Mental health club!

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

*sigh*

my mom'll be home in a couple hours

yay . . .

[Through the Living Hope]

Just now, Through The Living Glass said:

*sigh*

my mom'll be home in a couple hours

yay . . .

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

Just now, Spark of Hope said:

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

21 minutes ago, Spark of Hope said:

Yippee...

I've seen (but haven't fact checked) that if multiple women live together their cycles can start to line up with each other

*hug*

I'm here if you need someone to talk to

I believe that. I've heard it, and it seems accurate. 

8 minutes ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

si it chicken soup?

it has to be chicken soup.

thats the soup that cures everything

at least according to my bubby (grandmother in yiddish)

thanks

where do you get boxes of hugs?

*hugs back*

thanks

i might take you up on that offer sometime

They found out I was on the Shard late at night and banned me from non-school work on computers (I don't have a phone)

I wrote a letter to my parents about my mental health and this thread, and now they might talk about restoring my computer time

I love chicken noodlle

Oh, good luck with that *hugs*

2 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*sigh*

my mom'll be home in a couple hours

yay . . .

Oh no..... *squeeze*

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

Just now, Bird Furious said:

Oh no..... *squeeze*

thanks

*squeeze*

[Shatter He/Him]

31 minutes ago, Spark of Hope said:

That's good. I wrote a letter to my dad once (he didn't like our cat and made lots of jabs about getting rid of him in various ways. I don't think I believed it deep down but it still scared me because I love this cat) and I told him that if he got rid of our cat, I wouldn't ever talk to him again.

Now, had that happened, I don't think I would have followed through with it. I'd written it in an emotional place after one of the jabs. But my dad talked to me about it and has since stopped making those remarks. It does work, at least in my experience

Different situation, but I thought it still applied.

thanks. ill keep that in mind

Edited April 4, 2025 by The Shattered Cosmere

[Keke They/he]

49 minutes ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

Good news, I guess...

My mother and I are going to have a talk about access to computers and the shard at home for mental health.

 

41 minutes ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

si it chicken soup?

it has to be chicken soup.

thats the soup that cures everything

at least according to my bubby (grandmother in yiddish)

thanks

where do you get boxes of hugs?

*hugs back*

thanks

i might take you up on that offer sometime

They found out I was on the Shard late at night and banned me from non-school work on computers (I don't have a phone)

I wrote a letter to my parents about my mental health and this thread, and now they might talk about restoring my computer time

That's good *hap(happy) hug*

Yay!

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

*hugs to everyone who needs it*

I don't have the time to go through everything on here, but here are some things I KNOW you all should know.

You are special, you are awesome, and you deserve love.

You are not alone, because we will always be here for you.

When you are stuck in that tunnel, remember; there is always a light. And with that light, you can light countless others. Build the fire.

You guys deserve the world.

Spoiler

Also, anyone else a little concerned about Haly's new title... 

 

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 minute ago, Hoid Slayer said:

*hugs to everyone who needs it*

I don't have the time to go through everything on here, but here are some things I KNOW you all should know.

You are special, you are awesome, and you deserve love.

You are not alone, because we will always be here for you.

When you are stuck in that tunnel, remember; there is always a light. And with that light, you can light countless others. Build the fire.

You guys deserve the world.

  Reveal hidden contents

Also, anyone else a little concerned about Haly's new title... 

 

*squeeze*

thanks

Spoiler

nah not really

that's normal

 

and on that note

yayyyyyy my mom's home . . .

*sob*

she hasn't even done anything yet i'm just so depressed and anxious

nothing's getting better

everything's getting harder

everything hurts

i'm exhausted

I don't want to do this anymore

the second she got home we were locked down again

she's leaving in a month on a three-day trip

can't wait until then

hugs would be nice . . .

 

love you all

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

2 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*squeeze*

thanks

  Hide contents

nah not really

that's normal

 

and on that note

yayyyyyy my mom's home . . .

*sob*

she hasn't even done anything yet i'm just so depressed and anxious

nothing's getting better

everything's getting harder

everything hurts

i'm exhausted

I don't want to do this anymore

the second she got home we were locked down again

she's leaving in a month on a three-day trip

can't wait until then

hugs would be nice . . .

