Mental health club!

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 hour ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

*hugs*

I get being tired

*hugs*

Sports…always have drama unfortunately. Like I swear sports people actually have more drama than theater

As usual I offer backup/support

yessssss join us

1 hour ago, Hawks said:

Yay we got the karate dude!!

*hugs* thanks 

YEAH!

1 hour ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

It’s one of the things I can be counted on for

I have my purpose in life

Windrunner vibes fr

1 hour ago, reisleK said:

I'd gladly join (I say this with 2 subluxated shoulders because my muscles aren't strong enough to hold them and I made the mistake of helping lift a boat out of the water yesterday)

 

1 hour ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Oof

Ouch

*hugs gently*

yikes . . .

*gently joins hug*

[reisleK she/her]

Just now, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Oof

Ouch

*hugs gently*

I think my elbow might be out too? I should seriously sleep. Ooo I got a nice shoulder pop. I think a good pop. I hope. Feels like it's back where it should be. The issue is when I try to put my elbow back it tends to take my shoulder out. Kinda odd that the opposite happened, my elbow still feels off but my right shoulder is good now.

(oops I wrote this an hour ago and never sent it)

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

Just now, reisleK said:

I think my elbow might be out too? I should seriously sleep. Ooo I got a nice shoulder pop. I think a good pop. I hope. Feels like it's back where it should be. The issue is when I try to put my elbow back it tends to take my shoulder out. Kinda odd that the opposite happened, my elbow still feels off but my right shoulder is good now.

(oops I wrote this an hour ago and never sent it)

Ouch again

Do you have a chiropractor? If not you should totally look at it…I know people don’t like them but it works

[reisleK she/her]

9 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

yikes . . .

*gently joins hug*

Both shoulders are fine for the time being (yay) aggressively hugs back

Just now, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Ouch again

Do you have a chiropractor? If not you should totally look at it…I know people don’t like them but it works

Perhaps, but I feel like I need to see a physical therapist/some sort of joint doctor first because I still don't know why this happens besides joint instability caused by hypermobility but there could be an underlying condition? Idk.

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

3 minutes ago, reisleK said:

Both shoulders are fine for the time being (yay) aggressively hugs back

Perhaps, but I feel like I need to see a physical therapist/some sort of joint doctor first because I still don't know why this happens besides joint instability caused by hypermobility but there could be an underlying condition? Idk.

yay but still

OKIE BED FOR ME

'NIGHT :D:D

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

6 minutes ago, reisleK said:

Both shoulders are fine for the time being (yay) aggressively hugs back

Perhaps, but I feel like I need to see a physical therapist/some sort of joint doctor first because I still don't know why this happens besides joint instability caused by hypermobility but there could be an underlying condition? Idk.

Yeah that would probably also be a good idea

3 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

yay but still

OKIE BED FOR ME

'NIGHT :D:D

Yes go bed

Night

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

17 hours ago, Mag said:

why do I have to be tired all the time (T--T)

I agreed to hang out with my friends for a few hours after school and I'm trying really hard not to dread it. I love them to absolute bits but doing anything at someone else's house (especially right after school) is so exhausting for me. I'm trying really hard to be a better friend and to show up for them more often because I felt like I was slacking a lot on that .... but it's so hard when the school day has already sapped my energy.

I'm lucky my last class is a work day--I'm tempted not to actually study but just try and do something relaxing in an attempt to recharge. I wish I could lay down somewhere or something and close my eyes.

*hugs*

It's okay to cancel sometimes. Your friendships shouldn't be a chore. If you just need some time for yourself, they should understand that.

11 hours ago, Hawks said:

Welcome back to another episode of this is why i dont stormING PLAY SPORTS!!

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Itftfhg  gonna crash out. My entire life I've had [redacted] luck with teams. And this one is no different. 

