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A World Only I Can See

Some days I see clouds, others birds, always paired with trees. Wind and rain and sun all together to form something greater, almost another world in this one. If I could choose, I would always be there, gazing up, time passing. But life is rarely that kind. Instead, I see plain white ceiling and harsh lights, linoleum floor with the sounds of a classroom, here every day for a purpose we don’t exactly see. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind being here, but don’t see the meaning behind it. The
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Primrose

There's no content warnings for this entry.    Today I woke up at noon and ate two meals (which is good) and did some stuff and overall had a pretty good day. I did a bunch of stuff downstairs instead of hiding in my room and it felt better. Maybe not perfect, but it felt much much better. A little bit less bleak.  And I wonder, is this normal enough? Is this what it was like before?  I need more plans of things to do to look forwards to, I think. Tomorrow is an appoint
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Ramblings

Success Streak / Disconnectedness, but is there Connection?

Ok so I got two ideas and they'll be both in the same post.     Success Streak: TW: Self-harm references/metaphorical imagery   (Go to the next page if comfortable with that.)   Success Streak Ado, sometimes I hate being intelligent, funny, skilled, whatever the heck labels people embed within my skin, my flesh, to be stuck lest I cut them out. When I do one thing right that others can't, they then expect me to do it again and again later. They
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Nobody

Ok i just neeeeeddaaaaa write stuff about this ugly gross uhm wait this uncomfortable feeling i feel like a nobody and feel like i am no one, like i have no future since i have no past, and like i am not a human being or a "normal" one or functioning one capable of being one. I hat emyself so much and think i hate those around me even if i "shouldnt" but that doesnt matter because im pretty sure i deserve the hate they give (hehe....... abywone catch theat accidental reference..? *half
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Stars Asunder

A topics:suicidal-ideation Do NOT continue if you are not ready to confront those topics. This is your only warning. ###   Fate has a funny way of catching up to us.  But perhaps I've evaded it more than enough times. There's a calling to the world you experience naturally, one that makes you stay, makes you think. For some people this is goals. For others it may be their legacy.  I am very much a person who cares about legacy. I want to leave a lasting impress
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Poetry?

12 Chances

January brings hope,   false but there,  for a new self, new life, new world    February sees continuation,  lessening, but existent   Only time will tell if it is persistent    March tests dedication,  as it flickers and wanes  fighting along with the other pains    April heralds the news of change  For better or worse,  you escape the curse    May is spent pondering,  reflecting on the time gone by  Was i
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Lacking Vocabulary

It's like trying to describe a dog to someone who's never seen one and then asking them to draw it. — Clark, Backrooms   Ok so idk if that quote is accurate to what I'm gunna be sayin', and i might e messed up a few words idk but anyway.......   Sometimes i feel like I'm trying to describe something to someone in an overly-complicated roundabout way when in reality it should be or is a simple/well-known/common concept or feeling or experience, but either I am Lacking [th
Everyone's Favorite Category, MLP

My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic Minimal Watch Order: Part 1

So. I want to make MLP accesible to anyone. I've been developing a "watch order" because, like many kids shows, it is occasionally a offender that will have episodes that contribute nothing to any other episodes. Of course, the reccomended order is "begin at the beginning, and go on till you you come to the end: then stop" but i get that many people simply don't have the time. *cough* @Ascended Grubberfly *cough* So, the one i've been concocting is customizable. I'll have lists of the episo
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Anxiety (Probably?)

So uhm Ignore that forst likne   So I think I posted or wrote baout this before, at least abstractly/indirectly, but ima talk about axniety or something like that in publiccccc but in my head. so its related if any of you remeber me talkingabout the futue seeming impossible. i think its the same feeling, but i think i undeestnd it a bit more. i did a bike ride around public yesterday, and it was great. *but,* i was anxious before it cuz it felt impossible and i didnt wan
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Dizziness

No epigraph lol idk basically Happiness Pt. 2 tho   im kinda dizzy cuz i aint drank water today much yet idk and been sitting and wtcr it doesnt matter but it gives me brain fog i think and when i move a little bit in this i feel the dizziness and yeah but like i reLized when talking slightly anbout fourth of jul with people here on shard that i cant argue any or say any or have any oponions on it when suually id probly hate it for kinda no reason other than hstigng evrrything and
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Happiness

