Having a Bad Day?: Get 'yer Hugs here!!

[Canada Lover]

8 hours ago, Ookla the Wayfarer said:

*sighs*

I have tons of homework. I have, like, three projects all due on the 30th, then another one due the 6th.

One of those projects is my science fair project, and I (stupidly) decided to do something that takes so long. What I'm doing is: "What Large Language Model (basically AI like Chat-GPT) gets the best score on a practice PSAT?" I had to translate 120 questions so that the LLMs could understand what it was supposed to do (took about two hours), then I had to plug them all in to 3 LLMs. One of them took literally a full minute to process each question, then another 30 seconds to spit a complete answer, which was wrong most of the time anyway. Plugging them in and recording the answers took literally 12+ hours on Saturday. And I'm still not finished.

I also have to write a Literature Review for a Research Paper I'm writing, and that takes a while.

I also have to find 45 visual sources (photos, videos) for the aforementioned Research Project.

And I also have to create an Annotated Bibliography for my Research Project.

I also have a band field trip on the 30th, the day that most of these are due. Also, I have an upcoming concert, and I play 1st trumpet in the top band, and 2nd in jazz band.

Anyways, sorry for the rant. You probably didn't need to hear the details of my school work. What I'm saying is that I am just super stressed out right now.

No way, me too! It's also not like we have a field trip that will take up 10 hours of our life... and also another new part to our Research Paper. 

2 hours ago, Ookla of Ravens said:

*sighs*

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im trembling. english was... not good. teacher got pretty mad, people were being mean to the teacher, being disrepectful, and it was loud. oh god- it was terrible. 

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Im too tired right now. I hate living right now. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im dealing with life, but just barely.

 

Just deal with it, I would say it gets better, but... it may not. Just keep looking forward.

[Edema Rue she/her]

8 hours ago, Ookla the Wayfarer said:

*sighs*

I have tons of homework. I have, like, three projects all due on the 30th, then another one due the 6th.

One of those projects is my science fair project, and I (stupidly) decided to do something that takes so long. What I'm doing is: "What Large Language Model (basically AI like Chat-GPT) gets the best score on a practice PSAT?" I had to translate 120 questions so that the LLMs could understand what it was supposed to do (took about two hours), then I had to plug them all in to 3 LLMs. One of them took literally a full minute to process each question, then another 30 seconds to spit a complete answer, which was wrong most of the time anyway. Plugging them in and recording the answers took literally 12+ hours on Saturday. And I'm still not finished.

I also have to write a Literature Review for a Research Paper I'm writing, and that takes a while.

I also have to find 45 visual sources (photos, videos) for the aforementioned Research Project.

And I also have to create an Annotated Bibliography for my Research Project.

I also have a band field trip on the 30th, the day that most of these are due. Also, I have an upcoming concert, and I play 1st trumpet in the top band, and 2nd in jazz band.

Anyways, sorry for the rant. You probably didn't need to hear the details of my school work. What I'm saying is that I am just super stressed out right now.

*hugs*

Keep breathing. You’re doing a lot. It’s okay if everything comes out less than perfect. Hold on. It won’t last forever. We’re all here if there’s anything you need from us.

2 hours ago, Ookla of Ravens said:

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im trembling. english was... not good. teacher got pretty mad, people were being mean to the teacher, being disrepectful, and it was loud. oh god- it was terrible. 

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Im too tired right now. I hate living right now. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im dealing with life, but just barely.

 

*hugs*

In my experience, English classes are almost always a pain. Breathe through it and don’t let people you can’t control pull you down.

[SmilingPanda19 Any!]

Today was a day.

Ive been shaking.

I got my limp back for some reason for a bit, I must of messed up my ankle.

was on the edge of tears earlier.

I don’t know what I’m doing or why I’m doing it.

Sorry to everyone who needs me. 
 

I’ve been shaking and trembling.

I’ve been silent.

Ive nearly cried.

Ive panicked.

Ive been fidgety.

Ive been EXTREMELY self conscious.

Today has been a day.

[The Honorable Musician he/him]

45 minutes ago, Canada Lover said:

No way, me too! It's also not like we have a field trip that will take up 10 hours of our life... and also another new part to our Research Paper. 

Very subtle.

9 hours ago, Ookla of Ravens said:

whoah- the research project sounds cool.

I'm in the advanced Reading/Writing classes at my school, so I had to pick my own research topic that we will make projects about for basically the whole year. I have to do a bunch of different projects all relating to my topic. I have to write basically a college level research paper (I'm not in college, in case you couldn't guess), find a bunch of research for that and do annoying projects. In January, I'll start working on either a website or a documentary about that topic. There's a whole competition that people enter, and I want to do well in that. Both of my older siblings were in the same program as me, and they both won the competition at school, then went to regionals, then on to state. Naturally, I am being expected to make it at least as far as them, so the pressure is on! Of course, most of the pressure is coming from myself.

