Mental health club!

[Existential]

You ever just wanna not

 

I got pulled over

My dumba** bumped my headlights, they shut off, I got pulled over, had to call and WAKE UP MY DAD and ask for insurance stuff cause I couldn't find the paper, and now I'm just freaking out and crying and just losing my mind

 

I can't even express how stupid I feel

*sigh*

That's my short bit

Thanks for reading 

*hugs everyone*

[Through the Living Wrath he/him]

6 hours ago, Dabi said:

You ever just wanna not

 

I got pulled over

My dumba** bumped my headlights, they shut off, I got pulled over, had to call and WAKE UP MY DAD and ask for insurance stuff cause I couldn't find the paper, and now I'm just freaking out and crying and just losing my mind

 

I can't even express how stupid I feel

*sigh*

That's my short bit

Thanks for reading 

*hugs everyone*

*hugsyhugs*

[Keke They/he]

6 hours ago, Dabi said:

You ever just wanna not

 

I got pulled over

My dumba** bumped my headlights, they shut off, I got pulled over, had to call and WAKE UP MY DAD and ask for insurance stuff cause I couldn't find the paper, and now I'm just freaking out and crying and just losing my mind

 

I can't even express how stupid I feel

*sigh*

That's my short bit

Thanks for reading 

*hugs everyone*

*wimce* oi cops

Yeah it's ok. It's cops. *hug hug* @Aredhel can relate to being in that situation

[ANHlittleinsane girl but gendern't mostly]

7 hours ago, Dabi said:

You ever just wanna not

 

I got pulled over

My dumba** bumped my headlights, they shut off, I got pulled over, had to call and WAKE UP MY DAD and ask for insurance stuff cause I couldn't find the paper, and now I'm just freaking out and crying and just losing my mind

 

I can't even express how stupid I feel

*sigh*

That's my short bit

Thanks for reading 

*hugs everyone*

*hugshugshugshugs*

you are not stupid

i know you feel stupid, but that doesn't mean you ARE

it's ok, we all freeze up and get scared

authority figures are scary

you are validddddd

[Keke They/he]

Ahem happy rant?

Spoiler

First. I finally gained enough self confidence to wear shorts!!!! That's probably gonna die half way though the day but dc is HOT and HUMID and I won't survive in pants today. 

And we figured out the system for the metro and busses so now we don't have walk 10010929 miles!!!!!

Oh and 

Spoiler

Yesterday at the temple two people thought I was a guy!! Yeah finally context for abything churchbi just stick with being a girl  minus dresses and stuff

And i was mistaken for a boy twice!!!!!!!!!! That makes me so happy cause I 80percent of the time go by he him 

 

Edited April 4, 2025 by Hawks

[ANHlittleinsane girl but gendern't mostly]

5 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Ahem happy rant?

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First. I finally gained enough self confidence to wear shorts!!!! That's probably gonna die half way though the day but dc is HOT and HUMID and I won't survive in pants today. 

And we figured out the system for the metro and busses so now we don't have walk 10010929 miles!!!!!

Oh and 

  Hide contents

Yesterday at the temple two people thought I was a guy!! Yeah finally context for abything churchbi just stick with being a girl  minus dresses and stuff

And i was mistaken for a boy twice!!!!!!!!!! That makes me so happy cause I 80percent of the time go by he him 

 

Yay!!! congratsss!!!

 

[Shatter He/Him]

15 hours ago, SpiritOfWrath said:

I have…

I have rant.

  Reveal hidden contents

I hate myself. Whenever I think I’m doing well, I do something stupid, say something stupid, think something prideful, and it just…

I hate it. I feel like the personality I show the world, the filtered face, it’s just so different, and I desperately want to be that person and I hope I can be and know I am but I don’t feel I am.

And… it hurts. I don’t know if I am medically depressed, but I feel like I am. I don’t have kms/sh thoughts, but sometimes I just mentally abuse myself, whether it be because of some unrealistic hope or some overly and overtly prideful thought. I feel like half of me is overly prideful, and the other half is determined to punish itself for the pride.

*sigh*

 

*Hugs*

we can be sad together

35 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Ahem happy rant?

  Hide contents

First. I finally gained enough self confidence to wear shorts!!!! That's probably gonna die half way though the day but dc is HOT and HUMID and I won't survive in pants today. 

And we figured out the system for the metro and busses so now we don't have walk 10010929 miles!!!!!

