Mental health club!

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

6 hours ago, CoderDrag0n8 said:

well see

today will be day 2 of that solution

no i just make them my friend

Aw man I vote for real stabbies 

[CoderDrag0n8 He/They]

Update on stabbing with froendship

For all the skeptics

it is half to get them to stop, and half to get me to change how I view it. Sure, they might keep on doing it, but if it stops affecting me, who cares?

[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

I have mostly triumphed of the *checks notes* 4 projects and 3 exams of the last 8 days.

Only 4 and 9 more (that I have been told of) to the end of December

 

Well at least next week is chillish

[Myst He/Him]

16 minutes ago, Just A Silvereye said:

I have mostly triumphed of the *checks notes* 4 projects and 3 exams of the last 8 days.

Only 4 and 9 more (that I have been told of) to the end of December

 

Well at least next week is chillish

Good job! That is way too much stuff, but you’re doing great for keeping up.

[Ink and Embers Any pronouns]

9 hours ago, Just A Silvereye said:

I have mostly triumphed of the *checks notes* 4 projects and 3 exams of the last 8 days.

Only 4 and 9 more (that I have been told of) to the end of December

 

Well at least next week is chillish

You're surviving!!! Good job!!!

[Tam Tucker]

I wrote something for an hour; I think about doing that each day. If anything, writing helps focus my mind. 

Furthermore, my stomach has been acting up for years now. My stomach has been in constant pain, and I believe that the stress of everything is contributing to this issue, since it's not just me. I have somebody else that is depending on me. That just made things worse. 

My doctor put me on antacid pills, and my stomach has not felt better in so much time now. 

considering walking my dog more and going to the gym. 

[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

Oh wow it's been a while since I got there

Might want you an update on last few weeks

It was... interesting

Basically I kinda broke down due to the number of assignments to juggle and general stress + fatigue from the previous couple weeks + lingering fatigue from the last couple years

So instead of working on those, my brain just went "nope" and I started drowning myself in whatever I could find just to forget about all of it

Because as you all know, when you stop thinking about something it stops existing entirely

That lasted around a week

Was scary

Brought back lots of old memories too because this kind of thing has happened multiple times for me in the past, and it often had bad consequences for me

In fact those episodes are the main cause for most of the lingering fatigue from the last few years above

 

And then... idk what happened

I was feeling so awful and I didn't know what to do

And out of nowhere, at the back of a class that I was barely following because of three short nights in a row, I just install a thing to block most of my usual timewasters

And I pretty much told myself "okay now you stop with that and you go and try to do your things

You only need to hold 2 weeks and after that it's much cooler 

But you gotta stop with what you've been doing for the last week bc you've never felt worse in your life"

...and somehow it worked 

kinda

I'm still way behind

I did manage to get back on some of the stuff, mostly because all assignments are teamwork and I managed to get people to onboard me on their already half compelted projects

(Everything being in teams was a major factor of stress though; you gotta talk to people, and then try to coordinate with them and you've got 3-4 of those running in parallel with different teams each time and sometimes people just don't care too)

But my mental state is waaay better currently (I mean it could hardly have sinked lower)

And I managed to do some work, which is more than none at all

I just gotta complete 2 more projects over the weekend but those are the last ones 

Then on to the 9 finals

Most are easy, it should be doable

Just gotta keep my head cool and it will work out

[Dilly honor spren she/her]

On 12/5/2025 at 12:47 PM, Ookla the Nearly Free said:

Oh wow it's been a while since I got there

Might want you an update on last few weeks

It was... interesting

Basically I kinda broke down due to the number of assignments to juggle and general stress + fatigue from the previous couple weeks + lingering fatigue from the last couple years

So instead of working on those, my brain just went "nope" and I started drowning myself in whatever I could find just to forget about all of it

Because as you all know, when you stop thinking about something it stops existing entirely

That lasted around a week

Was scary

Brought back lots of old memories too because this kind of thing has happened multiple times for me in the past, and it often had bad consequences for me

In fact those episodes are the main cause for most of the lingering fatigue from the last few years above

 