 

love you all

*hugs*

That's hard. I don't really know how to help. Just know that things are getting better even if it doesn't seem so... every second you survive, you are fighting to better your situation. One day that fight is going to pay off.

*hugs again*

Spoiler

Okay... 

 

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

6 minutes ago, Hoid Slayer said:

*hugs*

That's hard. I don't really know how to help. Just know that things are getting better even if it doesn't seem so... every second you survive, you are fighting to better your situation. One day that fight is going to pay off.

*hugs again*

  Reveal hidden contents

Okay... 

 

thanks

*hugs*

sorry

I feel like i'm complaining on here a lot

thank you though *hug*

[Through the Living Hope]

14 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*squeeze*

thanks

  Reveal hidden contents

nah not really

that's normal

 

and on that note

yayyyyyy my mom's home . . .

*sob*

she hasn't even done anything yet i'm just so depressed and anxious

nothing's getting better

everything's getting harder

everything hurts

i'm exhausted

I don't want to do this anymore

the second she got home we were locked down again

she's leaving in a month on a three-day trip

can't wait until then

hugs would be nice . . .

 

love you all

 

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

3 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

thanks

*hugs*

sorry

I feel like i'm complaining on here a lot

thank you though *hug*

It's okay to complain sometimes.

It's easier here than somewhere else.

And we want to hear it.

Cause we want to help you.

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

5 minutes ago, Spark of Hope said:

 

*hug*

5 minutes ago, Hoid Slayer said:

It's okay to complain sometimes.

It's easier here than somewhere else.

And we want to hear it.

Cause we want to help you.

it is easier here

thank you

[MirkerLurker she/her]

On 4/2/2025 at 10:28 PM, Through The Living Glass said:

I'M SORRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

FORGIVE ME, MOTHER

NO NOT CRYING! I forgive youuuuuuu *hugs* It's okay, I would've learned eventually...the hard way probably. At least now I'm prepared!

On 4/2/2025 at 11:39 PM, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

*hugs*

You already seem to be doing this but I’m’a emphasize this anyway ‘cause it needs to be emphasized ‘cuz for some reason people (totally not me) ignore this:

DON’T USE A HURT JOINT UNTIL IT’S HEALED *coughcough*notspeakingfromexperienceayearlater

This is irritatingly good timing. I have been very gentle with it and giving it time. But I'm finally able to start walking on it again without the boot cast thing (I have been doing gentle stretches for the past week to make sure it's ready), and it's been awesome being able to walk around again, but I am noticing that after an hour or so of active walking around it gets sore.
Which means I should do less walking around, or use the crutches part of the time, probably. And keep doing the gentle stretching exercises.
...*SIGH*
(What joint did you injure that's still not back to where it should be a year later?)

On 4/3/2025 at 8:17 AM, Just-A-Stick said:

DEAL!!! I NEED BROWNIES!!!!

 

Mental health update for todayyyyy... i feel like cRaP yay for my cycleeeeee

*sobs in i hate my period*

yeaaaaaa my suicidal ideation came in to munch my butt this morning and I've been in like nonstop tears but school must go onnnnn

*sighhh*

7 hours ago, Spark of Hope said:

I've seen (but haven't fact checked) that if multiple women live together their cycles can start to line up with each other

OH
Periods.
Yuck.
You definitely need brownies then!
Alright, so the secret ingredient is instant coffee powder. Even a basic box mix can be made noticeably better by adding a teaspoon or so of instant coffee (it won't taste like coffee at that level, it'll just make them taste richer and more complex). If you want mocha brownies, add 2-3 tsps.
And then add extracts and spices - cinnamon is good, or chili powder, or powdered ginger, if you like spicy brownies. Or a dash of mint extract and a handful of chocolate chips for choco chip mint brownies. Or drop a few spoonfuls of jam on top and swirl it around with a knife for fruit brownies. Or a million other combinations. But seriously, instant coffee - even if you love basic straight brownies, toss that in. So lovely. 