Reason one. STILL WASNT PUT IN!! Ok I get thar I'm not the best. But I work harder then half the girls and put in way more effort. I know that as a fact not just me being prideful. And there's this girl. An absolute ass. Let's call her Tal. Tal is very bossy and she was on my bb team before. We were both on the sub "bench" list. I'm on the top of it. Meaning I'm the first option for a sub. Now tal is like last. This slontze is bossssyyy after. She tells me to do everything and geuss what? I do it. Bc everyone already hates me irl. I do alot. I go sit in the dug our when people need to use a helmet for batting. I give up my seat. Geuss. Who doesn't do rust. Tal. Geuss who says whenever I try to stand up for myself will say dude don't be selfish. Tal. AND GEUSS WHO GOT PUT IN THE stormING GAME INSTEAD? tal. She does nothing. She doesn't put in any effort. She fakes her warm ups. All she does is sit around during the game. When I'm trying my best, getting foul balls, grabbing people bats when they need them, getting gloves and helmets. All while cheering really loud for my team bc I love most of them. She sits down and judges me for everything. 

 

Second. They talk about me behind my back but in this case my back is infront of me. They will talk to me then go to their friend and whisper and point at me. Idk what their saying. I know that it probably bad. I hear them say "she's weird" or "why's she even on the team" "she sucks" WHAT THE HELL?! all I've ever done is be nice. I do everything I can to make others happy. Then they turn around and bs me! This is what being kind gets you. I literally don't say or do anything mean. I overly apologize for everything.  And there's only like 6 people who are kind to me. And half of them still turn around and rust talk me. 

 

Three, we go to do warm ups. I'm searching for a partner. Nope nope nope. It's like a punishment. The person who is last to get a partner is stuck with me. Nobody. Not even a few people wanna partner with me. They all find a way to not. THE storm! IM SICK OF PEOPLE. 

I WANT TO PLAY A SPORT I LIKE AND I CANT EVEN DO THAT WITHOUT THE stormING DRAMA! ITS stormING STUPID! I just want to have fun! Everyone else has the friends they talk to during practice when I get isolated then made fun of. 

I dont want to quit bc people put alot of time and money into this. I love softball so much and it's all I want to do but I HAVE THE WORST LUCK WITH TEAMS!!

 

Oof

*squeeze*

Well, storm them. I'd have you on my team over any of them any day.

When I was younger, I played soccer, and basically the same thing happened to me (admittedly, I did really suck, but they still could've been nice to me). Eventually, I quit soccer, and I ended up finding a sport I really like with people I actually like being around (ultimate frisbee). Not saying that's the solution for you, but you shouldn't do something if all it does is make you feel worse.

Best of luck with your... operation on Tuesday

Spoiler

 

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

Mmmmm

I hate me-I hate me so much

 when did I get this way

 why cant I just be the person I have been

 why cant I just

 why

 why

 I was doing so well

 and now I’m snapping all over the place and being absolutely awful

 I chewed out my brother for having fun and doing exactly what he sold be doing at his play just because I was sitting in the car for twenty minutes worrying that he was on the wrong side or I was supposed to go in I should have just taken shoes

i lashed out because I felt humiliated and stupid and it wasn’t fair to him

 I’m probably gonna cry. Which is fine. I’ve already done worse tonight.

twsh

Spoiler

I reopened a scar of maybe a year+

I don’t know why

It just felt right, so

I kajieurhwing hate myself 

Why did I become such an awful person? When? How do I make it stop? I wish I’d just die tonight. I really do

[Cash67]

3 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

Mmmmm

I hate me-I hate me so much

 when did I get this way

 why cant I just be the person I have been

 why cant I just

 why

 why

 I was doing so well

 and now I’m snapping all over the place and being absolutely awful

 I chewed out my brother for having fun and doing exactly what he sold be doing at his play just because I was sitting in the car for twenty minutes worrying that he was on the wrong side or I was supposed to go in I should have just taken shoes

i lashed out because I felt humiliated and stupid and it wasn’t fair to him

 I’m probably gonna cry. Which is fine. I’ve already done worse tonight.

twsh

  Reveal hidden contents

I reopened a scar of maybe a year+

I don’t know why

It just felt right, so

I kajieurhwing hate myself 

Why did I become such an awful person? When? How do I make it stop? I wish I’d just die tonight. I really do

Nope you ain’t allowed to quit. 
 