Also, today I just got another project for that class, so hooray! I'll spare you the details of that, but... yeah.

8 hours ago, Ookla the foolish said:

*hugs*

Don’t give up, you can do this.

Thank you!

30 minutes ago, Ookla the Believer said:

*hugs*

Keep breathing. You’re doing a lot. It’s okay if everything comes out less than perfect. Hold on. It won’t last forever. We’re all here if there’s anything you need from us.

Thanks, but... it does have to perfect. Like, it has to. If it isn't... I don't even know. I am this massive overachiever who will literally break if I ever see anything less than a 96% in the gradebook.

...

Spoiler

I don't know if I'm okay.

 

3 hours ago, Ookla of Ravens said:

*sighs*

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im trembling. english was... not good. teacher got pretty mad, people were being mean to the teacher, being disrepectful, and it was loud. oh god- it was terrible. 

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Im too tired right now. I hate living right now. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im dealing with life, but just barely.

 

Just remember to take it slow and breathe.

10 minutes ago, Ookla the Yellow Sock said:

Today was a day.

Ive been shaking.

I got my limp back for some reason for a bit, I must of messed up my ankle.

was on the edge of tears earlier.

I don’t know what I’m doing or why I’m doing it.

Sorry to everyone who needs me. 
 

I’ve been shaking and trembling.

I’ve been silent.

Ive nearly cried.

Ive panicked.

Ive been fidgety.

Ive been EXTREMELY self conscious.

Today has been a day.

*hugs*

Edited November 28, 2023 by Ookla the Wayfarer

[Edema Rue she/her]

5 minutes ago, Ookla the Wayfarer said:

Thanks, but... it does have to perfect. Like, it has to. If it isn't... I don't even know. I am this massive overachiever who will literally break if I ever see anything less than a 96% in the gradebook.

...

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I don't know if I'm okay.

 

I know. I’m the same way. It’s so easy to overthink and panic and spiral endlessly. Put in all the work you can, yes, but then if it doesn’t work out how you want it to, that’s okay. Let the logical part of your brain keep all the emotions in check.

[The Honorable Musician he/him]

Just now, Ookla the Believer said:

I know. I’m the same way. It’s so easy to overthink and panic and spiral endlessly. Put in all the work you can, yes, but then if it doesn’t work out how you want it to, that’s okay. Let the logical part of your brain keep all the emotions in check.

Thanks for the advice! I'll try to remember that.

[Edema Rue she/her]

1 minute ago, Ookla the Wayfarer said:

Thanks for the advice! I'll try to remember that.

Sorry if I sound judgmental, I swear I don’t mean to. And I know it’s always easier said than done. I just struggle with this a lot, and sometimes it helps just to have someone on the outside to remind you it’s okay to screw up.

[Canada Lover]

26 minutes ago, Ookla the Yellow Sock said:

Today was a day.

Ive been shaking.

I got my limp back for some reason for a bit, I must of messed up my ankle.

was on the edge of tears earlier.

I don’t know what I’m doing or why I’m doing it.

Sorry to everyone who needs me. 
 

I’ve been shaking and trembling.

I’ve been silent.

Ive nearly cried.

Ive panicked.

Ive been fidgety.

Ive been EXTREMELY self conscious.

Today has been a day.

*hugs* Keep calm and survive.

16 minutes ago, Ookla the Wayfarer said:

Very subtle.

I'm in the advanced Reading/Writing classes at my school, so I had to pick my own research topic that we will make projects about for basically the whole year. I have to do a bunch of different projects all relating to my topic. I have to write basically a college level research paper (I'm not in college, in case you couldn't guess), find a bunch of research for that and do annoying projects. In January, I'll start working on either a website or a documentary about that topic. There's a whole competition that people enter, and I want to do well in that. Both of my older siblings were in the same program as me, and they both won the competition at school, then went to regionals, then on to state. Naturally, I am being expected to make it at least as far as them, so the pressure is on! Of course, most of the pressure is coming from myself.

Also, today I just got another project for that class, so hooray! I'll spare you the details of that, but... yeah.

Thank you!

Thanks, but... it does have to perfect. Like, it has to. If it isn't... I don't even know. I am this massive overachiever who will literally break if I ever see anything less than a 96% in the gradebook.

...

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I don't know if I'm okay.

 

Just remember to take it slow and breathe.

*hugs*

Ah yes, like the 95% you got on the math quiz today.

[The Honorable Musician he/him]

9 minutes ago, Canada Lover said:

Ah yes, like the 95% you got on the math quiz today.

That doesn't count. It's more of the overall grade. Like, I had a 90% on some assignments last year, and that was fine, but as soon as saw it as the class grade, I went home and broke down. You weren't there for that part, Canada. Now, enough about me. I'm sure I'll be fine.