And then... idk what happened

I was feeling so awful and I didn't know what to do

And out of nowhere, at the back of a class that I was barely following because of three short nights in a row, I just install a thing to block most of my usual timewasters

And I pretty much told myself "okay now you stop with that and you go and try to do your things

You only need to hold 2 weeks and after that it's much cooler 

But you gotta stop with what you've been doing for the last week bc you've never felt worse in your life"

...and somehow it worked 

kinda

I'm still way behind

I did manage to get back on some of the stuff, mostly because all assignments are teamwork and I managed to get people to onboard me on their already half compelted projects

(Everything being in teams was a major factor of stress though; you gotta talk to people, and then try to coordinate with them and you've got 3-4 of those running in parallel with different teams each time and sometimes people just don't care too)

But my mental state is waaay better currently (I mean it could hardly have sinked lower)

And I managed to do some work, which is more than none at all

I just gotta complete 2 more projects over the weekend but those are the last ones 

Then on to the 9 finals

Most are easy, it should be doable

Just gotta keep my head cool and it will work out

*hugs* *more hugs because I'm not good with words* good luck you can do this!

[Ink and Embers Any pronouns]

On 12/5/2025 at 6:47 PM, Ookla the Nearly Free said:

Oh wow it's been a while since I got there

Might want you an update on last few weeks

It was... interesting

Basically I kinda broke down due to the number of assignments to juggle and general stress + fatigue from the previous couple weeks + lingering fatigue from the last couple years

So instead of working on those, my brain just went "nope" and I started drowning myself in whatever I could find just to forget about all of it

Because as you all know, when you stop thinking about something it stops existing entirely

That lasted around a week

Was scary

Brought back lots of old memories too because this kind of thing has happened multiple times for me in the past, and it often had bad consequences for me

In fact those episodes are the main cause for most of the lingering fatigue from the last few years above

 

And then... idk what happened

I was feeling so awful and I didn't know what to do

And out of nowhere, at the back of a class that I was barely following because of three short nights in a row, I just install a thing to block most of my usual timewasters

And I pretty much told myself "okay now you stop with that and you go and try to do your things

You only need to hold 2 weeks and after that it's much cooler 

But you gotta stop with what you've been doing for the last week bc you've never felt worse in your life"

...and somehow it worked 

kinda

I'm still way behind

I did manage to get back on some of the stuff, mostly because all assignments are teamwork and I managed to get people to onboard me on their already half compelted projects

(Everything being in teams was a major factor of stress though; you gotta talk to people, and then try to coordinate with them and you've got 3-4 of those running in parallel with different teams each time and sometimes people just don't care too)

But my mental state is waaay better currently (I mean it could hardly have sinked lower)

And I managed to do some work, which is more than none at all

I just gotta complete 2 more projects over the weekend but those are the last ones 

Then on to the 9 finals

Most are easy, it should be doable

Just gotta keep my head cool and it will work out

*hugs*

[NerdSandwich she/her]

*jugs*

oh lol

**rugs

that's not it either

***tugs

****lugs

*****bugs

******mugs

 

AH *pugs*

[Keke They/he]

On 12/5/2025 at 11:47 AM, Ookla the Nearly Free said:

Oh wow it's been a while since I got there

Might want you an update on last few weeks

It was... interesting

Basically I kinda broke down due to the number of assignments to juggle and general stress + fatigue from the previous couple weeks + lingering fatigue from the last couple years

So instead of working on those, my brain just went "nope" and I started drowning myself in whatever I could find just to forget about all of it

Because as you all know, when you stop thinking about something it stops existing entirely

That lasted around a week

Was scary

Brought back lots of old memories too because this kind of thing has happened multiple times for me in the past, and it often had bad consequences for me

In fact those episodes are the main cause for most of the lingering fatigue from the last few years above

 

And then... idk what happened

I was feeling so awful and I didn't know what to do

And out of nowhere, at the back of a class that I was barely following because of three short nights in a row, I just install a thing to block most of my usual timewasters

And I pretty much told myself "okay now you stop with that and you go and try to do your things

You only need to hold 2 weeks and after that it's much cooler 

But you gotta stop with what you've been doing for the last week bc you've never felt worse in your life"