I cannot understand what you are feeling entirely, but I do understand what happens when I allow all of my negative feelings and feelings I get when I things that I don’t like doing and shove them down for a while. They blow up later, and I act like a piece of [INSERT EXPLETIVE HERE] for a few hours to literally everyone. The shame afterwards sucks. 
 

I don’t have a solution, just an offer of I know how it feels to look back and go “why did I just do all of that isuckisuckisuck”. I am really sorry. Stay safe and I wanna see at least one notif from you tomorrow. 

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

13 minutes ago, Cash67 said:

Nope you ain’t allowed to quit. 
 

I cannot understand what you are feeling entirely, but I do understand what happens when I allow all of my negative feelings and feelings I get when I things that I don’t like doing and shove them down for a while. They blow up later, and I act like a piece of [INSERT EXPLETIVE HERE] for a few hours to literally everyone. The shame afterwards sucks. 
 

I don’t have a solution, just an offer of I know how it feels to look back and go “why did I just do all of that isuckisuckisuck”. I am really sorry. Stay safe and I wanna see at least one notif from you tomorrow. 

I’m feeling a little better now

Thanks, Cash. 

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

36 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

Mmmmm

I hate me-I hate me so much

 when did I get this way

 why cant I just be the person I have been

 why cant I just

 why

 why

 I was doing so well

 and now I’m snapping all over the place and being absolutely awful

 I chewed out my brother for having fun and doing exactly what he sold be doing at his play just because I was sitting in the car for twenty minutes worrying that he was on the wrong side or I was supposed to go in I should have just taken shoes

i lashed out because I felt humiliated and stupid and it wasn’t fair to him

 I’m probably gonna cry. Which is fine. I’ve already done worse tonight.

twsh

  Reveal hidden contents

I reopened a scar of maybe a year+

I don’t know why

It just felt right, so

I kajieurhwing hate myself 

Why did I become such an awful person? When? How do I make it stop? I wish I’d just die tonight. I really do

*major hugs*

That sucks

I’m sorry I don’t really have words to offer. Here’s some more hugs though

*hugs*

*hugs*

*hugs*

[#1 Taln Fan he/him]

6 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

 I’m probably gonna cry. Which is fine. I’ve already done worse tonight.

Crying is not only fine, but good for you, so don't hesitate to do it.

6 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

Why did I become such an awful person?

Making mistakes doesn't make you an awful person in the slightest. If it did, then everyone would be awful. Yes it can feel like it in the moment, but those mistakes don't define you in the slightest.

 

 

6 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

I was doing so well

 and now I’m snapping all over the place and being absolutely awful

 

Slight Psychology nerd rant
+ sh

Spoiler

I actually was learning about this phenomenon yesterday, why habits can be hard to change, or it's hard to move on from a struggle or mindset. There's a theory in Psychology called Self-Verification Theory, which basically says that unconsciously, we'd rather be consistent with our unconscious identity than change, even if that change is for the better. So if we self harm for a while, a part of our brain still identifies as "someone who self harms". And as you progress and go longer without doing that, your unconscious brain gets uncomfortable with being so far from its perceived identity, which leads to a relapse. 
It's frustrating because a lot of that doesn't happen consciously, so it's hard to control. But just remember that your past doesn't define you, whether that past was yesterday or 5 years ago. 

And applied more generally, this theory is why depression can be so hard to get out of. We unconsciously and often consciously self-identify as depressed. And because we do that, it's harder to get out of it because it becomes ingrained in our unconscious identity. 

