Having a Bad Day?: Get 'yer Hugs here!!

[Briar King]

Still trying to process that TWD opener. I don't read the bks just watch show.

[Silverblade5 he/him]

I just made a terrible excuse to get out of a conversation because I had nothing to say and I feel awful and terrible because I know she's going though a really hard time.

[Yata he/him]

Two days ago, I was in the same city of Brandon...And I discover it just now

[marsoupial they/them]

8 hours ago, Briar King said:

Still trying to process that TWD opener. I don't read the bks just watch show.

I cried. I was in physical pain while watching that episode on Sunday night. 

[Kaymyth she/her]

6 hours ago, bleeder said:

I cried. I was in physical pain while watching that episode on Sunday night. 

Yeah, that was...brutal.  Papa Winchester, WHY?!

[Delightful]

Im confused. 

Busyness leads to exhaustion. 

So I rest. 

Rest leads to boredom and frustration without removing the exhaustion. 

What am I doing wrong here?

[Mestiv he/him]

2 hours ago, Delightful said:

Im confused. 

Busyness leads to exhaustion. 

So I rest. 

Rest leads to boredom and frustration without removing the exhaustion. 

What am I doing wrong here?

How about some rest while doing something fun? Watch a movie, read a book? You can also sleep, it's hard to be bored when you're sleeping

[Oversleep]

1 hour ago, Mestiv said:

You can also sleep, it's hard to be bored when you're sleeping

My life taught me that if you have nothing to do it's perfect opportunity to sleep.

[+Slowswift]

2 hours ago, Oversleep said:

My life taught me that if you have nothing to do it's perfect opportunity to sleep.

Am going to take this advice to heart. Maybe now I can finally get rid of the seemingly permanent bags under my eyes.  

[Briar King]

14 hours ago, bleeder said:

I cried. I was in physical pain while watching that episode on Sunday night. 

I was expecting a bit of it as some jack wagon blabbed comic spoilers last yr but afterwards I had to get up and go walk my dog just to go decompress.

[Silverblade5 he/him]

Another peak into the depressing social life of me. Sigh, I should probably not be posting these. Felt like I had to share it with someone though. Whatever. Formatting is same as last time.

So…. I had a fantastic day! ( heavy sarcasm)

 

What happened after band?

 

I got home and my mom said we were gonna have a chat when my step dad got home. She told me the social services called her again today while she was at work. And the social service lady at our school told her I needed to stop with all my bull crap. The fainting. The cutting. Everything

 

Is there a way you might be able to check with her to confirm that’s what she said? Your mom might not be telling the truth.

 

Oh no it's not made up. Mom says I'm getting called into to see her tomorrow

She also basically told my mom to NOT put me on antidepressants because I just cut for attention

 

Clearly, she’s in a good position to judge (heavy sarcasm)

 

Haha ya I know right? She yelled at me for half an hour. I told her the fainting was not true( anything to make her happy) and that I would never cut again ( again. Anything to make her happy. )

 

Would a Skillet Song you might not have heard be helpful right now?

 

No. Because my day just got WORSE after band. It was going absolutely terrible all day anyway. I'm just done.

 

What happened before band?

 

All study hall I was talking to Kaci. My sister. And she just told me some stuff.

To be careful around you… whatever. Something about having almost been taken advantage of by a junior when she was a freshman or something.

 

Does she think I’m a stalker?

 

No. taken advantage of Alex!

 

I could see why’d she’d think that. But you know that’s not true, right? I’m not trying to take advantage of anyone.

 

Honestly… I don't know what to think anymore but I know you’re a great guy and would never do that to me

 

How does she even know about me? I don’t think we’ve met.

 

Duh of course you've never met. But she is my sister and I tell her when a guy likes me because I always though it wasn't possible. Lol she doesn't go to columbine

 

Neither did I

 

Haha

There's more though… but first clear this all please cause this is gonna take up a lot of typing room and ya

 

k neither me nor Kaci have a good relationship,with our father

I was talking with her about something. I think my depression and anxiety.

I told her about how I remembered I was with my father the night he got arrested when I was 5. Did you know that? That I was with him?