Also, *HUG*. Remember your period also affects your thoughts. For us females, depression/selfharm/suicidal thoughts often cycle along with our periods, b/c hormones are SO HELPFUL. /sarcasm
So give those thoughts a side-eye. Not that it's all period-caused, but any mental technique that helps me question and put aside those kinds thoughts is one I hang on to, so there ya go.

Also, hormones are why girls in the same house link up periods. That's true, and I looked up the science behind it one time. Basically, periods are triggered by hormones, and when you're on your period, those chemicals are present in tiny quantities in your bodily fluids - like sweat and tears. So when you live in the same household and use the same soap, hug each other, sit on the same couch, etc, you slowly start to link up because you start picking up the hormones from the other girls.
Science!
 

On 4/3/2025 at 10:20 AM, The Shattered Cosmere said:

Ok. Here we go again…

Warning: Suicidal thoughts, attempted suicide, parental problems, depression

  Hide contents

Ok. Let's go back a month and a half. My younger sister (3 years younger) (we'll call her R) has mental challenges. My parents won't tell me what they are, but I suspect depression. R tried to commit suicide through Tylenol overdose, but after she went to my parents and told them, my parents called 911 and got her to the hospital. R stayed there for around two weeks.

My sister's best friend (we'll call her M) was so distraught, she tried to commit suicide through Tylenol overdose. M is close to me since she is like a third sister. She went to the hospital for 3 days and was released because it was caused by R trying to commit suicide.

I had a huge mental breakdown after that, but Baruch Hashem, was there, and he talked me through it and recommended me to write my parents a letter about my problems because I find it very hard. Which I did, but I didn't give it to them because it wasn't ready. My sister was released from the hospital and everything was fine. Until a few days ago.

Two days ago, I finally followed through on @#1 Taln Fan's advice and finished the letter and I put it in my mother's jacket, and she read it. I thought we were going to talk, but then R broke down, and she was committed to the hospital.

This seems to have overshadowed me and my issues, and my parents weren't able to talk to me. 

Also, my parents don't allow me to go on the Shard at home now, so I'll have to back out of all my RP's… 

I hate my parents and I love my parents at the same time. How do I do that?

I feel sad.

I feel small.

I feel as though no one cares.

I feel broken.

I feel inconsequential.

I feel no one likes me.

I feel lonely.

I feel pressured to fit in.

I feel hurt.

I feel depressed.

 

7 hours ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

Good news, I guess...

My mother and I are going to have a talk about access to computers and the shard at home for mental health.

Wow. That's so much. *hug*
That's so much to handle. I'm sorry.
"Hate and love parents at the same time" - We humans are complex contradictory beings. We have lots of contradictory emotions. And sometimes, we can feel hate for someone because we love them. Someone we care about deeply is someone we are vulnerable to. And that's a good thing in theory, because it's when we're vulnerable that we receive love and feel connected, but also it's never perfect, because humans are flawed, so there will sometimes be hurt too.

All those things you listed - that's an appropriate reaction to everything going on. I'm glad you wrote that letter to your mom, and that you'll get to talk with her about computer time in connection with mental health. I hope you get time to talk more with her or you dad. If I may offer one piece of advice, it would be: ask if this conversation can happen regularly. A feelings check-in, as it were. Your sister has more of your parents' attention right now, because she's in a bigger crisis, and that's important; but you are also important. Or maybe, if you're uncomfortable with face-to-face, ask if you can write a letter once a month or something - some way of letting you feel confident that your voice will be heard too. Your emotions matter. You're not inconsequential.

And you can always come talk to us on here. (You're always welcome to PM me, but I'll warn you I'm not online often, so if you want a live conversation, try one of the others on here. I'm always happy to listen and respond, but it'll be slow.)
But we all want to hear from you, and we can smother you with hugs and pep talks and reassurance and support. *hug*

 

On 4/3/2025 at 5:44 PM, SpiritOfWrath said:

I have…

I have rant.

  Hide contents

I hate myself. Whenever I think I’m doing well, I do something stupid, say something stupid, think something prideful, and it just…

I hate it. I feel like the personality I show the world, the filtered face, it’s just so different, and I desperately want to be that person and I hope I can be and know I am but I don’t feel I am.

