InfiniteInsanity

The seniors... they are leaving... so I've been crying lots.

Which might have been the cause of the on and off headaches I've experienced today and will probably experience for the next week or so. School gets out next Thursday (more crying, lots more probably) and then all my summer stuff starts.

Girls camp start on Tuesday after that and then goes until Saturday I think. Then a few days and youth high adventure, then a week? maybe two? and FSY. Then a long trip. Then I'll be back about a little over a week before my birthday and then I have no clue what's supposed to happen after that.

How fun. I get to miss lots of people. For a while. And then start a new school year. Which should hopefully be fun! (and I actually mean it)

I am setting some goals here and now so that I don't forget. And I'm putting them here because then I actually told people and they aren't just existing in my head where I can easily ignore them.

1. By Thursday or Friday next week I will be prepared to go take the test to get my learners permit for driving stuffs.
2. Over the summer I'm gonna get hours by driving on the highway as my family drives across half the country for two weeks. This way hopefully I don't have to do drivers ed. I'll have to take the test but whatever.
3. Because hopefully by the start of the next school year I will have or almost have my drivers license I'm gonna try a few new things and hopefully my parents won't have to drive me everywhere.
4. In the fall I'm going to audition for the musical because the musical this year is gonna be Seussical the Musical and that would be very fun to be in. @Kajsa :) please help hold me to this one. I really want to do it and I know you do and love this stuff so please please hold me to it so I don't get scared... And other people also hold me to this one.
5. I'm gonna audition for show band this next school year because hey why not? Also there are a lot of seniors who were in show band and they are gonna need people.

I think that's it....

I'm going to make this all work. 

I really want to.

The marching band schedule should work with the musical schedule and show choir schedule (one of our directors is in charge of musical so that helps). And I'm not sure about speech. I'm also not sure I'll do speech next year. It's fun but... I don't actually know or like talk to most of the people there other than saying good luck and they're a very fun bunch of people but y'all... that was really really stressful and there was a lot of pressure and expectations put on me the moment I walked into that room and I was only there because a friend needed help. But yeah I'll decide speech stuff later.

I might break down into tears for no good reason sometime soon. 

The only thing I think of is that somehow helping with food stuffs overwhelmed me? But that doesn't make sense. I like doing food stuff. It shouldn't be overwhelming.

I don't know.

But my family isn't going to let me sit in my room too much longer so I think I'm just gonna try to go with I don't know what's going on and try to get over it.

I made guard leadership for marching band!!!!

Sleepy decisions.

I now own a typewriter.

Its very old, rather dusty, and doesn't really work.

But I have it!!!