The Aspiring Archivist

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Hey, sorry it took this long to respond, with the holidays coming up, school was getting more strenuous and I didn't have the time to do anything I wanted to do. Along with that, my teachers have gotten better at not letting me just do what I want instead of working. I was also out of town for Christmas break. It's also been more difficult because wrestling started, leaving me with very little free time. Hopefully things will calm down and I can get back into the swing of things soon, but recently I haven't had a lot of time. 

That's alright! Life before Shard, as they say. I mostly wanted to know whether everything was alright. Best of luck with everything!

BUT HALARIOUS

Oh stars.

It's golden, that's what it is.

I'm kind of alright. Most of my days are enjoyable in some ways. Conversations are good, social interaction is nice. But at the same time, I'm completely stuck and don't feel like I'm doing anything worthwhile. Plus, just exhausted.

*big hugs*

I wish I could help more. But I'm here, and I care. Even if that's all I can do. It's okay to be stuck sometimes. It won't last forever.

*hugs*

I get that, feeling like you're not doing anything worthwhile and that you're stuck. I've felt the same and feel it a little bit. I think the best thing to do is try to reach out to other people and not wait for them to do it. It's the next step I'm going to be taking tomorrow. We can get through all of this!

Do not question the SansSparkles!

They're one of the old people of the Shard, one of the ancients.

They were one of the ones who really were a part of the Reckoners rp in its heyday. One of those who posted many memes when there were more active people who gave rep to everyone, apparently (that's what it seems like, at least) when everyone made more jokes and posted avidly on the meme threads...

Ah... Interesting.

@Ookla the Black Sock I was part of Reckoners' RPG. It was actually really good at teaching me how characters worked and how they perceive things. I did join after twi left, but it was the last few breaths of the RRPG anyways.

And no, we were not a cult that gave people rep for free. It just happened that most of the posts there were really good. 

For a good starter or idea, read the first post of "What happened in Portland." Twi is a legend for that.

@Ookla the Abstract Twi was the founder of the RRPG

Hmmm...

I agree with Wi's first post

I'm going to answer the second question here. I suppose so. It's an odd thing. To answer that question, you really have to explain the difference between emotions and thoughts, thus answering the first question, or the ideas of how they are different. I think thoughts can be expressed as feelings and feelings as thoughts. They interact in interesting ways, causing eachother and reacting to each other. Emotions are more core things, more of the things that guide our thoughts subconsciously. Thoughts are partly the expressions of the emotions we have, observing them. 

I strive to put any positive emotions into all my thoughts. —Wit

I don't think I experience emotions in that sense. Which is odd.

Oooo thanks for catching that  

WHOOOOO 6,000!!!

I wish I could give advice, but I’m not great with handling my time well. Doing things that make you feel good is always a good thing. Sorry I’m not of more help.

I don’t really know what advice to give you, but I’ll be praying for you. You’ll make the right choice and God will do something with that choice you make.

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I don’t really know what advice to give you, but I’ll be praying for you. You’ll make the right choice and God will do something with that choice you make.

...I'm an atheist, but I do appreciate the sentiment.

Thank you all for your words.

No!

Yeah, it's pretty cool! 

*hugs*

I hope you'll be able to find what you need

Yeah, me too.

I MISSED THIS?

WHAT?

HI!!!!

Welcome back!

*hugs*

Well, it's almost time. Goodbye, everybody.

o7

*hugs*

Goodbye, Archie!

I hope you can get better!

Still doing alright? Merry Christmas to him!

Merry Christmas Fadran!

aye, fair enough.

I don't know if there's anything I can say, but sometimes hope is small. I get stressed and confused when people tell me to hope because it seems so big and like there's no steps to get to that point. But I feel like sometimes hope is incredibly small and specific. You might not be able to feel any reason to keep going, but did you see a cool cloud that made you smile for a second? Did you read or write 1 good sentence? 

It seems impossible, but sometimes the tiniest things add up. 

I don't know if I'm making sense or if anything I could ever say might help, but I hope you find a thousand tiny things that make you happy for a thousand tiny seconds. 