And… it hurts. I don’t know if I am medically depressed, but I feel like I am. I don’t have kms/sh thoughts, but sometimes I just mentally abuse myself, whether it be because of some unrealistic hope or some overly and overtly prideful thought. I feel like half of me is overly prideful, and the other half is determined to punish itself for the pride.

*sigh*

 

*hug*

You don't need to fit a medical diagnosis of depression to be struggling. You don't need a medical diagnosis of anything to validate what you're experiencing - it's real. Yeah, sometimes it's nice to get that outside verification. And sometimes it's useful to know what kinds of tips to use for help. But. If you feel like you are struggling and depressed, then - you are. That's the thing about emotions: if you're feeling them, then they are real. 

With regards to feeling that the face you show the world is so different and not who you actually are. It's ok to show some of that underlayer to people close to you. Let them see your flaws, and how you want to be that person you show everyone else. That can help the emotions of feeling fake, and it can really help when you show that to someone else and realize they don't hate you for it. 

Granted, it's a risk; show the wrong people, and you get more hurt. But you can't have friends who understand you and support you if you never let them see you in the first place. 

 

22 hours ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

We who think we’re broken…I think it might just be the world at large

It is, in fact, the world at large that's broken. Look at humanity, of the course of history.
We're all broken. It's more a matter of who actually realizes it and owns up to it.

 

20 hours ago, Dabi said:

You ever just wanna not

 

I got pulled over

My dumba** bumped my headlights, they shut off, I got pulled over, had to call and WAKE UP MY DAD and ask for insurance stuff cause I couldn't find the paper, and now I'm just freaking out and crying and just losing my mind

 

I can't even express how stupid I feel

*sigh*

That's my short bit

Thanks for reading 

*hugs everyone*

oh geeze, so much sympathy. *hug*
I have cried every time I've been pulled over. (It hasn't been many.) But oh man. *hug*

13 hours ago, Hawks said:

Ahem happy rant?

  Hide contents

First. I finally gained enough self confidence to wear shorts!!!! That's probably gonna die half way though the day but dc is HOT and HUMID and I won't survive in pants today. 

And we figured out the system for the metro and busses so now we don't have walk 10010929 miles!!!!!

Oh and 

  Hide contents

Yesterday at the temple two people thought I was a guy!! Yeah finally context for abything churchbi just stick with being a girl  minus dresses and stuff

And i was mistaken for a boy twice!!!!!!!!!! That makes me so happy cause I 80percent of the time go by he him 

 

Happy rant! I love when we get happy rants!

Also pls wear shorts if the other option is die of heatstroke. Pls no die kthnx. 

 

1 hour ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*squeeze*

thanks

  Hide contents

nah not really

that's normal

 

and on that note

yayyyyyy my mom's home . . .

*sob*

she hasn't even done anything yet i'm just so depressed and anxious

nothing's getting better

everything's getting harder

everything hurts

i'm exhausted

I don't want to do this anymore

the second she got home we were locked down again

she's leaving in a month on a three-day trip

can't wait until then

hugs would be nice . . .

 

love you all

*hug*

*silently hands plate with giant brownie*


*Edit* WAIT I FORGOT WHY I CAME ON HERE IN THE FIRST PLACE
*ahem*
Ok so I clicked on this video expecting a neat video about dragons, and instead got a beautiful bittersweet treatise on neurodivergence, growing up, and learning to accept and embrace yourself...and also dragons. So I figured I'd link it here, for anyone else on here who may have felt isolated, different, the odd one out, or love dragons. 

 

Edited April 5, 2025 by MirkerLurker

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

11 minutes ago, MirkerLurker said:

NO NOT CRYING! I forgive youuuuuuu *hugs* It's okay, I would've learned eventually...the hard way probably. At least now I'm prepared!

