is senseless, anyways. Mostly.

I think a common fear people have regarding this thread, is that they are "interrupting something", whether it be other people's problems or somehow seeking attention.
Well, thats what all are doing here, isn't it? Seeking attention. Seeking understanding. There is no problem with this.
I doubt anyone has any problem with someone jumping in with worries or issues of their own. 
There should never be a schedule for when you matter. Feel free to ask for help any time.

That makes a lot of sense, thanks

8 hours ago, Adonalsium Will Return said:

First: What do you mean, hate you? 

Second: Welcome! What variety of not okay are you?

Well I guess sometimes I'll interact with people and think they might hate me but i guess I was reading a bit too much into that.

4 hours ago, SpartanBrigade said:

*hugs* 

Talk to us man

3 hours ago, Honors cognitive shadow said:

*huggg*

2 hours ago, Ink and Embers said:

*hugs so much*

You are always welcome here!

1 hour ago, Hmmm lies said:

Please don't feel intimidated. This thread is for all mental health, and there's no reason you should feel like you can't post here. Please, talk about it.

Thanks guys *hugs*

Well basically I haven't been doing so good

I have a phone addiction and I think its been getting a lot worse

Im pretty sure I was depressed and almost certain i hate/hated myself

because I wasn't doing my schoolwork sometimes

And it doesn't help that I am taking 2 AP classes with AP Test season coming up soon

And so I would get overwhelmed with how much stuff I had to do

And I would end up reading webtoons on my phone from getting home from school to dinner

And whenever I spent time on my phone instead of doing schoolwork, i would beat myself up about it, but that still wouldn't be enough to get me to do my schoolwork.

And my friends aren't that great with emotions or communication, but I would have fun playing minecraft with them

But I couldn't even do that because I was feeling to guilty about my school work

And I only really recently recognized this

And I didn't really have anyone to turn to

And I don't know how to study

And I also can't delete webtoon because there are a bunch of webtoons I am genuinely dedicated to seeing how they end and I wouldn't want to permanently cut myself off from the books

But how do I know if that's just the addiction speaking and it also seems super logical and I don't really know anymore

[Hmmm lies she/her]

8 minutes ago, CoderDrag0n8 said:

Thanks!

uhhhh

kinda the people

who i kinda thought hated me from other places

but now i realize don't really?

also i am very socially nervous so that too

Thanks

That makes a lot of sense, thanks

Well I guess sometimes I'll interact with people and think they might hate me but i guess I was reading a bit too much into that.

Thanks guys *hugs*

Well basically I haven't been doing so good

I have a phone addiction and I think its been getting a lot worse

Im pretty sure I was depressed and almost certain i hate/hated myself

because I wasn't doing my schoolwork sometimes

And it doesn't help that I am taking 2 AP classes with AP Test season coming up soon

And so I would get overwhelmed with how much stuff I had to do

And I would end up reading webtoons on my phone from getting home from school to dinner

And whenever I spent time on my phone instead of doing schoolwork, i would beat myself up about it, but that still wouldn't be enough to get me to do my schoolwork.

And my friends aren't that great with emotions or communication, but I would have fun playing minecraft with them

But I couldn't even do that because I was feeling to guilty about my school work

And I only really recently recognized this

And I didn't really have anyone to turn to

And I don't know how to study

And I also can't delete webtoon because there are a bunch of webtoons I am genuinely dedicated to seeing how they end and I wouldn't want to permanently cut myself off from the books

But how do I know if that's just the addiction speaking and it also seems super logical and I don't really know anymore

Sounds rough. I've felt similar, though not nearly as bad as that.

I'm probably not the best person to help with this, but I don't think you should delete webtoon. Instead, I'd try and put some kind of limit on your phone, there should be apps/settings to help limit yourself.

I might be able to help a little more with social stuff then academic stuff, if you want.

[Rynturning_Light She/Her]

Something that's been on my mind recently

Spoiler for length (kinda)

Spoiler

I find it concerning how easily I lie about my wellbeing. I say I’m okay and people believe it when I know that I’m as far from okay as I could be. I guess that’s what comes from masking anxiety for years and, more recently, depression. But I’m really good at those lies. For basically my entire conscious life I’ve been masking my anxiety. It was only until recently when the mental dam broke and things started slipping that my parents told me “we think your anxiety is a lot worse than we previously thought.” Anxiety runs in my family. It’s run from my mother to my brother and now I’m the next unstable rung on the ladder.