Oh and 

  Hide contents

Yesterday at the temple two people thought I was a guy!! Yeah finally context for abything churchbi just stick with being a girl  minus dresses and stuff

And i was mistaken for a boy twice!!!!!!!!!! That makes me so happy cause I 80percent of the time go by he him 

 

Yay hawks!

im feeling a bit better today. not much but I've gone from a 1 to a 3 on the rubber duck scale

[Keke They/he]

13 minutes ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

*Hugs*

we can be sad together

Yay hawks!

im feeling a bit better today. not much but I've gone from a 1 to a 3 on the rubber duck scale

*hugs* 

*thinks*

*hugs but no let go*

[Shatter He/Him]

6 minutes ago, Hawks said:

*hugs* 

*thinks*

*hugs but no let go*

uh oh

*Tries to get out of hug*

*fails*

*gives into hug*

Edited April 4, 2025 by The Shattered Cosmere

[Keke They/he]

Just now, The Shattered Cosmere said:

uh oh

*Tries to get out of hug*

*fails*

*gives into hug*

*pat pat*

You no leave till you feel better

*sits down. Gives chocolate*

[Shatter He/Him]

*eats chocolate*

yummy

*sighs*

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

6 hours ago, Hawks said:

Ahem happy rant?

  Hide contents

First. I finally gained enough self confidence to wear shorts!!!! That's probably gonna die half way though the day but dc is HOT and HUMID and I won't survive in pants today. 

And we figured out the system for the metro and busses so now we don't have walk 10010929 miles!!!!!

Oh and 

  Hide contents

Yesterday at the temple two people thought I was a guy!! Yeah finally context for abything churchbi just stick with being a girl  minus dresses and stuff

And i was mistaken for a boy twice!!!!!!!!!! That makes me so happy cause I 80percent of the time go by he him 

 

Ohhhh yay!

*squeeze*

I'm so happy for you, Hawks!

5 hours ago, Hawks said:

*pat pat*

You no leave till you feel better

*sits down. Gives chocolate*

4 hours ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

*eats chocolate*

yummy

*sighs*

*joins hug*

*gives soup*

'tis my specialty, now

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

On 4/3/2025 at 8:20 AM, The Shattered Cosmere said:

Ok. Here we go again…

Warning: Suicidal thoughts, attempted suicide, parental problems, depression

  Reveal hidden contents

Ok. Let's go back a month and a half. My younger sister (3 years younger) (we'll call her R) has mental challenges. My parents won't tell me what they are, but I suspect depression. R tried to commit suicide through Tylenol overdose, but after she went to my parents and told them, my parents called 911 and got her to the hospital. R stayed there for around two weeks.

My sister's best friend (we'll call her M) was so distraught, she tried to commit suicide through Tylenol overdose. M is close to me since she is like a third sister. She went to the hospital for 3 days and was released because it was caused by R trying to commit suicide.

I had a huge mental breakdown after that, but Baruch Hashem, was there, and he talked me through it and recommended me to write my parents a letter about my problems because I find it very hard. Which I did, but I didn't give it to them because it wasn't ready. My sister was released from the hospital and everything was fine. Until a few days ago.

Two days ago, I finally followed through on @#1 Taln Fan's advice and finished the letter and I put it in my mother's jacket, and she read it. I thought we were going to talk, but then R broke down, and she was committed to the hospital.

This seems to have overshadowed me and my issues, and my parents weren't able to talk to me. 

Also, my parents don't allow me to go on the Shard at home now, so I'll have to back out of all my RP's… 

I hate my parents and I love my parents at the same time. How do I do that?

I feel sad.

I feel small.

I feel as though no one cares.

I feel broken.

I feel inconsequential.

I feel no one likes me.

I feel lonely.

I feel pressured to fit in.

I feel hurt.

I feel depressed.

 

Oh, dang...

I feel like our issues often take a backseat to the crises happening right now. It's okay to feel sad that things are happening and your'e not getting what you need right now. Just hang on until it comes. 

In the meantime, *hugs*

On 4/3/2025 at 10:56 AM, Hawks said:

Okokok 

Two songs you need to listen to NOW 

It's gonna be OK by the piano guys

Victim or survivor by citizen soldier and icon for hire

I've listened to and LOVE the first one. 

21 hours ago, SpiritOfWrath said:

I have…

I have rant.