...and somehow it worked 

kinda

I'm still way behind

I did manage to get back on some of the stuff, mostly because all assignments are teamwork and I managed to get people to onboard me on their already half compelted projects

(Everything being in teams was a major factor of stress though; you gotta talk to people, and then try to coordinate with them and you've got 3-4 of those running in parallel with different teams each time and sometimes people just don't care too)

But my mental state is waaay better currently (I mean it could hardly have sinked lower)

And I managed to do some work, which is more than none at all

I just gotta complete 2 more projects over the weekend but those are the last ones 

Then on to the 9 finals

Most are easy, it should be doable

Just gotta keep my head cool and it will work out

*hugs hugs* 

idk school is hard for me to cause im behind af but *hugs*

1 hour ago, Ookla the Intelligent said:

*jugs*

oh lol

**rugs

that's not it either

***tugs

****lugs

*****bugs

******mugs

 

AH *pugs*

real xD

 

ook 

so im overstimulated af rn 

this morning on the bus my friend goes “dude your pupils are so big”

cause when i get overstimulated my pupils are like giant. Idk why but it is. So i look high or smthng XD anyways im gonna die if this class is loud cause i might just crash out cause i got some anger pent up/ 

also can i have hugs? Having trans person issues.

[Myst He/Him]

29 minutes ago, Ookla The Kintsukuroi said:

*hugs hugs* 

idk school is hard for me to cause im behind af but *hugs*

real xD

 

ook 

so im overstimulated af rn 

this morning on the bus my friend goes “dude your pupils are so big”

cause when i get overstimulated my pupils are like giant. Idk why but it is. So i look high or smthng XD anyways im gonna die if this class is loud cause i might just crash out cause i got some anger pent up/ 

also can i have hugs? Having trans person issues.

*hugs tightly*

[KnightSkye Reforged They/Them]

On 12/5/2025 at 1:47 PM, Ookla the Nearly Free said:

Oh wow it's been a while since I got there

Might want you an update on last few weeks

It was... interesting

Basically I kinda broke down due to the number of assignments to juggle and general stress + fatigue from the previous couple weeks + lingering fatigue from the last couple years

So instead of working on those, my brain just went "nope" and I started drowning myself in whatever I could find just to forget about all of it

Because as you all know, when you stop thinking about something it stops existing entirely

That lasted around a week

Was scary

Brought back lots of old memories too because this kind of thing has happened multiple times for me in the past, and it often had bad consequences for me

In fact those episodes are the main cause for most of the lingering fatigue from the last few years above

 

And then... idk what happened

I was feeling so awful and I didn't know what to do

And out of nowhere, at the back of a class that I was barely following because of three short nights in a row, I just install a thing to block most of my usual timewasters

And I pretty much told myself "okay now you stop with that and you go and try to do your things

You only need to hold 2 weeks and after that it's much cooler 

But you gotta stop with what you've been doing for the last week bc you've never felt worse in your life"

...and somehow it worked 

kinda

I'm still way behind

I did manage to get back on some of the stuff, mostly because all assignments are teamwork and I managed to get people to onboard me on their already half compelted projects

(Everything being in teams was a major factor of stress though; you gotta talk to people, and then try to coordinate with them and you've got 3-4 of those running in parallel with different teams each time and sometimes people just don't care too)

But my mental state is waaay better currently (I mean it could hardly have sinked lower)

And I managed to do some work, which is more than none at all

I just gotta complete 2 more projects over the weekend but those are the last ones 

Then on to the 9 finals

Most are easy, it should be doable

Just gotta keep my head cool and it will work out

*hugs*

44 minutes ago, Ookla The Kintsukuroi said:

*hugs hugs* 

idk school is hard for me to cause im behind af but *hugs*

real xD

 

ook 

so im overstimulated af rn 

this morning on the bus my friend goes “dude your pupils are so big”

cause when i get overstimulated my pupils are like giant. Idk why but it is. So i look high or smthng XD anyways im gonna die if this class is loud cause i might just crash out cause i got some anger pent up/ 

also can i have hugs? Having trans person issues.