Ironically, it's hit me the hardest when it was previously assumed I was one of the "put together" members of the family

Anyway, it’s not like I try to lie. It’s just natural. I handle things on my own, it’s how I’ve always done things. So, people ask and immediately it’s “I’m okay,” followed by a string of relevant excuses to explain away my depressed state or self-sabotaging behaviors.

One of my more common excuses was simply “I’m tired.” My parents have realized that most of the time that’s not true, and when they challenged me on it I found new excuses for it. Excuses that sound like they could be the core issue, or could be what’s really bothering me. Most of the time they’re things with easy fixes. I think I do that to give all of us hope that I’m actually okay.

Sometimes I don’t even realize I did it. I think I’m being honest and then a little later I realize what I had told people was a complete and utter lie. I’ve done this more times than I’d like to admit. Most of the people close to me think I’m okay. The ones who are clued in somewhat think it’s only my anxiety and general worry.

Honestly, I don’t think I’m gonna stop. At least, not soon. It would take too much effort, and my mental health and healing is already shaky at best. I just, I don’t know, want people to know? I’m not okay, I haven’t been for a while. All the explanations I come up with don’t fix that, nor do the promises that I’m trying, ‘cause a lot of the time, I’m not.

 

[CoderDrag0n8 He/They]

9 minutes ago, Rynturning_Light said:

Something that's been on my mind recently

Spoiler for length (kinda)

  Hide contents

I find it concerning how easily I lie about my wellbeing. I say I’m okay and people believe it when I know that I’m as far from okay as I could be. I guess that’s what comes from masking anxiety for years and, more recently, depression. But I’m really good at those lies. For basically my entire conscious life I’ve been masking my anxiety. It was only until recently when the mental dam broke and things started slipping that my parents told me “we think your anxiety is a lot worse than we previously thought.” Anxiety runs in my family. It’s run from my mother to my brother and now I’m the next unstable rung on the ladder.

Ironically, it's hit me the hardest when it was previously assumed I was one of the "put together" members of the family

Anyway, it’s not like I try to lie. It’s just natural. I handle things on my own, it’s how I’ve always done things. So, people ask and immediately it’s “I’m okay,” followed by a string of relevant excuses to explain away my depressed state or self-sabotaging behaviors.

One of my more common excuses was simply “I’m tired.” My parents have realized that most of the time that’s not true, and when they challenged me on it I found new excuses for it. Excuses that sound like they could be the core issue, or could be what’s really bothering me. Most of the time they’re things with easy fixes. I think I do that to give all of us hope that I’m actually okay.

Sometimes I don’t even realize I did it. I think I’m being honest and then a little later I realize what I had told people was a complete and utter lie. I’ve done this more times than I’d like to admit. Most of the people close to me think I’m okay. The ones who are clued in somewhat think it’s only my anxiety and general worry.

Honestly, I don’t think I’m gonna stop. At least, not soon. It would take too much effort, and my mental health and healing is already shaky at best. I just, I don’t know, want people to know? I’m not okay, I haven’t been for a while. All the explanations I come up with don’t fix that, nor do the promises that I’m trying, ‘cause a lot of the time, I’m not.

 

*hugs*

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

1 hour ago, Rynturning_Light said:

Something that's been on my mind recently

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I find it concerning how easily I lie about my wellbeing. I say I’m okay and people believe it when I know that I’m as far from okay as I could be. I guess that’s what comes from masking anxiety for years and, more recently, depression. But I’m really good at those lies. For basically my entire conscious life I’ve been masking my anxiety. It was only until recently when the mental dam broke and things started slipping that my parents told me “we think your anxiety is a lot worse than we previously thought.” Anxiety runs in my family. It’s run from my mother to my brother and now I’m the next unstable rung on the ladder.

Ironically, it's hit me the hardest when it was previously assumed I was one of the "put together" members of the family

Anyway, it’s not like I try to lie. It’s just natural. I handle things on my own, it’s how I’ve always done things. So, people ask and immediately it’s “I’m okay,” followed by a string of relevant excuses to explain away my depressed state or self-sabotaging behaviors.