This is irritatingly good timing. I have been very gentle with it and giving it time. But I'm finally able to start walking on it again without the boot cast thing (I have been doing gentle stretches for the past week to make sure it's ready), and it's been awesome being able to walk around again, but I am noticing that after an hour or so of active walking around it gets sore.
Which means I should do less walking around, or use the crutches part of the time, probably. And keep doing the gentle stretching exercises.
...*SIGH*
(What joint did you injure that's still not back to where it should be a year later?)

OH
Periods.
Yuck.
You definitely need brownies then!
Alright, so the secret ingredient is instant coffee powder. Even a basic box mix can be made noticeably better by adding a teaspoon or so of instant coffee (it won't taste like coffee at that level, it'll just make them taste richer and more complex). If you want mocha brownies, add 2-3 tsps.
And then add extracts and spices - cinnamon is good, or chili powder, or powdered ginger, if you like spicy brownies. Or a dash of mint extract and a handful of chocolate chips for choco chip mint brownies. Or drop a few spoonfuls of jam on top and swirl it around with a knife for fruit brownies. Or a million other combinations. But seriously, instant coffee - even if you love basic straight brownies, toss that in. So lovely. 

Also, *HUG*. Remember your period also affects your thoughts. For us females, depression/selfharm/suicidal thoughts often cycle along with our periods, b/c hormones are SO HELPFUL. /sarcasm
So give those thoughts a side-eye. Not that it's all period-caused, but any mental technique that helps me question and put aside those kinds thoughts is one I hang on to, so there ya go.

Also, hormones are why girls in the same house link up periods. That's true, and I looked up the science behind it one time. Basically, periods are triggered by hormones, and when you're on your period, those chemicals are present in tiny quantities in your bodily fluids - like sweat and tears. So when you live in the same household and use the same soap, hug each other, sit on the same couch, etc, you slowly start to link up because you start picking up the hormones from the other girls.
Science!
 

Wow. That's so much. *hug*
That's so much to handle. I'm sorry.
"Hate and love parents at the same time" - We humans are complex contradictory beings. We have lots of contradictory emotions. And sometimes, we can feel hate for someone because we love them. Someone we care about deeply is someone we are vulnerable to. And that's a good thing in theory, because it's when we're vulnerable that we receive love and feel connected, but also it's never perfect, because humans are flawed, so there will sometimes be hurt too.

All those things you listed - that's an appropriate reaction to everything going on. I'm glad you wrote that letter to your mom, and that you'll get to talk with her about computer time in connection with mental health. I hope you get time to talk more with her or you dad. If I may offer one piece of advice, it would be: ask if this conversation can happen regularly. A feelings check-in, as it were. Your sister has more of your parents' attention right now, because she's in a bigger crisis, and that's important; but you are also important. Or maybe, if you're uncomfortable with face-to-face, ask if you can write a letter once a month or something - some way of letting you feel confident that your voice will be heard too. Your emotions matter. You're not inconsequential.

And you can always come talk to us on here. (You're always welcome to PM me, but I'll warn you I'm not online often, so if you want a live conversation, try one of the others on here. I'm always happy to listen and respond, but it'll be slow.)
But we all want to hear from you, and we can smother you with hugs and pep talks and reassurance and support. *hug*

 

*hug*

You don't need to fit a medical diagnosis of depression to be struggling. You don't need a medical diagnosis of anything to validate what you're experiencing - it's real. Yeah, sometimes it's nice to get that outside verification. And sometimes it's useful to know what kinds of tips to use for help. But. If you feel like you are struggling and depressed, then - you are. That's the thing about emotions: if you're feeling them, then they are real. 

With regards to feeling that the face you show the world is so different and not who you actually are. It's ok to show some of that underlayer to people close to you. Let them see your flaws, and how you want to be that person you show everyone else. That can help the emotions of feeling fake, and it can really help when you show that to someone else and realize they don't hate you for it. 

Granted, it's a risk; show the wrong people, and you get more hurt. But you can't have friends who understand you and support you if you never let them see you in the first place. 

 

It is, in fact, the world at large that's broken. Look at humanity, of the course of history.
We're all broken. It's more a matter of who actually realizes it and owns up to it.

 

oh geeze, so much sympathy. *hug*
I have cried every time I've been pulled over. (It hasn't been many.) But oh man. *hug*

Happy rant! I love when we get happy rants!

