kajsa ㅇㅅㅇ

guys it’s been raining all day (it has been an unseasonably warm january… usually by this time of the year it’s like -10°F at least, and recently it’s been in the 50s)

and it’s supposed to turn to slush/ice tonight

and i’m really hoping it does so we can at least have a late start

i wanna sleep

you guys ever just feel gutted sometimes over the silliest, most stupid things

or is it just me lol

네, 저는 학생이에요

bro

korean spelling is freaking hard

it seems like it would be straightforward but it is NOT

but yeah, that’s how you say “yes, i am a student” in korean so

ok so according to my calculations

i should be able to read my AP Lang book in about 3 hours and 40 minutes give or take

i read at about 320 wpm, and there are roughly 500 words to a standard page of print (at least i think). that means i should be able to read about .7 pages per minute, and if there are 318 pages in my book, that means i can read it in 223 minutes, which is about 3.7 hours or 3 hours and 42 minutes

which means if i start at three PM, i should have it done by 7

bro i got this

ramen break

my ramen recipe is actually kinda funny cuz it uses a lot of more mexican flavors instead of korean or japanese or thai flavors

it’s not umami at all, mostly spicy lol

BUT IT IS SO DELICIOUS

i have an AP Lang assignment and have had it for the entirety of the last like three weeks

it’s due at the end of winter break (ends on tuesday), and i havent started it yet

so naturally, i have decided to deep clean my entire room at a level of which has never happened 

i’m talking pulling EVERYTHING out of all of the drawers, dressers, nightstands, bookshelves, vanity, bathroom, closet, etc

i have three laundry hampers for keep, give away, and trash

and i’m so proud of myself because my keep basket has the least amount of stuff in it

ive already had to take out my trash hamper twice and i’ve only done the vanity, the bookshelf, and i’m now in the midst of doing the closet and the top of the dresser

i really should have taken some before and after pictures but even though i don’t have a before of the bookshelf, enjoy this after because it’s beautiful 

the shelves used to be overstuffed with books, trinkets, and a million random cluttery things AND LOOK HOW BEAUTIFUL

the amount of dust that had gathered was gross BUT SHE SO CLEAN NOW!!!!

we now continue the battle with the top of the dresser and the closet things

and then we shall do the bathroom

also oslo says hello!

happy new year everybody!!

it’s crazy to think how quickly 2025 came and went… i even put together a before and after pic of myself from the beginning to the end of this year and there wasn’t a huge difference! nevertheless, i do think i’ve grown a lot as a person, and i’m very grateful for all the opportunities i’ve had to better myself and explore more about who i am!

i think one of my biggest changes this year came from my mindset. i went from a very self-focused, closed-off view of “if it doesn’t affect me, it’s not my problem” to “these people deserve better, and i’m going to advocate for them and help them”. i’ve become a better person, though i’m still working on keeping confidence from becoming ego and balancing that with humility and making sure i’m being kind to everyone, including myself—which leads me into my next topic!

my mental and emotional health was relatively better in 2025 than in previous years, though there were (and still are, and still will be) days where i feel down, or dark, or hopeless, or all manner of bad things, but in comparison, i’ve been doing much better. i’ve found more peace and confidence within who i am as a person, i’ve become more extroverted as a result, and though i am a tad cynical, i’ve enjoyed meeting a lot new people. i’ve improved a ton as an artist, which is pretty awesome, and also as a writer (thank you, AP Lang!), which has brought me newfound security in my identity. i also have had a bit of a glow-up on the outside, and i’m going to keep working on that because i really want to feel like the best version of myself (eating healthier, exercising, taking care of my body and my mind, doing self-care like face masks and bubble baths, etc)!!!

another cool thing about this year’s goals compared to last year’s is the lack of the goal “get a boyfriend”. like yeah, it would be cool to have someone like that, but i’ve realized that my worth doesn’t come from a boyfriend or a romantic relationship. my worth comes from who i am inside, the way that reflects on the people around and outside of me, and the impact it has on the world. i never really understood that until this year (i’ve found a lot of confidence and empowerment from learning more about feminism and connecting with it, as well as embracing feminine traits rather than pushing them away. i’m currently obsessed with pink, glitter, and bows—which were some of many things i used to reject—and i need more of them in my life and my closet).

