Mental health club!

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

5 hours ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

Good news

The extensive needs program at the hospital has started for me. I'll get 7 months out of them before I age out.

*grumble*

Anyway, my mothers in a meeting with them now

Aw, yay

*squeezes*

5 hours ago, WhyEverNot_8 said:

*pain* 

I 

am an idiotic fool 

and I am tumbling down the backside of the wave again 

I honestly really need physical hugs but I can’t have them ,_,

 

4 hours ago, WhyEverNot_8 said:

I’ll take ‘em 

*hugs back* 

just me being an idiot 

and I suck at relationships and 

I don’t know 

I just suck in general

you don't suck

3 hours ago, Mag said:

Good morning!!!

klkjflkasd I woke up really anxious this morning, but getting up helped a little. Registration for college opens today, so I have to somehow figure out how that works and get that started. We do have an after school studio session for my art class today, but I'm thinking about skipping . . . I also have homework to do . . . 

I hate being busy 

*squeeze*

[Mags she/they]

why do I have to be tired all the time (T--T)

I agreed to hang out with my friends for a few hours after school and I'm trying really hard not to dread it. I love them to absolute bits but doing anything at someone else's house (especially right after school) is so exhausting for me. I'm trying really hard to be a better friend and to show up for them more often because I felt like I was slacking a lot on that .... but it's so hard when the school day has already sapped my energy.

I'm lucky my last class is a work day--I'm tempted not to actually study but just try and do something relaxing in an attempt to recharge. I wish I could lay down somewhere or something and close my eyes.

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

4 minutes ago, Mag said:

why do I have to be tired all the time (T--T)

I agreed to hang out with my friends for a few hours after school and I'm trying really hard not to dread it. I love them to absolute bits but doing anything at someone else's house (especially right after school) is so exhausting for me. I'm trying really hard to be a better friend and to show up for them more often because I felt like I was slacking a lot on that .... but it's so hard when the school day has already sapped my energy.

I'm lucky my last class is a work day--I'm tempted not to actually study but just try and do something relaxing in an attempt to recharge. I wish I could lay down somewhere or something and close my eyes.

*squeeze*

You don't have to go if you don't want to

I'm sure they'd understand if you just wanted to stay home and take a nap

But if you want to go I hope you have fun

yeah the tired thing is real

[Mags she/they]

1 minute ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*squeeze*

You don't have to go if you don't want to

I'm sure they'd understand if you just wanted to stay home and take a nap

But if you want to go I hope you have fun

yeah the tired thing is real

I know it's just I cancelled last time  and if I keep cancelling on them they might be frustrated

[#1 Taln Fan he/him]

22 minutes ago, Mag said:

why do I have to be tired all the time (T--T)

I agreed to hang out with my friends for a few hours after school and I'm trying really hard not to dread it. I love them to absolute bits but doing anything at someone else's house (especially right after school) is so exhausting for me. I'm trying really hard to be a better friend and to show up for them more often because I felt like I was slacking a lot on that .... but it's so hard when the school day has already sapped my energy.

I'm lucky my last class is a work day--I'm tempted not to actually study but just try and do something relaxing in an attempt to recharge. I wish I could lay down somewhere or something and close my eyes.

If you really need to not go and just rest, then just be honest and explain that. 

23 minutes ago, Mag said:

why do I have to be tired all the time (T--T)

 

Mood, same here. Stayed up till 1:30 doing Chem II hw last night, and my body woke up at 7:30 and wouldn't go back to sleep xD

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

8 minutes ago, Mag said:

I know it's just I cancelled last time  and if I keep cancelling on them they might be frustrated

It's still okay

If you just explain what's going on, I'm sure they won't mind

You don't have to go every time. 

[Mags she/they]

19 minutes ago, #1 Taln Fan said:

If you really need to not go and just rest, then just be honest and explain that. 

Mood, same here. Stayed up till 1:30 doing Chem II hw last night, and my body woke up at 7:30 and wouldn't go back to sleep xD

17 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

It's still okay

If you just explain what's going on, I'm sure they won't mind

You don't have to go every time. 

