Mental health club!

[Keke They/he]

30 minutes ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

I have a friend (we'll call him A1) who is not moving, but he's going to Israel for yeshiva (essentially jewish college). We've  been friends since Grade 2. 11 YEARS! He'll be going at the end of the summer. 

*hugs*

[Existential]

Hey guys

This is more of a happy post

Yesterday, I finally did what I've been wanting to do all spring break. I went to school, and talked to my counselor, and I dropped Stage Crew. I'm finally finished with it. Everyone and everything that was bothering me should no longer be an issue. It feels weird, but I'm happy that I finally did it. It feels like a weight has been weirdly lifted off my shoulders. I feel light. I feel free. I think that means I might be on again a bit more, with the stress of that situation gone, but we will see. Thank everyone for the hugs and support to my rants and insane writing for the last little bit of me losing my mind over this

[Keke They/he]

1 minute ago, Dabi said:

Hey guys

This is more of a happy post

Yesterday, I finally did what I've been wanting to do all spring break. I went to school, and talked to my counselor, and I dropped Stage Crew. I'm finally finished with it. Everyone and everything that was bothering me should no longer be an issue. It feels weird, but I'm happy that I finally did it. It feels like a weight has been weirdly lifted off my shoulders. I feel light. I feel free. I think that means I might be on again a bit more, with the stress of that situation gone, but we will see. Thank everyone for the hugs and support to my rants and insane writing for the last little bit of me losing my mind over this

YEAH WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOO THATS AWESOME DABI YEOIOSAIWERClkwehrmwiEHTkwehtrvn;WEKCTHMwiectm;weiohtcmlWIH;WLKHTCE;like ;k H’k hu’;oUWE

*HUG S HUGS HUGSB USGH HUGS*

[Through the Living Hope]

1 hour ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

I have a friend (we'll call him A1) who is not moving, but he's going to Israel for yeshiva (essentially jewish college). We've  been friends since Grade 2. 11 YEARS! He'll be going at the end of the summer. 

That sucks.. do you have a way to contact him?

[Shatter He/Him]

4 minutes ago, Dabi said:

Hey guys

This is more of a happy post

Yesterday, I finally did what I've been wanting to do all spring break. I went to school, and talked to my counselor, and I dropped Stage Crew. I'm finally finished with it. Everyone and everything that was bothering me should no longer be an issue. It feels weird, but I'm happy that I finally did it. It feels like a weight has been weirdly lifted off my shoulders. I feel light. I feel free. I think that means I might be on again a bit more, with the stress of that situation gone, but we will see. Thank everyone for the hugs and support to my rants and insane writing for the last little bit of me losing my mind over this

yay! *hugs*

1 minute ago, Spark of Hope said:

That sucks.. do you have a way to contact him?

he sits in front of me in class. itll prolly be fine

[Through the Living Hope]

Just now, The Shattered Cosmere said:

yay! *hugs*

he sits in front of me in class. itll prolly be fine

I meant after he moves. Like phone email etc

[Shatter He/Him]

yah

[Through the Living Hope]

Just now, The Shattered Cosmere said:

yah

That’s good at least 

[Keke They/he]

*sigh*

i remembered yesterday that not only is sprout moving. But my friend (let’s call him dandy) is also moving. AND my friend glisten who’ve ive mentioned a couple times before is ALSO ALSO moving. 

And i have felt so storming bad that now i am just emotionally numb inside. Good thing tho is dandy noticed me crying yesterday and got me candy. But im still numb. Idk if im even feeling anything rn. Maybe im using a mask or something? I cant tell at this point. Im just so sick of everything, and they are all leaving in probably what im guessing to be the hardest summer ever bc its the first one where my parents aren’t together and im probably gonna finally move into a trailer with my dad and im worried on how that’s gonna go but i cant be worried bc i somehow made a rep that im just fine through everything and im just OK at all times. And i cant tell my mom everything thats bothering me bc it includes letter mafia stuff and im not even gonna try to talk to her abt that. And somehow ive gotten to the point that i can only talk to yall especially taln, cookie and shattered cosmere and then my therapist but even then i have issues talking to therapist bc one of my other therapist told my mom rust and i got in trouble and this is getting long but im just brain barfing bc i need to. And i just want to fall asleep and never wake up but i promised my friend I wouldn’t die so i cant die.

*deep breath*

thanks for coming to my ted talk

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

40 minutes ago, Dabi said:

Hey guys

This is more of a happy post

Yesterday, I finally did what I've been wanting to do all spring break. I went to school, and talked to my counselor, and I dropped Stage Crew. I'm finally finished with it. Everyone and everything that was bothering me should no longer be an issue. It feels weird, but I'm happy that I finally did it. It feels like a weight has been weirdly lifted off my shoulders. I feel light. I feel free. I think that means I might be on again a bit more, with the stress of that situation gone, but we will see. Thank everyone for the hugs and support to my rants and insane writing for the last little bit of me losing my mind over this

Yay!