 

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

6 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

Mmmmm

I hate me-I hate me so much

 when did I get this way

 why cant I just be the person I have been

 why cant I just

 why

 why

 I was doing so well

 and now I’m snapping all over the place and being absolutely awful

 I chewed out my brother for having fun and doing exactly what he sold be doing at his play just because I was sitting in the car for twenty minutes worrying that he was on the wrong side or I was supposed to go in I should have just taken shoes

i lashed out because I felt humiliated and stupid and it wasn’t fair to him

 I’m probably gonna cry. Which is fine. I’ve already done worse tonight.

twsh

  Reveal hidden contents

I reopened a scar of maybe a year+

I don’t know why

It just felt right, so

I kajieurhwing hate myself 

Why did I become such an awful person? When? How do I make it stop? I wish I’d just die tonight. I really do

*hugs*

I don't hate you. You're not an awful person. And I don't want you to die. You're not allowed to die, understand? Good. Now that that's out of the way:

You can never go back to being the person you were before. That person never went through all you have gone through. That person never survived what you did. That makes you stronger than them. We can never go back. We can only keep walking forward. Always forward.

*hugs again*

*and again for good measure*

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

2 hours ago, #1 Taln Fan said:

Crying is not only fine, but good for you, so don't hesitate to do it.

Making mistakes doesn't make you an awful person in the slightest. If it did, then everyone would be awful. Yes it can feel like it in the moment, but those mistakes don't define you in the slightest.

 

 

Slight Psychology nerd rant
+ sh

  Reveal hidden contents

I actually was learning about this phenomenon yesterday, why habits can be hard to change, or it's hard to move on from a struggle or mindset. There's a theory in Psychology called Self-Verification Theory, which basically says that unconsciously, we'd rather be consistent with our unconscious identity than change, even if that change is for the better. So if we self harm for a while, a part of our brain still identifies as "someone who self harms". And as you progress and go longer without doing that, your unconscious brain gets uncomfortable with being so far from its perceived identity, which leads to a relapse. 
It's frustrating because a lot of that doesn't happen consciously, so it's hard to control. But just remember that your past doesn't define you, whether that past was yesterday or 5 years ago. 

And applied more generally, this theory is why depression can be so hard to get out of. We unconsciously and often consciously self-identify as depressed. And because we do that, it's harder to get out of it because it becomes ingrained in our unconscious identity. 

 

Huh. Yeah, that’s really fascinating. Maybe I’ll try and do something with that. 

2 hours ago, Hoid Slayer said:

*hugs*

I don't hate you. You're not an awful person. And I don't want you to die. You're not allowed to die, understand? Good. Now that that's out of the way:

You can never go back to being the person you were before. That person never went through all you have gone through. That person never survived what you did. That makes you stronger than them. We can never go back. We can only keep walking forward. Always forward.

*hugs again*

*and again for good measure*

Yeah

next step is always the most important 

Thank you  

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

9 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

Mmmmm

I hate me-I hate me so much

 when did I get this way

 why cant I just be the person I have been

 why cant I just

 why

 why

 I was doing so well

 and now I’m snapping all over the place and being absolutely awful

 I chewed out my brother for having fun and doing exactly what he sold be doing at his play just because I was sitting in the car for twenty minutes worrying that he was on the wrong side or I was supposed to go in I should have just taken shoes

i lashed out because I felt humiliated and stupid and it wasn’t fair to him

 I’m probably gonna cry. Which is fine. I’ve already done worse tonight.

twsh

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I reopened a scar of maybe a year+

I don’t know why

It just felt right, so

I kajieurhwing hate myself 

Why did I become such an awful person? When? How do I make it stop? I wish I’d just die tonight. I really do

You aren’t a horrible person maybe you were a little rude but that doesn’t make you a bad person and anytime you feel like you are just think abt for every one time you snap at your brother there are abt ten other times where you make his life better

 

i say this being a brother and feeling similar ways abt this

Edited April 13, 2025 by Heřãłðøfľõvê

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

9 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

Mmmmm

I hate me-I hate me so much

 when did I get this way

 why cant I just be the person I have been

 why cant I just

 why

 why

 I was doing so well

 and now I’m snapping all over the place and being absolutely awful

 I chewed out my brother for having fun and doing exactly what he sold be doing at his play just because I was sitting in the car for twenty minutes worrying that he was on the wrong side or I was supposed to go in I should have just taken shoes

i lashed out because I felt humiliated and stupid and it wasn’t fair to him

 I’m probably gonna cry. Which is fine. I’ve already done worse tonight.

twsh

  Reveal hidden contents

I reopened a scar of maybe a year+

I don’t know why

It just felt right, so

I kajieurhwing hate myself 

Why did I become such an awful person? When? How do I make it stop? I wish I’d just die tonight. I really do

oh Haly . . .