Also pls wear shorts if the other option is die of heatstroke. Pls no die kthnx. 

 

*hug*

*silently hands plate with giant brownie*


*Edit* WAIT I FORGOT WHY I CAME ON HERE IN THE FIRST PLACE
*ahem*
Ok so I clicked on this video expecting a neat video about dragons, and instead got a beautiful bittersweet treatise on neurodivergence, growing up, and learning to accept and embrace yourself...and also dragons. So I figured I'd link it here, for anyone else on here who may have felt isolated, different, the odd one out, or love dragons. 

 

. . .

*eats brownie*

thanks

*squeeze*

Spoiler

. . . Science! 

 

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

I’m feeling affectionate rn so I would like to say the people on the shard are the nicest sweetest most helpful people I’ve ever met and I love you all *hugs all who would like to be hugged affectionately hugs those who would not* that’s it love you guys

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

3 minutes ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

I’m feeling affectionate rn so I would like to say the people on the shard are the nicest sweetest most helpful people I’ve ever met and I love you all *hugs all who would like to be hugged affectionately hugs those who would not* that’s it love you guys

aw

Love you too, Herald

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

15 hours ago, Hawks said:

Ahem happy rant?

  Reveal hidden contents

First. I finally gained enough self confidence to wear shorts!!!! That's probably gonna die half way though the day but dc is HOT and HUMID and I won't survive in pants today. 

And we figured out the system for the metro and busses so now we don't have walk 10010929 miles!!!!!

Oh and 

  Reveal hidden contents

Yesterday at the temple two people thought I was a guy!! Yeah finally context for abything churchbi just stick with being a girl  minus dresses and stuff

And i was mistaken for a boy twice!!!!!!!!!! That makes me so happy cause I 80percent of the time go by he him 

 

Yay! Congratulations!

3 hours ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*squeeze*

thanks

  Reveal hidden contents

nah not really

that's normal

 

and on that note

yayyyyyy my mom's home . . .

*sob*

she hasn't even done anything yet i'm just so depressed and anxious

nothing's getting better

everything's getting harder

everything hurts

i'm exhausted

I don't want to do this anymore

the second she got home we were locked down again

she's leaving in a month on a three-day trip

can't wait until then

hugs would be nice . . .

 

love you all

*hugs*

2 hours ago, MirkerLurker said:

NO NOT CRYING! I forgive youuuuuuu *hugs* It's okay, I would've learned eventually...the hard way probably. At least now I'm prepared!

This is irritatingly good timing. I have been very gentle with it and giving it time. But I'm finally able to start walking on it again without the boot cast thing (I have been doing gentle stretches for the past week to make sure it's ready), and it's been awesome being able to walk around again, but I am noticing that after an hour or so of active walking around it gets sore.
Which means I should do less walking around, or use the crutches part of the time, probably. And keep doing the gentle stretching exercises.
...*SIGH*
(What joint did you injure that's still not back to where it should be a year later?)

OH
Periods.
Yuck.
You definitely need brownies then!
Alright, so the secret ingredient is instant coffee powder. Even a basic box mix can be made noticeably better by adding a teaspoon or so of instant coffee (it won't taste like coffee at that level, it'll just make them taste richer and more complex). If you want mocha brownies, add 2-3 tsps.
And then add extracts and spices - cinnamon is good, or chili powder, or powdered ginger, if you like spicy brownies. Or a dash of mint extract and a handful of chocolate chips for choco chip mint brownies. Or drop a few spoonfuls of jam on top and swirl it around with a knife for fruit brownies. Or a million other combinations. But seriously, instant coffee - even if you love basic straight brownies, toss that in. So lovely. 

Also, *HUG*. Remember your period also affects your thoughts. For us females, depression/selfharm/suicidal thoughts often cycle along with our periods, b/c hormones are SO HELPFUL. /sarcasm
So give those thoughts a side-eye. Not that it's all period-caused, but any mental technique that helps me question and put aside those kinds thoughts is one I hang on to, so there ya go.