  Reveal hidden contents

I hate myself. Whenever I think I’m doing well, I do something stupid, say something stupid, think something prideful, and it just…

I hate it. I feel like the personality I show the world, the filtered face, it’s just so different, and I desperately want to be that person and I hope I can be and know I am but I don’t feel I am.

And… it hurts. I don’t know if I am medically depressed, but I feel like I am. I don’t have kms/sh thoughts, but sometimes I just mentally abuse myself, whether it be because of some unrealistic hope or some overly and overtly prideful thought. I feel like half of me is overly prideful, and the other half is determined to punish itself for the pride.

*sigh*

 

*hugs*

I think the most important thing is to ignore yourself.

I'm serious. Practice doublethink. Know that you're imperfect and see those flaws, but realize that you can only work on them a little at a time. Work with your personality, not against it. You'll be okay, and you're a great person. *hugs*

19 hours ago, SpiritOfWrath said:

It was

  Reveal hidden contents

A junior in high school at a track meet got stabbed - he died in his twin’s arms.

He was stabbed by a senior from another school.

The senior did it over seating.

I…

 

oh freaking gosh

*squeeze*

That's awful

13 hours ago, Dabi said:

You ever just wanna not

 

I got pulled over

My dumba** bumped my headlights, they shut off, I got pulled over, had to call and WAKE UP MY DAD and ask for insurance stuff cause I couldn't find the paper, and now I'm just freaking out and crying and just losing my mind

 

I can't even express how stupid I feel

*sigh*

That's my short bit

Thanks for reading 

*hugs everyone*

*many hugs*

getting pulled over is my n i g h t m a r e. 

5 hours ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

uh oh

*Tries to get out of hug*

*fails*

*gives into hug*

Hah, too bad. You have to have the hugs. 

*extra box of hugs*

[Just-A-Stick she/her]

22 hours ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*squeeze*

yayyyyyyyy for periods . . .

not excited for mine to start soon- my sister's just did this morning so hooray . . . -__-

ILL HANG OUT WITH YOU SO THAT WE CAN BE MISRABLE TOGETHERS

 

On 4/3/2025 at 10:20 AM, The Shattered Cosmere said:

Ok. Here we go again…

Warning: Suicidal thoughts, attempted suicide, parental problems, depression

  Reveal hidden contents

Ok. Let's go back a month and a half. My younger sister (3 years younger) (we'll call her R) has mental challenges. My parents won't tell me what they are, but I suspect depression. R tried to commit suicide through Tylenol overdose, but after she went to my parents and told them, my parents called 911 and got her to the hospital. R stayed there for around two weeks.

My sister's best friend (we'll call her M) was so distraught, she tried to commit suicide through Tylenol overdose. M is close to me since she is like a third sister. She went to the hospital for 3 days and was released because it was caused by R trying to commit suicide.

I had a huge mental breakdown after that, but Baruch Hashem, was there, and he talked me through it and recommended me to write my parents a letter about my problems because I find it very hard. Which I did, but I didn't give it to them because it wasn't ready. My sister was released from the hospital and everything was fine. Until a few days ago.

Two days ago, I finally followed through on @#1 Taln Fan's advice and finished the letter and I put it in my mother's jacket, and she read it. I thought we were going to talk, but then R broke down, and she was committed to the hospital.

This seems to have overshadowed me and my issues, and my parents weren't able to talk to me. 

Also, my parents don't allow me to go on the Shard at home now, so I'll have to back out of all my RP's… 

I hate my parents and I love my parents at the same time. How do I do that?

I feel sad.

I feel small.

I feel as though no one cares.

I feel broken.

I feel inconsequential.

I feel no one likes me.

I feel lonely.

I feel pressured to fit in.

I feel hurt.

I feel depressed.

 

*tons and tons of hugs*

I get that.

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

Just now, Just-A-Stick said:

ILL HANG OUT WITH YOU SO THAT WE CAN BE MISRABLE TOGETHERS

 

*tons and tons of hugs*

I get that.

YAY

yeah it's going now yay -__-

*squeeze*

[Through the Living Hope]

Just now, Through The Living Glass said:

YAY

yeah it's going now yay -__-

*squeeze*

Yippee...

