Mental health club!

[Dilly honor spren she/her]

14 hours ago, Ookla the Chaotic said:

Lovely update for you all.

As previously mentioned, I have felt the need to cry for the past like week since coming home from school (because of major final projects). WELL this has evolved to being a full fledged dissociative episode at the dinner table, which I was promptly bombarded with questions from my concerned mother during.

I chose to mention these feelings to my family, which I was then given advice on how to get through it and negate my anxiety and all. I appreciate it, and I know they mean well, but I am kinda tired of the typical “you just need to get through it” “focus on what you can do right now” and “when have you ever slipped up on an assignment” reassurance.

Like, I know. I’ve been living with realized anxiety for years now. I know it might be a stupid complaint, but I would really like my family to listen to my emotional issues and not try and immediately fix them.

Oh, I have also realized that my body will not let itself cry (probably from all the stress I’ve been living under)

It’s a great time in my head right now :,)

*hugs* if you ever need to just rant or talk I'll listen and provide hugs

*hugs* 

[KnightSkye Reforged They/Them]

17 hours ago, Ookla the Chaotic said:

Lovely update for you all.

As previously mentioned, I have felt the need to cry for the past like week since coming home from school (because of major final projects). WELL this has evolved to being a full fledged dissociative episode at the dinner table, which I was promptly bombarded with questions from my concerned mother during.

I chose to mention these feelings to my family, which I was then given advice on how to get through it and negate my anxiety and all. I appreciate it, and I know they mean well, but I am kinda tired of the typical “you just need to get through it” “focus on what you can do right now” and “when have you ever slipped up on an assignment” reassurance.

Like, I know. I’ve been living with realized anxiety for years now. I know it might be a stupid complaint, but I would really like my family to listen to my emotional issues and not try and immediately fix them.

Oh, I have also realized that my body will not let itself cry (probably from all the stress I’ve been living under)

It’s a great time in my head right now :,)

*hugs* 

You can PM me if you want someone to just listen to you.

If you think it would be ok, you can tell you family that you don't want advice, just someone to listen to you.

I got my Mom to read Skyward and I use the Spensa line, "Don't fix, just listen." when she's getting to aggressive in her helping.

[TwinStorm He/Him]

if yall haven't seen it

watch Its a Wonderful Life

legitimately amazing

changed my life

if you haven't seen it

Spoiler

its about a guy who's abt to commit suicide before an angel comes and shows him what the world would look like if he never had been born

 

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

1 hour ago, Ookla the Wanderer said:

if yall haven't seen it

watch Its a Wonderful Life

legitimately amazing

changed my life

if you haven't seen it

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its about a guy who's abt to commit suicide before an angel comes and shows him what the world would look like if he never had been born

 

Yes

That movie has been one of the things standing between me and the cliff for years

[Dilly honor spren she/her]

10 hours ago, Ookla the Wanderer said:

if yall haven't seen it

watch Its a Wonderful Life

legitimately amazing

changed my life

if you haven't seen it

  Reveal hidden contents

its about a guy who's abt to commit suicide before an angel comes and shows him what the world would look like if he never had been born

 

OMG I watched that movie once!!! I thought it was a fever dream since I forgot the name of it!!! Its really good

[Shatter He/Him]

Some of you already know, but I'm going to post this here.

CW: attempted suicide (not me)

Spoiler

Last night, my younger sister attempted suicide again. My mother and sisters are visiting my grandmother's house, where I currently live because of college and turning 18 and all. I went downstairs (where they're staying) without knocking (because usually no one lives there) because the power cut out for a minute due to the snowstorm, and I was checking the Wi-Fi. I assume she felt that her safe space was being invaded, and she attempted suicide. Thankfully, she chose to overdose on the least dangerous meds (my antianxiety meds). I feel terrible because whether people say I did or not, I had a part in this episode. She's currently in the hospital receiving treatment. I'm worried about how my mother is holding up. Both my sisters were in hospital at the start of the year, with my younger sister having attempted suicide the first time and my youngest sister having sepsis due to the flu.

All I ask is for hope and prayers that she recovers and is released soon. Thankfully, her stay in the hospital is free (I love Canada) because my parents' finances aren't fully stable. Also, I've been really stressed due to failing college, and these types of situations aren't helping. 

 

Edited December 31, 2025 by Shatter

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

3 minutes ago, Shatter said:

Some of you already know, but I'm going to post this here.

