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SHADOW AND BONE SEASON 2 PREMIERS TOMORROW 

KAZ KAZ KAZ KAZ KAZ KAZ KAZ KAZ KAZ KAZ KAZ KAZ KAZ KAZ KAZ KAZ KAZ KAZ KAZ KAZ KAZ KAZ 

*hyperventilates 

*faints 

(I still wont be able to watch it just yet though) 

(*cries)

On my way to the bookstore 

*excited giggling 

Happy π day!!

CURSE DAYLIGHT SAVINGS TIME

Why can’t we just have fall back every year and watch as the night turns to day? It’s be cool and we’d get an extra hour of sleep one night per year. And instead of leap year every 24 years we can skip a day to account for us going back 24 hrs. 
 

Thank you for listening to my sleep deprived Ted talk. 

Seriously is it my third status update of the day? 

You guys are heroes for keeping up with the notifications 

Soooo 

Ive been, albeit very slowly, listening to the magnus archives because szeth facepalm reccomended it and their recommendations are always top tier 

(Tho i got terrified of it and left it for a bit in the middle there)

They also happened to reccomend welcome to nightvale which honestly sounds like my kind of bizzare 

I just started listening to the first episode 

And you know what 

Imagine this 

I live on the 11th (top) floor of my building and theres a terrace here. Its currently 8pm and the only lights are the lights from the cityscape around me. there is no one else on the terrace. its completely silent. And im just leisurely taking a walk while listening to this and it starts off by talking about how nightvale is a place where they all pretend to sleep and about this weird as heck dog park thats neither for dogs nor for humans 

is this a good idea 

We'll see 

What im going to do is try to listen to one episode of the magnus archives and welcome to nightvale each day and that should be something. Hopefully it will be enough to help me get a bit over my horror fear as fear is no reason to not do something which genuinely interests you 

Im getting a kindle 

After exams 

*happy dancing*

Twas closing night for our musical. We finished nicely with a heartwarming ceremony for the seniors, but right now I'm kinda just feeling sad. 

I spent almost 18 hours today with my friends doing musical stuff. I really don't know what I'm going to do without them. I go to a small school (about 70 kids per grade) and one nice thing about that is everybody knows each other super well―the cheering is quite spectacular.

I'm going to miss it all. The music, the memories, the magic...everything.

Also, my orchestra conductor is my hero. I'm really going to miss him too. I've seen him almost every day for the past 7 years and I tear up thinking about not having that. He's been there for me so much and it makes me sad to think about leaving.

My core friend group is all in orchestra with me and we have one more concert. Just ONE more. I can't bear thinking about it. We've been playing together literally since first grade! It's going to be a really tearful parting. And 2 months till I leave high school behind and go on internships. THIS IS INSANE

Can someone explain why growing up is so sad??

Also it's currently 1:22 AM and I'm running on about 5 hours of sleep from last night so apologies if this SU just doesn't make sense

why do you read they ask

isnt it becoming something of an obsession? they say 

They dont understand, can never understand, will never understand 

will never understand that when sometimes you dont want to be yourself. Sometimes you wanna be swept up away, you just want to forget. 

they dont understand when nobody ever cared, characters were there. That when nobody was there to read you bedtime stories, you learned to read them to yourself. 

that when nobody was there to hold you, you allowed language to put its soothing arms around you, and tangle up in your heart. 

oh words weren't always good, especially when they came from the mouth of others 

freak

weirdo

strange

but you eventually learned to ignore those harsh words, learned to find refuge in books, learned that those same syllables that made those words so cruel, could make others so beautiful 

(perhaps you could be beautiful too)

You ask me why i read 

you ask me why dont i do something more productive 

i say, i read to know one thing and one thing only- that i am not alone. 

i say, you will never understand; can understand. 