I've seen (but haven't fact checked) that if multiple women live together their cycles can start to line up with each other

On 4/3/2025 at 9:20 AM, The Shattered Cosmere said:

Ok. Here we go again…

Warning: Suicidal thoughts, attempted suicide, parental problems, depression

  Reveal hidden contents

Ok. Let's go back a month and a half. My younger sister (3 years younger) (we'll call her R) has mental challenges. My parents won't tell me what they are, but I suspect depression. R tried to commit suicide through Tylenol overdose, but after she went to my parents and told them, my parents called 911 and got her to the hospital. R stayed there for around two weeks.

My sister's best friend (we'll call her M) was so distraught, she tried to commit suicide through Tylenol overdose. M is close to me since she is like a third sister. She went to the hospital for 3 days and was released because it was caused by R trying to commit suicide.

I had a huge mental breakdown after that, but Baruch Hashem, was there, and he talked me through it and recommended me to write my parents a letter about my problems because I find it very hard. Which I did, but I didn't give it to them because it wasn't ready. My sister was released from the hospital and everything was fine. Until a few days ago.

Two days ago, I finally followed through on @#1 Taln Fan's advice and finished the letter and I put it in my mother's jacket, and she read it. I thought we were going to talk, but then R broke down, and she was committed to the hospital.

This seems to have overshadowed me and my issues, and my parents weren't able to talk to me. 

Also, my parents don't allow me to go on the Shard at home now, so I'll have to back out of all my RP's… 

I hate my parents and I love my parents at the same time. How do I do that?

I feel sad.

I feel small.

I feel as though no one cares.

I feel broken.

I feel inconsequential.

I feel no one likes me.

I feel lonely.

I feel pressured to fit in.

I feel hurt.

I feel depressed.

 

*hug*

I'm here if you need someone to talk to

[Just-A-Stick she/her]

3 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

YAY

yeah it's going now yay -__-

*squeeze*

*brings back rubs and brownies and chocolate and fluffy warm blanket pile and hot cocoa and all the things*

*fluffs a kitten onto your lap*

 

3 minutes ago, Spark of Hope said:

Yippee...

I've seen (but haven't fact checked) that if multiple women live together their cycles can start to line up with each other

I've heard that it lines up especially with those you're emotionally close to 

(makes time in my IRL friend group interesting cuz we all get it at once xD)

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

2 minutes ago, Spark of Hope said:

Yippee...

I've seen (but haven't fact checked) that if multiple women live together their cycles can start to line up with each other

. . . I remember hearing about that a while ago

I think that's true, honestly.

'Cus mine was a week late but so was my sister's

idk

hmmm

1 minute ago, Just-A-Stick said:

*brings back rubs and brownies and chocolate and fluffy warm blanket pile and hot cocoa and all the things*

*fluffs a kitten onto your lap*

 

I've heard that it lines up especially with those you're emotionally close to 

(makes time in my IRL friend group interesting cuz we all get it at once xD)

. . . that sounds amazing

thank you

[Just-A-Stick she/her]

2 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

. . . I remember hearing about that a while ago

I think that's true, honestly.

'Cus mine was a week late but so was my sister's

idk

hmmm

. . . that sounds amazing

thank you

you welcome!!!

[Shatter He/Him]

On 4/3/2025 at 10:20 AM, The Shattered Cosmere said:

Ok. Here we go again…

Warning: Suicidal thoughts, attempted suicide, parental problems, depression

Spoiler

Ok. Let's go back a month and a half. My younger sister (3 years younger) (we'll call her R) has mental challenges. My parents won't tell me what they are, but I suspect depression. R tried to commit suicide through Tylenol overdose, but after she went to my parents and told them, my parents called 911 and got her to the hospital. R stayed there for around two weeks.

My sister's best friend (we'll call her M) was so distraught, she tried to commit suicide through Tylenol overdose. M is close to me since she is like a third sister. She went to the hospital for 3 days and was released because it was caused by R trying to commit suicide.

I had a huge mental breakdown after that, but Baruch Hashem, was there, and he talked me through it and recommended me to write my parents a letter about my problems because I find it very hard. Which I did, but I didn't give it to them because it wasn't ready. My sister was released from the hospital and everything was fine. Until a few days ago.

Two days ago, I finally followed through on @#1 Taln Fan's advice and finished the letter and I put it in my mother's jacket, and she read it. I thought we were going to talk, but then R broke down, and she was committed to the hospital.

This seems to have overshadowed me and my issues, and my parents weren't able to talk to me. 