4 minutes ago, Hawks said:

*sigh*

i remembered yesterday that not only is sprout moving. But my friend (let’s call him dandy) is also moving. AND my friend glisten who’ve ive mentioned a couple times before is ALSO ALSO moving. 

And i have felt so storming bad that now i am just emotionally numb inside. Good thing tho is dandy noticed me crying yesterday and got me candy. But im still numb. Idk if im even feeling anything rn. Maybe im using a mask or something? I cant tell at this point. Im just so sick of everything, and they are all leaving in probably what im guessing to be the hardest summer ever bc its the first one where my parents aren’t together and im probably gonna finally move into a trailer with my dad and im worried on how that’s gonna go but i cant be worried bc i somehow made a rep that im just fine through everything and im just OK at all times. And i cant tell my mom everything thats bothering me bc it includes letter mafia stuff and im not even gonna try to talk to her abt that. And somehow ive gotten to the point that i can only talk to yall especially taln, cookie and shattered cosmere and then my therapist but even then i have issues talking to therapist bc one of my other therapist told my mom rust and i got in trouble and this is getting long but im just brain barfing bc i need to. And i just want to fall asleep and never wake up but i promised my friend I wouldn’t die so i cant die.

*deep breath*

thanks for coming to my ted talk

*HUGS*

[Keke They/he]

1 minute ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Yay!

*HUGS*

*hugs*

sidenote: never have i said this but i want to hug someone irl and just collapse in their arms and let them hold me

[Existential]

40 minutes ago, Hawks said:

*sigh*

i remembered yesterday that not only is sprout moving. But my friend (let’s call him dandy) is also moving. AND my friend glisten who’ve ive mentioned a couple times before is ALSO ALSO moving. 

And i have felt so storming bad that now i am just emotionally numb inside. Good thing tho is dandy noticed me crying yesterday and got me candy. But im still numb. Idk if im even feeling anything rn. Maybe im using a mask or something? I cant tell at this point. Im just so sick of everything, and they are all leaving in probably what im guessing to be the hardest summer ever bc its the first one where my parents aren’t together and im probably gonna finally move into a trailer with my dad and im worried on how that’s gonna go but i cant be worried bc i somehow made a rep that im just fine through everything and im just OK at all times. And i cant tell my mom everything thats bothering me bc it includes letter mafia stuff and im not even gonna try to talk to her abt that. And somehow ive gotten to the point that i can only talk to yall especially taln, cookie and shattered cosmere and then my therapist but even then i have issues talking to therapist bc one of my other therapist told my mom rust and i got in trouble and this is getting long but im just brain barfing bc i need to. And i just want to fall asleep and never wake up but i promised my friend I wouldn’t die so i cant die.

*deep breath*

thanks for coming to my ted talk

*hug*

[Keke They/he]

4 minutes ago, Dabi said:

*hug*

*Hugs*

[Through the Living Hope]

44 minutes ago, Hawks said:

*sigh*

i remembered yesterday that not only is sprout moving. But my friend (let’s call him dandy) is also moving. AND my friend glisten who’ve ive mentioned a couple times before is ALSO ALSO moving. 

And i have felt so storming bad that now i am just emotionally numb inside. Good thing tho is dandy noticed me crying yesterday and got me candy. But im still numb. Idk if im even feeling anything rn. Maybe im using a mask or something? I cant tell at this point. Im just so sick of everything, and they are all leaving in probably what im guessing to be the hardest summer ever bc its the first one where my parents aren’t together and im probably gonna finally move into a trailer with my dad and im worried on how that’s gonna go but i cant be worried bc i somehow made a rep that im just fine through everything and im just OK at all times. And i cant tell my mom everything thats bothering me bc it includes letter mafia stuff and im not even gonna try to talk to her abt that. And somehow ive gotten to the point that i can only talk to yall especially taln, cookie and shattered cosmere and then my therapist but even then i have issues talking to therapist bc one of my other therapist told my mom rust and i got in trouble and this is getting long but im just brain barfing bc i need to. And i just want to fall asleep and never wake up but i promised my friend I wouldn’t die so i cant die.