CW: attempted suicide (not me)

  Hide contents

Last night, my younger sister attempted suicide again. My mother and sisters are visiting my grandmother's house, where I currently live because of college and turning 18 and all. I went downstairs (where they're staying) without knocking (because usually no one lives there) because the power cut out for a minute due to the snowstorm, and I was checking the Wi-Fi. I assume she felt that her safe space was being invaded, and she attempted suicide. Thankfully, she chose to overdose on the least dangerous meds (my antianxiety meds). I feel terrible because whether people say I did or not, I had a part in this episode. She's currently in the hospital receiving treatment. I'm worried about how my mother is holding up. Both my sisters were in hospital at the start of the year, with my younger sister having attempted suicide the first time and my youngest sister having sepsis due to the flu.

All I ask is for hope and prayers that she recovers and is released soon. Thankfully, her stay in the hospital is free (I love Canada) because my parents' finances aren't fully stable. Also, I've been really stressed due to failing college, and these types of situations aren't helping. 

I’ll respond more later but for now MAJORR HUGGSSSSS

[Rynturning_Light She/Her]

33 minutes ago, Shatter said:

Some of you already know, but I'm going to post this here.

CW: attempted suicide (not me)

  Reveal hidden contents

Last night, my younger sister attempted suicide again. My mother and sisters are visiting my grandmother's house, where I currently live because of college and turning 18 and all. I went downstairs (where they're staying) without knocking (because usually no one lives there) because the power cut out for a minute due to the snowstorm, and I was checking the Wi-Fi. I assume she felt that her safe space was being invaded, and she attempted suicide. Thankfully, she chose to overdose on the least dangerous meds (my antianxiety meds). I feel terrible because whether people say I did or not, I had a part in this episode. She's currently in the hospital receiving treatment. I'm worried about how my mother is holding up. Both my sisters were in hospital at the start of the year, with my younger sister having attempted suicide the first time and my youngest sister having sepsis due to the flu.

All I ask is for hope and prayers that she recovers and is released soon. Thankfully, her stay in the hospital is free (I love Canada) because my parents' finances aren't fully stable. Also, I've been really stressed due to failing college, and these types of situations aren't helping. 

 

I am so sorry. No one should have to go through this

I hope you and your family will be ok. As much as it means from a random person on the internet, I wish your sister a fast recovery and your family strength through  these times

Make sure you’re taking care of yourself. Drink water and eat something. With this amount of stress, small habits can fall through the cracks

*all the hugs*

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

1 hour ago, Honors Ghost said:

I’ll respond more later but for now MAJORR HUGGSSSSS

Ok lemme write something

this is not your fault you couldn’t have known that she was going to do this ok.

i rly hope she has a speedy recovery and gets the mental help she needs hugs and love to you and your family

[Ink and Embers Any pronouns]

6 hours ago, Shatter said:

Some of you already know, but I'm going to post this here.

CW: attempted suicide (not me)

  Hide contents

Last night, my younger sister attempted suicide again. My mother and sisters are visiting my grandmother's house, where I currently live because of college and turning 18 and all. I went downstairs (where they're staying) without knocking (because usually no one lives there) because the power cut out for a minute due to the snowstorm, and I was checking the Wi-Fi. I assume she felt that her safe space was being invaded, and she attempted suicide. Thankfully, she chose to overdose on the least dangerous meds (my antianxiety meds). I feel terrible because whether people say I did or not, I had a part in this episode. She's currently in the hospital receiving treatment. I'm worried about how my mother is holding up. Both my sisters were in hospital at the start of the year, with my younger sister having attempted suicide the first time and my youngest sister having sepsis due to the flu.

All I ask is for hope and prayers that she recovers and is released soon. Thankfully, her stay in the hospital is free (I love Canada) because my parents' finances aren't fully stable. Also, I've been really stressed due to failing college, and these types of situations aren't helping. 

 

*hugs hugs hugs*

I'm so sorry. I hope your sister recovers soon.

Again, take care of yourself, it's not your fault. Sending love and best wishes. 

[KnightSkye Reforged They/Them]

Hey guys. Sorry I haven't been in this thread much as of late.

Tbh, I really didn't want to be in this group where Mirker could see my posts, if she happened to get on. Because it hurt for it to feel like she was ignoring anything I was going through, and because I'm angry and don't want her to see what I'm struggling with rn because there is that dark part of my brain that assumes she will judge me for it.

 

Anyway, apology and explanation aside, I'm not doing to hot rn. 

I don't have the energy to talk about it.

 But some hugs would be nice.

I'm sorry I haven't been here for you all.

[Myst He/Him]

23 minutes ago, KnightSkye Reforged said:

Hey guys. Sorry I haven't been in this thread much as of late.