*hugs*

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

1 hour ago, Ookla The Kintsukuroi said:

*hugs hugs* 

idk school is hard for me to cause im behind af but *hugs*

real xD

 

ook 

so im overstimulated af rn 

this morning on the bus my friend goes “dude your pupils are so big”

cause when i get overstimulated my pupils are like giant. Idk why but it is. So i look high or smthng XD anyways im gonna die if this class is loud cause i might just crash out cause i got some anger pent up/ 

also can i have hugs? Having trans person issues.

*hugs*

Your eyes dilate when you're stressed. That's pretty common fight-or-flight.

[Rynturning_Light She/Her]

2 hours ago, Ookla The Kintsukuroi said:

*hugs hugs* 

idk school is hard for me to cause im behind af but *hugs*

real xD

 

ook 

so im overstimulated af rn 

this morning on the bus my friend goes “dude your pupils are so big”

cause when i get overstimulated my pupils are like giant. Idk why but it is. So i look high or smthng XD anyways im gonna die if this class is loud cause i might just crash out cause i got some anger pent up/ 

also can i have hugs? Having trans person issues.

*hugs* I hope you feel better

 

I just submitted two of my major assignments (yay) and I guess one of my relief responses is my body deciding it needs to cry, but like, I can’t cry rn because my parents will ask me whats wrong and nothings really wrong

Finals week has official screwed up my mental state

Hows everyone else?

[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

On 12/7/2025 at 9:18 PM, Dilly honor spren said:

*hugs* *more hugs because I'm not good with words* good luck you can do this!

 

4 hours ago, Ookla the Perpetually Disc said:

*hugs*

 

2 hours ago, Ookla The Kintsukuroi said:

*hugs hugs* 

idk school is hard for me to cause im behind af but *hugs*

 

1 hour ago, Ookla the Knight said:

*hugs*

Thanks everyone

Also since I wrote that, I have managed to do another whole cycle of I'm tired and trying to get a break -> break lasts longer than planned and ends up being a desperate attempt to forget about all the stuff -> I'm way behind on the assignment of the moment and am furious and hating myself -> I go to the drawing board and do something for the assignment that is usually passable (except for those couple times where it just got too bad) -> I'm tired 

Wish that I could have seen the pattern earlier

That's been my life for nearly 3 years and in a couple weeks it will likely be a thing of the past

Well stuff like this might still happen but everything will be so different it won't look the same

 

Also I was made to stay at school waiting for five hours between two classes today

Only for the teacher to think the class was online (tbf all previous classes with her had been)

I am slightly pissed off

*sigh* at least this was one of the last times I had to deal with their stupidity

In ten days I am free from exams and classes

forever

RoW vague

Spoiler

It's the Final Ten Days

 

 

2 hours ago, Ookla The Kintsukuroi said:

*hugs hugs* 

idk school is hard for me to cause im behind af but *hugs*

real xD

 

ook 

so im overstimulated af rn 

this morning on the bus my friend goes “dude your pupils are so big”

cause when i get overstimulated my pupils are like giant. Idk why but it is. So i look high or smthng XD anyways im gonna die if this class is loud cause i might just crash out cause i got some anger pent up/ 

also can i have hugs? Having trans person issues.

*huuuuuugs*

hope you can find some calm and quiet today

 

37 minutes ago, Ookla the Chaotic said:

*hugs* I hope you feel better

 

I just submitted two of my major assignments (yay) and I guess one of my relief responses is my body deciding it needs to cry, but like, I can’t cry rn because my parents will ask me whats wrong and nothings really wrong

Finals week has official screwed up my mental state

Hows everyone else?

Hey if you need to cry, cry

It's perfectly normal to let out your emotions after a big thing like this

yeaaah finals screwing up mental state is real

*hugs*

[NerdSandwich she/her]

I'm doing horrible honestly I forgot about my band rehearsal. I just sat there crying for 2 hours and my mom had to call the school to come find me. I was just bawling my eyes out like a baby and hugging my clarinet in the corner of the band room having minor thoughts of hurting myself. My teacher says I get an automatic 0% on the assignment. I've never even gotten an A- before. Stupid inability to focus.