I say, when love's been given to you on a sliver spoon, you never have to learn what it is like to starve for it. 

and so you remain ignorant

but that's okay 

We went out for dinner today and got some absolutely delicious Mexican food. My mouth is kind of numb now. I ended up eating 3 enchiladas. I haven't eaten that much food in one meal in a while. In fact it's been a struggle to actually get myself to eat 3 meals a day. My mom thinks I probably ended up stress eating which makes a lot of sense.

Band rosters came out today and I was worried that I would make it into the highest group which would mean that I had no free periods on my schedule to fit in elective classes I have to take to graduate. I didn't though so that's nice.

Also coming out soon(ish) are all the choir rosters. Show choir, the varsity concert choir, and jazz choir. All of which I auditioned for. They were still debating placements this morning. And my parents really want me for the varsity show choir. And I'm not sure how much I'd enjoy that especially considering the people I was close to this year are pretty much just aiming for the one we were in this year. And being in the jazz choir would be amazing but it's the most selective choir (16-19 people). And part of my audition didn't go super well so.... who knows.

The food was really good though.

So I'm having a problem that maybe you guys can help with. I need to make a decision, not even a big one, but just one that affects the rest of my weekend. Shouldn't be that hard. The issue is that I want to do choice 1, but I think that everyone read my parents is going to be disappointed/mad at me if I choose that one. I really, really don't want to do choice 2, but it would involve getting about 8 hours of driving time, which I need. And this is the choice that my parents want me to choose. 

Still shouldn't be that hard, but every time I start trying to think about making this decision, I stop being able to breathe and I get really shaky, which is weird because that's never happened to me before. 

I need to make this decision within the next like 5 hours and I really don't know what to do. Any advice?

Bruh

My Six of Crows got lost in the mail and now I won't have it for spring vacation

Bruh

I have some great news guys!

I won the senior level for a composition contest I entered last month! The song I entered is an edited version of one of the songs I posted on here. That means my music will be printed in a book, and I get to perform it later this month. Yay!

Ahhhh the temperature over the past few has consistently been between 35 to 40 C 

Immma get a heat stroke 

In fact kerela actually experienced temperatures above 54C 

WYYYYLAAAAAN

I haven't really been paying attention to post count, but I just got to 678, which I think is cool so yay!

*throws confetti* 

Guys theres book (self published i think) (yay indie authors!) Called Honor and Heresy by Max Francis and its gonna be released on 10th October 2023 

And oh its queer dark academia 

Its about two gay scholars (one quite and timid and the other manipulative and rude) investigating a haunted library. 

ahhh please go check out the reels for it on the authors insta 

It looks sooooo good i cant wait sjsksmmsdn 

ill put one here 

https://www.instagram.com/reel/CoUn1CuOFn8/?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=

The shard is such a cool place, and y'all are all just such amazing individuals and I am really happy that I am able to connect with everyone here even just through the internet.

That is all.

Happy International Women's Day 

I am at the library. I am currently witnessing the following conversation. 

My bookshelves have been updated

This is why you can't give a Sanderfan a job

A new follower. Interesting.

Soooooory ik this is my second status update but i just realized 

I joined this site when i was 14 

Ill be turning 17 this year 

And "Elf" doesnt really suit me or my style or tastes or even the rest of my profile anymore 

Im gonna be changing it but im still Elf ya? Please dont get confused 

Ah 

Okay 

So the person i was talking about 

Like see they messaged me on of my bad days (i have chronic depression) (it comes and goes) 

And i told them that 

And they immediately started acting awkward and didnt talk to me for two days 

And i realised  that perhaps maybe they aren't the best person  for me if this makes them feel that way

So i told them today that im not really interested in takings things further

And they said that thats cool and that anyways they only ever wanted to "casually date", being neither exclusive or serious (keep in mind this is something they never mentioned to me) 

So yeah 

Oh who needs people when you have Kaz Brekker and Kelsier  and Tom Riddle 

And you guys 

At least this way i can focus on the more important stuff

What happens if I mention myself

 

Won the "Most likely to win a Nobel Prize" and "Best to bring home to your parents" Senior Superlatives for the yearbook.

I'm feeling pretty good