Happiness, I've been looking for you lately

— The Heavy Heavy, Happiness

I gues im doing epigraphs now? That's (the hapiness quote) from a song, it just popped up in me head...

but its true.

and i been having finding happines, too. Im hapy now, oi fink. until i stated wroghting this, of course. now my beutral face is reitneing (returning). smile be receeding.

i been baddddd lately, sad and bad and angy :3

idk nvm im happy now uwu

ill try not to ruin it

but omg am i kinda prty happy :3

thisbe a weird post

last night i was being i was happy and then i got very saddddddddd. So i distracted myself, yes. I organized my room cuz why not cuz yes. Then i went to bed instead and decided not to stay ip all night. I used to (in the past and more recently) want to stay up all night, and i even did that once. But now i have no desire to, isn't that odd? I'm just like... no ples or like no thats not fun no i dont relly want to anymore, im fine goin to slepe :3

idk i just feel happiiiiii

i mean i feel like slighly gidsy but like i dont wanna... yk do bad stuff to myself anymore, for now at least. maybe its the music and fun stuff im doing just chilling and just having fun and even with and with people, but maybe and maybe its texting/sharding, maybe its nothing, maybe its everythint or something, maybe it doesnt matter and im just happy :3

i went on a bike ride for 1-2 howurs yesterday as i alredy said like thrice (this bein the thricethird). But it was first time in a while i biked and i havnt gotten exorcise recently lately and it was nice i think and yes great it was was it.

other Factors too are present like related to therapy type stuff and actually wanting good for myself and i mean like being good and pleasant

i know i said that time a few weeks ago i felt motivation to be good and not bad and idk i felt it now feel it now, and even i know i was bad recently and very like yeah but now im feeling good again so idk ill enjoy and try to last it longer for mine and others sake cuz i unfortunately influct misery a bit umm yeah on myeslslf and others by my words so uhm yeh ...

last night sucked but i made it good by organizing as a distraction and that was coollll

i got atuff done and i also distracted :3

even tho i didnt get a ton of sleep i still got a decent amount and im fine with that, ill probably maybe get regualr sleep tonight cuz i dont wanna stay up anymore :3

why am i hapoy, why am i hapi?

will it last and is it useful and does it mean good stuf?f?

i love my life for some reason now despite hating it probably yesterdayie

so weeeeeeee

go get some outdoors time or fun times woth frends or with yourself loke isk get a cofeeeee if u drink it thats what i got a cofee im drinking

yayippe

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hopfully it doest sad (my day)