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POV: You check your email. There's a message from your show choir director in your inbox, so you open it up. It's for high school show choir auditions. You didn't know they were so soon!! A wave of panic, excitement, and almost sadness washes over you.

There are so many forms you have to fill out before auditioning. So. Many. Forms.

BUT I'M EXCITED!!!  

*sighs*

I cannot believe show choir's done. It's surreal.

But I am in LOVE with the earrings, and I'm stoked that I get to keep them forever. I'll snatch a picture of them when I get home to show them off because they're so pretty!!!!

Also... ow. It's been 26 weeks and 2 days (184 days) since my ankle sprain. My whole leg has been affected at this point, and I get weird tightness or clicking in places that there's *probably* not supposed to be tightness and clicking. Strange.

HOLY SCUDDING CHASMS, YOU CRAZIES!

I leave for a few hours and come back to 82 notifications. 

If there was anything extremely important, let me know, but...

*gets dizzy*

I WANT IN ON THE HALY PFP ACTION! I know it's kind of late since her birthday is almost over, but I still want in because she's my bestie  <333

And now I shall go prepare for the finale!!!!!! *flips insanely curly hair out of face, and then dashes off to do stage makeup because what's more fun than that*

I'm in Health Class, and we all just took the "True Colours" personality test (the free version), and what I got is scarily accurate. It matches up with my 4w1 Enneagram type, too. 

Your true color is green!

Others often describe you as extremely intelligent. You have an innate desire to do things to the best of your ability, and take pride in your work. You set the standard for everyone else at work. To you, work is truly enjoyable. Even on the weekends, you can’t stand the thought of wasting a day by doing nothing, and always try to fit as much into each day as possible.

You are also a big thinker. You enjoy talking with others about abstract, philosophical ideas. You enjoy thinking about the future and all of its possibilities. You believe that you should never stop learning, and enjoy learning new information simply for your own enjoyment. In the workplace, you are a creative “idea person” who comes up with creative and practical solutions to problems.

You are very independent. Although you enjoy spending time with others, you need your private time each day to recharge. This gives you time to process everything.

Individuals with green personalities do well in careers that allow them to apply all of the “big ideas” they have. They typically succeed in careers within higher education, science, technology development, and medicine.

Also. Today is the show choir finale. It's very very bittersweet. :(:

Random fact about me:

This is the closest thing to social media that I have. Anyone else out there not allowed to have social media? :D

But here's where it gets EVEN MORE interesting. I'm not allowed to have Google on my phone. Or Safari. Or any internet app. :P

I get made fun of for it but I honestly just think it's funny xD

I also just got kicked out of the library D:<

 And lately I've been sad for legitimately no reason. But it is what it is, you know?

*clears throat* AND NOW I SHALL WRITE!

This was a mess of a status update but I'm bored out of my mind so you are all at my mercy >:P 

THAT'S ALL! SEE YOU GUYS AROUND! BAHAHAHAHAHAHA *rides away on a hippopotamus I got for Christmas--because only a hippopotamus would do*

HI GUYS! *waves emphatically*

That's all! Bye guys!

Oh man. I'm trying not to cry as I write this. 

Yesterday was incredible.

Both show choirs (JV--Subwoofers and Varsity--Leaders of the Pack) had to be at the competition at 10am.

Subwoofers got second place in the JV division, and I'm so proud of them. They've worked so hard!

I don't even know where to start for us. We all got ready and stuff (there was some drama that went down and... yikes) and hung out for about six hours because we performed at 5:30.

They had donuts at the comp and they were so good it's not even funny. So I bought three. :D And then there was also hot chocolate and I couldn't resist. So I was on a sugar high for a while before the show, and then I got super tired and sat in a corner for twenty minutes.

Firkins then rounded everyone up to go to our homeroom, and he pulled out these papers with everyone's names on them. We'd written notes to each other on the papers a couple weeks ago, and he handed them out last night. I was crying so hard I couldn't even read the whole thing, and then I had to redo half my makeup because I'd cried it all off.

Then we went to warm-up and went over some parts of the show that needed just a quick run-through. And Firkins had us stand in a circle and sing the ballad. Most of us were holding hands. I made it to the second verse before I started crying--and THEN Firkins started going around and hugging us one-by-one. I was literally sobbing xD I couldn't even sing! So the costume moms passed out tissues and we couldn't go back to redo our makeup so it was what it was and we went on stage and slayed.

We got best costumes, best choreography, best vocals, and grand champions. And with it, we celebrated the first time EVER that Leaders has gone undefeated.

I will miss that group so much. We have one last performance on Tuesday, and then we're done.

*sobs*

I shall go cry in the corner now because I'm so happy but so sad all at the same time. :): 

Tomorrow is my last competition with Leaders of the Pack ever. 

*bawls*

Today was our last rehearsal, and I lost it during our cheer. The cheer goes like this:

"We are family! I got all my Leaders with me!" And I couldn't even say the words because I was crying so hard. Man, we're all gonna be a mess tomorrow. :)

AHHHHH GUYS HELP!

My writing contest submission is due later today and I don't have a title for it!

Here's the submission. It's based off of Megan from the Reckoners, and this takes place during Steelheart right before the climax.

My issue is I need a title. I could simply call it "Firefight", or something like "The Fire Inside Her", or perhaps something along the lines of "White-Hot". 

Any and ALL suggestions are so welcome--and hurry because I have like one hour to submit this!!! :eek:

I'm home 'sick' today. :P

I needed a mental day but couldn't figure out how to tell my parents that, so I didn't. And I do have a slight headache and my stomach is upset so there. 

That's it. Hopefully this will help me.  

Listen to this playlist. It's beautiful.

Onward and Upward is basically my villain's theme song :D

Noble Blood is basically Elysia's theme song  

Anyway this is a collection of some of my favorite songs <3 I hope you enjoy!

*drags hands down face and groans*

So... I kinda knew it was coming. But it's still weird. 

My parents are starting to look at other churches we could try out and see what we like. I think I would have struggled more a few weeks ago, but right now, I think I'm okay, except that I basically get a panic attack whenever I think about the fact that we're really leaving the lds church and going somewhere else. I mean... my whole life has been basically centered around being lds. 

BUT. I trust my parents enough to follow them, especially after the things we've talked about. Don't ask me what they are, because I'm not really supposed to talk about the reasons we're leaving. Just think about like this: You start researching washing your hands, because you're curious about it. And suddenly you learn that it doesn't do what everyone says it does. It washes off the dirt and grime but doesn't kill any germs. Or maybe you learn that it doesn't do anything at all!

Bad analogy, but it was the only one I could think of. Or maybe  you find out one day that the sky was never blue and it's always been orange. 

Anyway, I should probably shut my mouth. 

Also, I'm exhausted of life. I'm not suicidal (though I've had thoughts), I'm just... really, really burnt out. Twelve weeks left till summer break. Eighty-four days. I can do this.

I just wish there was a way I could stop the clock to breathe.

I can already tell that today’s going to be a good day. I’m laying on my bed with my favorite blanket in a kitty snuggle pile listening to Lewis Capaldi. I mean, seriously, this could not get any better.

Makes up for last night’s crappy party experience!

I’m tired and my printer is broken. Yay.