. . . yeah I was hoping my back would stop hurting but it hasn't and it hurts enough I'm having a hard time thinking. I think I've decided not to go 

[Keke They/he]

Here we go again

Game day pt two.

Hopefully i actually get put in today

Idk which school it is. So idk if there good or not

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

2 hours ago, Mag said:

. . . yeah I was hoping my back would stop hurting but it hasn't and it hurts enough I'm having a hard time thinking. I think I've decided not to go 

*squeeze*

Alright then

Whatever you think is best

Sorry your back's hurting

1 hour ago, Hawks said:

Here we go again

Game day pt two.

Hopefully i actually get put in today

Idk which school it is. So idk if there good or not

*hug*

YOU GOT THIS

LUCK!!

[Keke They/he]

Welcome back to another episode of this is why i dont stormING PLAY SPORTS!!

Spoiler

Itftfhg  gonna crash out. My entire life I've had [redacted] luck with teams. And this one is no different. 

Reason one. STILL WASNT PUT IN!! Ok I get thar I'm not the best. But I work harder then half the girls and put in way more effort. I know that as a fact not just me being prideful. And there's this girl. An absolute ass. Let's call her Tal. Tal is very bossy and she was on my bb team before. We were both on the sub "bench" list. I'm on the top of it. Meaning I'm the first option for a sub. Now tal is like last. This slontze is bossssyyy after. She tells me to do everything and geuss what? I do it. Bc everyone already hates me irl. I do alot. I go sit in the dug our when people need to use a helmet for batting. I give up my seat. Geuss. Who doesn't do rust. Tal. Geuss who says whenever I try to stand up for myself will say dude don't be selfish. Tal. AND GEUSS WHO GOT PUT IN THE stormING GAME INSTEAD? tal. She does nothing. She doesn't put in any effort. She fakes her warm ups. All she does is sit around during the game. When I'm trying my best, getting foul balls, grabbing people bats when they need them, getting gloves and helmets. All while cheering really loud for my team bc I love most of them. She sits down and judges me for everything. 

 

Second. They talk about me behind my back but in this case my back is infront of me. They will talk to me then go to their friend and whisper and point at me. Idk what their saying. I know that it probably bad. I hear them say "she's weird" or "why's she even on the team" "she sucks" WHAT THE HELL?! all I've ever done is be nice. I do everything I can to make others happy. Then they turn around and bs me! This is what being kind gets you. I literally don't say or do anything mean. I overly apologize for everything.  And there's only like 6 people who are kind to me. And half of them still turn around and rust talk me. 

 

Three, we go to do warm ups. I'm searching for a partner. Nope nope nope. It's like a punishment. The person who is last to get a partner is stuck with me. Nobody. Not even a few people wanna partner with me. They all find a way to not. THE storm! IM SICK OF PEOPLE. 

I WANT TO PLAY A SPORT I LIKE AND I CANT EVEN DO THAT WITHOUT THE stormING DRAMA! ITS stormING STUPID! I just want to have fun! Everyone else has the friends they talk to during practice when I get isolated then made fun of. 

I dont want to quit bc people put alot of time and money into this. I love softball so much and it's all I want to do but I HAVE THE WORST LUCK WITH TEAMS!!

 

[Through the Living Hope]

2 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Welcome back to another episode of this is why i dont stormING PLAY SPORTS!!

  Hide contents

Itftfhg  gonna crash out. My entire life I've had [redacted] luck with teams. And this one is no different. 