Happiness, I've been looking for you lately — The Heavy Heavy, Happiness   I gues im doing epigraphs now? That's (the hapiness quote) from a song, it just popped up in me head... but its true. and i been having finding happines, too. Im hapy now, oi fink. until i stated wroghting this, of course. now my beutral face is reitneing (returning). smile be receeding. i been baddddd lately, sad and bad and angy :3 idk nvm im happy now uwu ill try not to ruin it
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Kurayami Ch. 2 - Unnatural

Kurayami Chapter 2 - Unnatural 2026 · 07 · 04   Kurayami had tried to fit in, to be a functioning cog in the great wheel, a piece of the jigsaw puzzle that was society, but it couldn't. It felt like a piece from another puzzle that got mixed in with this one. It didn't fit, there was no place for it. Not there, anyway. Kurayami had always felt a calling to its true puzzle—which wasn't even a puzzle, as such things did not exist here and bored Kurayami anyway. It happened
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Permafrost

topics:suicidal ideation,self-harm don't read more if those topics make you uncomfortable          There's a duty of care that I feel like I must maintain, that is my calling to life. There are a few facets to this:  1. There is a duty to protect others from preventable harm, to a reasonable degree; 2. There is a duty to ensure respect to spaces I occupy; 3. There is a duty to listen to others, and avoid doing harm to others; These are very
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Everyone's Favorite Category, MLP

Why My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic is more than a kid's show

Why My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic is more than just a kid's show Yes, I know i've been annoying people with this stuff. So, i decided the solution is to convert everyone to my side! Hopefully this will answer your question, @Ascended Grubberfly. Plus, this is my blog, and i purposely kept it general so i could pettily do whatever i want* *within the code of conduct, of course. No offence is intended, either.   A) Plotlines Of course, this is often one of the most c
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Kurayami Ch. 1 - Amorphous (Intro)

Kurayami Chapter 1 - Amorphous (Intro) 2026 · 06 · 28   The moonlight glinted off Kurayami's lilac-black hair. The cool, homelike breeze flowed theough its splayed fingers and tousled its hair playfully yet insistent. Kurayami leapt from the short stone wall, open jacket billowing around it, glee surging through its veins. Kurayami's bare feet never touched the grass, however, as it became the wind.
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Story

Story: Lightchosen

*Note* This is the story I have been working on for the longest time, and the reason I haven't been posting on here for a while. It is my best story. If you want to read the rest of it, PM me! And happy 1000 views on my blog!!! *End Note*    Lightchosen Prologue The Light was gone   That was the worst thing about this Saints-Forsaken prison. Kasse couldn’t feel the light anymore. Everything was numb. At the start, it had ached, a pain that she couldn’t quell, but no
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Normal, Fear, etc.

Ado I just need to write this even if it's not all of it. I feel like I've restricted myself for many years out of fear of being abnormal or of not doing what is expected (which maybe is just the same thing?). Like, I don't know what to think sometimes or what's right or wrong WaT Like, I think I should do/say something, then think oh wait no I should do the other thing, then realize darn it I should've just done the first one or the one I wanted and Ado I hate this. And uhm...
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Bonus/Special Yuri

Yuri of the Day Discontinued - Advance Notice

Unfortunately, there will no longer be a daily yuri for the foreseeable future. It's not easy to find this all the time and well its draining and that isn't really enjoyable I have more yuri yes but like its not easy to do all the blog stuff long story short yuri is discontinued yeah   there may be yuri still though less frequently  i promise
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2026/06/12 - A Start

Summer Storm O summer storm, I hear your howls. Your cries for help that I hide from. Your tears fall and blow, Through the light, To pelt my window, alert me of your fright.   O, summer storm, your tears and cries subside. I imagine you like me—silently crying slowly in bed, Depressed and [illegible word].   O, summer storm, don't leave me now. I need your company, you soothe me, you know? I still hear your sniffles, from under yo
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