because i love music so much, have some song recommendations from this past year! my music taste continues to stay the same, though specific songs will ebb and flow, and i’m mostly a fan of indie/indie rock, folk, and alternative haha

top three favorite songs right now are probably Me and the Devil by Soap&Skin, Higher Ground by The Crane Wives, and No Complaints by Noah Kahan

also, TV shows/movies/books i really enjoyed this year were Prison Break, The Mentalist, and i rediscovered the hunger games, which was awesome and i am obsessed anew. 

but yeah! that’s all i have for now. i was gonna add some goals at the end, but for now i’m really tired so i’m just gonna go to sleep haha. 

here’s to the end of 2025 (which i would rate an overall 3/5), and the start of 2026 (which i have an oddly optimistic feeling about)!!!

goodnight!!

here’s mine and my friend’s 2 artists one base thing!! mine is on the right

i know it’s a little early to be posting new years’ resolutions but i have a few that i’ve been thinking about

1. much less time on youtube/other social media

2. better sleep, diet, and exercise!
2a. start going to the gym or just working out at home
2b. work on self esteem and mental health
2c. eat more healthy yummy things! -this entails cooking more in general
2d. DRINK MORE WATER

3. less procrastination

4. wardrobe revamp? question mark??

5. put more toppings on my ramen! 

i think i’ll probably make a sentimental post later about this year and everything but yes this is it for now

hahaha look what i made

he’s like

dont you DARE touch my vodka

as much as the capitol sucks, their anthem really is such a banger

even the lyrics are banger

did a little thing :PP

considering adding a bit of color but idk what i would do and it’s kinda scary so maybe not

today on underrated disney movies, we have hercules

such a freaking good movie all around

it’s so good

and the music??? hello?????

cinematic MASTERPIECE

i went over to my friend’s house today to draw together, and i finally managed to escape my art paralysis for a bit!

ngl i kinda ate down

we did one of those two artists one base challenges and it turned out really really well!! i’m gonna ask her permission to post it here but if not i’ll just share my half

what are you guys’ favorite christmas/hanukkah/whatever you celebrate traditions?

my skin if i don’t moisturize:

my skin if i do moisturize:

my moisturizer is literally light and i use very little

so i am confusion

it’s so annoying

did my nails for christmas yesterday! really happy with how they turned out

they’re a little long but i love them too much to be mad about that :3

the thumbs are gold chrome with champagne sparkle and an iridescent bow charm

pointer fingers are gold chrome, champagne glitter, red chunky glitter, with gold and pearl accents

middle and pinky fingers are white with iridescent chrome, red polish and sparkle, and the fine gold lines are actually nail stickers that i was able to form to the right shape

and then ring finger is a beige base with a gold french tip and 3/4 chrome snowflake with rhinestone

very glam christmas nails

i like them many :33 

have pictures

FIRST SEMESTER IS FINALLY OVER!!!! IT’S CHRISRMAS TIME!!!!

i miraculously managed to finish with all As, which is awesome because i was stressed out about a couple of those!!! but i did it!!!!!!!! so happy!

i also did fairly well on my finals so that’s awesome!

history final: 55/60
college algebra: 40.5/42
choir: 100%
honors spanish: 45/50
ap lang: 45/50
personal finance: 194/200
PE doesn’t count
physics: 44/45

so yessss!!!!! so so so so happy about this AND IM FREE FOR TWO AND A HALF WEEKS LETS GOOOO

When I was a lad, I ate four dozen eggs every morning to help me get large, but now that I'm grown, I eat five dozen eggs, and I'm roughly the of size a barge

no complaints id such a good song

just like

yummy

REP NINJA I SAW THAT

i actually really like hermes’ voice from epic

it’s just the laugh lmao

iykyk

homemade pancakes for breakfast again :3

while my computer charges

so i can go back to my homework

…i love finals week