Reason one. STILL WASNT PUT IN!! Ok I get thar I'm not the best. But I work harder then half the girls and put in way more effort. I know that as a fact not just me being prideful. And there's this girl. An absolute ass. Let's call her Tal. Tal is very bossy and she was on my bb team before. We were both on the sub "bench" list. I'm on the top of it. Meaning I'm the first option for a sub. Now tal is like last. This slontze is bossssyyy after. She tells me to do everything and geuss what? I do it. Bc everyone already hates me irl. I do alot. I go sit in the dug our when people need to use a helmet for batting. I give up my seat. Geuss. Who doesn't do rust. Tal. Geuss who says whenever I try to stand up for myself will say dude don't be selfish. Tal. AND GEUSS WHO GOT PUT IN THE stormING GAME INSTEAD? tal. She does nothing. She doesn't put in any effort. She fakes her warm ups. All she does is sit around during the game. When I'm trying my best, getting foul balls, grabbing people bats when they need them, getting gloves and helmets. All while cheering really loud for my team bc I love most of them. She sits down and judges me for everything. 

 

Second. They talk about me behind my back but in this case my back is infront of me. They will talk to me then go to their friend and whisper and point at me. Idk what their saying. I know that it probably bad. I hear them say "she's weird" or "why's she even on the team" "she sucks" WHAT THE HELL?! all I've ever done is be nice. I do everything I can to make others happy. Then they turn around and bs me! This is what being kind gets you. I literally don't say or do anything mean. I overly apologize for everything.  And there's only like 6 people who are kind to me. And half of them still turn around and rust talk me. 

 

Three, we go to do warm ups. I'm searching for a partner. Nope nope nope. It's like a punishment. The person who is last to get a partner is stuck with me. Nobody. Not even a few people wanna partner with me. They all find a way to not. THE storm! IM SICK OF PEOPLE. 

I WANT TO PLAY A SPORT I LIKE AND I CANT EVEN DO THAT WITHOUT THE stormING DRAMA! ITS stormING STUPID! I just want to have fun! Everyone else has the friends they talk to during practice when I get isolated then made fun of. 

I dont want to quit bc people put alot of time and money into this. I love softball so much and it's all I want to do but I HAVE THE WORST LUCK WITH TEAMS!!

 

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

20 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Welcome back to another episode of this is why i dont stormING PLAY SPORTS!!

  Hide contents

Itftfhg  gonna crash out. My entire life I've had [redacted] luck with teams. And this one is no different. 

Reason one. STILL WASNT PUT IN!! Ok I get thar I'm not the best. But I work harder then half the girls and put in way more effort. I know that as a fact not just me being prideful. And there's this girl. An absolute ass. Let's call her Tal. Tal is very bossy and she was on my bb team before. We were both on the sub "bench" list. I'm on the top of it. Meaning I'm the first option for a sub. Now tal is like last. This slontze is bossssyyy after. She tells me to do everything and geuss what? I do it. Bc everyone already hates me irl. I do alot. I go sit in the dug our when people need to use a helmet for batting. I give up my seat. Geuss. Who doesn't do rust. Tal. Geuss who says whenever I try to stand up for myself will say dude don't be selfish. Tal. AND GEUSS WHO GOT PUT IN THE stormING GAME INSTEAD? tal. She does nothing. She doesn't put in any effort. She fakes her warm ups. All she does is sit around during the game. When I'm trying my best, getting foul balls, grabbing people bats when they need them, getting gloves and helmets. All while cheering really loud for my team bc I love most of them. She sits down and judges me for everything. 

 

Second. They talk about me behind my back but in this case my back is infront of me. They will talk to me then go to their friend and whisper and point at me. Idk what their saying. I know that it probably bad. I hear them say "she's weird" or "why's she even on the team" "she sucks" WHAT THE HELL?! all I've ever done is be nice. I do everything I can to make others happy. Then they turn around and bs me! This is what being kind gets you. I literally don't say or do anything mean. I overly apologize for everything.  And there's only like 6 people who are kind to me. And half of them still turn around and rust talk me. 

 

Three, we go to do warm ups. I'm searching for a partner. Nope nope nope. It's like a punishment. The person who is last to get a partner is stuck with me. Nobody. Not even a few people wanna partner with me. They all find a way to not. THE storm! IM SICK OF PEOPLE. 

I WANT TO PLAY A SPORT I LIKE AND I CANT EVEN DO THAT WITHOUT THE stormING DRAMA! ITS stormING STUPID! I just want to have fun! Everyone else has the friends they talk to during practice when I get isolated then made fun of. 