*squeeze*

We all make mistakes. You're not a horrible person because you got angry 

3 hours ago, #1 Taln Fan said:

Crying is not only fine, but good for you, so don't hesitate to do it.

Making mistakes doesn't make you an awful person in the slightest. If it did, then everyone would be awful. Yes it can feel like it in the moment, but those mistakes don't define you in the slightest.

 

 

Slight Psychology nerd rant
+ sh

  Hide contents

I actually was learning about this phenomenon yesterday, why habits can be hard to change, or it's hard to move on from a struggle or mindset. There's a theory in Psychology called Self-Verification Theory, which basically says that unconsciously, we'd rather be consistent with our unconscious identity than change, even if that change is for the better. So if we self harm for a while, a part of our brain still identifies as "someone who self harms". And as you progress and go longer without doing that, your unconscious brain gets uncomfortable with being so far from its perceived identity, which leads to a relapse. 
It's frustrating because a lot of that doesn't happen consciously, so it's hard to control. But just remember that your past doesn't define you, whether that past was yesterday or 5 years ago. 

And applied more generally, this theory is why depression can be so hard to get out of. We unconsciously and often consciously self-identify as depressed. And because we do that, it's harder to get out of it because it becomes ingrained in our unconscious identity. 

 

oh

that's sad and cool at the same time

[Through the Living Hope]

1 hour ago, Bird Furious said:

Huh. Yeah, that’s really fascinating. Maybe I’ll try and do something with that. 

Yeah

next step is always the most important 

Thank you  

I’m always here for you Haly. You’re awesome and beautiful and smart and kind and alll the other good words. Your lows and depression aren’t the only things that define you 

[ANHlittleinsane girl but gendern't mostly]

On 4/11/2025 at 9:33 PM, Hawks said:

Welcome back to another episode of this is why i dont stormING PLAY SPORTS!!

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Itftfhg  gonna crash out. My entire life I've had [redacted] luck with teams. And this one is no different. 

Reason one. STILL WASNT PUT IN!! Ok I get thar I'm not the best. But I work harder then half the girls and put in way more effort. I know that as a fact not just me being prideful. And there's this girl. An absolute ass. Let's call her Tal. Tal is very bossy and she was on my bb team before. We were both on the sub "bench" list. I'm on the top of it. Meaning I'm the first option for a sub. Now tal is like last. This slontze is bossssyyy after. She tells me to do everything and geuss what? I do it. Bc everyone already hates me irl. I do alot. I go sit in the dug our when people need to use a helmet for batting. I give up my seat. Geuss. Who doesn't do rust. Tal. Geuss who says whenever I try to stand up for myself will say dude don't be selfish. Tal. AND GEUSS WHO GOT PUT IN THE stormING GAME INSTEAD? tal. She does nothing. She doesn't put in any effort. She fakes her warm ups. All she does is sit around during the game. When I'm trying my best, getting foul balls, grabbing people bats when they need them, getting gloves and helmets. All while cheering really loud for my team bc I love most of them. She sits down and judges me for everything. 

 

Second. They talk about me behind my back but in this case my back is infront of me. They will talk to me then go to their friend and whisper and point at me. Idk what their saying. I know that it probably bad. I hear them say "she's weird" or "why's she even on the team" "she sucks" WHAT THE HELL?! all I've ever done is be nice. I do everything I can to make others happy. Then they turn around and bs me! This is what being kind gets you. I literally don't say or do anything mean. I overly apologize for everything.  And there's only like 6 people who are kind to me. And half of them still turn around and rust talk me. 

 

Three, we go to do warm ups. I'm searching for a partner. Nope nope nope. It's like a punishment. The person who is last to get a partner is stuck with me. Nobody. Not even a few people wanna partner with me. They all find a way to not. THE storm! IM SICK OF PEOPLE. 