Edited November 28, 2023 by Ookla the Wayfarer

[The Wandering Wizard he/him]

9 hours ago, Ookla the Wayfarer said:

*sighs*

I have tons of homework. I have, like, three projects all due on the 30th, then another one due the 6th.

One of those projects is my science fair project, and I (stupidly) decided to do something that takes so long. What I'm doing is: "What Large Language Model (basically AI like Chat-GPT) gets the best score on a practice PSAT?" I had to translate 120 questions so that the LLMs could understand what it was supposed to do (took about two hours), then I had to plug them all in to 3 LLMs. One of them took literally a full minute to process each question, then another 30 seconds to spit a complete answer, which was wrong most of the time anyway. Plugging them in and recording the answers took literally 12+ hours on Saturday. And I'm still not finished.

I also have to write a Literature Review for a Research Paper I'm writing, and that takes a while.

I also have to find 45 visual sources (photos, videos) for the aforementioned Research Project.

And I also have to create an Annotated Bibliography for my Research Project.

I also have a band field trip on the 30th, the day that most of these are due. Also, I have an upcoming concert, and I play 1st trumpet in the top band, and 2nd in jazz band.

Anyways, sorry for the rant. You probably didn't need to hear the details of my school work. What I'm saying is that I am just super stressed out right now.

3 hours ago, Ookla of Ravens said:

*sighs*

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im trembling. english was... not good. teacher got pretty mad, people were being mean to the teacher, being disrepectful, and it was loud. oh god- it was terrible. 

update:

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Im too tired right now. I hate living right now. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im dealing with life, but just barely.

 

37 minutes ago, Ookla the Yellow Sock said:

Today was a day.

Ive been shaking.

I got my limp back for some reason for a bit, I must of messed up my ankle.

was on the edge of tears earlier.

I don’t know what I’m doing or why I’m doing it.

Sorry to everyone who needs me. 
 

I’ve been shaking and trembling.

I’ve been silent.

Ive nearly cried.

Ive panicked.

Ive been fidgety.

Ive been EXTREMELY self conscious.

Today has been a day.

*pulls all into a group hug*

[The Honorable Musician he/him]

Just now, Ookla the Raveness said:

*pulls all into a group hug*

*hugs back*

[shortcake thr/eat ka/boom]

...I

am not okay.

It's a tad bit difficult to explain.

[The Wandering Wizard he/him]

13 minutes ago, Ookla the Pastry said:

...I

am not okay.

It's a tad bit difficult to explain.

*pulls into the group hug*

[Canada Lover]

21 minutes ago, Ookla the Wayfarer said:

That doesn't count. It's more of the overall grade. Like, I had a 90% on some assignments last year, and that was fine, but as soon as saw it as the class grade, I went home and broke down. You weren't there for that part, Canada. Now, enough about me. I'm sure I'll be fine.

At least you don't get constantly insulted because of the seat you chose.

[The Honorable Musician he/him]

17 minutes ago, Canada Lover said:

At least you don't get constantly insulted because of the seat you chose.

I... have no idea what you're talking about. Anyways, this thread is designed to comfort those who are having a bad day. So enough off topic discussion.

36 minutes ago, Ookla the Pastry said:

...I

am not okay.

It's a tad bit difficult to explain.

*hugs*

[Canada Lover]

31 minutes ago, Ookla the Wayfarer said:

I... have no idea what you're talking about. Anyways, this thread is designed to comfort those who are having a bad day. So enough off topic discussion.

But you were the one doing it-

[Weaver of Shadows he/him]

*hugs for everyone*

[Guest]

So it's been my 17th birthday for about ten minutes now and my elder sister who I completely adored and trusted for nearly all of these 17 years didnt even wish me. We share a room btw. 

And i. I don't know. Recently I've been realising that though I loved her, she's been absolutely toxic to me and because I trusted her so blindly has stopped me from achieving quite a lot of what I wanted to. 

It hurts when you realise that the love was fake all along. And yeah she has her trauma but there's always a choice. 

Always. 

I've also been feeling kind of lonely lately. Cause like, I have friends but I am no one's favourite person. There is no one who is excited by my text, there's no one who initiates a hang out with me, there's no one who wants to tell me al their gossip. 

I'm just...there. i just exist. 

Edited November 29, 2023 by Cruciatus_heart

[Ookla de los Cuervos he/him]

2 hours ago, Cruciatus_heart said:

So it's been my 17th birthday for about ten minutes now and my elder sister who I completely adored and trusted for nearly all of these 17 years didnt even wish me. We share a room btw. 

And i. I don't know. Recently I've been realising that though I loved her, she's been absolutely toxic to me and because I trusted her so blindly has stopped me from achieving quite a lot of what I wanted to. 