Also, my parents don't allow me to go on the Shard at home now, so I'll have to back out of all my RP's… 

I hate my parents and I love my parents at the same time. How do I do that?

I feel sad.

I feel small.

I feel as though no one cares.

I feel broken.

I feel inconsequential.

I feel no one likes me.

I feel lonely.

I feel pressured to fit in.

I feel hurt.

I feel depressed.

Good news, I guess...

My mother and I are going to have a talk about access to computers and the shard at home for mental health.

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 minute ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

Good news, I guess...

My mother and I are going to have a talk about access to computers and the shard at home for mental health.

*hug*

Okay . . . what does that mean?

[Shatter He/Him]

27 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*joins hug*

*gives soup*

'tis my specialty, now

si it chicken soup?

it has to be chicken soup.

thats the soup that cures everything

at least according to my bubby (grandmother in yiddish)

22 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

Oh, dang...

I feel like our issues often take a backseat to the crises happening right now. It's okay to feel sad that things are happening and your'e not getting what you need right now. Just hang on until it comes. 

In the meantime, *hugs*

I've listened to and LOVE the first one. 

*hugs*

I think the most important thing is to ignore yourself.

I'm serious. Practice doublethink. Know that you're imperfect and see those flaws, but realize that you can only work on them a little at a time. Work with your personality, not against it. You'll be okay, and you're a great person. *hugs*

oh freaking gosh

*squeeze*

That's awful

*many hugs*

Hah, too bad. You have to have the hugs. 

*extra box of hugs*

thanks

where do you get boxes of hugs?

9 minutes ago, Just-A-Stick said:

*tons and tons of hugs*

I get that.

*hugs back*

6 minutes ago, Spark of Hope said:

*hug*

I'm here if you need someone to talk to

thanks

i might take you up on that offer sometime

3 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*hug*

Okay . . . what does that mean?

They found out I was on the Shard late at night and banned me from non-school work on computers (I don't have a phone)

I wrote a letter to my parents about my mental health and this thread, and now they might talk about restoring my computer time

[Keke They/he]

34 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

Ohhhh yay!

*squeeze*

I'm so happy for you, Hawks!

*joins hug*

*gives soup*

'tis my specialty, now

 

29 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

Oh, dang...

I feel like our issues often take a backseat to the crises happening right now. It's okay to feel sad that things are happening and your'e not getting what you need right now. Just hang on until it comes. 

In the meantime, *hugs*

I've listened to and LOVE the first one. 

*hugs*

I think the most important thing is to ignore yourself.

I'm serious. Practice doublethink. Know that you're imperfect and see those flaws, but realize that you can only work on them a little at a time. Work with your personality, not against it. You'll be okay, and you're a great person. *hugs*

oh freaking gosh

*squeeze*

That's awful

*many hugs*

getting pulled over is my n i g h t m a r e. 

Hah, too bad. You have to have the hugs. 

*extra box of hugs*

Mmmmm

S o u p

*groups hugs*

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 minute ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

si it chicken soup?

it has to be chicken soup.

thats the soup that cures everything

at least according to my bubby (grandmother in yiddish)

thanks

where do you get boxes of hugs?

*hugs back*

thanks

i might take you up on that offer sometime

They found out I was on the Shard late at night and banned me from non-school work on computers (I don't have a phone)

I wrote a letter to my parents about my mental health and this thread, and now they might talk about restoring my computer time

'Tis indeed chicken soup

*squeeze*

oh

hmm

I hope so

[Through the Living Hope]

1 minute ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

si it chicken soup?

it has to be chicken soup.

thats the soup that cures everything

at least according to my bubby (grandmother in yiddish)

thanks

where do you get boxes of hugs?

*hugs back*

thanks

i might take you up on that offer sometime

They found out I was on the Shard late at night and banned me from non-school work on computers (I don't have a phone)

I wrote a letter to my parents about my mental health and this thread, and now they might talk about restoring my computer time

That's good. I wrote a letter to my dad once (he didn't like our cat and made lots of jabs about getting rid of him in various ways. I don't think I believed it deep down but it still scared me because I love this cat) and I told him that if he got rid of our cat, I wouldn't ever talk to him again.

Now, had that happened, I don't think I would have followed through with it. I'd written it in an emotional place after one of the jabs. But my dad talked to me about it and has since stopped making those remarks. It does work, at least in my experience

Different situation, but I thought it still applied.