The Wandering Wizard

15 minutes ago, A Jo in the Bush said:

I also pasted the script of the Bee Movie/A Bug's Life into our Doc, and for TJ's sake, I recommend you all do too.

I'd say a husky brain is better than a cat brain 

Can't say I recommend with how much sleepiness and laziness it brings. 

Evelyn Rose was not one who tolerated any small talk. It was bloody difficult wrangling her warder as things were. They would have to have a chat about what she had found, soon, very soon.

Her expression soured as she stalked the halls, seeming a vengeful vulture than the graceful swan of most Aes Sedai.

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I think Bloody ashes is one, been a while though since I've read them.

36 minutes ago, Dabi said:

Does anyone have any tips on falling asleep that aren't mindfulness stuff, meditation, medication, breathing exercises, being active, white noise, music, or temperature relation?

 

Cause I haven't slept nearly at all in a month and I would really like to know if there's just something I'm missing

Not really, we're both in the same boat. I'm up until I crash most nights.

2 hours ago, Kasimir said:

Ash is getting his MR up next, but we should probably activate the LG list anyway. Exp has mentioned he'll be out of commission for at least a month, so we're on:

1. @|TJ| (probably not if he's already running his WoT)
2. @The Unknown Flame (hi  )
3. @Steeldancer (admittedly just GMed something)
4. @xinoehp512
5. @The Wandering Wizard

Could you all start to maybe look at your schedules and consider if you'd be in a position to run the next LG soon? If so, please start putting together your ruleset for pre-submission so we don't last minute this. This is definitely advanced warning, but we're trying to do this earlier, so.

If for some reason we cannot get people in this bracket of five, we're down to @Ashbringer (currently running the MR so...), @Elandera, and @Aeoryi.

If no one else can I should be able to whip up a game next week.

Which game was the Avalon:Resistance like game?

4 minutes ago, echo74 said:

rant

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you guys i am on the verge

the freaking verge

it feels like everything in my life is going wrong 

and i can't freaking do this anymore

i'm so freaking tired.

i haven't been sleeping very well

i've been burning the candle at both ends just to stay caught up in school

i have a few online classes that i procrastinated til now and now i have to get three months of work in those classes done by the end of the week

plus all my irl school

plus scripture study

plus sleep

plus i'm in another musical (not counting the one i already did this year) and i actually have a part but i lost my script and off-book is march 31st

plus senior thesis

plus keeping up with social stuff

plus church

plus mutual

plus choir

plus voice lessons

plus family stuff

plus friend drama

plus everything

 

and then on top of that i just feel this isolating loneliness that follows me wherever i go

i just feel so heavy all the time

and tired

like i don't wanna do anything

but i have to keep pushing myself bc i can't just ditch all the responsibilities in my life and go take a freaking nap

i have to be fine bc i need to be fine bc if i'm not fine then i can't do anything

and i can't just do nothing

and i'm so freaking done with school i just wanna graduate already

and i just want a hug

like not just a regular hug

like a long hug

a hug i can cry in

bc that's all i want to do rn tbh

and now i'm going to go to mutual

cuz maybe that'll make me feel better

anyways yeah

hugs would be nice

 

*hugs fiercely*

Mmmmmm pets  

13 minutes ago, N̶̝̦͝u̶͇̠͒́l̷̺͇͔̩̯̆͜l̸̾̿̓̚ said:

....

 

Hi

 

You ever get just really sad for no reason

 

And you can't move

 

Don't feel

 

Barely wanna do anything

 

Even what you enjoy

 

And just sit there

 

Alone with your thoughts 

 

And hurting your own feelings?

Yeah, a lot...especially at night when we all crack

*hugs fiercely*

1 hour ago, InfiniteInsanity said:

Y'all I need to rant so I'm going to rant. I don't care if you care I'm just kind of going to go for it.

This weekend is my last show choir competition which is fine and great and sad and all the things. It was going to be great. I really enjoyed this competition last year, Kajsa's school is going to be there and they have amazing shows. And I was super excited except now I have to go to a funeral in the morning. So I'm going to miss all that. I'll still get to perform my show but I really won't be able to see anyone else's and given the way our season has gone so far I don't think I'll have ton of time to actually do anything I'll probably perform, go to day time awards and then have to perform almost immediately after.  Which means I probably also won't have time to say hi or talk to the people I was looking forward to seeing there. I take forever to grieve. I just don't have time to do it quickly. And so like I'm going to the funeral but I haven't really processed that fact that this person is dead and I'm probably not going to process it at all until I'm at the funeral. So I am in fact going to be sad all day. And I'm tired and for the past two weeks I've just wanted to go home and cry or stay in bed all day. And just yeah.

