Usseewa

Kinda, and uh no I think finals are just naturally more difficult. I mean.. I just spent like 3-4 hours doing this one math homework (it wasn't even *that* long). (Also just cuz I post here doesn't mean I am or am not an adult) it also helps if you don't use the Shard as much trust me

W3Schools too.. but more when you already kinda know stuff and are looking for info on how to do something you already know. If that makes sense. To be honest, Scratch might be useful too lol (Or any of the other websites that are similar) It uses drag-and-drop block coding (so, not a lot of typing), but teaches you a fair amount of fundamental Computer Science/Programming language concepts. Just.. be aware that there is a large social/community aspect (which you don't necessarily have to engage in at all), but may be distracting eventually, to the point where you find yourself spending more time chatting/commenting than coding. But yeah. I didn't use Khan Academy much.. but from what I did do, it was pretty good I think. I'm excited that you want to learn coding :3

Realizing your whole life is a regret so you shouldn't regret it cuz it's useless to do so

Lol I love it i have decaf sometimes cuz adhd and stuff

Moving!

Hiatus

Dilapidated

"No has to study if they've got it all seen"

a ThErApIst nah jk online socializing at least for me cuz i can talk to people online (better than irl) and not really irl not to say therapists aren't useful, they are, I was just jokin

Being confident in what you say. (Not using question marks lol) (I'm kidding btw pls don't take offense, i do it too) (also please don't be pedantic... i didn't mean not using question marks at all) (whatever this is pointless)

I think Chaos has stated he has a testing account, so he can probably have multiple. aka admin superiority

Lol fair fair I'm gonna try to make a Minesweeper bot, for no reason ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ (except fun) DON'T GIVE ME HINTS LOL

why do you keep saying this I don't understand I know that... in theory, at least. everything i've been trying to say about how i'm confused may be a.. larger issue, since I've seen it with other areas of my life as well. The "don't worry so much about what to call it" advice is good.. I always am like "omg this advice is so good" and then can't remember everything later and sigh.. As for the "don't worry about if you're doing it right"... I don't know. The issue is me not knowing if I'm actually doing what I want. I need to talk about this with my therapist lol... I actually kinda brought it up so we're prolly gonna talk abt it sometime. Actually that's a bit of an understatement. I think I finally had someone understand how storming difficult it is to think sometimes, and know what I think, and talk, and know what I feel, and stuff. At least we talked about part of the issue and will be discussing it in the future, like next time or whatever. I know, I think, but how do I know if I'm just saying it because I know it's a generic reason, or if I'm saying it because - even if I know it's a reason people give - I feel it, too? sometimes I feel like I actually do want breasts, and other times it feels like i'm trying to make myself feel like I want them, or maybe actually searching within myself for that feeling, just to feel.. valid, real, authentic, belonging, comfort or discomfort (comfort from having the discomfort of dysphoria). And wow, that was one of the more true things I've been able to think and write in a while. I.. "want to want" them. They are all appealing, and while I'm not sure if/how much I want them, I wish I did, and I wish I was certain. I wish I adamantly wanted breast, different body shape, softer skin, "better" body/facial hair growth, everything. Maybe I do want them, but I have to move past the barrier I set for myself. You mean like "I knew I was trans since I was 5!" Or even just how it can appear that all your ("your" = "mine"/"Lily's", but I'm also seeing if You (Tess) relates) queer friends just... knew strongly they were queer, and it was obvious to them that it's who they are, and thus you.. aren't queer, since you aren't like that? I actually had someone come out to me once, and... I don't know if I fully got it, or maybe I did. I mean at first I asked if they were joking , cuz we'd been talking about queer stuff a bit (which was honestly probably their way of setting the topic for the discussion and stuff now that I think of it). But they said no, they're not joking, and I.. was like "cool" probably (I don't remember exactly). I think I asked a few questions too, but yeah. But... like that person, I doubt they knew their whole life. Anyway moving on.. It just... would make me feel more authentic, I guess. I don't fully get this, and also I kinda have to figure out my sexuality at some point, unless I'm lesbian like I currently think (which would be awesome lol). Like.. I've heard of people realizing their sexualities were different from what they thought after transitioning, like thinking they are attracted to girls and then (mtf) being attraction to the male humans instead. I have a lot of trouble with choices sometimes. I feel like I should.. let go.. of all these tethers/binds and cages and walls and restrictions and just.. somehow be a cliche metaphorical bird and be free and somewhat unworried and be me instead of "me" But.. sometimes I have the feeling that I just want to be very femme, so I guess very femme enby. Or sometimes androgynously femme enby. But is that just cuz I'm still accepting that I'm a binary trans woman, or is it actually who I am? Or does it not matter, and I just accept what I feel and let life happen? Though to be honest they/them (including she/they or they/she) pronouns aren't always what I want.. but neither are the she/her side of things. This could just be because I'm getting used to such a big change? Everyone suddenly calling me Lily and She/Her.. but at the same time it doesn't feel like I'm fully a girl (in their eyes, and in mine probably), so they're sort of.. not fully convinced, or they're lying, or I'm lying. You know, I've always wanted my name on something. I've always wanted a company, a creation (perhaps software or a tool I programmed), or even something relatively inconsequential like.. the name of my computer or earbuds/headphones, or my phone, or a physical label, or something. Maybe that's normal, or it doesn't mean anything, but yeah. And I've done it, with my deadname. Not sure how I felt about it, but I did it. But I always felt like I wanted a name. Maybe I didn't feel my assigned name match, because I did/wanted the same thing I said above, but in the online space. (Hopefully this next part doesn't reveal too much info) I never made usernames that were like, PurpleLion4532 or whatever (I made that up rn). I always did something that I connected to, and I always wanted to make it known, to have people call me by it, to have it.. be my identity, in a way. I wanted to label my projects with it it (for platforms that allowed sharing stuff), etc. I could attribute this to namesniping culture (basically... on some platforms people try to get "cool" usernames, like words or whatever without any numbers and limited underscores and whatever), but I think I also wanted to stand out and be someone. When I was making my Shard account, I was surprised by how many names weren't taken that would normally be eaten up on many other platforms. I realized that the Shard isn't one of those places (which I'm kinda glad for, as the community is better here imo). I settled on Theory, which was both a namesnipe but I also something I connected to (since I had the intent on posting some Cosmere theories). And.. I made it my identity sorta. I made a pfp (I like doing that), and yeah, when people called me Theory it was nice, like they were kinda.. recognizing or.. what's the word.. 'ng me. I changed it to Usseewa because I didn't connect as much to Theory (and... Theory gave me dysphoria, I think), and I still like when people call me Usseewa, but I love Lily too. Idk if any of this means much, but I feel like it might, even just to me. I think the whole "choosing a cool/unique name" thing is still ingrained in me, but it's not always a bad thing (tho.. sometimes choosing a nondescript/arbitrary/random username can be good for privacy reasons.) But anyway, I always wanted people to know my name (username, lol) and idk, use it? Both me and them. I wanted it to be.. like a real/IRL name is. Ya know? It really shouldn't... But I kinda feel like one minor plus is that if I don't figure it out myself, it opens room up for doubts later down the line.

ohmyado I relate to that too much (if i'm understanding correctly) also, ♪ No mistakes, no pressure ♪ (Surface Pressure, from Encanto. My fave song from that movie.) (referencing the title of this blog entry. the first time i saw it i immediately thought of the song)

what? you mean the "uhh ill respond later"? gimea few girly minutes to respond

i think

bro it's literally blooood basically that nightmare i had a while ago

yeah true.. i think it's just me tho

pinging @Chaos

playing Rockpaperdynamite without more than one other person ...

razing hemalurgy (destroying hemalurgy itself)

wdym like diy? i don't know much abt it but i'd rather not

I tried TIO before but it didn't work, is the ["Hello";8] the Kona equivalent of "inputs"? Like user input? prompt() in JavaScript, input() in Python, cin/getline() in C++? Because that's part of the challenge requirements. Also, (I'm not 100% sure on this) but I sort of wanted it to run in a loop, continuously outputting text with the appearance of a scrolling "marquee" animation. I like codegolfing too! I haven't done as much as I'd like to though, which is part of why I made this thread! Also since you're new here, I'd recommend reading or going over the Code of Conduct and Forum Policies if you haven't already, and the Sharder FAQ if you'd like an overview of the forum features. Sometimes I'm surprised by rules that are different for a site, like I've used sites in the past where many people have more than one account, yet here on the Shard it's strictly prohibited! Anyway yeah, I look forward to more golfing lol. You may be interested in... https://www.17thshard.com/forums/topic/201049-folks-who-can-code/ and https://www.17thshard.com/forums/topic/202132-decodedecipherpuzzle-challenges/ The current puzzle we've kinda given up on is at this comment: https://www.17thshard.com/forums/topic/202132-decodedecipherpuzzle-challenges/page/3/#findComment-2047867

Did you make this account just for the codegolf? Lol. Anyway... sorry I don't quite understand your explanation (not your fault, I just don't have the time to go over it). Where can I run this code to test it? Also, welcome to the Shard lol

HgagagwgggGGGGgagagvag so stormin relatable inwanacry or maybe that's just cuz I'm in a mood but i love it the poem good job ...you might wanna add a self-harm TW?