I dont want to quit bc people put alot of time and money into this. I love softball so much and it's all I want to do but I HAVE THE WORST LUCK WITH TEAMS!!

 

*squeeze*

oh my gosh

Can I come beat these awful people please

In a private setting

We'll wear masks so they don't know who we are

. . . if you're up for it, of course. And no offense to the ones who are nice.

[Keke They/he]

23 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*squeeze*

oh my gosh

Can I come beat these awful people please

In a private setting

We'll wear masks so they don't know who we are

. . . if you're up for it, of course. And no offense to the ones who are nice.

Yes. Please. 

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

2 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Yes. Please.

*grabs some masks*

Weapons or no weapons?

Spoiler

For legal reasons this is all a joke

 

[Keke They/he]

Just now, Through The Living Glass said:

*grabs some masks*

Weapons or no weapons?

  Reveal hidden contents

For legal reasons this is all a joke

 

Spoiler

Yes

let's just beat the rust out of them and make em rethink their lives 

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 minute ago, Hawks said:

  Reveal hidden contents

Yes

let's just beat the rust out of them and make em rethink their lives 

Yessir

*puts weapons away*

When and where?

[Keke They/he]

2 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

Yessir

*puts weapons away*

When and where?

The back east field next to the airport on Tuesday at 330 pm est

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

3 minutes ago, Hawks said:

The back east field next to the airport on Tuesday at 330 pm est

Will do

See you then

[reisleK she/her]

On 3/27/2025 at 11:32 PM, MirkerLurker said:

I'm going to give a piece of advice, but ultimately, it's up to you. First, a word of encouragement: Life will continue regardless of what you choose. You, and he, can move on and grow and heal either way. Your choice is important, but it's not world-ending. Breathe, relax, and think it through.

Advice: Emotions are unreliable. Important, but unreliable. Think about how compatible you guys are from a lifestyle standpoint: Do you tend to make decisions together well? Do you work well together, are you able to talk through and resolve conflict with each other? Do you have things you enjoy together - activities, interests? Do you have shared or similar belief systems (that one might sound odd, but it's a lot easier to trust and work with someone who is approaching life from the same base assumptions that you are). I know you're only in high school right now, so you're not thinking of long-term, but it sounds like he is, and that's scaring you a little. Can you guys talk through that? Is that indicative that you two don't approach this the same way?
Long-distance relationships can be hard to continue to feel the emotions of, depending on how you receive love. For me, I emotionally feel loved and cared for through touch, so a long-distance relationship didn't give me that at all. (My at-the-time bf and I were long-distance for a year, and it was rough for me. And mind you, that was emotionally specifically - logically, my bf was taking care of me well, phone calls, messages, visting when possible, etc. I knew logically he was amazing, but emotionally I was struggling.)
But for someone who emotionally feels loved when someone listens to them and has good conversation with them and spends time with them, that can work more easily with phone calls and video calls, and the emotions still come through. Remember, your emotions don't always line up with your logic. And a large part of a relationship is choice: choosing that one person, again and again, whether your emotions are there or not. Emotional love can grow, and can be grown, with choice and time.
BUT: again, you are in high school. You don't need to be making a committed long-term choice right now. And if the idea of doing that scares you, or makes you uncomfortable, then definitely don't stay in a relationship that would require that in order to grow and function.

*hug*
Hope that helps some, rather than making things more confusing. And if it doesn't help, toss it out!

 

 

Thank you a ton!! School got VERY hectic so I vanished for a bit but I'm back

Haven't made any decisions so far and I'm just taking it one step at a time

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

6 minutes ago, reisleK said:

Thank you a ton!! School got VERY hectic so I vanished for a bit but I'm back

Haven't made any decisions so far and I'm just taking it one step at a time

*squeeze*

Good plan

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

8 hours ago, Mag said:

why do I have to be tired all the time (T--T)

I agreed to hang out with my friends for a few hours after school and I'm trying really hard not to dread it. I love them to absolute bits but doing anything at someone else's house (especially right after school) is so exhausting for me. I'm trying really hard to be a better friend and to show up for them more often because I felt like I was slacking a lot on that .... but it's so hard when the school day has already sapped my energy.