Tbh, I really didn't want to be in this group where Mirker could see my posts, if she happened to get on. Because it hurt for it to feel like she was ignoring anything I was going through, and because I'm angry and don't want her to see what I'm struggling with rn because there is that dark part of my brain that assumes she will judge me for it.

 

Anyway, apology and explanation aside, I'm not doing to hot rn. 

I don't have the energy to talk about it.

 But some hugs would be nice.

I'm sorry I haven't been here for you all.

*hugs tightly*

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

41 minutes ago, KnightSkye Reforged said:

Hey guys. Sorry I haven't been in this thread much as of late.

Tbh, I really didn't want to be in this group where Mirker could see my posts, if she happened to get on. Because it hurt for it to feel like she was ignoring anything I was going through, and because I'm angry and don't want her to see what I'm struggling with rn because there is that dark part of my brain that assumes she will judge me for it.

 

Anyway, apology and explanation aside, I'm not doing to hot rn. 

I don't have the energy to talk about it.

 But some hugs would be nice.

I'm sorry I haven't been here for you all.

*infinite hugs*

[Keke They/he]

1 hour ago, KnightSkye Reforged said:

Hey guys. Sorry I haven't been in this thread much as of late.

Tbh, I really didn't want to be in this group where Mirker could see my posts, if she happened to get on. Because it hurt for it to feel like she was ignoring anything I was going through, and because I'm angry and don't want her to see what I'm struggling with rn because there is that dark part of my brain that assumes she will judge me for it.

 

Anyway, apology and explanation aside, I'm not doing to hot rn. 

I don't have the energy to talk about it.

 But some hugs would be nice.

I'm sorry I haven't been here for you all.

*GRAPPLE HUGS*

[Ink and Embers Any pronouns]

3 hours ago, KnightSkye Reforged said:

Hey guys. Sorry I haven't been in this thread much as of late.

Tbh, I really didn't want to be in this group where Mirker could see my posts, if she happened to get on. Because it hurt for it to feel like she was ignoring anything I was going through, and because I'm angry and don't want her to see what I'm struggling with rn because there is that dark part of my brain that assumes she will judge me for it.

 

Anyway, apology and explanation aside, I'm not doing to hot rn. 

I don't have the energy to talk about it.

 But some hugs would be nice.

I'm sorry I haven't been here for you all.

*hugs*

Be there for yourself!!! 

*hugs*

*hugs*

*hugs*

*hugs*

*hugs*

[Rynturning_Light She/Her]

9 hours ago, KnightSkye Reforged said:

Hey guys. Sorry I haven't been in this thread much as of late.

Tbh, I really didn't want to be in this group where Mirker could see my posts, if she happened to get on. Because it hurt for it to feel like she was ignoring anything I was going through, and because I'm angry and don't want her to see what I'm struggling with rn because there is that dark part of my brain that assumes she will judge me for it.

 

Anyway, apology and explanation aside, I'm not doing to hot rn. 

I don't have the energy to talk about it.

 But some hugs would be nice.

I'm sorry I haven't been here for you all.

*all the hugs*

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

12 hours ago, KnightSkye Reforged said:

Hey guys. Sorry I haven't been in this thread much as of late.

Tbh, I really didn't want to be in this group where Mirker could see my posts, if she happened to get on. Because it hurt for it to feel like she was ignoring anything I was going through, and because I'm angry and don't want her to see what I'm struggling with rn because there is that dark part of my brain that assumes she will judge me for it.

 

Anyway, apology and explanation aside, I'm not doing to hot rn. 

I don't have the energy to talk about it.

 But some hugs would be nice.

I'm sorry I haven't been here for you all.

*tackle hugs*

[Akimikoisthecutest]

Hey guys.

I've been procrastinating posting on here because I don't want Choirnull to tell our friends, but I just can't wait any longer.

 

I'm really struggling with my dysphoria right now. I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts for a few months now, and my dumb brain decided that I needed to make a plan. So I was up until 1am last night, wondering what the world would be like if I was dead and how I would die. Sooo, yeah. Also you guys are the first to know because I don't really have anyone else to talk to about this, that I can trust. I'm usually the person in the friend group who bears everyone's burdens, because they have mostly all tried to commit suicide, and I'm really struggling. 

 

I hate how my voice is a low tenor, and I'm kind of tall. Nobody would really understand where I live, and the people who might, just moved to Washington and the other has been off their phone for 32 days, after telling me something happened with their past girlfriend. 

 

So yeah, my life is a complete mess.

Edited January 5 by Akimikoisthecutest

[KnightSkye Reforged They/Them]

2 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

Hey guys.