I WANT TO PLAY A SPORT I LIKE AND I CANT EVEN DO THAT WITHOUT THE stormING DRAMA! ITS stormING STUPID! I just want to have fun! Everyone else has the friends they talk to during practice when I get isolated then made fun of. 

I dont want to quit bc people put alot of time and money into this. I love softball so much and it's all I want to do but I HAVE THE WORST LUCK WITH TEAMS!!

 

Hugshugshugshugs

ugh yeah it sucks so much when you want to play a sport and everyone's a jerk

Rant:

Spoiler

ugh y'all i've just been feeling so down lately i've got some kind of seasonal depression-ish thing going on (no diagnosis, i haven't told my parents at all, i want to tho) and i just want to waste away in bed until i die but i also want to go outside but it just feels like there's no point and then my homework isn't done and my mom will yell at me because i said i was doing it, but all i was doing was looking at the ceiling and being pathetic

 

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

6 minutes ago, alittleinsane said:

Hugshugshugshugs

ugh yeah it sucks so much when you want to play a sport and everyone's a jerk

Rant:

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ugh y'all i've just been feeling so down lately i've got some kind of seasonal depression-ish thing going on (no diagnosis, i haven't told my parents at all, i want to tho) and i just want to waste away in bed until i die but i also want to go outside but it just feels like there's no point and then my homework isn't done and my mom will yell at me because i said i was doing it, but all i was doing was looking at the ceiling and being pathetic

 

*squeeze*

If you want to, you probably should. That'd probably help with them getting angry at you, as well

*hugs tho*

I'm sorry

I get seasonal depression in the spring-summer, so I know how it is

[Keke They/he]

Dya ever feel alien? Because I do slot of times. Especially surrounding death or grief. Sure I'll cry when a character died in a movie show or book. But the second it happens in real life i just.... don't. Don't do anything. Feel anything. The reason this is on my mind is because recently in a city near me, a group of nine kids almost died in a bad car crash. Someone talked abt it in church. And people were crying it was sad bc someone's nephew was in the crash. But all I could do was sit there... the same thing happened a few years ago when my grandpa died. Everyone in my family was hurting and crying and I wasn't. I didn't feel any different then normal. No remorse. Or pain. Just alienated bc I'm not having a normal reaction. I just went about my life as usual. One of my aunts died a few months ago. And while my mom and sister cried, I didn't feel any different. 

Idk... just wanted to tell someone. Maybe some of yall can relate?

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

32 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Dya ever feel alien? Because I do slot of times. Especially surrounding death or grief. Sure I'll cry when a character died in a movie show or book. But the second it happens in real life i just.... don't. Don't do anything. Feel anything. The reason this is on my mind is because recently in a city near me, a group of nine kids almost died in a bad car crash. Someone talked abt it in church. And people were crying it was sad bc someone's nephew was in the crash. But all I could do was sit there... the same thing happened a few years ago when my grandpa died. Everyone in my family was hurting and crying and I wasn't. I didn't feel any different then normal. No remorse. Or pain. Just alienated bc I'm not having a normal reaction. I just went about my life as usual. One of my aunts died a few months ago. And while my mom and sister cried, I didn't feel any different. 

Idk... just wanted to tell someone. Maybe some of yall can relate?

yeah

that numb feeling

it's werd

*squeeze*

[Keke They/he]

Ok im here again. I wasnt able to sat everything bc it was during church so I'm back. 

So this morning I wake up and go to tell my mom some concerns.  This is how it went.

H (me): hey mom last night I was crazy restless and I felt super ho-

Mom: how much water did you drink

H: I dunno

M: exactly drink water.

After I'm like.wow that's... literally not the first time I've been turned down for a health concern I had. And this time I couldn't even finish my sentence. So I go back. "Mom let me finish what I was saying. I was waay more restless then usual and I felt like me inside was hot." 

She huffs and eventually searches up side effects of my meds. Restlessness was one. She still turns down my overheating issue and says I need water. Eventually after grumbling she does and it's likely from stress or anxiety. 

Then I go

 Hmmm wait this sounds familiar. 