I'm lucky my last class is a work day--I'm tempted not to actually study but just try and do something relaxing in an attempt to recharge. I wish I could lay down somewhere or something and close my eyes.

*hugs*

I get being tired

2 hours ago, Hawks said:

Welcome back to another episode of this is why i dont stormING PLAY SPORTS!!

  Hide contents

Itftfhg  gonna crash out. My entire life I've had [redacted] luck with teams. And this one is no different. 

Reason one. STILL WASNT PUT IN!! Ok I get thar I'm not the best. But I work harder then half the girls and put in way more effort. I know that as a fact not just me being prideful. And there's this girl. An absolute ass. Let's call her Tal. Tal is very bossy and she was on my bb team before. We were both on the sub "bench" list. I'm on the top of it. Meaning I'm the first option for a sub. Now tal is like last. This slontze is bossssyyy after. She tells me to do everything and geuss what? I do it. Bc everyone already hates me irl. I do alot. I go sit in the dug our when people need to use a helmet for batting. I give up my seat. Geuss. Who doesn't do rust. Tal. Geuss who says whenever I try to stand up for myself will say dude don't be selfish. Tal. AND GEUSS WHO GOT PUT IN THE stormING GAME INSTEAD? tal. She does nothing. She doesn't put in any effort. She fakes her warm ups. All she does is sit around during the game. When I'm trying my best, getting foul balls, grabbing people bats when they need them, getting gloves and helmets. All while cheering really loud for my team bc I love most of them. She sits down and judges me for everything. 

 

Second. They talk about me behind my back but in this case my back is infront of me. They will talk to me then go to their friend and whisper and point at me. Idk what their saying. I know that it probably bad. I hear them say "she's weird" or "why's she even on the team" "she sucks" WHAT THE HELL?! all I've ever done is be nice. I do everything I can to make others happy. Then they turn around and bs me! This is what being kind gets you. I literally don't say or do anything mean. I overly apologize for everything.  And there's only like 6 people who are kind to me. And half of them still turn around and rust talk me. 

 

Three, we go to do warm ups. I'm searching for a partner. Nope nope nope. It's like a punishment. The person who is last to get a partner is stuck with me. Nobody. Not even a few people wanna partner with me. They all find a way to not. THE storm! IM SICK OF PEOPLE. 

I WANT TO PLAY A SPORT I LIKE AND I CANT EVEN DO THAT WITHOUT THE stormING DRAMA! ITS stormING STUPID! I just want to have fun! Everyone else has the friends they talk to during practice when I get isolated then made fun of. 

I dont want to quit bc people put alot of time and money into this. I love softball so much and it's all I want to do but I HAVE THE WORST LUCK WITH TEAMS!!

 

*hugs*

Sports…always have drama unfortunately. Like I swear sports people actually have more drama than theater

1 hour ago, Through The Living Glass said:

Yessir

*puts weapons away*

When and where?

1 hour ago, Hawks said:

The back east field next to the airport on Tuesday at 330 pm est

As usual I offer backup/support

[Keke They/he]

Just now, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

*hugs*

I get being tired

*hugs*

Sports…always have drama unfortunately. Like I swear sports people actually have more drama than theater

As usual I offer backup/support

Yay we got the karate dude!!

*hugs* thanks 

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

Just now, Hawks said:

Yay we got the karate dude!!

*hugs* thanks 

It’s one of the things I can be counted on for

I have my purpose in life

[reisleK she/her]

I'd gladly join (I say this with 2 subluxated shoulders because my muscles aren't strong enough to hold them and I made the mistake of helping lift a boat out of the water yesterday)

 

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

Just now, reisleK said:

I'd gladly join (I say this with 2 subluxated shoulders because my muscles aren't strong enough to hold them and I made the mistake of helping lift a boat out of the water yesterday)

 

Oof

Ouch

*hugs gently*