Also, hormones are why girls in the same house link up periods. That's true, and I looked up the science behind it one time. Basically, periods are triggered by hormones, and when you're on your period, those chemicals are present in tiny quantities in your bodily fluids - like sweat and tears. So when you live in the same household and use the same soap, hug each other, sit on the same couch, etc, you slowly start to link up because you start picking up the hormones from the other girls.
Science!
 

Wow. That's so much. *hug*
That's so much to handle. I'm sorry.
"Hate and love parents at the same time" - We humans are complex contradictory beings. We have lots of contradictory emotions. And sometimes, we can feel hate for someone because we love them. Someone we care about deeply is someone we are vulnerable to. And that's a good thing in theory, because it's when we're vulnerable that we receive love and feel connected, but also it's never perfect, because humans are flawed, so there will sometimes be hurt too.

All those things you listed - that's an appropriate reaction to everything going on. I'm glad you wrote that letter to your mom, and that you'll get to talk with her about computer time in connection with mental health. I hope you get time to talk more with her or you dad. If I may offer one piece of advice, it would be: ask if this conversation can happen regularly. A feelings check-in, as it were. Your sister has more of your parents' attention right now, because she's in a bigger crisis, and that's important; but you are also important. Or maybe, if you're uncomfortable with face-to-face, ask if you can write a letter once a month or something - some way of letting you feel confident that your voice will be heard too. Your emotions matter. You're not inconsequential.

And you can always come talk to us on here. (You're always welcome to PM me, but I'll warn you I'm not online often, so if you want a live conversation, try one of the others on here. I'm always happy to listen and respond, but it'll be slow.)
But we all want to hear from you, and we can smother you with hugs and pep talks and reassurance and support. *hug*

 

*hug*

You don't need to fit a medical diagnosis of depression to be struggling. You don't need a medical diagnosis of anything to validate what you're experiencing - it's real. Yeah, sometimes it's nice to get that outside verification. And sometimes it's useful to know what kinds of tips to use for help. But. If you feel like you are struggling and depressed, then - you are. That's the thing about emotions: if you're feeling them, then they are real. 

With regards to feeling that the face you show the world is so different and not who you actually are. It's ok to show some of that underlayer to people close to you. Let them see your flaws, and how you want to be that person you show everyone else. That can help the emotions of feeling fake, and it can really help when you show that to someone else and realize they don't hate you for it. 

Granted, it's a risk; show the wrong people, and you get more hurt. But you can't have friends who understand you and support you if you never let them see you in the first place. 

 

It is, in fact, the world at large that's broken. Look at humanity, of the course of history.
We're all broken. It's more a matter of who actually realizes it and owns up to it.

 

oh geeze, so much sympathy. *hug*
I have cried every time I've been pulled over. (It hasn't been many.) But oh man. *hug*

Happy rant! I love when we get happy rants!

Also pls wear shorts if the other option is die of heatstroke. Pls no die kthnx. 

 

*hug*

*silently hands plate with giant brownie*


*Edit* WAIT I FORGOT WHY I CAME ON HERE IN THE FIRST PLACE
*ahem*
Ok so I clicked on this video expecting a neat video about dragons, and instead got a beautiful bittersweet treatise on neurodivergence, growing up, and learning to accept and embrace yourself...and also dragons. So I figured I'd link it here, for anyone else on here who may have felt isolated, different, the odd one out, or love dragons. 

 

I was teaching a kids’ class and running around with them when I rolled my ankle. Then, being a dumb teenager (that’s my excuse; really I was just a dumb martial artist), I decided to just wrap it and call it good, without reducing my activities at all. Then I rolled it a couple more times and voila, probably permanently jacked-up ankle!