Although ig I already knew he hated me. I 'lost' my clarinet once and he got super mad at me and apparently another student took it. He didn't even apologize or tell me who did it or anything. He just made me look through the storage room the entire class, letting me cry about how I can't afford this.

There have been many other incidents but I don't know what to do about it honestly. My parents are both like 'well girl do better next time' and 'about time you messed up' and 'just keep trying'. I don't know how to tell them that I can't keep trying. It's an automatic zero. He doesn't care that I have ADHD or lots of mental health issues. He just sees a really talented clarinet player who's not 'putting her heart into it'.

So I'm just gonna sit here crying telling myself to be better and getting less than 1 hour of sleep each night.

[Keke They/he]

51 minutes ago, Ookla the Intelligent said:

I'm doing horrible honestly I forgot about my band rehearsal. I just sat there crying for 2 hours and my mom had to call the school to come find me. I was just bawling my eyes out like a baby and hugging my clarinet in the corner of the band room having minor thoughts of hurting myself. My teacher says I get an automatic 0% on the assignment. I've never even gotten an A- before. Stupid inability to focus.

Although ig I already knew he hated me. I 'lost' my clarinet once and he got super mad at me and apparently another student took it. He didn't even apologize or tell me who did it or anything. He just made me look through the storage room the entire class, letting me cry about how I can't afford this.

There have been many other incidents but I don't know what to do about it honestly. My parents are both like 'well girl do better next time' and 'about time you messed up' and 'just keep trying'. I don't know how to tell them that I can't keep trying. It's an automatic zero. He doesn't care that I have ADHD or lots of mental health issues. He just sees a really talented clarinet player who's not 'putting her heart into it'.

So I'm just gonna sit here crying telling myself to be better and getting less than 1 hour of sleep each night.

*hugs hugs*

[Rynturning_Light She/Her]

1 hour ago, Ookla the Intelligent said:

I'm doing horrible honestly I forgot about my band rehearsal. I just sat there crying for 2 hours and my mom had to call the school to come find me. I was just bawling my eyes out like a baby and hugging my clarinet in the corner of the band room having minor thoughts of hurting myself. My teacher says I get an automatic 0% on the assignment. I've never even gotten an A- before. Stupid inability to focus.

Although ig I already knew he hated me. I 'lost' my clarinet once and he got super mad at me and apparently another student took it. He didn't even apologize or tell me who did it or anything. He just made me look through the storage room the entire class, letting me cry about how I can't afford this.

There have been many other incidents but I don't know what to do about it honestly. My parents are both like 'well girl do better next time' and 'about time you messed up' and 'just keep trying'. I don't know how to tell them that I can't keep trying. It's an automatic zero. He doesn't care that I have ADHD or lots of mental health issues. He just sees a really talented clarinet player who's not 'putting her heart into it'.

So I'm just gonna sit here crying telling myself to be better and getting less than 1 hour of sleep each night.

*hugs*

I’m sorry that happened. Make sure you’re taking care of yourself, drink water and rest if you can. Remember it’s not your fault. Your teachers sucky, focus on yourself and not on keeping other happy

Talk to someone if you need to, don’t bottle things up

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

17 hours ago, Ookla the Nearly Free said:

 

 

 

Thanks everyone

Also since I wrote that, I have managed to do another whole cycle of I'm tired and trying to get a break -> break lasts longer than planned and ends up being a desperate attempt to forget about all the stuff -> I'm way behind on the assignment of the moment and am furious and hating myself -> I go to the drawing board and do something for the assignment that is usually passable (except for those couple times where it just got too bad) -> I'm tired 

Wish that I could have seen the pattern earlier

That's been my life for nearly 3 years and in a couple weeks it will likely be a thing of the past

Well stuff like this might still happen but everything will be so different it won't look the same

 

Also I was made to stay at school waiting for five hours between two classes today

Only for the teacher to think the class was online (tbf all previous classes with her had been)

I am slightly pissed off

*sigh* at least this was one of the last times I had to deal with their stupidity

In ten days I am free from exams and classes

forever

RoW vague

  Reveal hidden contents

It's the Final Ten Days

 