You are the coolest person and I hope that things start looking up soon

I don't know if there's anything I can say, but sometimes hope is small. I get stressed and confused when people tell me to hope because it seems so big and like there's no steps to get to that point. But I feel like sometimes hope is incredibly small and specific. You might not be able to feel any reason to keep going, but did you see a cool cloud that made you smile for a second? Did you read or write 1 good sentence? 

It seems impossible, but sometimes the tiniest things add up. 

I don't know if I'm making sense or if anything I could ever say might help, but I hope you find a thousand tiny things that make you happy for a thousand tiny seconds. 

You are the coolest person and I hope that things start looking up

Thanks. There are the occasional moments, but I just can't hold on to them. They don't feel worth everything else.

oh that sucks, Archie! I hope you get better!

*more hugs*

*even more hugs*

*even even more hugs*

Not yet

Humph 

Why

7000 is a big number…

Thanks!

Uh…

You most likely won’t know it, but Rain by the Beatles for a request. You sound really good in the other ones!

I probably can't do that for a bit, but you could check it my most recent SU

Check out*

Mobile typing hard

*hugs*

I'm trying to decide if this is any good or not, now that it's the morning

It's good

*Hugs*

Thank you. I'm still sorry, though.

You don’t need to be, though I know that won’t change the feelings.

I love unsolvable puzzles

Also I am totally going to find a song that people will kill my voice for

huh, the new Shard link thing looks so cool.

Hey, that embedded Shard link has a rep count... weird.

You can also see rep count from your profile

 

I know about all of those reasons, but sometimes I just don't care enough to think about them or let them register. There are things like that that I do, and they can help for a little while, but they all just feel temporary and sort of meaningless after the fact.

What is meaning but something created by humans?

And... does there have to be a meaning? Do things have to all be a part of some big thing? I know that feels weird coming from the guy who always is going on about grand designs, but, well... not everything has to be there. Not everything has to mean something. And, in that, it makes it far more meaningful to me.

Everything is temporary and, from a lot of people's point of view, meaningless. Every single little thing is, in the end, temporary.

But that's the thing. Think of a song sung by a bird that you will never get to hear agin. Think of the life of someone you knew who you loved, but who you may never get to talk with again. Think of a delicious food that you at that you will ever eat again because you simply can't find it.

All of these things are meaningless and temporary, but they are still worth experiencing. They are still inherently wonderful.

I know that probably didn't help, but I'll continue here with something that might.

If you can't walk, crawl; if you can't crawl, roll; if you can't roll, inch forward as much as you can. If you can do none of those, fight for the ability to do those things. It's all about doing your best.

Pro tip: don't focus on what you're doing wrong, what you've done wrong and what could go wrong. Focus on what you've done right, what you could do right and how it all would go right. It's hard, I know, I truly know, my friend. I've been there more times than I could explain. I've been in the hard moments, though perhaps not as hard as you are describing. Nonetheless, I can emphasize and at least get extremely close to knowing it. 

If everything is meaningless, so are your mistakes. So are your victories. But, then, why do people think they have meaning?

Because, in assigning it meaning, it gets a million times more meaningful to them. Importance is whatever the storming rusts we want it to be, for the most part. 

If people assign meaning to things, then, well then, why not start valuing those victories. Why not start discarding the failures like dirt coming off in a shower?

Another tip: find what's relaxing and focusing to you and do that thing as often as you possibly can. Do those things that help as often as possible too. It may not work at all at first, but as you continue to do as many of the things as you want to and can, then I can bet that it will at least get a little bit better.

At least a little bit.

That inkling of an iota of things getting better can mean more than the moon, the sun and the stars. It means that it is possible to get better. Those brief moments of getting better are not a sign of happiness being temporary, they're a sign of happiness existing. They're a sign of the possibility of being there always.

This response was a bit scatter brained, but I need to go finish Biology, so I can't edit it at all.

I think about my own psychology a lot, so this is stuff that's fine to mine before. I have my understanding of what gives something meaning, and I recognize that the perspectives I've mentioned are pessimistic. But sometimes I just don't feel the meaning, and sometimes I have trouble believing in the more positive perspective. I don't know what to do about that.