*deep breath*

thanks for coming to my ted talk

 

38 minutes ago, Hawks said:

*hugs*

sidenote: never have i said this but i want to hug someone irl and just collapse in their arms and let them hold me

I AM HERE

… TO GIVE YOU A HUG

[Mags she/they]

if I had a nickel for every time a teacher in my homeroom read us a picture book like we were in elementary school I'd have two nickels, which isn't much but it's weird it's happened twice

[Keke They/he]

3 minutes ago, Spark of Hope said:

 

I AM HERE

… TO GIVE YOU A HUG

Hey i understand that reference

*collapses*

[Through the Living Hope]

2 minutes ago, Mag said:

if I had a nickel for every time a teacher in my homeroom read us a picture book like we were in elementary school I'd have two nickels, which isn't much but it's weird it's happened twice

 

[Mags she/they]

I swear I hate to be judgmental but akdjf;laksjd;fkajsdlkfjasdkf I have the soul of a bitter old woman

[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

On 4/7/2025 at 6:31 AM, Bird Furious said:

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Just when I was starting to feel great and amazing and like I could do things

It all comes crashing back down with a painful reminder that I’ve wasted the last half year and now I have ~two weeks to finish my classes and do the finals

 and that I can’t be trusted with myself because I’m too forgiving

 used to be too harsh, but now I’m questioning if I was ever even harsh enough

i’m thinking about pulling an all nighter just to punish myself and actually get something done 

because let’s all be honest. I deserve to fail

i deserve to crash and burn and cry and drop out of high school and go back to my job 

I probably deserve to get disowned at this point 

I deserve to be pushed in front of the trolley

or to be the healthy patient in the doctor’s office 

heck, I wish I were. I’d gladly take either opportunity 

The best you could get out of me now is a cautionary tale

see you in the morning, maybe

or not

What would be the point of that anyway

i still need to learn to stop showing so much aodjwnrb emotion 

I thought I had that down for a while, and eventually I couldn’t keep it down and started lashing out 

but that’s something I need to work on

that’s a problem

i wish I could just be an emotionless, robotic freak

i wish I didn’t cry for a half hour straight

i wish I could talk without my voice wobbling or my lip quivering or my voice breaking 

they accuse me of manipulating whrn I’m at my most honest

i’m half tempted to scream at them and tell them what a terrible, ugly person I am, apparently, because I’m just trying to make them understand 

but I guess nobody ever will

I’m trying so hard not to be selfish, but all I want to do right now is do something incredibly selfish 

what is this stupid cursed cycle

I’M TRYING SO HARD

I THOUGHT I HAD IT

I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE OKAY! I WAS SUPPOSED TO HAVE IT THIS TIME 

I was supposed to be better now

 

*hugs massively*

No you don't deserve any of that

You are awesome, and always will be

Even if you don't pass your finals, it doesn't change anything to me because you are worth much more than your school grades

... actually are you okay if I PM you?

Spoiler

Cause this looks disturbingly like something I could have written early last year

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and uh i hope you can get it better than me

 

 

On 4/7/2025 at 6:43 AM, Bird Furious said:

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As an addendum

the second mental health comes I to the discussion, you can feel the judgement from all sides 

the only respectable thing to do in this society is to hide it and function normally 

it even feels weak

sure, if it’s discovered, it gets better attention, and we always say “get help”, but we don’t mean it 

we just want people to function properly and be the people we know and love 

Even if those people we know are just masks 

the only way to get attention without seeming extra is, coincidentally, to be extra. if you get my drift. To be extreme, to make it OBVIOUS that you’re suffering and a danger to yourself. 

I guess that’s the end of it then. No attention for me. I’ll keep being fake and hope it never gets to that threshold.

night, all. Sorry about the addendum. It felt necessary. 

edit: changed my mind about the all nighter. Either it’s the stupid teenage emotions again, or I just hate myself too much to do anything useful wirh it  

 

yeah

society sucks 

some people really sucks

and having to mask so much you feel people around you don't even know the real you anymore is the worst

I don't know what to do against that

But I can hug you

 

 

On 4/7/2025 at 2:06 AM, Hawks said:

Okokokokokok

So per usual I got the thinking that my art is fake and this is due to people saying I'm tracing it. So I went all over AGAIN to try to make more me art. Basically how I normally do it is I get a reference pose and use that for dimensions and how everything is supposed to look. And bc of that it looks traced. WHEN IM NOT TRACING IT. Though alot of people will say that's a "form" of tracing bc your using someone else's dimensions. So back on track, I went though my entire knowledge and tried again. AND WOW LOOK AT THAT MY ART IS rust LJKE USUAL!!!! I can't even figure out what I'm doing wrong. I follow every step my artist friends tell me. I follow tutorials to try to make it mine and not "traced" but I can't because whenever I try omething new no matter how long I do it, the practice, everything. I have made hundreds of practice images over the past year doing exactly how everyone says to do it and yet I can't. I've tried apps yt tutorials doing it on phone tablet computer. EVERYTHING! everyone always says practice makes perfect yet two years later and it got worse. The way I tried thistime was a new coloring and shading thing and I did great on that part but I cannot find what looks off about the body. All of it looks off.  Can yalll PLEASE tell me what looks wrong with this. PLEASEBC I NEEDTO KNOW WHATTO FIX INORDER TO IMPROVE 