One of my more common excuses was simply “I’m tired.” My parents have realized that most of the time that’s not true, and when they challenged me on it I found new excuses for it. Excuses that sound like they could be the core issue, or could be what’s really bothering me. Most of the time they’re things with easy fixes. I think I do that to give all of us hope that I’m actually okay.

Sometimes I don’t even realize I did it. I think I’m being honest and then a little later I realize what I had told people was a complete and utter lie. I’ve done this more times than I’d like to admit. Most of the people close to me think I’m okay. The ones who are clued in somewhat think it’s only my anxiety and general worry.

Honestly, I don’t think I’m gonna stop. At least, not soon. It would take too much effort, and my mental health and healing is already shaky at best. I just, I don’t know, want people to know? I’m not okay, I haven’t been for a while. All the explanations I come up with don’t fix that, nor do the promises that I’m trying, ‘cause a lot of the time, I’m not.

 

*Hugs*

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

1 hour ago, Rynturning_Light said:

Something that's been on my mind recently

Spoiler for length (kinda)

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I find it concerning how easily I lie about my wellbeing. I say I’m okay and people believe it when I know that I’m as far from okay as I could be. I guess that’s what comes from masking anxiety for years and, more recently, depression. But I’m really good at those lies. For basically my entire conscious life I’ve been masking my anxiety. It was only until recently when the mental dam broke and things started slipping that my parents told me “we think your anxiety is a lot worse than we previously thought.” Anxiety runs in my family. It’s run from my mother to my brother and now I’m the next unstable rung on the ladder.

Ironically, it's hit me the hardest when it was previously assumed I was one of the "put together" members of the family

Anyway, it’s not like I try to lie. It’s just natural. I handle things on my own, it’s how I’ve always done things. So, people ask and immediately it’s “I’m okay,” followed by a string of relevant excuses to explain away my depressed state or self-sabotaging behaviors.

One of my more common excuses was simply “I’m tired.” My parents have realized that most of the time that’s not true, and when they challenged me on it I found new excuses for it. Excuses that sound like they could be the core issue, or could be what’s really bothering me. Most of the time they’re things with easy fixes. I think I do that to give all of us hope that I’m actually okay.

Sometimes I don’t even realize I did it. I think I’m being honest and then a little later I realize what I had told people was a complete and utter lie. I’ve done this more times than I’d like to admit. Most of the people close to me think I’m okay. The ones who are clued in somewhat think it’s only my anxiety and general worry.

Honestly, I don’t think I’m gonna stop. At least, not soon. It would take too much effort, and my mental health and healing is already shaky at best. I just, I don’t know, want people to know? I’m not okay, I haven’t been for a while. All the explanations I come up with don’t fix that, nor do the promises that I’m trying, ‘cause a lot of the time, I’m not.

 

*hugw* I get that I do it… a lot actually but yeah idk *hugggss*

[Denissimo He/him]

9 hours ago, Rynturning_Light said:

Something that's been on my mind recently

Spoiler for length (kinda)

  Hide contents

I find it concerning how easily I lie about my wellbeing. I say I’m okay and people believe it when I know that I’m as far from okay as I could be. I guess that’s what comes from masking anxiety for years and, more recently, depression. But I’m really good at those lies. For basically my entire conscious life I’ve been masking my anxiety. It was only until recently when the mental dam broke and things started slipping that my parents told me “we think your anxiety is a lot worse than we previously thought.” Anxiety runs in my family. It’s run from my mother to my brother and now I’m the next unstable rung on the ladder.

Ironically, it's hit me the hardest when it was previously assumed I was one of the "put together" members of the family

Anyway, it’s not like I try to lie. It’s just natural. I handle things on my own, it’s how I’ve always done things. So, people ask and immediately it’s “I’m okay,” followed by a string of relevant excuses to explain away my depressed state or self-sabotaging behaviors.

One of my more common excuses was simply “I’m tired.” My parents have realized that most of the time that’s not true, and when they challenged me on it I found new excuses for it. Excuses that sound like they could be the core issue, or could be what’s really bothering me. Most of the time they’re things with easy fixes. I think I do that to give all of us hope that I’m actually okay.