 

*huuuuuugs*

hope you can find some calm and quiet today

 

Hey if you need to cry, cry

It's perfectly normal to let out your emotions after a big thing like this

yeaaah finals screwing up mental state is real

*hugs*

*hugs* You got this

1 hour ago, Ookla the Intelligent said:

I'm doing horrible honestly I forgot about my band rehearsal. I just sat there crying for 2 hours and my mom had to call the school to come find me. I was just bawling my eyes out like a baby and hugging my clarinet in the corner of the band room having minor thoughts of hurting myself. My teacher says I get an automatic 0% on the assignment. I've never even gotten an A- before. Stupid inability to focus.

Although ig I already knew he hated me. I 'lost' my clarinet once and he got super mad at me and apparently another student took it. He didn't even apologize or tell me who did it or anything. He just made me look through the storage room the entire class, letting me cry about how I can't afford this.

There have been many other incidents but I don't know what to do about it honestly. My parents are both like 'well girl do better next time' and 'about time you messed up' and 'just keep trying'. I don't know how to tell them that I can't keep trying. It's an automatic zero. He doesn't care that I have ADHD or lots of mental health issues. He just sees a really talented clarinet player who's not 'putting her heart into it'.

So I'm just gonna sit here crying telling myself to be better and getting less than 1 hour of sleep each night.

*hugs*

Being a straight-A student and then getting a lower can seem scary, but take a step back and look at the whole picture. It depends on the level of the assignment, but I'm assuming a simple rehearsal would just drop it down by maybe 5, 10 points. That seems like a lot, but it is one assignment in one class. It is nowhere near world-ending.

Also, you're more than capable of continuing to try; you just have to stop telling yourself you can't. I say this gently, but don't use your ADHD or any other issues as a crutch. They make things harder, yes. They don't make things impossible. And yes, some teachers just suck. That doesn't mean you can't still put some effort into their class, even if they won't acknowledge it. It at least ensures you won't get a lower grade.

Lastly, just to comment on "about time you messed up": if you haven't really messed up to this degree before, then yes, this is good. This is a pretty typical mistake, so it's good to learn it now while you're still younger and it doesn't affect you quite as much. That's what mistakes are for: learning. It's only bad if you can't find something to learn from it.

All that said, yes, it sucks. *hugs*

[KnightSkye Reforged They/Them]

2 hours ago, Ookla the Intelligent said:

I'm doing horrible honestly I forgot about my band rehearsal. I just sat there crying for 2 hours and my mom had to call the school to come find me. I was just bawling my eyes out like a baby and hugging my clarinet in the corner of the band room having minor thoughts of hurting myself. My teacher says I get an automatic 0% on the assignment. I've never even gotten an A- before. Stupid inability to focus.

Although ig I already knew he hated me. I 'lost' my clarinet once and he got super mad at me and apparently another student took it. He didn't even apologize or tell me who did it or anything. He just made me look through the storage room the entire class, letting me cry about how I can't afford this.

There have been many other incidents but I don't know what to do about it honestly. My parents are both like 'well girl do better next time' and 'about time you messed up' and 'just keep trying'. I don't know how to tell them that I can't keep trying. It's an automatic zero. He doesn't care that I have ADHD or lots of mental health issues. He just sees a really talented clarinet player who's not 'putting her heart into it'.

So I'm just gonna sit here crying telling myself to be better and getting less than 1 hour of sleep each night.

*hugs*

I'm sorry. That teacher sucks, and I don't like how he's handling this, and losing your clarinet. 

I will say, I understand how awful it is to fail something when you haven't before, and even though I don't like the words, "about time you messed up" this failure is not the end. One failure after much success is fine. It happens. And failing is a good experience to get through. 

Heck, even multiple failures will be ok. That's part of learning. I'm sorry it happened this way though.

[Dilly honor spren she/her]

2 hours ago, Ookla the Intelligent said:

I'm doing horrible honestly I forgot about my band rehearsal. I just sat there crying for 2 hours and my mom had to call the school to come find me. I was just bawling my eyes out like a baby and hugging my clarinet in the corner of the band room having minor thoughts of hurting myself. My teacher says I get an automatic 0% on the assignment. I've never even gotten an A- before. Stupid inability to focus.