I've been procrastinating posting on here because I don't want Choirnull to tell our friends, but I just can't wait any longer.

 

I'm really struggling with my dysphoria right now. I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts for a few months now, and my dumb brain decided that I needed to make a plan. So I was up until 1am last night, wondering what the world would be like if I was dead and how I would die. Sooo, yeah. Also you guys are the first to know because I don't really have anyone else to talk to about this, that I can trust. I'm usually the person in the friend group who bears everyone's burdens, because they have mostly all tried to commit suicide, and I'm really struggling. 

 

I hate how my voice is a low tenor, and I'm kind of tall. Nobody would really understand where I live, and the people who might, just moved to Washington and the other has been off their phone for 32 days, after telling me something happened with their past girlfriend. 

 

So yeah, my life is a complete mess.

*so many hugs*

Im so sorry you're dealing with that right now. 
We're here for you. You don't need to deal with this by yourself, and you shouldn't. 

I don't have a ton of advice, but I can listen if you ever need, and give a little advice maybe. PM me if you ever need anything, OK?

*tons of hugs*

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

11 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

Hey guys.

I've been procrastinating posting on here because I don't want Choirnull to tell our friends, but I just can't wait any longer.

 

I'm really struggling with my dysphoria right now. I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts for a few months now, and my dumb brain decided that I needed to make a plan. So I was up until 1am last night, wondering what the world would be like if I was dead and how I would die. Sooo, yeah. Also you guys are the first to know because I don't really have anyone else to talk to about this, that I can trust. I'm usually the person in the friend group who bears everyone's burdens, because they have mostly all tried to commit suicide, and I'm really struggling. 

 

I hate how my voice is a low tenor, and I'm kind of tall. Nobody would really understand where I live, and the people who might, just moved to Washington and the other has been off their phone for 32 days, after telling me something happened with their past girlfriend. 

 

So yeah, my life is a complete mess.

*hugs*

*all the hugs*

Like Skye said, I don't really have much advice to offer. You can always PM me if you want to talk though.

@Hmmm lies I summon thee from the gay thread

[Hmmm lies she/her]

1 hour ago, Kansas Stormcursed said:

*hugs*

*all the hugs*

Like Skye said, I don't really have much advice to offer. You can always PM me if you want to talk though.

@Hmmm lies I summon thee from the gay thread

oh hi. i haven't ever really posted on this thread cause i didn't think i could do a good enough job, but i'll do my best

1 hour ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

Hey guys.

I've been procrastinating posting on here because I don't want Choirnull to tell our friends, but I just can't wait any longer.

 

I'm really struggling with my dysphoria right now. I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts for a few months now, and my dumb brain decided that I needed to make a plan. So I was up until 1am last night, wondering what the world would be like if I was dead and how I would die. Sooo, yeah. Also you guys are the first to know because I don't really have anyone else to talk to about this, that I can trust. I'm usually the person in the friend group who bears everyone's burdens, because they have mostly all tried to commit suicide, and I'm really struggling. 

 

I hate how my voice is a low tenor, and I'm kind of tall. Nobody would really understand where I live, and the people who might, just moved to Washington and the other has been off their phone for 32 days, after telling me something happened with their past girlfriend. 

 

So yeah, my life is a complete mess.

I'm so sorry, I really wish there was something I could do or say, but I don't really know. I'll do my best though.

It'll be okay. maybe it doesn't feel like it will, but I promise it will. Sometimes our lives suck, and we can't do anything about it, but I want you to know that one day things will be better. You'll get to be your true self, and you'll be great.

And we like having you around here! You're a super cool girl, and a great part of the community! We'll be here for you when you need it.

Dysphoria sucks ass, and it's tricky to deal with, especially in an unsupportive environment. But there's ways. Maybe when no one's around, you could look up voice training tutorials on YouTube, and if you want to be safe, clear your search and watch history afterwords.

Affirmations help too. Try affirming yourself, telling yourself what I've said, that things will get better, and that you're a girl, no matter what anyone else thinks.

Just like the two before me, I'm open to PMs. I'll do my absolute best to help you with whatever you're going through.

[Akimikoisthecutest]

24 minutes ago, Hmmm lies said:

oh hi. i haven't ever really posted on this thread cause i didn't think i could do a good enough job, but i'll do my best

I'm so sorry, I really wish there was something I could do or say, but I don't really know. I'll do my best though.

It'll be okay. maybe it doesn't feel like it will, but I promise it will. Sometimes our lives suck, and we can't do anything about it, but I want you to know that one day things will be better. You'll get to be your true self, and you'll be great.

And we like having you around here! You're a super cool girl, and a great part of the community! We'll be here for you when you need it.