Sometimes I don’t even realize I did it. I think I’m being honest and then a little later I realize what I had told people was a complete and utter lie. I’ve done this more times than I’d like to admit. Most of the people close to me think I’m okay. The ones who are clued in somewhat think it’s only my anxiety and general worry.

Honestly, I don’t think I’m gonna stop. At least, not soon. It would take too much effort, and my mental health and healing is already shaky at best. I just, I don’t know, want people to know? I’m not okay, I haven’t been for a while. All the explanations I come up with don’t fix that, nor do the promises that I’m trying, ‘cause a lot of the time, I’m not.

 

Firstly, thanks for sharing. 
Second, I guess I can relate. Similar issues have appeared from, shall we say, a friend. An overly-harsh tutor was a major contributor. He never told anyone. Well, he tried a couple times, but he was a sort of guy who found it difficult to ask for help. So he ended up stammering in front of his parents a couple times, before running back into his room. He eventually went into a full panic attack. Broke down twitching and crying in a classroom in front of a bunch of failed papers. He behaved similar to your self-description before the breaking point. In fact, "I'm tired" was a common quote.

I guess what I'm trying to say, is...
um.
Perhaps going to other people is difficult. I would still advise you to do so. But nonetheless, anxiety and problems unaddressed simply coagulate. Doesn't have to be reaching out, though preferably it would be so. Simple introspection can do some true wonders. It seems you have been doing some searching already, but actively look for a solution as well.

12 hours ago, CoderDrag0n8 said:

Thanks!

uhhhh

kinda the people

who i kinda thought hated me from other places

but now i realize don't really?

also i am very socially nervous so that too

Thanks

That makes a lot of sense, thanks

Well I guess sometimes I'll interact with people and think they might hate me but i guess I was reading a bit too much into that.

Thanks guys *hugs*

Well basically I haven't been doing so good

I have a phone addiction and I think its been getting a lot worse

Im pretty sure I was depressed and almost certain i hate/hated myself

because I wasn't doing my schoolwork sometimes

And it doesn't help that I am taking 2 AP classes with AP Test season coming up soon

And so I would get overwhelmed with how much stuff I had to do

And I would end up reading webtoons on my phone from getting home from school to dinner

And whenever I spent time on my phone instead of doing schoolwork, i would beat myself up about it, but that still wouldn't be enough to get me to do my schoolwork.

And my friends aren't that great with emotions or communication, but I would have fun playing minecraft with them

But I couldn't even do that because I was feeling to guilty about my school work

And I only really recently recognized this

And I didn't really have anyone to turn to

And I don't know how to study

And I also can't delete webtoon because there are a bunch of webtoons I am genuinely dedicated to seeing how they end and I wouldn't want to permanently cut myself off from the books

But how do I know if that's just the addiction speaking and it also seems super logical and I don't really know anymore

Ah, one who feels the pain of the colourfully decieving digital realm.

I'm truly sorry friend. I legitimately am unable to help you with this. I am pretty much the same. Though not with webtoons.

As for social nervousness. Well... I direct you to a quote by Richard Feynman. 
"What do YOU care what other people think?" 
For those too preoccupied with the opinions of others. Now, I must be clear: I am not saying "Do not care about what other people think." The quote was very intentionally framed as a question.
Consider, for a moment. Perhaps some (albiet if there are any, they would be few) will be annoyed. Some will think you attention-seeking, or paranoid. Well, firstly those are inevtiably human qualities we all possess somewhat. Second, so what? You weren't rude or anything. You aren't in the wrong. As such, their opinions are their problems. Not yours.

This is known as seperation of tasks in adlerian psychology, and is aptly summarised in this heuristic by some guy named Ian Goldberg:
"Not my fault?
Not my responsibility?
Not my problem."

Separation of tasks is about recognizing that each person is responsible for their own life outcomes. Your task is how you act and what you choose, while others’ reactions, feelings, or judgments are their tasks. Building on Alfred Adler’s ideas, it’s often misunderstood as emotional distance or indifference, but it actually allows for genuine care without control. For example, you can support someone, but you don’t take ownership of whether they accept your help or change. The key point is not withdrawal, but clear boundaries that reduce unnecessary stress and resentment.

Or, as also summarised in a heuristic by popular animator and youtuber Jaiden Animations (Jaiden Ditfach),
"You are NOT responsible for anyone else's happiness!"