Anytime I have a health concern, I get called dramatic and pushed aside. The effects of one of these situations led me to having a permanently injured knees. Then there is also when I complained abt depression and they said dramatic then I got diagnosed with depression.

[ANHlittleinsane girl but gendern't mostly]

4 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Ok im here again. I wasnt able to sat everything bc it was during church so I'm back. 

So this morning I wake up and go to tell my mom some concerns.  This is how it went.

H (me): hey mom last night I was crazy restless and I felt super ho-

Mom: how much water did you drink

H: I dunno

M: exactly drink water.

After I'm like.wow that's... literally not the first time I've been turned down for a health concern I had. And this time I couldn't even finish my sentence. So I go back. "Mom let me finish what I was saying. I was waay more restless then usual and I felt like me inside was hot." 

She huffs and eventually searches up side effects of my meds. Restlessness was one. She still turns down my overheating issue and says I need water. Eventually after grumbling she does and it's likely from stress or anxiety. 

Then I go

 Hmmm wait this sounds familiar. 

Anytime I have a health concern, I get called dramatic and pushed aside. The effects of one of these situations led me to having a permanently injured knees. Then there is also when I complained abt depression and they said dramatic then I got diagnosed with depression.

*hugs*

yeah, “drink water” sucks

its like, yeah, mhm, but i already did? Like most times if im at the point where im telling an adult about feeling iffy, I’ve already drank water and I’m asking for genuine help

gah, adults

[Through the Living Hope]

6 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Ok im here again. I wasnt able to sat everything bc it was during church so I'm back. 

So this morning I wake up and go to tell my mom some concerns.  This is how it went.

H (me): hey mom last night I was crazy restless and I felt super ho-

Mom: how much water did you drink

H: I dunno

M: exactly drink water.

After I'm like.wow that's... literally not the first time I've been turned down for a health concern I had. And this time I couldn't even finish my sentence. So I go back. "Mom let me finish what I was saying. I was waay more restless then usual and I felt like me inside was hot." 

She huffs and eventually searches up side effects of my meds. Restlessness was one. She still turns down my overheating issue and says I need water. Eventually after grumbling she does and it's likely from stress or anxiety. 

Then I go

 Hmmm wait this sounds familiar. 

Anytime I have a health concern, I get called dramatic and pushed aside. The effects of one of these situations led me to having a permanently injured knees. Then there is also when I complained abt depression and they said dramatic then I got diagnosed with depression.

 

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

my mom gave me a hug today

it was weird

idk why she suddenly cares about my feelings

maybe it was 'cus I was openly crying

maybe it was 'cus I was openly crying about something having to do with college

she told me it's perfectly fine if I don't want to leave for college and that I can always just stay here

because of course she doesn't want me to leave-

i'm not even allowed outside

why does everything she does feel so manipulative

I just want a hug without the talking

I just want a mother who lets me get a job or lets my get my licence instead of telling me no

I just want a normal mom

I want to get out of here but i'm so unprepared

idk what to do

8 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Ok im here again. I wasnt able to sat everything bc it was during church so I'm back. 

So this morning I wake up and go to tell my mom some concerns.  This is how it went.

H (me): hey mom last night I was crazy restless and I felt super ho-

Mom: how much water did you drink

H: I dunno

M: exactly drink water.

After I'm like.wow that's... literally not the first time I've been turned down for a health concern I had. And this time I couldn't even finish my sentence. So I go back. "Mom let me finish what I was saying. I was waay more restless then usual and I felt like me inside was hot." 

She huffs and eventually searches up side effects of my meds. Restlessness was one. She still turns down my overheating issue and says I need water. Eventually after grumbling she does and it's likely from stress or anxiety. 

Then I go

 Hmmm wait this sounds familiar. 

Anytime I have a health concern, I get called dramatic and pushed aside. The effects of one of these situations led me to having a permanently injured knees. Then there is also when I complained abt depression and they said dramatic then I got diagnosed with depression.

haha mine does the same thing

well did

I don't try to tell her about it anymore

*hugs*

yeah it's garbage

I'm sorry