*hugsssss*

Yeah take the time you need, grieving takes a long time.

11 minutes ago, Halcyon The Only said:

Tw suicidal themes 

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It’s been really bad today. And tonight especially. I’m losing interest in things and people I care deeply about, and everything feels flat. I’m lonely. I’m worthless. I’m sad. Thought about drafting a letter, just for fun, as an idle thought. Got irritated when I remembered I don’t have the stomach to actually go through with it, so there wouldn’t be a point. Why post it if it won’t happen, why write it if no one will see it. Why write this if no one should care? I dunno. They shouldn’t. But I am. I’m hurting everyone around me and I’m hurting myself by thinking this way but I really can’t help it. I don’t even know what way I’m thinking. I just feel heavy and worthless and nothing really matters, does it? Does it? What’s the real count of whether something matters? Is it the consequences of that thing, and what makes those consequences matter if so, and so forth? Is it how much happiness it will bring us, in which case why does happiness matter; just cuz it feels good? Is it how we help or improve others or ourselves, and if so, how do we know those people matter? What makes anything matter besides God saying it does? Do my feelings matter? Does this pain matter, and the fact that I’m going to have it on and off my whole entire life? Does that matter? Or does He just hate me and want me to suffer?

He should hate me. I do.

TL; DR- I’m sad. Again. Yeah.

*hugs fiercely*

We love you 

34 minutes ago, Kasimir said:

Speccing this one please. Life's a bit too busy to commit to more things at the moment and I do need to crunch the last of the results in a timely manner.

Good luck with that demonic ping pong!

I'll spectate for now. If you need more players I can probably switch.

1 minute ago, Halcyon The Only said:

I finished my project!!  

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CONGRATS!!!! AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN!!!  

5 hours ago, KelsierApologist said:

I approve. What I don't approve of is how long the LG101 elim doc is. I've been reading it the whole day. @The Unknown Flame @DrakeMarshall @Kasimir, what possessed you guys to write 60 pages?!

Read the LG 90 dead docs, BOTH of them  

2 minutes ago, The Sly Cookie said:

I was having such a good day until I realized my mom scheduled a therapy session today.

I am now in the depression pit. I hate this. I was just doing so good. Why does life have to hit me so hard, right as I start feeling better?

It's a new therapist, and I haven't had one in a few years. In the past I've never had a good experience with therapists. They're always forced on me and it feels either like a pointless slog, I feel like I'm wasting time, or I feel worse off than I was going in.

I'm dreading it and I don't know why. It frustrates me because I can't find out why I feel this way. I can't feel better, no matter how much I try.

My mom's the better more considerate between my divorced parents, but when she asked if I wanted to work with a therapist, I said yes, for some damn reason. I'm a people pleaser and I don't know how to get out of this, without going home and crying afterwords.

*hugssssssssss*

Welcome to the shard! 

Who is your favorite character?

Just now, Halcyon The Only said:

GIVE ME YOUR ELDRITCH SECRETS

PLEASE

MY MOTHER ISNIN AGONY

THEN JUST UNEXPLODE HER, MUCH EASIER

3 minutes ago, Halcyon The Only said:

*hugs*

I MEED A SPELL TO TAKE PEOPLE’S PAIN 

WHAT MUST INDO TO GAIN SHCH POWER 

...NO SUCH SPELL EXISTS OR EVER SHALL EXIST...

*wind whooshes*

WHAT DOTH THOU WISHETH FROM THE VERY BUSY AND DEPRESSED WIZARD?

Life

Let the man have his hot chocolate  

What do you think about Whistles?

37 minutes ago, Halcyon The Only said:

Okokok ignore 1. The double post and 2. The name of this thread. 

I’m 1/4 done with this art project. 

the middle one came out funky but the other two are ok 

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That's cool!!

35 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

DAAAAAAAAANG

i'm outta rep tho

I gotchu!

6 minutes ago, Halcyon The Only said:

Yeah, if 

41 minutes ago, DAVEY said:

There will be someone for you, you'll find the one

Just now, Halcyon The Only said:

YES

THAT WORKS 

AND THEN I'LL HAVE TWO MOMS :DDDD

hehehe

Well if you get married you'll have three  

o.O