Oh ok just checking.

I think you told me when you were telling me about your blanket.

Well turns out Kaci has known that! She has known that and a lot more since she was 12-13. Her mom told her everything and here I am not a clue in the world.

She asked me if I knew what Dad was doing that night… I said I had suspicions and I told her. Drunk driving? Nope much worse. Was he hurting someone? Something like that. And that's all she said.

 

Did she ever give you more info later on?

 

No!

My parents r fighting again. I hear cabinets slamming when I take my headphones off great just great

 

What are you listening too?

 

Stay. By Rihanna. I have a very sad connection to this song so it's my go to when I'm depressed

 

What’s the connection?

 

I was the most popular song on the radio when my cat had to be put down.  I relate a lot better to it now though.

 

damnation it, mom’s yelling for me. Gtg for now. If there’s anything else you need to say, type it, and I’ll try to get back on it.

 

Ok. Wipe it first.

 

[TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her]

@Silverblade5, so her guidance counselor sucks, too?  That poor girl.  

Has she ever read Speak?

[Silverblade5 he/him]

8 minutes ago, TwiLyghtSansSparkles said:

@Silverblade5, so her guidance counselor sucks, too?  That poor girl.  

Has she ever read Speak?

I don't think so, but she will if the Language Arts department is consistent 

[TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her]

2 minutes ago, Silverblade5 said:

I don't think so, but she will if the Language Arts department is consistent 

Yay.  And if you think it'd help, you have my permission to tell her my story about dealing with and escaping Twiparents, just as reassurance that things get better. If you don't think it'd help, don't, but if you do I can send you a shortened version. 

[Silverblade5 he/him]

Just now, TwiLyghtSansSparkles said:

Yay.  And if you think it'd help, you have my permission to tell her my story about dealing with and escaping Twiparents, just as reassurance that things get better. If you don't think it'd help, don't, but if you do I can send you a shortened version. 

Already read it in real time. Pretty sure others might appreciate a compiled version though. Think that came up at some point.

[TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her]

6 minutes ago, Silverblade5 said:

Already read it in real time. Pretty sure others might appreciate a compiled version though. Think that came up at some point.

It did. The compiled version goes more into the things I have in common with you friend. 

[RippleGylf she/her]

So, for the fall play, my school is presenting Flowers for Algernon. I just finished watching the in-school performance, and I am currently drowning in feels. Why? Why would you make something so sad? 

[marsoupial they/them]

47 minutes ago, RippleGylf said:

So, for the fall play, my school is presenting Flowers for Algernon. I just finished watching the in-school performance, and I am currently drowning in feels. Why? Why would you make something so sad? 

Because humans are drawn to emotions. We like feeling certain extreme emotions, in controlled environments. Like, being sad at a play is different from being sad at the passing of a loved one (I know that's a terrible example but bear with me), because the emotions elicited in the first are of your own doing, and in the second are beyond your control.

That's why we love haunted houses but hate actually being scared cremless, and we love sad books but hate actually genuinely feeling sorrow, and we still watch The Walking Dead even through all the emotional abuse.

[ShadowLord_Lith he/him]

We're reading Elie Wiesel's 'Night' in class. I have an extreme ability to empathize with almost anyone. I mean anyone. I recently cried my eyes out, nearly hyperventilated myself to unconsciousness, all because my religion teaches that Satan is beyond saving.

My overactive imagination did not help. Especially when we watched the documentary. Oh harmony, I could almost hear the screaming and crying, almost feel what it was like to be suffocated, burned, beaten and... needless to say, I've been having trouble sleeping. Any advice you can offer? I really need to cry. I wish it were easier than my family finds it to be.

[marsoupial they/them]

12 minutes ago, ShadowLord_Lith said:

We're reading Elie Wiesel's 'Night' in class. I have an extreme ability to empathize with almost anyone. I mean anyone. I recently cried my eyes out, nearly hyperventilated myself to unconsciousness, all because my religion teaches that Satan is beyond saving.