Dysphoria sucks ass, and it's tricky to deal with, especially in an unsupportive environment. But there's ways. Maybe when no one's around, you could look up voice training tutorials on YouTube, and if you want to be safe, clear your search and watch history afterwords.

Affirmations help too. Try affirming yourself, telling yourself what I've said, that things will get better, and that you're a girl, no matter what anyone else thinks.

Just like the two before me, I'm open to PMs. I'll do my absolute best to help you with whatever you're going through.

Thanks. This helps.

[certifiedcranedriver she/her]

4 hours ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

Hey guys.

I've been procrastinating posting on here because I don't want Choirnull to tell our friends, but I just can't wait any longer.

 

I'm really struggling with my dysphoria right now. I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts for a few months now, and my dumb brain decided that I needed to make a plan. So I was up until 1am last night, wondering what the world would be like if I was dead and how I would die. Sooo, yeah. Also you guys are the first to know because I don't really have anyone else to talk to about this, that I can trust. I'm usually the person in the friend group who bears everyone's burdens, because they have mostly all tried to commit suicide, and I'm really struggling. 

 

I hate how my voice is a low tenor, and I'm kind of tall. Nobody would really understand where I live, and the people who might, just moved to Washington and the other has been off their phone for 32 days, after telling me something happened with their past girlfriend. 

 

So yeah, my life is a complete mess.

Despite being new here, I've helped others with mental health before, so lets see if I can do it again.

Same as the others, I'm sorry that I can't do much. But, I think any words can be just as helpful as physical actions.

However, I do relate to being the "friend group burden holder". Lots of my friends have also struggled with depression and suicidality. I've personally saved some lives. Firstly, and while I know it may not mean much from me, the world would NOT be better if you were gone. Despite having just met you, I would say you seem like a good person. Though, I don't really care if you're good or bad. You still deserve a life, like the rest of us. Secondly, as a fellow trans person, dysphoria can really suck. I know others have of course told you that already, but it bears repeating. We all are always here to affirm you, so keep going. You're a great girl, and as others have suggested, if you can, try to do some voice training. I understand that it may not be possible to keep it secret entirely, but its alright. Any amount of affirmation from yourself will really help. 

I'm also sorry that much of what I've said here was similar to the others who have posted about it previously. But, I think any extra affirmation from even one extra person can make some difference. Its okay that life is a mess right now. Life tends to be a massive mess. Things don't seem like they want to conform to some ideal "order". But that's okay. As humans, we face massive adversity throughout our whole lives. Despite that, we keep going, keep fighting. Even if not everything can be orderly, humans have lived through many messes, and continue to do so. You're a strong girl, and I would say, despite having just met you, you can definitely get through this. So keep going. I know you can. We all are proud of you for so much. And we all support you on the journey that is your life. Humans aren't meant to travel alone. Since the dawn of time, we have gotten together to form groups, societies, cultures. We help each other. Even the very website I'm writing this on was made by a team (afaik). Life, too, is usually a team effort. Its your life, but the people around you both enhance it and keep it going. So don't forget, we're with you (in the dark) whenever you need us. 

Apologies again for repeating some points, and apologies for how long this is.

So keep going girl! We all hope you will.

 

[Ink and Embers Any pronouns]

7 hours ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

Hey guys.

I've been procrastinating posting on here because I don't want Choirnull to tell our friends, but I just can't wait any longer.

 

I'm really struggling with my dysphoria right now. I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts for a few months now, and my dumb brain decided that I needed to make a plan. So I was up until 1am last night, wondering what the world would be like if I was dead and how I would die. Sooo, yeah. Also you guys are the first to know because I don't really have anyone else to talk to about this, that I can trust. I'm usually the person in the friend group who bears everyone's burdens, because they have mostly all tried to commit suicide, and I'm really struggling. 

 

I hate how my voice is a low tenor, and I'm kind of tall. Nobody would really understand where I live, and the people who might, just moved to Washington and the other has been off their phone for 32 days, after telling me something happened with their past girlfriend. 

 

So yeah, my life is a complete mess.

*hugs*

[ANHlittleinsane girl but gendern't mostly]

hi everyone i have to go to school in like two min so i cant respond to everything so

*hugs for everyone*

i finally got a therapist!! we've had...one (1) meeting so far but. progeress. yippee. maybe adults have not entirely failed me

ughhh yall know when you just acquired a new Media You Like but you just knowwww its gonna be bad for your mental health you just know ittttttt you can already see the negative affects but also you just fw it so hard

Edited January 5 by Ookla the What Is An Ookla