 

And don't lie and say it's good I know it ain't good. Bc I'm at square one again.  I keep restarting just so I won't go INSANE!!! but the restarting makes me crazy but I don't want to quit bc I love art and stuff and it's calming. But idkhow much longer I can deal with feeling like a fake

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I wanna curl up in a ball and cry, I'm still overdtimulatec from yesterday's traveling 

So I don't know much about visual art, but if people keep telling you you're "fake" and are "cheating" whatever you do, then maybe the issue is not with you

Also using a reference making sthg not real art? Wut? Can you ask those people for me whether Monna Lisa is fake art according to them?

2 hours ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

I have a friend (we'll call him A1) who is not moving, but he's going to Israel for yeshiva (essentially jewish college). We've  been friends since Grade 2. 11 YEARS! He'll be going at the end of the summer. 

*hugs*

1 hour ago, Dabi said:

Hey guys

This is more of a happy post

Yesterday, I finally did what I've been wanting to do all spring break. I went to school, and talked to my counselor, and I dropped Stage Crew. I'm finally finished with it. Everyone and everything that was bothering me should no longer be an issue. It feels weird, but I'm happy that I finally did it. It feels like a weight has been weirdly lifted off my shoulders. I feel light. I feel free. I think that means I might be on again a bit more, with the stress of that situation gone, but we will see. Thank everyone for the hugs and support to my rants and insane writing for the last little bit of me losing my mind over this

Nice! I'm glad for you!

19 minutes ago, Mag said:

if I had a nickel for every time a teacher in my homeroom read us a picture book like we were in elementary school I'd have two nickels, which isn't much but it's weird it's happened twice

Uh what

[Keke They/he]

2 minutes ago, Just A Silvereye said:

*hugs massively*

No you don't deserve any of that

You are awesome, and always will be

Even if you don't pass your finals, it doesn't change anything to me because you are worth much more than your school grades

... actually are you okay if I PM you?

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and uh i hope you can get it better than me

 

 

yeah

society sucks 

some people really sucks

and having to mask so much you feel people around you don't even know the real you anymore is the worst

I don't know what to do against that

But I can hug you

 

 

So I don't know much about visual art, but if people keep telling you you're "fake" and are "cheating" whatever you do, then maybe the issue is not with you

Also using a reference making sthg not real art? Wut? Can you ask those people for me whether Monna Lisa is fake art according to them?

*hugs*

Nice! I'm glad for you!

Uh what

Idk anym9re

im done trying to understand 

[Mags she/they]

11 minutes ago, Just A Silvereye said:

Uh what

The class: *full of tired 15 to 18 year olds all just trying use their free period to rest or make up work*

My teacher: Alright everyone!! Isn't it such a lovely day? Now remember, get all your assignments done! Here's a little picture book story to teach you a life lesson! Tehe, isn't that so motivating?!

Okay that's kind of mean I'm sorry

It's just kinda frustrating

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

13 minutes ago, Just A Silvereye said:

*hugs massively*

No you don't deserve any of that

You are awesome, and always will be

Even if you don't pass your finals, it doesn't change anything to me because you are worth much more than your school grades

... actually are you okay if I PM you?

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yeah

society sucks 

some people really sucks

and having to mask so much you feel people around you don't even know the real you anymore is the worst

I don't know what to do against that

But I can hug you

Thank you

and sure, please do 

1 minute ago, Mag said:

The class: *full of tired 15 to 18 year olds all just trying use their free period to rest or make up work*

My teacher: Alright everyone!! Isn't it such a lovely day? Now remember, get all your assignments done! Here's a little picture book story to teach you a life lesson! Tehe, isn't that so motivating?!

Okay that's kind of mean I'm sorry

It's just kinda frustrating

That makes sense

we’d have these character building lessons in study hall and it was so pointless and annoying 

[Mags she/they]

3 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

Thank you

and sure, please do 

That makes sense

we’d have these character building lessons in study hall and it was so pointless and annoying 

like akldjfla;ksdjflskdf I got 5 hours of sleep last night and have 15 different tasks to do I don't care about your picture book I'm so sorry

[Shatter He/Him]

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[Keke They/he]

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