My overactive imagination did not help. Especially when we watched the documentary. Oh harmony, I could almost hear the screaming and crying, almost feel what it was like to be suffocated, burned, beaten and... needless to say, I've been having trouble sleeping. Any advice you can offer? I really need to cry. I wish it were easier than my family finds it to be.

There's nothing wrong with crying. 

[TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her]

27 minutes ago, ShadowLord_Lith said:

We're reading Elie Wiesel's 'Night' in class. I have an extreme ability to empathize with almost anyone. I mean anyone. I recently cried my eyes out, nearly hyperventilated myself to unconsciousness, all because my religion teaches that Satan is beyond saving.

My overactive imagination did not help. Especially when we watched the documentary. Oh harmony, I could almost hear the screaming and crying, almost feel what it was like to be suffocated, burned, beaten and... needless to say, I've been having trouble sleeping. Any advice you can offer? I really need to cry. I wish it were easier than my family finds it to be.

Like bleeder said, go ahead and cry. Let it out. Take as long as you need. 

When you're feeling a little better, reading about those who fought back or doctors who saved thousands through subterfuge might help. It was a horrible time in history, and the fact that there were Jews who saved Jews and non-Jews who did the same doesn't diminish the horror at all. But it does….I don't know. I guess it proves that even when entire governments legislate murder, there are still people within those nations who stand up and say "No. This is wrong, and I'm not going to sit idly by while you do this." It's a few bright flickers of hope in the midst of the dark. 

 

[Oversleep]

1 hour ago, ShadowLord_Lith said:

We're reading Elie Wiesel's 'Night' in class. I have an extreme ability to empathize with almost anyone. I mean anyone. I recently cried my eyes out, nearly hyperventilated myself to unconsciousness, all because my religion teaches that Satan is beyond saving.

My overactive imagination did not help. Especially when we watched the documentary. Oh harmony, I could almost hear the screaming and crying, almost feel what it was like to be suffocated, burned, beaten and... needless to say, I've been having trouble sleeping. Any advice you can offer? I really need to cry. I wish it were easier than my family finds it to be.

Curl up in a ball and let the sadness flow. Repressing it doesn't help.

Well, at least it didn't work for me at the time we're going through gulag & concentration camps literature and on history were learning about The Great Famine in Ukraine. It was depressing and you just have to live through these emotions.

[ShadowLord_Lith he/him]

I wish I could cry, but my family has been military folk for generations, and before that, they were royal folk and had to control their emotions anyway. I physically have trouble crying. I once tried to cry for an entire day. It didn't work. I sometimes worry that crying is something that has been almost bred out of my family. I haven't shed a tear, before my recent two bouts, since I was seven. That's almost eight years now. Any suggestions on how to get the tears flowing?

[marsoupial they/them]

3 minutes ago, ShadowLord_Lith said:

I wish I could cry, but my family has been military folk for generations, and before that, they were royal folk and had to control their emotions anyway. I physically have trouble crying. I once tried to cry for an entire day. It didn't work. I sometimes worry that crying is something that has been almost bred out of my family. I haven't shed a tear, before my recent two bouts, since I was seven. That's almost eight years now. Any suggestions on how to get the tears flowing?

Or just anything by Dawes.

[TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her]

18 minutes ago, ShadowLord_Lith said:

I wish I could cry, but my family has been military folk for generations, and before that, they were royal folk and had to control their emotions anyway. I physically have trouble crying. I once tried to cry for an entire day. It didn't work. I sometimes worry that crying is something that has been almost bred out of my family. I haven't shed a tear, before my recent two bouts, since I was seven. That's almost eight years now. Any suggestions on how to get the tears flowing?

You might need a sort of filter before you're ready to cry. When I was a teen, I hardly shed a tear at anything—except for Pixar movies. The end of Toy Story 3? Waterworks. WALL-E and EVE's ballet dance in space? Bawling. The first fifteen minutes of Up? Sobbing. I also cried for hours during and after reading The Miraculous Journey of Edward Tulane. One theory postulates that, while watching animated movies, our guards are down—we're seeing the characters as extensions of our loved ones or ourselves, and so it's easier to connect to their stories. 

So, if you really want to cry, cue up WALL-E.