Although ig I already knew he hated me. I 'lost' my clarinet once and he got super mad at me and apparently another student took it. He didn't even apologize or tell me who did it or anything. He just made me look through the storage room the entire class, letting me cry about how I can't afford this.

There have been many other incidents but I don't know what to do about it honestly. My parents are both like 'well girl do better next time' and 'about time you messed up' and 'just keep trying'. I don't know how to tell them that I can't keep trying. It's an automatic zero. He doesn't care that I have ADHD or lots of mental health issues. He just sees a really talented clarinet player who's not 'putting her heart into it'.

So I'm just gonna sit here crying telling myself to be better and getting less than 1 hour of sleep each night.

oh my gosh that really sucks  I'm so sorry this happened to you

*big box of hugs* 

(he seems like a really bad teacher)

I hope you feel better 

[Myst He/Him]

3 hours ago, Ookla the Intelligent said:

I'm doing horrible honestly I forgot about my band rehearsal. I just sat there crying for 2 hours and my mom had to call the school to come find me. I was just bawling my eyes out like a baby and hugging my clarinet in the corner of the band room having minor thoughts of hurting myself. My teacher says I get an automatic 0% on the assignment. I've never even gotten an A- before. Stupid inability to focus.

Although ig I already knew he hated me. I 'lost' my clarinet once and he got super mad at me and apparently another student took it. He didn't even apologize or tell me who did it or anything. He just made me look through the storage room the entire class, letting me cry about how I can't afford this.

There have been many other incidents but I don't know what to do about it honestly. My parents are both like 'well girl do better next time' and 'about time you messed up' and 'just keep trying'. I don't know how to tell them that I can't keep trying. It's an automatic zero. He doesn't care that I have ADHD or lots of mental health issues. He just sees a really talented clarinet player who's not 'putting her heart into it'.

So I'm just gonna sit here crying telling myself to be better and getting less than 1 hour of sleep each night.

*hugs*

I’m sorry, that sucks so much, I’m assuming you’ve tried explaining to him that you have ADHD(if not, do that) so if he won’t see that… 

Getting a zero never feels good, and being an “A” student makes it feel worse..

*hugs tightly*

Your teacher does suck though, not even apologizing?

*hugs even more*

[Rynturning_Light She/Her]

Lovely update for you all.

As previously mentioned, I have felt the need to cry for the past like week since coming home from school (because of major final projects). WELL this has evolved to being a full fledged dissociative episode at the dinner table, which I was promptly bombarded with questions from my concerned mother during.

I chose to mention these feelings to my family, which I was then given advice on how to get through it and negate my anxiety and all. I appreciate it, and I know they mean well, but I am kinda tired of the typical “you just need to get through it” “focus on what you can do right now” and “when have you ever slipped up on an assignment” reassurance.

Like, I know. I’ve been living with realized anxiety for years now. I know it might be a stupid complaint, but I would really like my family to listen to my emotional issues and not try and immediately fix them.

Oh, I have also realized that my body will not let itself cry (probably from all the stress I’ve been living under)

It’s a great time in my head right now :,)

[Keke They/he]

13 hours ago, Ookla the Chaotic said:

Lovely update for you all.

As previously mentioned, I have felt the need to cry for the past like week since coming home from school (because of major final projects). WELL this has evolved to being a full fledged dissociative episode at the dinner table, which I was promptly bombarded with questions from my concerned mother during.

I chose to mention these feelings to my family, which I was then given advice on how to get through it and negate my anxiety and all. I appreciate it, and I know they mean well, but I am kinda tired of the typical “you just need to get through it” “focus on what you can do right now” and “when have you ever slipped up on an assignment” reassurance.

Like, I know. I’ve been living with realized anxiety for years now. I know it might be a stupid complaint, but I would really like my family to listen to my emotional issues and not try and immediately fix them.

Oh, I have also realized that my body will not let itself cry (probably from all the stress I’ve been living under)

It’s a great time in my head right now :,)

*hugs* 

im here to listen *hugs*