It hurts when you realise that the love was fake all along. And yeah she has her trauma but there's always a choice. 

Always. 

I've also been feeling kind of lonely lately. Cause like, I have friends but I am no one's favourite person. There is no one who is excited by my text, there's no one who initiates a hang out with me, there's no one who wants to tell me al their gossip. 

I'm just...there. i just exist. 

i  feel you

[Weaver of Shadows he/him]

4 hours ago, Cruciatus_heart said:

I've also been feeling kind of lonely lately. Cause like, I have friends but I am no one's favourite person. There is no one who is excited by my text, there's no one who initiates a hang out with me, there's no one who wants to tell me al their gossip. 

*birthday hugs* I’m so sorry. I completely understand this part, I’m the same way. And happy birthday!

[Just-A-Stick she/her]

1 minute ago, Ookla the foolish said:

*birthday hugs* I’m so sorry. I completely understand this part, I’m the same way. And happy birthday!

*extra birthday hugs*

I can definitely relate with these sentiments 

[Nathrangking he/him]

On 11/29/2023 at 8:42 PM, Cruciatus_heart said:

So it's been my 17th birthday for about ten minutes now and my elder sister who I completely adored and trusted for nearly all of these 17 years didnt even wish me. We share a room btw. 

And i. I don't know. Recently I've been realising that though I loved her, she's been absolutely toxic to me and because I trusted her so blindly has stopped me from achieving quite a lot of what I wanted to. 

It hurts when you realise that the love was fake all along. And yeah she has her trauma but there's always a choice. 

Always. 

I've also been feeling kind of lonely lately. Cause like, I have friends but I am no one's favourite person. There is no one who is excited by my text, there's no one who initiates a hang out with me, there's no one who wants to tell me al their gossip. 

I'm just...there. i just exist. 

*Hugs* You do more than just exist!! You are awesome!! We love you and are here if you need to rant or simply a shoulder to lean on!!

Edited December 2, 2023 by Nathrangking

[Wittles he/him]

On 11/29/2023 at 9:42 AM, Cruciatus_heart said:

So it's been my 17th birthday for about ten minutes now and my elder sister who I completely adored and trusted for nearly all of these 17 years didnt even wish me. We share a room btw. 

And i. I don't know. Recently I've been realising that though I loved her, she's been absolutely toxic to me and because I trusted her so blindly has stopped me from achieving quite a lot of what I wanted to. 

It hurts when you realise that the love was fake all along. And yeah she has her trauma but there's always a choice. 

Always. 

I've also been feeling kind of lonely lately. Cause like, I have friends but I am no one's favourite person. There is no one who is excited by my text, there's no one who initiates a hang out with me, there's no one who wants to tell me al their gossip. 

I'm just...there. i just exist. 

*hugs* 

[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

On 11/29/2023 at 7:42 PM, Cruciatus_heart said:

So it's been my 17th birthday for about ten minutes now and my elder sister who I completely adored and trusted for nearly all of these 17 years didnt even wish me. We share a room btw. 

And i. I don't know. Recently I've been realising that though I loved her, she's been absolutely toxic to me and because I trusted her so blindly has stopped me from achieving quite a lot of what I wanted to. 

It hurts when you realise that the love was fake all along. And yeah she has her trauma but there's always a choice. 

Always. 

I've also been feeling kind of lonely lately. Cause like, I have friends but I am no one's favourite person. There is no one who is excited by my text, there's no one who initiates a hang out with me, there's no one who wants to tell me al their gossip. 

I'm just...there. i just exist. 

*joins group hugs* First, happy (slightly belated) birthday! 

I'm really sorry. Realizing someone you love is toxic to you is always painful. Especially someone as close. But honestly, know that you are a really strong person to be able to admit this to yourself.

As for the second part... I can definitely relate. I've been in the same boat for over a year now. You're not alone.

[Edema Rue she/her]

On 11/29/2023 at 11:42 AM, Cruciatus_heart said:

So it's been my 17th birthday for about ten minutes now and my elder sister who I completely adored and trusted for nearly all of these 17 years didnt even wish me. We share a room btw. 

And i. I don't know. Recently I've been realising that though I loved her, she's been absolutely toxic to me and because I trusted her so blindly has stopped me from achieving quite a lot of what I wanted to. 

It hurts when you realise that the love was fake all along. And yeah she has her trauma but there's always a choice. 

Always. 

I've also been feeling kind of lonely lately. Cause like, I have friends but I am no one's favourite person. There is no one who is excited by my text, there's no one who initiates a hang out with me, there's no one who wants to tell me al their gossip. 

I'm just...there. i just exist. 

We care. And I know that doesn’t make much of a difference in the rest of life, it won’t make the moments less lonely, it won’t give you someone to hang out with or go to dances with or eat lunch with or any of it. But we care. You exist and we are glad. *hugs*