[Keke They/he]

8 hours ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

I’m feeling affectionate rn so I would like to say the people on the shard are the nicest sweetest most helpful people I’ve ever met and I love you all *hugs all who would like to be hugged affectionately hugs those who would not* that’s it love you guys

We love you toooooo

*hugssss*

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

11 hours ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

I’m feeling affectionate rn so I would like to say the people on the shard are the nicest sweetest most helpful people I’ve ever met and I love you all *hugs all who would like to be hugged affectionately hugs those who would not* that’s it love you guys

Aw, thank you :))

*hug*

[MirkerLurker she/her]

22 hours ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

I’m feeling affectionate rn so I would like to say the people on the shard are the nicest sweetest most helpful people I’ve ever met and I love you all *hugs all who would like to be hugged affectionately hugs those who would not* that’s it love you guys

yaaay feeling happy and affectionate! *BIG HUG*

Sad hugs are always good, but happy hugs are wonderful too. Yay hugs!

21 hours ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Yay! Congratulations!

*hugs*

I was teaching a kids’ class and running around with them when I rolled my ankle. Then, being a dumb teenager (that’s my excuse; really I was just a dumb martial artist), I decided to just wrap it and call it good, without reducing my activities at all. Then I rolled it a couple more times and voila, probably permanently jacked-up ankle!

oooooh. Yeah. Sympathy.
I shall learn from your lesson and not repeat your experience myself.

(We will ignore the fact that this is the second time in a year and a half that I've gotten injured trying to match the higher level students instead of being wise and working at my level. ...fortunately, it wasn't the ankle last time, it was the knee, so it's not worsening the same place.)

 

Alright everybody, I found mental health raccoon memes! Behold!

[Keke They/he]

5 minutes ago, MirkerLurker said:

Alright everybody, I found mental health raccoon memes! Behold!

Yo! 

The first one is literally me and all of my friends

Pfft numro dos is real

3! I FOUND MY AS A RACOON YAYYYY

Omggggg Houston yes!!!

Ghesp!! Yes for everything!!! Audhd

 

Okok for everyone mostly the adhdudes I made a Playlist on Spotify for those songs that help adhd with the nice beat you can bop to. ... i hope I'm not the only one who has those. Anyways if you want it to check it out and see if any of the songs help lemme know. 

Spoiler

What i classify as adhd songs for me are ones with the beat that you can like bop to. Like The Days by Avicii or What Makes You Beutiful by One Direction 

 

[Through the Living Wrath he/him]

11 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Yo! 

The first one is literally me and all of my friends

Pfft numro dos is real

3! I FOUND MY AS A RACOON YAYYYY

Omggggg Houston yes!!!

Ghesp!! Yes for everything!!! Audhd

 

Okok for everyone mostly the adhdudes I made a Playlist on Spotify for those songs that help adhd with the nice beat you can bop to. ... i hope I'm not the only one who has those. Anyways if you want it to check it out and see if any of the songs help lemme know. 

  Hide contents

What i classify as adhd songs for me are ones with the beat that you can like bop to. Like The Days by Avicii or What Makes You Beutiful by One Direction 

 

Strife, by Trivium!

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 hour ago, MirkerLurker said:

yaaay feeling happy and affectionate! *BIG HUG*

Sad hugs are always good, but happy hugs are wonderful too. Yay hugs!

oooooh. Yeah. Sympathy.
I shall learn from your lesson and not repeat your experience myself.

(We will ignore the fact that this is the second time in a year and a half that I've gotten injured trying to match the higher level students instead of being wise and working at my level. ...fortunately, it wasn't the ankle last time, it was the knee, so it's not worsening the same place.)

 

Alright everybody, I found mental health raccoon memes! Behold!

. . . those are so real

1 hour ago, Hawks said:

Yo! 

The first one is literally me and all of my friends

Pfft numro dos is real

3! I FOUND MY AS A RACOON YAYYYY

Omggggg Houston yes!!!

Ghesp!! Yes for everything!!! Audhd

 

Okok for everyone mostly the adhdudes I made a Playlist on Spotify for those songs that help adhd with the nice beat you can bop to. ... i hope I'm not the only one who has those. Anyways if you want it to check it out and see if any of the songs help lemme know. 

  Reveal hidden contents

What i classify as adhd songs for me are ones with the beat that you can like bop to. Like The Days by Avicii or What Makes You Beutiful by One Direction 

 

. . . Bury Me Low by 8 Graves

. . .

it has a really good beat imo

 

BUT HEY YES PLAYLIST WHEEEEEEE-