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*gasp*
You had a birthday WITHOUT me??
Congrats on living another year, you’re awesome my dude
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Miss you guys
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Quote of the day #26:
”I think there should be a rule that everyone in the world should get a standing ovation at least once in their lives.”
Wonder, R. J. Palacio
This is an SU that’s been on my mind for a while. A long, long while.
I still don’t know how to put the words together quite right, but well…
You guys have been a standing ovation like nothing I ever expected, nothing I dared hope for. The shard has been such a fun place to learn, grow, roleplay, and find such a unique kind of friendship. I miss a lot of the older generation who’s gone now, and love the new generation who’s taking things over. It’s been so fun.
And as a lot of you know, I have a really crazy class load this year. I have so many things I’m trying to do, and there’s a whole world out there that I love.
So…
It isn’t really like I’ve been subtle
I love you guys, and I hope my leaving doesn’t make anyone too sad. A lot of you have other ways of communicating with me, and I’m hoping I’ll be back in a few months, maybe towards the end of the school year. I’ll miss roleplaying and chatting and all the things.
But balance has always been so important to me. Even though it’s frustrating and lonely and exhausting, I have a lot of things that I’m not willing to give up. I’m excited and ready for everything that’s coming next, and to truly enjoy it all there are some less than productive things that I’m cutting down on. Screen time is a huge one, more than just the shard. It’s a beautiful life we’re living, you guys, despite all the worst days. Stay safe, please, and remember that there is a God who loves you more than you know how to imagine.
And finally…
SpoilerI’m not a nerd.
SpoilerI never quite figured out how to put this into words in a way that doesn’t feel argumentative, but here goes.
I’m not a nerd because that’s an unshakable label. It’s a word that puts you into a box you can’t escape, no matter how you try. It’s a word you use to describe someone you used to know, a word used to describe someone you were never close to.
It’s a word that has a negative connotation far beyond definitions and logic. It’s the subconscious reactions people have when they hear you described in such a way.
I’m growing. I’m learning. I refuse to be put into a box because if I start to believe it, for even an instant, then my growth stops. I become stagnant. I waste away as the person I am, and lose sight of what I could be.
So call me witty. Call me sharp-tongued, annoying, clever, quick with a quip or wise. Call me words that leave room for growth. Don’t call me a word that forces me to be the person I was yesterday.
I know that isn’t intended.
I know, from you guys, it’s an accepting compliment.
But even a cage of friends is a cage, at least, it is to me.
I’ll see you guys around. Keep living. Keep loving. I thank you for your applause, and I love you guys. (No matter how many times I say it, it never stops being true.)
One family.
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Now, see, this is the problem with going inactive for a bit. I just go to take some time to myself (and band) and I come back and the person who made one of the greatest impacts on my year on the Shard has left. Scud.
Well Eddie, I wish you the best, and I'll pop back in to say hi when you return.
Eddie's not a nerd.
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