kajsa ㅇㅅㅇ
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Coffee is better when it’s cold.
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“Rain or shine, I don’t feel a thing,
Just some information upon my skin.”“God, do you hear me? If you’re near,
Don’t know if I’ll go to heaven, but I’ll still be here
Oh, God, if you’re watching,
I want you to know I’ll be fine
Just fine
Don’t need no help from no one, I’m on my own,
I gotta get it together, cuz I’m all alone.”“He left her lonely with a diamond mind.”
“Don’t you know I’m no good for you? …don’t you know too much already?
I’ll only hurt you if you let me. …nothing is better sometimes,
once we’ve both said our goodbyes
Let’s just let it go.
Let me let you go.” -
I drew a thing
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She’s out of proportion but wtvr. Y’all should name her
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*in singsongy voice*
everything is falling apaarrrttttttttt!
parents went out on a date, my older brother ate dinner and then instantly disappeared (to probably play video games), my little brother is throwing a fit because he doesn’t want to eat his green beans, and i’m feeling trapped again. ironic, since it’s such a big house.
sometimes i kind of wish i was a cat. they don’t have to do anything stressful or annoying except poop in a box and wait for their humans to feed them. they get to do whatever they want and sleep all day if that’s really what they feel like.
i should go clean up dinner, then i’m going to flee the other people and go sing, alone, sitting on my bathroom counter. and then later i’ll possibly eat ice cream because my happiness level is rapidly declining.
i
need
to
get
out
of
here
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If I lock myself in the bathroom and just stay here all day, nobody can tell me what to do. …Right?
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Hmm should I join a roleplay?
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Only problem is… I’m lowkey scared of commitment lol
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*gasp*
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Lol I’m sitting outside watching my little sister’s drink/snack stand and our garage sale and the fresh air is nice (and the kool-aid haha)
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Just drown it all out with the music
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¡Buenas dias, mi amigos y amigas! (Yo no hablo Español muy bien xD)
Currently I’m sitting on the floor in my bathroom, listening to Calano’s crying playlist (FIRE playlist btw) bcuz what else is there to do? (the answer is A LOT lol)
@The Halcyon Girl, I know you can’t see these, but I’m gonna try and draw the switcheroo today, though I might find a different reference.
Also I think I have double-jointed elbows and fingers
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Um… plot twist xD
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Yer fired, Lotus. (just kidding )
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i know now
June 8th, 2023
when exactly do you know when you’re not okay anymore?
is it when you feel off, when you start to zone out more and more often?
is it when your usually cool performance cracks a little, but you’re not sure why?
is it when your skin heats up at random, and your hands shake, but there’s no trigger?
is it when you dread coming home, dread the words that will come out of your mother’s mouth, the actions that your brother’s hand might make?
is it when you want to let it all out but you just can’t cry?
when your playlists turn sad, when you don’t smile just because you feel like it?
is it further along, when you don’t smile at all, not for real, anyway?
is it when your appetite drops and spikes at random?
is it when you’re constantly tired but you cannot sleep?
is it when you decide to sleep on the floor because you feel too miserable on the inside for the outside of you to feel pleasure?
is it when you mark up your arms with a knife or a razor, and then eventually anything sharp you can get your hands on?
is it when you stop believing that they love you?
is it when you begin to lay awake at night just to draft suicide letters in your head that you promise you’ll never use?
or will you?
how
do
you
know?
i couldn’t tell you.
but i know.
soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
yeah
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kajsa.
kajsa if the whole world goes up in flames, i promise you that as your brother, i will help you out of the ashes.
you are my sister. i love you as one. i see you as my kin, as that’s the highest way i can view you.
you have people. you have loved ones. you have a family, one that loves you for you, one that cheers you on, one that is here for you every damn step of the way.
you have us. you have all of us. you have me. i, and everyone else, is here for you.
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I got somewhat good sleep last night but still exhausted. Especially after the weird dream lol. Also mental state is kind of just plummeting but hey whatever lol. Idek what this SU is about, maybe just feeling less alone?
my brother thinks he’s funny when he yells and throws things at me. But… it’s just… grrr. It makes me feel grrr.
imma go finish that mountain dew maybe i’ll feel better lmao
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I was ridiculously bored. So I drew Gail as a broccoli.
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GUESS WHAT?
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i have stuff to do but i'm bored instead
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“Why do I get so nervous when I look into your eyes? And butterflies can’t stop me falling for you…”
-GUESS I’M IN LOVE by Clinton Kane
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My brother just took me for a bike ride to Walmart. I’m extremely worn out xD but I got a fancy schmancy donut and a Mountain Dew, so… worth it?
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Um… so… I’m not really supposed to talk about this I don’t think. But I guess my parents noticed how ridiculous the fighting and yelling has gotten because they’re doing couples therapy now. Hmm.
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Today’s been better. *small smile*
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I’ve been awake for maybe 30 minutes, and my mom has already given me about six different jobs and criticized my phone usage. And she also passively aggressively stated that she’s disappointed I’m not eating something healthier for breakfast. Like just let me eat my sugar cereal in peace, woman! It’s already soggy, and I’m depressed and this makes me feel slightly better. …Mentally.
Little morning rant: ^^^
whatever, I think today I’m just not going to care. I’m gonna try to spend as much time away from my mom as I can, even if that means hanging with the little sibs lol.
I actually had a weirdly symbolic dream last night… here, I’ll put it in a spoiler for y’all to read if you want.
SpoilerSo a bit of background here, we have a white minivan—one of those 2019 Hondas with the electric sliding doors on the sides. We also live a walking distance away from Walmart.
Dream:
My dad was driving us all to Walmart, and he dropped me off along with my little brother and sister. My little brother didn’t close the sliding door right, so I went to correct his mistake (this relates to being so laden with jobs, especially those for my little siblings) and my arm got caught in the door (I feel trapped). The car started going again, so I was forced to walk/jog along with it (it was going pretty slow). Eventually, though, my dad noticed and tried to stop the car, but suddenly my mom was in the driver’s seat and going a little faster. My dad tried to talk to her and get her to stop the car but she like physically could not hear or see anything but the road in front of her (symbolic because she has figurative tunnel vision and can’t stop getting things done one after the other to take a break until SHE is ready to stop. She won’t wait for anyone else, and lately I feel especially targeted). Eventually though they got the car to stop and I got my arm free. It looked gnarly lmao—all scratched up and bloody, which is also symbolic because of my current mental state right now. I didn’t really think much of the dream until breakfast, and then I was like “wow, that was really symbolic” lol. So yeah.
@Lotus Blossom, here is the finished product of your prompt:
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It’s a little messy and wonky since I drew half of it in the dark lol but it was really good expression practice!!!! Tons of fun to draw.
Oh, AND, I made it overly dramatic!
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Duolingo needs to stop. They’ve gone too far.
LIKE WHAT?!?! so creepy…
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@Lotus Blossom, I’m one-third of the way done with your prompt. Heh.
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Okay, BotW and TotK fans, I have a song for you. But it’s from muscle memory, and I haven’t played it in a long time. There’s definitely some wrong chords. So bear with me :sweat:
