shortcake

hi wizzy we miss you a lot

I know we e literally only met in person like once but I still think you're pretty cool

I hope college is going well for you

be good, wizzy

OH HI

guys it's been literally forever since I've been on here WHAT has happened gimme the deets

uh update on my end, I'm getting an apartment with my best friends and I have an anti sewer slide fish so like that's cool

uhhhhh

lifes been a struggle

I hate talking about my feelings because I avoid my problems rather than fixing them

but uh

I was in the mental hospital a few weeks back from thoughts of attempting

I'm relatively okay now but they also didn't really do much for me so it's whatever I guess

if you know me you know I've lived with my grandmother for the first 18 years of my life. that changed in like may this year. I went to live with my friend for a couple months and then I went to live with my mom. that's been really stressful for me. I was looking for literally any excuse I could to just leave. end it. be gone and done with. but I know I have a lot more ahead of me than I realize.

I've been through a lot of crap these last few months. I know I havent really been on here for that and I can't promise that I'll be on a lot in the future, but I want each and every one of you to know that you are loved. you are treasured. you guys are amazing.

@Through The Living Glass you are literally so amazing I can't even begin to explain how much you've helped me

@kajsa girly pops you're doing literally so amazing I love you you know I'll always be here if you ever need me

@Senor Sassy CAL. oh cal. dude you're epic. you're a good dude to yap with and I can't wait for you to come pester me and jeanieweenie bro

@SmilingPanda19 I love you pookie (ask the guy if you want just don't rush it )

@Bird Furious ms haly GIRLY YOURE SO SWAG you're doing great

@WhyEverNot_8 WEN!!! hey you're pretty cool too I can't wait to see what your base will look like in the realm :3

mmm I fear I'm missing people but I'll come back and yap some more if I am

anyways I love EVERYONE here not just the people listed

yall are epic

okay bye thank you for coming to my ted talk

i genuinely wish people would stop putting up with me so I can finally have that little push

hey guess what? you're even older. I can't make fun of you for being an old man very well from far away but you're there for a reason. congrats on being even older, and somehow, wiser. your brain is gonna be so wrinkly haha. we miss you, friendo. hang in there

happy birthday, you weirdo

guys why am I even up I have work in 6 hours and I'm working an 8 hour shift

I'm gonna inplode

people that don't tell you when they get annoyed by something that you do and instead let it eat it away at them until they just blow up at you instead of just telling you what it is that bothers them make me want to throw things at them because how am I supposed to fix something if I don't even know that it's broken

people my hair is rainbow

RAINBOW

ITS GAY

i unlocked a core memory just now (I won't be explaining how, it's a little personal to me)

when I was younger my grandma had a kindle and she would let me play games on it, and there was one particular game that she had on it that I would not stop playing to the point where she had to undownload it from her kindle because I played it so much. it was this game where you played as a vampire and you had to move around the level in these very specific ways to get to the princess to bite her and "suck her blood" and idk I was just thinking like "wow we as a species really evolved to .... this. how anticlimactic

ive got a case of the thinks I suppose haha

also I only just now understood the kindle fire thing

like fire kindles

ehe get it

I'm so dumb haha

hey everybody!

I just want to let y'all know that I'm going to be taking a break from social media for the time being, and unfortunately, that includes this wonderful community on here.

unfortunately, I have been struggling with my mental health for the past few weeks, and I need to take a step back from things in order to better work on myself.

this is not my forever goodbye, but it is a temporary solution for the time being.

you are all amazing people. have an amazing day and don't ever forget your worth. each and every one of you are beautiful individuals. don't let anyone tell you anything different. keep your head up, and hang in there.

guess who got promoteddddd!!!!

hey everybody I got a new hoodie thanks to my mother

@Hawks

idk if you could consider it to be alt but here we go

IM COLD

I SMUGGLED SOMEONE INTO MY CLOSET AND THEY STAYED THE NIGHT I HAVE HUMAN INTERACTION NOW

I'm free

YIPEPEE

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they have covid too and they didn't have any air conditioning since their parents low key suck butt

I told you this already but happy birthday, girly!! you're going to make it so far in this world and Im glad that I get to witness your journey. you are beautiful amazing and one of the most caring people I know. you've got this

UPDATE

went to a Shrek themed rave on friday

twas very epic

very next day (yesterday) my throat hurts a LOT

it's super sudden

my roommate says they think it's strep

they take me to urgent care

they test me for strep and basically gag me with a q-tip (the lady doesn't even warm me beforehand so I gagged) (this was done by the nurse with a bit of an attitude)

it's not strep

(phew)

they test for covid

they shoved a q-tip up my nose (that one wasn't super bad, I've had the test done before so I knew what was coming) (this was done by the cool nurse lady)

we wait 15 minutes

right as I said "has it been 15 minutes yet?" the timer goes off

cool nurse lady walks in

me: "am I gonna die?" (jokingly)

her: *nods head* "I'll get you guys some masks"

me: "oh boy. [roommate] prep my coffin. prepare the Kahoot questions. it wont be long before you mourn me"

I have COVID  

so now I'm banished to my room for like two weeks (it would usually only have to be a week and a half I think but I want to be safe since my roommates parents are on immuno-suppressors (I think that's what it's called) so if they get covid they could actually die and I think they're pretty cool and epic so I don't want that to happen)

so this is day two of the bed-ridden covid shortcake

bleh

this is actually my first time having covid

my roommate is in a lot of pain as well guys

rere in the hospital we don't even know what's wrong

prayers are appreciated

I don't know what to do anymore I just want to help them

went to a pride parade in the town next to mine yesterday because apparently they do theirs in july

it was my first time going to one and I had a lot of fun

on a different note though-

my body is in constant pain

I take stuff to help with headaches DAILY

and I still get them literally every day

it's so bad and constant that a couple months ago I was prescribed with basically a super strong version of ibuprofen

and that still doesn't help

my constant headaches make it where I'm constantly irritable and I feel bad about it because I feel like I'm being crappy towards my friends

my back is always hurting

I messed my knee up even more too

I just want to be able to move around and be out and about and hang out with my friends without being in pain and it's so stupid

and on Tuesday I think I slept literally all day. I was only up for almost 4 hours

because it hurts so much just to be awake

if I'm laying down my back hurts

standing up it hurts

everything just hurts

every step sends a pain up my leg

sure it's dull but it's still there

I literally had to leave work early today because of just everything hurting

and I kept having to take breaks from walking at pride yesterday

I'm so tired

of everything hurting

guys

did people forget about me on here?

happy pride month,everyone

okay so hey I graduated?

uh

uh

uhhhh

adult = me

so cool

so swag

new twenty one pilots album release in September (first song of the new album is getting released on june 12 I believe)

I was at the grocery store with my friend today and a man comes up, I don't realize he's trying to approach, I start walking away to find something in another isle, friend looks at me, I turn around, and he waggles his finger to like come closer (we were responsible don't worry) and all he does is like "hey your brave for wearing mis matched socks and your friend is brave for wearing a skirt on a Tuesday" and we're both just kinda standing there like and then he was like "oh and congrats on graduating!' (I didn't hear that part, but my friend said it happened sooooo

I also don't really know how he knew we graduated, since we didn't know him, plus I doubt he'd be able to memorize every kid that graduated today especially considering that there's multiple schools?

my friend was thinking that maybe he thought that because my senior is was on my bag, but it was covered in all my keychain stuff so I don't really know

also we went to a public library and the first thing we heard was several-dozen children screaming practically at the top of their lungs

it was not pleasant

geem

am grem

UGH WHY IS IT SIDEWAYS